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‫כי תשא‬ ‫בס"ד‬

Parshas ‫ כי תשא‬has many hints to the ‫ י"ט‬of Purim. In ‫כג‬:‫פסוק ל‬,

one of the main spices of the ‫ שמן המשחה‬is mentioned-
‫בשמים ראש מר דרור‬, where Unkeles translates as ‫מירה דכיא‬, which
more or less make up the name ‫מרדכי‬. In pasuk ‫כט‬, describing this
‫שמן המשחה‬, Rashi uses the words ‫כי כן יסד המלך‬, a phrase from
‫מגילת אסתר‬. In ‫כט‬:‫ פסוק לד‬it is the only time in ‫ חומש‬that anyone is
wearing a mask. Here when Moshe came down with the second
‫לוחות‬, it says ‫ומשה לא ידע כי קרן עור פניו‬, a clear hint to ‫עד דלא ידע‬,
and in pasuk ‫לג‬, it says ‫ויתן על פניו מסוה‬, a clear hint to Purim,
where we have the custom to wear masks. Despite the worst
downfall for the yidden, taking place in the Parsha, the root of all
sin- the ‫חטא העגל‬, this is a very uplifting Parsha - ‫כי תשא את ראש‬.
The ‫ טעמים‬of ‫כי תשא את ראש‬.. is ‫גרשיים זרקא מנח סגול‬, a language of
being cast away and thrown out of the ‫עם סגולה‬, but the tikun of the
‫ יג מדות הרחמים‬are found here. The number of ‫ פסוקים‬in the Parsha
is 139, the ‫ סימן‬being ‫חננאל‬, or ‫ל‬-‫חנן א‬, that Hashem has tremendous
compassion. The ‫ שלש עשרה מדות הרחמים‬are revealed in this Parsha,
teaching us the big lesson, that no matter how far a yid falls, even
after worshiping an ‫עגל‬, he always has hope to return to the
Almighty, who’s waiting with open arms.

In ‫כח‬:‫ פסוק לב‬it says ‫ויפל מן העם ביום ההוא כשלשת אלפי איש‬. What is
the ‫ ?כשלשת‬The ‫ ארי הקדוש‬says that due to the ‫חטא עץ הדעת‬, there
are three ‫ אלפין‬that are missing, ‫ נפגם‬from the ‫שם מה‬, which is
‫יוד הא ואו הא‬, and when we say in davening the Bracha of
‫ ראה נא בענינו‬and mention- ‫= גאולה‬45, we have in mind the ‫שם מה‬.
Avraham Avinu was ‫ מתקן‬three parts of these ‫אלפין‬, that is the three
‫’אל‬s of the three ‫’אלף‬s. In ‫כ‬-‫ יח‬:‫פסוקים יד‬, of Parshas ‫לך לך‬, it says
‫ אל עליון‬three times, and so we say ‫מגן אברהם‬, where -
3 x ‫=אל‬3 x 31=93=‫מגן‬. By ‫מתן תורה‬, all three ‫ אלפין‬were rectified.
The Ari Tzal says these three ‫ אלפין‬represent ‫אדם אמת אור‬.
By Har Sinai ‫פסקה זהומה‬, and the ‫ חטא עץ הדעת‬was rectified.
The Torah is ‫ אור‬and ‫אמת‬, and ‫ אתם קרואים אדם‬- we are called ‫אדם‬,
and not the goyim. After the ‫חטא העגל‬, the ‫ חטא עץ הדעת‬returned
‫ האיש משה לא ידע מה היה לו‬The yidden should have relied on their
‫ אמונה‬and not their ‫דעת‬, similar to the mistake of Adam and Chava.
Now ‫ בא חשך וערבוביה לעולם‬instead of ‫אור‬, and also the Satan
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showed the yidden an image of Moshe lying lifeless, which was

‫ שקר‬instead of ‫אמת‬. Also ‫ חור‬amongst many were killed- ‫דם‬
without the ‫א‬. This is the ‫כשלש אלפי איש‬, in that the three ‫ אלפין‬were
again ‫נפגם‬, but ‫ כ‬- not completely. What Avraham rectified – the
three ‫’אל‬s remained rectified, and what was missing was the three
‫’פ‬s. On Purim, the yidden received the Torah ‫ באהבה‬and this
rectified the 3 ‫’פ‬s -3 x ‫= פ‬3 x 80=240=‫ עמלק‬or ‫ ספק‬or ‫מר‬.
Mordechai is ‫מר דרור‬, the freedom from the ‫ מר‬or bitterness, and
from ‫עמלק‬- The three ‫’פ‬s are free. On Purim the ‫ אדם אמת ואור‬were
complete. The ‫ אור‬as it says ‫ ליהודים היתה אורה‬and at the end of the
Megilla it says ‫דברי שלום ואמת‬. In the Gemora it says ‫בקום עלינו אדם‬
that it wasn’t a king that conspired against the yidden, but a
human- ‫( אדם‬Haman).

