1.

In Black And White

I'm a doorman at my Death Row, you faceless foe of heart
An accent, a drop of darkest blood on snow, white feather in the tar....
a tearstain on your frozen face...
A life - in black and white

You slaughtered my soul again

Tried my best to be worth your two realities
You're breaking my heart again
To squeeze out a rhyme, I bid you farewell
Stupidity, ignorance, leave a light on for the blind

Now I will hit you where it hurts

Take what is rightfully mine, I need a sign
That you're worth fighting for
Winning or losing, alone
I am only a pawn

I'm tired of pleasing you

Discolored this emptiness, wrapped in a scheme
I... delayed my dreams to see
---Who blinded your eyes from things that are real...

For me, I believe in the taste of bitter sweet

Dying fountains full of stories untold
After a history of "losses" attained the victory where it occurred
Lips so cold, the final testing ground for beautiful words

Diving in the seas of sin, without knowing where lies the bottom
Idle moments spawned you idle people, no morality, no soul.

Sabotage or a fatal mistake?

Scandal born, a new race
Unauthorized use, not stealing?
We've no rights, just passion and rage...

People you know, on your side, touching concern

Stand on a chair and scream as the tables turn
Take a bow, take the blame, soon you'll wake up screaming your nightmare's name...
[Chorus]
People you know, on your side, touching concern
Stand on a chair and scream as the tables turn
Always a minute too late, now feel the burn
Wake up, friend, you're screaming the name of the

Doorman of my Death row, you faceless foe of the heart

An accent, a drop of darkest blood on snow, white feather in the tar....
Tearstains on my frozen face, follow the wicked trail if you
Wish you see the sum of all my fears in many shades of gray
You'll see...
Your dreams in Black and white...
Nightmares in Black and White...
Sweet dreams in Black and White..
Your life is Black and White...
 2. Paid In Full
I was nowhere near ready when all it ended
So I hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you

You gave me the chance, time and again, in vain

Now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full
Break the chain, but no longer can I take the pain

It's hard for me to love myself right now,

I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you

Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak

So I can only blame myself for this state we are in
I will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
Did you change? I did too. Love can grow from the last grain

It's hard for me to love myself right now,

I've waited, hated, blamed it all on...

You...
I need you...less and less...
Every day feeds this moral decay
Yet I have grown to love you even more

I fall back, and I turn another cheek.

You mouth the words you're not ready to speak
You're scared of me now; no I never had a clue
That I'd become so much stronger than you.

I will take - what you have - for me now, if it's not too late

If you like, I will leave; I will not miss the last train again

It's hard for me to love myself right now,

I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you...

It's hard for me to love your face right now

I'm waiting, hating, needing being

Me...
I need you...less and less...
Every day leads us farther away...
From that moment

It hard for me to hate myself right now

Finally I'm understanding me
One day we may have whole new me's and you's
But first I need to learn to love me too...
 3. For The Sake Of Revenge
We have been stuck in here a day, seeking
Answers for all eternity, or something
Hear the meaning, speaking in me
Have faith in me, have faith in me...

I cannot say that I am fine

And take all you say at face value
I've talked to you more than I have...
Have faith in me, have faith in me...

I've talked too much today

You don't trust me
So I keep on talking in every way.

Across the sea I hear you calling me

For the sake of revenge you command me
This ain't over, no it's never over
'till the fat lady sings, you love me

I'm tired, yet I am swimming

You will not let go of me, you are drowning
As you're quietly pulling me under
We will never make it unless you let go...

There's no crime, yet I stand accused

And I... see the solution naked before me.
You reduced me to a weapon, unlike you
Have faith in me, have faith in me...

I cannot hear, though I incline my ear, why do I even try...

I've told you all 'bout what I am
Have faith in me, have faith in me...

I'm feeling weak today

Please, don't crush me

I keep on walking, far away.

I keep on crawling, all in vain

I am feeling slow today

So don't rush me

We live this wretched serenade

You keep me playing, anyway...

