Julia lives with and cares for her mother who suffers from paranoia. Her mother often leaves the house thinking it is a homeless shelter. Julia gently leads her mother back and is careful not to startle or anger her to avoid triggering an episode. She wishes her mother could get help, but is afraid any visit to the doctor could go wrong. Julia endures her mother's cruel words and criticism from the paranoia, hoping her normal mother will return.
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Julia lives with and cares for her mother who suffers from paranoia. Her mother often leaves the house thinking it is a homeless shelter. Julia gently leads her mother back and is careful not to startle or anger her to avoid triggering an episode. She wishes her mother could get help, but is afraid any visit to the doctor could go wrong. Julia endures her mother's cruel words and criticism from the paranoia, hoping her normal mother will return.
Julia lives with and cares for her mother who suffers from paranoia. Her mother often leaves the house thinking it is a homeless shelter. Julia gently leads her mother back and is careful not to startle or anger her to avoid triggering an episode. She wishes her mother could get help, but is afraid any visit to the doctor could go wrong. Julia endures her mother's cruel words and criticism from the paranoia, hoping her normal mother will return.
Another long day lay ahead of her and her shoulders slumped in resignation. She left the room to greet her mother who was nowhere to be found. She soon found that her mother had left the house, under the pretense that their house was a homeless shelter. Julia couldn’t display annoyance though. She knew that this was something that her mother dealt with, but refused to cure herself of. She gently took her arm and led her back to the house slowly. Any sudden gestures would cause her mother to panic. And if she panicked, another one of her episodes would begin. Julia tried not to be too private or informal with her mother, as this would also cause an episode. Julia sighed again. She tried to be intimate with her mother, but always felt as if there was a barrier between the two of them.
Julia had always thought of
taking her mother to the doctor, to see if maybe Mr. Parker could get through to her. Perhaps if someone talked to her in a consultative manner, she would relax and see that something was wrong with her. But Julia could see all the ways that that visit could go wrong. She just wished that her mother could be normal. That she wouldn’t doubt Julia’s loyalty to her. That she wouldn’t always think that her mother was out to get her. That she wouldn’t be so quick to become angry and hostile. But maybe that’s just the way it’s supposed to be. Maybe she’s supposed to be the punching bag for her mother’s acrimony. Perhaps her sitting back and taking her mother’s criticism is the best way for her to deal with this mental health disease. Maybe this is just how it’s supposed to be.
As they enter the house,
Julia accidentally shut the door a little too loud. ’Three, two, one’ she thought to herself. Her mother’s cruel words came hurling at her and Julia did nothing to deflect them. She simply nodded and said “Yes mother.” She tried to prevent the tears from streaming down her face, but they fell before she could stop them. She tried to tell herself that her mother didn’t mean those words, that it was just the paranoia talking, but it still hurt so much. This was the life she now lived and she hated it. Not her mother, she could never hate her mother. But she hated the person that was standing before her. The person the paranoia had infected, and had now become a whole new villain in Julia‘a life. And she worked so abundantly that her old mother would return. That her normal mother would return. And that they could live together peacefully.