The last words of both ‫ יעקב‬and ‫משה‬, which represent their holiest
words, the ‫שער הנון‬, are concerning Purim. Yaacov said in the
blessing to Binyamin ‫ולערב יחלק שלל‬, where Rashi interprets as- in
the time of ‫ ערב‬- in the time of concealment, the yidden will divide
the spoils of Haman. Moshe’s last words on ‫ז אדר‬, the date Haman
thought would be to his benefit, were ‫ואתה על במותימו תדרך‬, where
‫ תדרך‬is similar to ‫מרדכי‬, who is ‫נשמת משה‬. These words were
fulfilled when Mordechai stepped on the neck of Haman, while
climbing onto the horse. Mordechai was stepping on the ‫– ע"ז‬
‫לא יכרע ולא ישתחוה‬. One of the three oaths, written in ‫קיא‬: ‫כתובות‬,
which is incumbent upon the yidden in Galus, is not to antagonize
the goyim, ‫עד מדרך כף רגל‬. Rashi explains this as, not stepping into
the boundary of ‫עשו‬, even one step, until Hashem sets his feet on
‫הר הזיתים‬. The word ‫ מדרך‬are the letters ‫ מרדכי‬w/o the ‫י‬, where on
Purim we step on Haman (with our feet -‫)בן איש חי‬, every time the
‫ מגילה‬mentions his name. When Mordechai stepped on Haman’s
neck, Haman saw written on the bottom of Mordechai’s shoe the
‫שטר מכירה‬, that he was a slave of Mordechai.

Purim (and Chanuka, which goes into Teves, a month of ‫ )עשו‬are

exceptions to the rule, where even ‫בזמן הגלות‬, we can step into the
boundary of Esav ‫=עד מדרך כף רגל‬671=‫ אסתיר‬. Even in a time of
‫הסתר‬, we can step on the goyim. The three ‫ אלפין‬will be completely
rectified in ‫ימי הגאולה‬, a "‫ בח‬of Purim-‫ אלף‬x 3=111x 3=333=‫כף רגל‬.
If Purim would fall on the ‫ טז‬or ‫ יז‬of ‫אדר‬, this would have been the
‫גמר התיקון‬, since the 16th and the 17th of the month are in the
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second part of the month, when the moon wanes, which is the
boundary of Esav. In a year that has a ‫פורים משולש‬, and the ‫ סעודה‬is
on the 16th of Adar, we have a unique taste of the future. The
Gemorra asks of the possibility of Purim falling on these dates,
and answers that in the Megilla it says ‫ולא יעבור‬, meaning Purim
cannot be later than ‫טו אדר‬. Haman was happy when the lot fell in
the month of Adar, since 3,000 or ‫ שלשת אלפים‬Halachas were lost
(Gemorra ‫)תמורה‬. The 3 ‫ אלפין‬are associated with the Torah of the
future. Our Torah begins with a ‫ב‬, whereas the Torah of the future
will begin with an ‫אסתר– אנכי– א‬. The Megilla is a light from the
future. The ‫ אמרי אמת‬says that Purim is rooted in the first ‫לוחות‬,
which contain the 3,000 Halachas. Haman saw the ‫ שכחה‬caused by
the ‫שבירת הלוחות‬, but he didn’t see that on ‫ז אדר‬, Moshe said the
words ‫ואתה על במותימו תדרך‬, and also the words -‫כי לא תשכח מפי זרעו‬,
that the Torah would never be forgotten. It was ‫רבי שמעון בר יוחאי‬
in the Gemorra that argues with another ‫תנא‬, if the Torah would be
forgotten or not, and ‫ רב שמעון‬says- no way. Purim always falls on
the same day as ‫לג בעומר‬, as they both have many similarities-
‫=ויהי בימי אחשורוש‬915=‫ רבי שמעון בר יוחאי‬- in their extremely
high level of ‫קדושה‬, the light of ‫לעתיד לבוא‬. The three ‫אלפין‬, in their
rectified state, as we already said are-
‫=אור אמת אדם‬693=‫פורים ולג בעומר‬. The Gemorra says that ‫ מרדכי‬is
hinted in the Torah, here in the Parsha- ‫בשמים ראש מר דרור‬. The
only other time in ‫ חומש‬where it says ‫דרור‬, is in Parshas ‫בהר‬, which
we read ‫ לג בעומר‬time-
‫=דרור בארץ‬703=‫=שמעון בר יוחאי‬703=‫ פא וו ריש יוד ממ‬Rav Shimon
is the ‫ תנא‬of the future ‫=שמעון בן יוחאי‬553=‫לעתיד לבוא‬, who was
‫ מגלה‬the ‫סתרי תורה‬. The three ‫ אלפין‬are rooted in ‫ים‬-‫בראשית ברא אלה‬,
where ‫ים‬-‫=בראשית ברא אלה‬1202=‫כי לא תשכח מפי זרעו‬. Beginning
with Purim there was an increase of ‫ תורה שבעל פה‬or T.B.P. as it
says ‫לא קראת ברית עם ישראל אלה תורה שבעל פה‬. It’s the T.B.P. that
separates us from the goyim, and makes us ‫אדם‬. Rav Tzadok says
that if it was not for the ‫חטא העגל‬, there wouldn’t be any need for
T.B.P., as it says in Mishle ‫ברוב חכמה רוב כעס‬, that is because we
angered Hashem, the concealment is greater, and we need more
Torah and ‫תשובה‬, in order to come close to Hashem.