Across the sea I hear you calling me

For the sake of revenge you will command me
This ain't over, it's never over
'till the fat lady sings, you love me

I'm so tired, yet keep on swimming

You will not let go of me, you're drowning
Now you're quietly pulling me under
Oh so quietly pulling me under...
 4. It Won't Fade somehow, we cannot see this
Have to bear the winterburn
You can only wait, if it will fade with time
You borrow the moment, betray your own heavens
The darkness is thickening, breathing gets harder
Where's your trust, where's your heart, where's your soul?
The balance is off, some take more than give back,
Who's your friend? Who'll be there in the end?
the attitude, ignorance, proved to be fatal

Who do you call a friend...

for that tiny spark that led our way
should we start to bewail?
you poisoned the air, should you stay away, hence
Wish to be one of us, follow the trail
Take the time offered, don't toss it away a lot of things are changing
and re-arranging
I have to say I saw it coming
travesty, no trial, defendant is guilty
yet did nothing...
and we are the judges and sentence the jury
In the darkest of times
to pay for forgiveness with silent contentment
B.o.B's earn the right for the name
Stand in the line with the rest of us

Not all shared the idea to give you the chance to

We cannot carry you further today
fail us again, to bite off
hear what you don't say, thus help... in any way
the feeding hand...
Need you to learn how to cry without darkness
Face like the others the pain that is harmless
counting one, two...see?
odds defying the gravity...
Feel the world has let you down
somehow, we cannot see this
Have to bear the winterburn we'll move along, well fed puppy...
You can only wait, if it will fade with time you are too confident and careless to cut it
had no rules, that is to change
or you'll forever run alone
Secrecy, silence, a stench of treason
the glow of the darkness, you brought in the daylight
The cure will not kill you, there's no such mercy. but you never will, the little child of the wild
rules of the nature are fair and cruel... you've got a skin, gray coat, they hate
no, you cannot hide behind your glowing eyes
you bear the sign and it won't fade
we cannot wait for you, for limbo, forever
don't make us walk away, packs stay together
Fear would be justified. Will be there soon. Feel the world has let you down
The things that you do will infect us too somehow, we cannot see this
Have to bear the winterburn
You can only wait if it will fade with time
Feel the world has let you down
 5. Under Your Tree
The leaves they fall
upon the day that makes a memory
those pleading eyes,
echoing, silently in me

the final nights

I guard her sleep, I can do without
the fear's down deep
There's nothing good in this morning...

Oh, and I know...

invested feelings in the one I would outlast
My little friend is getting tired, fading fast...

Did not want to see the signs of the dimming flame

I need to have more time

No, I don't want to let you go

Tonight I fear I'll say goodbye to my little friend
Don't want to let you go...

the warmest heart I've found

I lower into the ground
my tears, forever with you
resting under your tree

you have always liked this place

it now belongs to you...
I need to set you free
and go on alone

one day in my feeble timeline

You gave me your heart and stole mine
tomorrows came too fast for me
to hear your slow, silent goodbye...

the kindest heart I've found

I lowered into the ground
your smile kept me alive
back when the skies were still

