MONSTER

It's finally come

Come to knock down my door
I can't hide this time like I hid before
The storm is awake
The danger is real
My time's running out
Don't feel, Don't feel

"Fear will be your enemy

And death its consequence"
That's what they once said to me
And it's starting to make sense
All this pain, all this fear began because of me
Is the thing they see
The thing I have to be

A monster,
Were they right?
Has the dark in me finally come to light?
Am I a monster?
Full of rage
Nowhere to go but on a rampage
Or am I just a monster in a cage?

End this winter, bring back summer

Keep your guard up
No harm comes to her
End this winter, bring back summer
Keep your guard up

What do I do?
No time for crying now
I've started this storm, gotta stop it somehow
Do I keep on running?
How far do I have to go?
And will that take the storm away Or only make it grow
I'm making my world colder
How long can it survive?
Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive?

Was I a monster from the start?

How did I end up with this frozen heart?
Bringing destruction to the stage
Caught in a war that I never meant to wage
Do I kill the monster?

Father,
You know what's best for me
If I die, will they be free?

Mother,
What if after I'm gone
The cold gets colder and the storm rages on?

No!
I have to stay alive to fix what I've done
Save the world from myself
And bring back the sun

If I'm a monster then it's true

There's only one thing that's left for me to do
But before I fade to white
I'll do all I can to make things right
I cannot be a monster
I will not be a monster
Not tonight!
 SAFER
I know that i have issues,
I face them, I swear.
Think I overcome them
Then turn - they're still there.
Wish that I was different
I'd like to let go.
But when I try to change
There's my past, saying no.

Maybe it's all 'cause of dad,

His new kids, his new wife
Or why not just blame mom
Who's been nuts my whole life...

When you've felt so alone since

The moment of birth
And you're struggled to find
Your own true sense of worth
When it seems there is no one
Across this whole earth
To depend upon, you carry on
Just like you always do
'Cause it's safer to rely on you.
Oh, it's safer to rely on you.

Seen a million movies

All selling true love.
Fantasies I'm not sure
That I'm worthy of.
Caution to the wind
My heart's been on display.
Still the end result is
It's not gone my way.

So when I date some new guy

Who's a deadbeat or jerk
At least I'm not so crushed
When it all doesn't work...
When you once, unafraid,
Wore your heart on your sleeve
And the ones that you loved
Chose to just turn and leave
Every day it gets harder to
Somehow believe
You will survive, so you strive
Just to keep up your guard
'Cause it's safer to hold every card.
Oh, it's safer to hold every card.

I feel out of control

I feel safe on the ground.
I go building up walls
Yet I wish to be found.
A true contradiction to which I am bound
As I keep on spinning around and around...

And I look at the people

Who've worked it all out
And I wonder why I'm still
A bundle of doubt and sometimes
I wanna just stand up and shout:
"Just commit and deal with it
Before your life flies by...
Don't let your life fly by ..."

But is it safer?
Maybe it's safer
If I don't try