The 3000 Halachas are sometimes written ‫ ג אלפים הלכות‬and

sometimes ‫שלשת אלפים הלכות‬. Haman was happy when he saw
these Halachas were forgotten on ‫ז אדר‬, and that his lot fell in
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Adar- ‫=ג אלפים הלכת‬619=‫ המן המדתי האגגי‬, however these

Halachas were reinstated somewhat and will be completed in the
future. On ‫ז אדר‬, the fall of Haman began-
‫= שלשת אלפים הלכת‬1646=‫ואתה על במותימו תדרוך‬. When were these
Halachas reinstated? ‫ כלב בן יפונה‬made public, that the one who
could conquer the city of ‫קרית ספר‬, would be given his daughter in
marriage. What if a strong empty headed yid, would be the one to
conquer the city? It’s written in a ‫ ספר‬by the ‫ערבי נחל‬, that every
part of ‫ ארץ ישראל‬corresponds to another portion of Torah. Kalev
knew that the city of ‫ קרית ספר‬corresponded to these three
thousand Halachas that were forgotten, and only a big Torah giant
could restore these ‫הלכות‬, and be able to conquer the city. Oznial
ben Knaz, who had a high ‫ נשמה‬from the future world, was able to
reinstate these three thousand Halachas, and so he was the one
who conquered the city.

The ‫כה"ג‬, when he went into the ‫ ק"ק‬on ‫יה"כ‬, wore the ‫בגדי לבן‬. He
was not permitted to wear the ‫ בגדי זהב‬in the ‫ק"ק‬, since the gold
reminds us of the ‫חטא העגל‬. However, Mordechai did come out of
the palace wearing gold. Both Mordechai and Esther were able to
enter the ‫חצר הפנימי‬, the inner chamber of the king, referring to the
‫ק"ק‬. Haman was only permitted to enter the ‫חצר החיצוני‬, the outer
chamber. A goy cannot go ‫בפנים‬, as he only has a ‫חיצוניות‬. After
Vashti was killed, the Megilla says that the king remembered
Vashti. Rashi says he remembered her physical beauty ‫יפיה‬, since
that was her totality- external. Whereas Esther had a green
complexion, in other words, not much of external beauty, but she
was full of ‫חן‬, internal beauty which attracted the king more than
anyone ‫=כי מצאת חן בעיני‬761=‫אסתר המלכה‬. Goyim are always
working on their externality, as the business of plastic surgery is
booming, where yidden work on the the internal.

The Rokeach says that ‫ יג אדר‬is the day Hashem will take revenge
against the enemies of the yidden ‫=נקם‬190=‫קץ‬. The ‫אוהב ישראל‬
says that ‫יג אדר‬, or ‫ תענות אסתר‬is a tremendous ‫עת רצון‬, more than
any other fast. As we said Yaacov’s last words to Binyamin were
‫ ולערב יחלק שלל‬referring to Purim ‫=ולערב יחלק שלל‬816=‫עת רצון‬.
Purim is the ‫ י"ט‬of ‫רצון‬, when the yidden accepted the Torah ‫ברצון‬.
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The Rambam says the ‫ מר דרור‬of the ‫ שמן המשחה‬was derived from
dried blood from an unkosher animal. The animal was connected
to the ground, and called ‫ידוע‬. The bones of this animal were used
for sorcery, to see the future. The Gra says that ‫ עשו‬knew how to
hunt this ‫יודע ציד– ידוע‬. Amelek is the ‫דעת דקליפה‬. This unkosher
ingredient of ‫ מר דרור‬was ‫ מתהפך‬into the holy ‫ שמן המשחה‬a concept
of ‫ונהפוך הוא‬. Mordechai is hinted in the ‫מר דרור‬, since Purim is
higher than ‫ דעת‬that is - ‫עד דלא ידע‬. The Raivid disagrees with the
Rambam, and says it doesn’t make sense that such holiness like
the ‫ שמן המשחה‬that was used to ‫ מקדש‬the ‫משכן‬, the ‫ כלים‬the ‫כהנים‬,
and the ‫משיח‬, would come from a ‫בהמה טמאה‬- (as tefillin has to
come from a ‫בהמה טהרה‬.)