you always liked this place

now sleep under the tree
I planted here the day
when you were born

I should've been ready, seen the nearing end

my little old friend, a child.
That day I had to say goodbye and turn the bend
but I'll never let go
 6. Caleb
There is a man in this world, who has never smiled
You may know his tragedy, the later years, by heart
In the beginning, there was a mother, a father, and a child
A troubled little silent boy, whose life they were to
destroy
Known to us from this day on
Like his father,
Caleb.
His mother came up with such a clever way to save the
day with a little white lie.
He thinks he missed the point back then, but now he's
grown to understand it, in a way.
"Father said "I'm sorry" only once, as I remember"
"The words were not meant to hurt, only destroy you, my
stupid son..."
One person can make a difference, sometimes...
Just turn his head when the kid is still and has a weak
neck.
Smiled at his funeral, "happy you're dead."
All his solutions, it seemed, were only problems in
disguise
Glueing on his drinkin' face, got ready to erase another
day...
Mother was yet confident, although they had it tight,
taught her son
At the end of every tunnel's a little light.
It wasn't a lie, it was her hope, that everything would be
fine one day
"He can fulfill his every dream, I'm happy as long as he's
not."
"I hate it and fear can't face it
the child is not right, he's my greatest shame
Go out, create thunder, and stand right under
That old apple tree
Where dead snakes let him feed on those
Lost hopes, all those kind words could hurt him even
more, now
Somehow, lost one more way back home
Out on the lake, he rows towards a monster he should've
been running away from, years ago.
The past had made him blind to the way he'd turned the
pain into a way of life.
Followed his father, tucked him in, Caleb knows the trade.
He's the portrait of a man his mother drew to hate forever.
She was a beast, a deadly saint, wrong in many ways
Wanted to keep up the charade, until the end waltzing
together
Over the hills, under the sea,
Fighting the will, whole Universe
Why does a man driving a hearse
Live in fear, Gift and a Curse
Taking 'em out, taking 'em all,
Shooting the wall, over and out
When nothing moves, all's well,
A decision he can find a way to live with
...and dried up flowers are so beautiful.
And it applies to all things living, and dead.
For that I serve my time... in my suite in Hell.
"Now I ring the bell to tell the world,
I'm ready when they bring out the soon to be dead against
the wall ..."
oo-oo-ooo
This necessary evil has no heart
ooo-oo-ooo
Flowers and people he will now enlace
A price he must pay serving a cold
...whatevergod.
 7. The Vice

Number nine out of eleven little littermates truth ain't safe with me
Rotten apples, all the way...
Littermates, all with different fates... In (sane), in (pain)
Taught them almost all I knew Ran into a needle
Eye (love), Eye (hate)
and now, the best, the primus don't need anyone
Number Nine of eleven little littermates, Lights (on), Lights (out)
feeling almighty, read it loud and clear...
is after my throne. and hear the lion roar.

In the bright daylight, little Number Nine
Dressed to kill, much like me
Takes a look at the free world behind the gate
Of a castle and escapes.
I leave the baits, the night awaits
Snare well hidden for the littermate.
Evaded all but one, one by one.
Eleven little littermates
Annihilate.
Only Number Nine's not in sight...
Hiding, for the moonlight eats the day
Kisses burn the paperthin wings away
Hate me, hate me, if they want you to break me
Love - is - for - the weak
And the restless, relief in the end.
A broken lock and a twisted dream
for an early tomb, destiny's overruled
Trailed it back to the Pagan Cathedral."
Don't love me, don't you dare!
I lie, I cheat and I don't care
Don't you go telling me tales about fidelity.
without my eyes, they failed me,
knots untied.
I turned my weakness into a
fine profession
more I hear, more I see
I can feel
the path I choose
What I did was a must,
Faced the music, away from the light, alone...
Without a view.
Someone thought to know me well
Drowned me in a wishing well...
Making mistakes, we all do,
Worst of mine was trusting in a stranger.
For now I'm feeling fine
Drank poison, liked the sign
Now touch the greatest fear
Impaired, to look sincere.
One step behind you, turn around and I am gone with
what I need.
The essense of timely death, cold and dark, Love Less
Hard.
 8. My Dream's But A Drop Of Fuel For A Nightmare
My painted face, I'm a clown,
and I'm laughing while my dream turns into a nightmare,
fade away, I'm asleep,
not too deep...
The walls of night have left me scarred
the broken glass I stepped on, twice.
the ardent spirits' rusty edge, decapitate me...
I can't sleep, fear darkness
go through the motions, did I fall asleep?
I'm bowling, the old nine pin, a sign unwanted...
Now I'm a target, I'm hot and frozen,
stormy rain I'm stuck in an elevator
wet from the muddy water,
breathing hot air, winds convey me...
bababababaaaa...
the number talks and I cry in my own Hell....
bababababaaaa...
Wide awake, I'm asleep, see a friend as a ghost
I'm skating with a seal,
the tarantula, the fly, the broken ring
the dusty little flea
an ugly giant, a disappointed child
here comes a rabid snake
the broken violin, a wild ballet
Shakespeare and company
refuse to kill the kitten scratching me...
I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling... - awake
You know, if you believe the dreams, the nightly visions,
worlds entwined
then you also fear your shadow, paranoia, part two...
All the good things in my life dwell in my mind
Took a wrong lane, every day, I hear myself say
Sickening's this feeling, my life, my hopes, my dream's
but a drop of fuel for a nightmare
they all turn out the same
My destiny, my flame
believing is control?
no.
the painting comes alive,
takes me inside a world without a name, a place beyond
compare
Believe the dreams that let you sleep
the broken glass you need to sweep
The book you read; if you found an explanation
to help you in any way,
you are your own prison.
Woke up today,
the good and the bad and the ugly dreams are gone
...jumped off the carousel
 9. The Harvest

