I have read a lot of poems To feeling like a dirt—
Ones that tell you Disgusting and unwanted.
How beautiful you are And I wonder what these poems
Or Ever meant to me in the first place.
How you are more than just
What people see and say BEAUTY
And in those moments Like strawberry dipped in honey;
I forget Beauty must taste sweet
How ashamed I am of myself Like a new-born puppy tucked to its mother’s
belly; For possessing things people Beauty must be fragile Are embarrassed about Like a soft silky fabric caressing against smooth And that skin; I am pathetic for trying so hard Beauty must be gentle To be a doll in everyone’s eyes— Like an orchestra of classical music; But then failing. Beauty must be elegant In those moments But I feel more of a woman The beauty I have isn’t sweet Than I ever been; Or fragile That it doesn’t matter Or gentle How much I weigh Or elegant And how good I look. All I have are folds upon folds But Scars against scars Those moments And bumps after bumps. Last only for a few seconds When you look at me You won’t find a single piece And more times do I wonder, how often is your always. That has your beauty FUNNY And I can just guess