The Ramban connects this ‫ מר דרור‬with the ‫ מור‬from the ‫קטורת‬.

The ‫ קטורת‬has in it a foul smelling spice, known as ‫חלבנה‬, however
when mixed together with the other spices, it gave off a ‫ריח ניחוח‬, a
pleasant odor to Hashem - ‫=חלבנה‬95=‫המן‬. Any yid, no matter
where he’s holding, if he joins with other yidden, he becomes like
them- ‫ צבור‬is the ‫ ר"ת‬of ‫צדיקים בינונים ורשעים‬. Both the ‫היכל הברכה‬
and Rav Koppel, who wrote the Ari Sidur based on his teachings,
said that ‫ מור‬is ‫חסד‬, ‫ קציעה‬is ‫גבורה‬, and ‫ שבלת נרד‬is ‫תפארת‬. The
ingredient ‫ מור‬is connected to ‫ אברהם‬who went to the ‫ עקידה‬on
‫הר המוריה‬. The ‫ בהמ"ק‬and ‫ י"ם‬are also referred to as ‫מוריה‬. Rashi
asks why is it called ‫ ?הר המוריה‬He answers- ‫י"ם על שם עבודת הקטורת‬
‫שיש בו מור‬. In ‫ חמישי‬is mentioned "‫ ויעבור ה‬and the thirteen
‫ מידת הרחמים‬for the first time in Chumash -
‫=ויעבור הויה על פניו ויקרא‬883=‫בימי אחשורוש‬. On Purim there is a
revelation of the ‫יג מדות הרחמים‬, where one of them is ‫ רב חסד‬-
‫=רב חסד‬274=‫מרדכי‬.

Mordechai was an ‫איש חסד‬, as he was called in the Megilla

‫דורש טוב לעמו‬, that is a yid that was seeking the good in everyone.
The Sefira of ‫ חסד‬is the top of the ‫ זאר אנפין‬or the emotions. Above
‫ חסד‬is the ‫ג מוחים‬, the ‫שער נ‬. Mordechai is ‫ רב חסד‬or above ‫חסד‬, the
‫ שער נ‬and so he was able to deal with a Haman, who attempted to
sink the yidden into the ‫ שער נ‬of ‫טומאה‬. Purim is a ‫ י"ט‬of
‫=אהבת חסד‬480=‫זה איננו שוה לי‬. In our low generation, to be
considered a tzadik, a yid has to be involved, and love doing
kindness - ‫=אהבת חסד‬480=‫ועמך כלם צדיקים‬. The character of
Haman was exactly the opposite of ‫אהבת חסד‬, where when he had
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everything, but was missing one thing that is- one yid, Mordechai
bowing down to him, and so it was all worth nothing. He looked at
what he didn’t have, not at what he had- ‫ כל זה איננו שוה לי‬. A yid
doesn’t only do ‫חסד‬, when it comes his way, but he must love
doing ‫חסד‬, and go out of his way to do ‫חסד‬. The word ‫ דכיא‬from the
Targum of ‫מר דרור‬, also means the poor. Mordechai was constantly
doing ‫ חסד‬with the poor. He was the one that instituted the
‫מתנות לאביונים‬, for the physical and spiritual ‫אביונים‬.

Rav Shlomo Klugar, said that the ‫ צדקה‬given prior to Pesach, the
‫מעות חטים‬, was in place of the ‫קרבן פסח‬, and thirty days prior to
Pesach when we begin learning ‫הלכות פסח‬, the ‫ מצוה‬of
‫ מתנות לאביונים‬parallels the ‫מעות חטים‬. By us being merciful with
our fellow yidden, we invoke the mercy up above. This fits in with
the ‫ סימן‬of the 139 pesukim in ‫כי תשא‬, being ‫ חננאל‬or "‫חנן ה‬.
In the midst of the ‫ יג מדות‬is a ‫נ רבתי‬, the only time written in the
‫חומש‬. Purim is the time that Haman prepared an ‫ עץ‬of ‫ נ רבתי‬that is
fifty amos tall. His wicked desire was to drag all the yidden into
the fiftieth level of ‫טומאה‬, which is ‫ כפירה‬and ‫קרירות‬. With the ‫מדה‬
of ‫ רב חסד‬on Purim, we bring down the ‫ נצר חסד‬and so
‫=נון רבתי‬718=‫הי פא וו ריש יוד ממ‬. On ‫ פורים‬we experience the
‫ שער נ‬of ‫ קדושה‬which is ‫אמונה‬, above ‫דעת‬. Purim is ‫ מטהר‬the yidden
like ‫יה"כ‬, which is the "‫מקוה ה‬, and the word ‫ דכיה‬also means purity
- ‫וה‬-‫=מקוה ישראל יה‬718=‫נון רבתי‬. Mordechai was called ‫פתחיה‬, who
took care of the birds needed to ‫ מטהר‬the women.

It is a custom to read on Purim from ‫תהלים כב‬, - ‫לי למה עזבתני‬-‫לי א‬-‫א‬
.. We know that one of the ‫יג מדות‬,- ‫ל‬-‫ א‬is ‫ רחמים‬since a yid doesn’t
ask the ‫ מדת הדין‬why Hashem has forsaken him. Parshas ‫כי תשא‬
always falls in the vicinity of Purim. The ‫ יג מדות‬are preceded by
"‫ויעבר ה‬, and in the Megilla its written ‫ויעבר מרדכי‬. The ‫אמרי אמת‬
says that ‫ ויעבר‬is made up of ‫=עב‬72=‫חסד‬, and ‫=ויר‬216=‫גבורה‬.
Mordechai transformed the ‫ גבורה‬into ‫ חסד‬and ‫רחמים‬. The ‫חטא העגל‬
was similar to the yidden bowing to idols in the time of
Nebuchanetzar. By the ‫חטא העגל‬, yidden were laughing and
feasting, similar to the ‫סעודת אחשורוש‬. After the ‫חטא העגל‬, Moshe
was ‫ מוסר נפש‬for ‫ כלל ישראל‬in saying ‫מחני נא מספרך‬, similar to
Mordechai and Esther being ‫מוסר נפש‬. Purim is a tikun for the
‫חטא העגל‬. Many ask why are the details of the ‫ משכן‬and it’s ‫כלים‬,
and the ‫בגדי כהונה‬, that are all needed as a tikun for the serious sin
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of the ‫חטא העגל‬, come in the ‫ חומש‬before learning of the ‫ חטא‬itself?

This is a tremendous ‫ רחמנות‬of the Almighty, in that the ‫רפואה‬
comes before the ‫מכה‬. In the creation, Hashem commanded that
the trees produce fruit that tasted the same as the bark-
‫טעם העץ כטעם הפרי‬. Only the ‫ אתרוג‬tree listened, but not all the
other trees. Could the earth sin? Does the earth have free choice?
This was also a huge kindness, a remedy before the sickness.
When ‫ אדם הראשון‬later sinned, he said “I’m a mere mortal that
comes from the earth. The earth didn’t obey you Hashem, you
expect more from me?” Also the ‫ עשרת הדברות‬were written in the
singular, giving an excuse for Moshe, to defend the yidden after
the ‫ חטא העגל‬- ‘you Hashem commanded only me’. By the
‫סעודת אחשורוש‬, while the yidden are sinning by partaking in such a
party of low intent, Vashti is killed to make way for Esther. All this
shows Hashem love and compassion for ‫כלל ישראל‬.

The actual ‫ הארה‬that came down in the time of Purim, comes down
each Purim, maybe even greater now, since the ‫ הסתרה‬is greater.
There is a Halacha that if one reads the Megilla ‫למפרע‬, he is not
‫יצא‬. The ‫ בעל שם טוב‬said on this, that if a yid views the ‫ מגילה‬as a
story from the past- ‫למפרע‬, but not ‫ שייך‬in our time, he has not
fulfilled his obligation. Purim is a blast from ‫עולם הבא‬, higher than
‫ ימות המשיח‬that the ‫ נביאים‬prophesized about. When Moshe came
down with the ‫לוחות‬, he had to make a ‫ חשבון‬of which one was
greater –the Torah or ‫כלל ישראל‬, and decided that the yidden were
greater than Torah, as the ‫ נשמת ישראל‬preceded the Torah.

The ‫ כלל ישראל‬by the ‫ חטא העגל‬were like a ‫סוטה‬. In ‫כה‬:‫ פסוק לב‬it
says ‫ וירא משה את העם כי פרע הוא‬, which is a ‫ לשון‬said by ‫ סוטה‬,
where Rashi says that ‫ פרע‬means ‫מגולה‬- that their ‫ חטא‬was
revealed. The ‫ סוטה‬drinks water from the ‫כיור‬, that were made from
copper mirrors that the women donated. Moshe thought that these
mirrors that were used for vanity, could not be used for the ‫כיור‬,
but Hashem told him no. To the contrary, that these mirrors helped
the women in Egypt seduce their husbands and build the Jewish
nation. The water to check the ‫סוטה‬, was from the ‫כיור‬. If she was
innocent she received a special Bracha to ‫נזרע זרע‬, to have many
healthy children. When Esther entered the inner chamber of
‫ אחשורוש‬she was like a ‫סוטה‬. Just like when the ‫ סוטה‬drinks water
from the ‫כיור‬, and it’s revealed that she didn’t sin, in the desert-
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‫ אשר הקצפת‬the yidden really didn’t want to sin, but the ‫ יצר הרע‬took
hold - ‫=אשר הקצפת‬1176=‫ניקתה ונזרע זרע‬. At first the ‫ עגל‬that was
made, was not for ‫ע"ז‬, but the yidden wanted to commune with the
Almighty, (like with the ‫ כרובים‬that were also images), and not
through Aharon, who could make mistakes. The big error the
yidden made was they couldn’t come up with such ideas on their
own, but this had to come from up above. The ‫ ירושלמי‬says there
were thirteen ‫עגלים‬, one for every ‫שבט‬, and so after the yidden did
teshuva, they merited to receive the ‫יג מדות הרחמים‬, and the miracle
of Purim happened on the thirteenth of Adar. The big ‫ חידוש‬of the
Sota was that, Hashem allowed his name to be erased, for the sake
of peace between husband and wife. We are Hashem’s wife, and to
bring peace, Moshe told Hashem to erase his name ‫ואים אין מחני נא‬
‫מספרך‬. Megillas Esther is a ‫מגילת סוטה‬, and Hashem’s name is not
found, as if it was erased, in order to make ‫ שלום‬with the yidden.
The ‫ כיור‬therefore belongs in this ‫פרשה‬, as a tikun for the ‫חטא העגל‬
where the yidden said ‫יך ישראל‬-‫=אלה אלה‬643=‫כף יוד ואו ריש‬.

The ‫ משיח‬will affect every yid- ‫=דרש טוב לעמו‬667=‫רוח מלך המשיח‬.
Mordechai was a "‫ בח‬of the ‫ משיח‬who will find the good in every
yid. Mordechai was called ‫=מרדכי יסוד אבא‬358=‫משיח‬. When
Purim falls on Thursday -Friday, ‫ כי תשא‬is not ‫פרשת פרה‬, and so we
read the ‫ הפטרה‬about ‫ אליהו הנביא‬on ‫הר הכרמל‬. Both ‫ אליהו‬and
‫ מלאך מיכאל‬come together to ‫מבשר הגאולה‬. In the beginning of the
Megilla, ‫ חרבונא‬is written with an ‫א‬, referring to an Aramaic name.
Later in the Megilla, ‫ חרבונה‬tells ‫ אחשורוש‬of the tree that Haman
built to hang Mordechai, and Haman is hung on that same ‫עץ‬. Here
‫ חרבונה‬is written with a ‫ה‬, referring to a name in ‫לשון הקודש‬. The
Rokeach says, this was ‫אליהו הנביא‬. It says ‫וגם חרבונה זכר לטוב‬, and
this phrase of ‫ זכר לטוב‬is used with the name of ‫אליהו הנביא‬.

As we already said the Trup of ‫ כי תשא‬being ‫גרשים זרקה מנח סגול‬

hints to us that even the yidden thrown out, will experience an
elevation ‫כי תשא ראש‬. The Megilla begins with ‫ אחשורוש‬being the
king that ‫ המולך מהודו ועד כוש‬The message is the same - that the ‫כוש‬
Jews, the ‫ אחרית‬Jews, and the outcasts, have a ‫ תקון‬on Purim, and
are all part of the ‫שמחה‬. Adar is transformed from ‫ יגון‬to ‫ שמחה‬and
the ‫ פנימיות‬of every yid is revealed -
‫=העשיר לא ירבה והדל לא ימעיט‬1048=‫החדש אשר נהפך להם‬.
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The yidden that went to the party, fell into the ‫ שער נ‬of ‫טומאה‬, and
were considered like ‫מתים‬- dead. Mordechai who was ‫פתחיה‬, in
charge of ‫טהרה‬, was ‫ מחיה מתים‬these yidden spiritually. When there
is ‫אחדות‬, there is ‫טהרה‬. The ‫ עמי הארץ‬on ‫י"ט‬, are all considered ‫טהור‬
since they are ‫ חברים‬and there is ‫אחדות‬. After the ‫ תשובה‬from the
‫ חטא העגל‬from the ‫לך רד‬, Hashem said ‫לך עלה‬.
When Moshe descended from ‫הר סיני‬, he came down ‫כי קרן אור פניו‬,
and a mask was put on him. One peshat was that since the yidden
were not on the same level as the first time Moshe came down, the
yidden couldn’t look at him. Another and more accepted peshat, is
the total opposite, that Moshe’s face was shining greater than
when he came down the first time, as he was on a higher level than
the first ‫ לוחות‬which was given to ‫צדיקים‬, because now he came
down to ‫בעלי תשובה‬. A yid that does ‫ תשובה‬calms the anger of
Hashem- ‫=תשובה‬713=‫שוב מחרון אפך‬. Parshas ‫ כי תשא‬is the twenty
first Parsha of ‫ חומש‬where ‫יה‬-‫=אה‬21. The ‫יה‬-‫ שם אה‬refers to the yid
that begins again anew, a fresh start- The acronym of -
‫ אשר ישלטו היהודים המה‬is ‫יה‬-‫ אה‬implying that Purim is a time of
renewal, renewing one’s relationship with the Almighty.

The ‫ שלחן ערוך‬begins with ‫שביתי ה" לנגדי תמיד‬, and ends with
‫טוב לב משתה תמיד‬. This symbolizes the two ‫ תמידים‬brought each
day in the ‫בהמ"ק‬. If we fulfill the first one, the second will also be
with ‫יראת שמים‬. The ‫ חטא העגל‬took place on the sixteenth of ‫תמוז‬,
which as said before, enters the boundary of Esav, since the moon
is beginning to wane, and the ‫ מיעוט הלבנה‬is the source of all ‫חטאים‬.
It was the sixteenth generation after Avraham that the ‫מלכות בת דוד‬
was split, and ‫ ירעבם בן נבט‬became the leader of the ten tribes.
Beginning with the sixteenth, the ‫ שטן‬has power, and in the time of
the ‫ חטא העגל‬he created the illusion that the ‫ עגל‬came out of the fire
alive. The Gemorra says this whole story was to teach future
generations that even with a ‫רבים‬, there is always a chance for
‫תשובה‬. All the topics at the beginning of the Parsha, came about as
a tikun for the ‫חטא העגל‬. The ‫ מחצית השקל‬was a ‫ כפרה‬for the ‫עגל‬,
which took place midday- ‫כי בשש משה לרדת‬, and so each yid gave
half a shekel.

The Megilla has the power to forgive all those that are ‫ עובר‬sins -
‫=זה יתנו כל העבר על הפקדים‬1144=‫מגילת אסתר‬. In the twelfth month
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of ‫=זה‬12, a yid could completely transform himself. Haman was

very against this mitzvah, and ‫ המן‬is the ‫ ר"ת‬of ‫ נגד מחצית השקל‬.
This was a mitzvah that was given in the merit of our fathers
‫=מחצית השקל‬983=‫אברהם יצחק יעקב משה‬. In the time of
concealment, Hashem gave us the great ‫ י"ט‬of Purim, which is a
huge ‫ כפרה‬for us- ‫=לכפר על נפשותיכם‬1336=‫הסתר אסתיר‬.

In the time of Purim, ‫ אחשורוש‬was looking to the ‫בני יששכר‬, the

‫ בני בינה‬who were experts in ‫עיבור שנה‬, to see if they could make a
leap year. He didn’t want Vashti to be killed on ‫פסח‬, which was
when it happened. ‫ אחשורוש‬knew that all the enemies of the Jews
died on Pesach- ‫ סנחרב‬and ‫ פרעה‬and his army, and (later Haman),
and so he didn’t want Vashti killed, at a time that was auspicious
to the yidden. Rav Yochanan Eibshitz says the Purim miracle
happened in "‫אדר ב‬, which is the thirteenth month, that has no ‫מזל‬,
however the yidden are above ‫מזל‬, and it’s very beneficial that we
have an ‫אדר ב‬. The Megilla has in it many many details of
‫השגחה פרטית‬, that when the pieces are put together, there is one
huge miracle happening. For example Haman gave ‫ אחשורוש‬the
advice that he should be able to kill Vashti, without conferring
with his advisors. This piece of advice ended in him digging his
own grave. When ‫ אחשורוש‬was in the peak of his anger with
Haman, and decreed that he should be hung, if he would have
discussed it over with his advisors, they probably would have told
him not to kill him, since they liked Haman, and hated the Jews.

The yidden have a special ‫ חן‬in the eyes of Hashem. In the Megilla
the word ‫ חן‬is written six times. Also in ‫פרשת כי תשא‬, after the
‫חטא העגל‬, it says the word ‫ חן‬six times, showing that Moshe and
‫ כלל ישראל‬found favor in Hashem’s eyes. As we already said ‫פורים‬
is mitzvah number 619. There are 613 mitzvahs from the Torah,
and 7 were given then by the ‫רבנן‬. Chanuka was the last, or the
620th mitzvah, and Purim the 619th - ‫= כי מצאת חן‬619

Although most of the Parsha is down and negative, where the

Mishne in Megilla says that certain portions were not interpreted,
that is, the ‫ מתרגמם‬was not allowed to ‫ מתרגם מעשה העגל‬because it
is so negative about ‫כלל ישראל‬, the name ‫ כי תשא‬is uplifting.
Moshe, who was on such a lofty level was told ‫ לך רד‬since when
the yidden go down so does their leader. Parshas ‫ כי תשא‬always
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falls in the time of Purim or ‫ פורים קטן‬and there are many

guidelines to the ‫ י"ט‬of Purim. Rashi says the words ‫וכן יסד המלך‬
just once in Chumash, here when describing the ‫שמן המשחה‬, and
this is a phrase found in the first perek of the Megilla. The laining
of all the fast days, which are all an ‫עת רצון‬, are found in ‫כי תשא‬
and so ‫ שבת כי תשא‬is an ‫עת רצון‬. The ‫ חידשי הרים‬says that the laining
of both ‫ שבת חול המועד‬is in our Parsha. He says that it is an ‫עת רצון‬
‫ בתוך עת רצון‬since Shabbos itself is an ‫עת רצון‬.

There are two letters that are large in the Parsha, the ‫ נ‬of
‫ נצר חסד לאלפים‬in the ‫יג מדת הרחמים‬, and in pasuk-
‫ל אחר‬-‫יד – כי לא תשתחוה לא‬:‫ לד‬the ‫ ר‬of ‫אחר‬. Really this letter should
be small since the pasuk is talking of idol-worship. A large letter in
‫ חומש‬usually indicates ‫גדלות‬, more ‫קדושה‬. The Gemorra in ‫חגיגה טו‬
says that a ‫ בת קול‬came down and said ‫שובו בנים שובבים חוץ מאחר‬.
It says of some Tanaim that they were so so privileged to see the
back of Rebbi Meir. The Rebbi of R” Meir was ‫ אלישע בן אבויה‬who
was known as ‫אחר‬. The Gemorra says ‫כל משבעל הבית אומר לך עשה‬
‫צא‬-‫ חוץ מ‬that is one has to listen to everything the ‫ בעל הבית‬says
except if he tells you to leave. If Hashem says out, we don’t listen
but we push in, because this is the test. Even though the Halacha is
that when it rains, we should leave the Sukka, a sign that Hashem
is saying- get out, there were Tzadikim that stayed in the Sukka –
‫צא‬-‫חוץ מ‬. Even though ‫ אחר‬should have ignored the ‫בת קול‬, and
done ‫תשובה‬, Rebbi Meir accomplished that there is hope for him.
The Gemorra is teaching us that even the ‫’אחר‬s, even the ‫עובדי העגל‬
the lowest yidden, have hope. This whole idea of ‫ תשובה‬is rooted
in this Parsha. The Gemorra in ‫ ע"ז‬says that the yidden weren’t
holding by making an ‫עגל‬, but it happened even against their will
in order to teach that ‫ תשובה‬helps for anything. Moshe risked his
entire existence to save the yidden.

In ‫יא‬:‫ שה"ש ג‬it says the famous pasuk ‫…… צאינה וראינה‬
‫ בעטרה שעטרה לו אמו ביום חתנתו‬..The last Mishne in ‫ תענית‬says
‫ יום חתונתו‬is talking about ‫יה"כ‬, which is ‫כ פורים‬. Whatever ‫ יה"כ‬has,
Purim has, since Purim is higher, and so Purim is a day of ‫עטרה‬.
Mordechai went out of the palace wearing a crown ‫ועטרת זהב גדולה‬.
In our Parsha the crowns that the yidden received for saying
‫נעשה ונשמה‬, they lost due to ‫חטא העגל‬. The Mishne says in Gittin
that due to the ‫חורבן‬, we’re not allowed to wear crowns, even
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brides at the chupah. The Gemorra says when there is no ‫מצנפת‬,

there’s no ‫עטרה‬. But in the time of Purim, a ‫ הארה‬of ‫ימות המשיח‬,
we get the crowns back.

So let’s summarize. Because of the ‫ מסירת נפש‬of Moshe,

‫ ואם אין מחני נא מספרך‬the yidden were forgiven for the ‫חטא העגל‬,
and ‫ זוכה‬to the great ‫ י"ט‬of Purim. The ‫ מסירת נפש‬of Esther was in
gathering all the yidden ‫לך כנוס את כל היהודים‬, and then entering the
inner chamber of the king when she could have been killed. By
being with ‫אחשורוש‬, she was forbidden to her husband ‫מרדכי‬.
Mordechai also risked his life by not bowing to Haman. