Christopher Monell

Mrs. McGuire
10/1/18
Sacraments
Argument for Johnny Cash
Beauty In My Life
This paper is quite a challenging one for me to write. It’s not that I don’t see beauty in the

world, in fact I see and recognize it in my life everyday around me. It’s the fact that I can’t find

God anymore in this beauty, that I have become so engrossed in the depression of my life that I

see all beauty as a manifestation of what we humans have done as a way of showing we can

move past an existential being, who is the one making us perform the beauty. What I am trying

to say is that I see beauty in our humanity, our faults, short comings, achievements, and arts in

hardships. I see beauty in our ability to overcome obstacles thrown our way in an unrelenting

world, whose only goal it seems now a days is to bring us down. With this beauty it’s not that I

don’t believe in God, I do believe he is out there, but I feel separation as though he’s moved back

some and watching, no intervening, and just seeing what he has done, as if he is taking a break

after dying for our sins, and this is the aftermath.

One major example of where I see beauty, is in the power of music. All forms of music

give insight into who a person is, their cares, emotions, and self-worth (even a terrible song like

FEFE shows 6ix9ine’s personality for power lust). My specific music example showing beauty is

in the nice band 21 Pilots. Through every single one of their songs, they breathe a story of life

and pain. Although a lot of them are catchy and have uplifting beats, they hold in them lyrics

showing depression and the fight to overcome what is slowly tearing away at their soul. Through

these songs I see beauty of humanities expression of sympathy and pain, allowing me to relate to
something I’ve never even been apart of. These two artists hold nothing back and allow one to

listen and fall in a trance with their songs like Addict With A Pen showing an artists struggle to

get himself noticed just by one person, and with underlying themes of abandonment by God and

their own parents, admitting they haven’t been the best of sons, showing their faults. This is a

mere tiny example of my plethora of songs to choose from, some of the most beautiful songs in

my opinion on from Kings of Leon, and use somebody strikes me deep, as something a crave and

strive for. The fact that I want to achieve the goal that is the same in the song, makes me see

beauty in the fact that I am not alone in my struggles. I have recently taken up making my own

music to release my own beauty to the world, having my expression of troubles with my

depression, containing of my emotions, and struggles with my family life. I make my music just

to add to the beauty that I see through all other music.

With this is mind, in my first statement I said I had trouble with God in a modern sense,

and I believe that has been affirmed through my own experiences. I may be able to show that

there is God given talent through my music, but it has been my will to make it happen. I used to

be so much more devout, and this paper may be hard for you to read, but it’s my truth. I saw God

spread in every insect, flower, and person in the world. However, now because of the constant

belittlement of all people through the wealthy caste, and war with all people for the sake of war, I

am losing faith. I read scripture, but I’m confused, it said God created all in Genesis, but no

where does it say why God couldn’t forgive Adam and Eve, if he forgives all. Through my years

of bullying in middle school I lost touch with stewardship, why should I see God if he can’t see

me. Music is my last connection bringing me into relationship with God. Every time I listen to

music I forget about my world and the hardships and am reminded of the beauty in the world. I

go to mass and sing with the choir, and pray that I am drawn back again, and it works. So, I see
God in the world, and he has interacted with me. Where I am now with him, I feel he is finally

coming back into my life, and taking weight off my shoulders and finally giving me a rest, in the

form of my friends, reminding me of good people in this world. All in all, I see him in all my

friends faces, in my own, and in my passions he has bestowed in me, even though I feel in

darkness, his music brings me to the light