The weight of days on me.... The Word of grave old danger -- Love,
I am done. It's all I'm after, oh
I am done...
The corn is burning under my feet
The words like circles and Bring me to recovery
I'm waiting for someone to catch my fall give it to me, I'm after tranquillity
in the deepest void of all I somehow lost my line of sight
Before I cast the final die...
Haven't seen you in weeks Once planted plastic grapes,
No clouds in the sky to rain me a drop The harvest of a lifetime,
loving touch I need Real bad wine.
and I am killing time by the lake
diving off the cliff, many times The sum of false virginity
scarring myself, colliding and my lost integrity
on the lake bed so dry.... The Word of grave old danger -- Love,
For you I'm after, oh
The world's without virginity I am done
And souls have no integrity
The Word of grave old danger -Love, The world without virginity
It's all I'm after, oh A soul with no integrity
I am done... The Word of grave old danger -- Love,

The ground's not shaking under my feet Bring me to recovery

The World's not turning anymore give it to me, I'm after tranquillity
Wind is a thief, lonelier than me I somehow lost my line of sight
and it - does - not - want - me - in here... Before I cast the final die...
Once planted plastic grapes,
plant a Flower of Love, care for it, water it, The harvest of a lifetime,
Lounge in the shade of the stale champagne Real bad wine.
Take a look at the flower so fatal, yet beautiful
Showed the Bee where to fly and then let it die The ground is shaking under my feet
The World is turning,
The world's without virginity and the wind has a friend in Misery,
The souls have no integrity but I know - she - only - loves - me...
 10. The Worlds Forgotten, The Words Forbidden

If you were my child I'd carry you away

I'd travel through time, before silence was born

No hope for the child, this world has gone bad.

When when's today, the machines say, what is a man to do

No light, only suffocating dark

deep
burning
pain
I'm losing everything I am
remember nothing of my past
Now, it is all gone,
and I fear the Game is Over.

save me, save me, save me, take me away, away from this time, back where lies my home

Where is my home...
Where is my home...
Where is my home...

my grass isn't green...

my sky isn't blue...
The river runs dry...
my flower has died...
This isn't my home

I follow the moon to find a path away from the scorching sun...
I follow the stars to my abode, it's burning...
I seize the moment to hear a story no ones telling anymore
the worlds forgotten, the words forbidden.
 11. Fly With The Black Swan
Once I got caught in an avalanche,
I must have died,
When a Black Swan flew to the rescue and cried
An offer I could not refuse, now I'm working on the other
side.
Well, I flew with the bird then, we flew all night
I got to see my prison from a thousand feet high
buy me a drink, and I tell you
'bout the Black Swan
Must keep those black wings folded, until the time is right,
to find the one whom I can steal
a soul from, to buy more time
Must keep my secrets untold, until the wrongs are right,
the only one I could deceive,
I buy my time; need you to fly on the Black Swan
The date is set, we all must face it
Door to door, seeking salvation
--- I must, for die I wish not
My hopes stay afloat when you give in to the
Silver lining, sharp and so cold
anger fades into a vague smile
--- you see, I'm ready to do it for everyone
I stabbed you in the back, who will save you now...
Don't worry, I've done this before
It'll hurt like hell and leave you sore
No use escaping, hold on to your ticket of gold
and close your eyes...
One day I know you will sell your soul
And trade all you are for silver and gold...
You'll get an odd advice from a stranger
Take it, from me, with love...
Once I was in love with someone like you, Engaged to be
whole,
got torn out of your memories, covered in snow...
I need to find a way to pass on the gift I once received
I'm ready to face it...
I'll take my chances, if I am
returning to the deep
dark snow grave, so be it
I-should-not-rest-now...but forever!
I'll feed... - the ferryman's creed.
with an empty promise for my lost soul...
Must keep those black wings folded, until the darkest
night
a soul from you to buy me some time
pouring boiling water on a solid frozen flower
Black nailed finger of the creator
I take a bow, thank for this opportunity
But I've given the last ride for all those close to kin
Must keep those black wings folded, until the time is right,
to find the one whom I can steal
a soul from, to buy more time
Must keep my secrets untold, until the wrongs are right,
the only one I could deceive,
I served my time, need you to fly with the Black Swan
 12. Good Enough Is Good Enough
It was not hard - to choose all the words that I should
put in your mouth
in my own play of shadows
Between lines, word for word, honey.

See who I am?

Out where nothing's forgiven
A small yet very loud part of me is still screaming after you...

Good enough was good enough for me

as it should always be
You would broke my heart when it was weak
Guess you were not meant for me...

I had a dream you broke - with your twisted ways

Still leaving me? Please take your time, but go away
Don't flash that light anymore, honey...

The seasons change...

I was the summer to your heart
the winter lured you away more than once, now I know:
I am free

Good enough was good enough for me

as it should always be
You broke my heart and still I grieve
How can you be over me?

I always thought we'd made it, found a way to live together

You saved the best for last and now it's too late
I count the hours of the day that
seems to last forever

Words through the door

a glance from a broken window
I found your key from the floor
and my heart, suddenly, cut off clean

Good enough was good enough for me

as it should always be
You would broke my heart and still I grieve,
How can you be over me?

Good enough was good enough for me

as it should always be
You spread a tale of lies about me
And I believed it, my heart's got a leak...
 13 Out In The Fields
It doesn't matter Out in the fields.
if you're wrong or if you're right. Death is just a heartbeat away.
It makes no difference
if you're black or if you're white. Out in the fields,
a heartbeat away.
All men are equal Out in the fields.
till the victory is won. In the fields,
No colour or religion the fighting has begun.
ever stopped the bullet from a gun. Out on the streets,
they're falling one by one.
Out in the fields, Out from the skies,
the fighting has begun. a thousand more will die each day.
Out on the streets,
they're falling one by one. OUT!
Out from the skies,
a thousand more will die each day.
Death is just a heartbeat away.

It doesn't matter
if you're left or to the right.
Don't try to hide behind the cause
for what you fight.

There'll be no prisoners taken

when the day is done.
No flag or uniform
ever stopped the bullet from a gun.

Out in the fields,

the fighting has begun.
Out on the streets,
they're falling one by one.
Out from the skies,
a thousand more will die each day.
Death is just a heartbeat away.

There's no communication,
no one to take the blame.
The cries of every nation
have fallen on deaf ears again.

Out in the fields.

Out in the fields.
They are falling one by one.
Out in the fields.
No flag has ever stopped
the bullet from a gun.
Death is just a heartbeat away.

Out in the fields,

a heartbeat away.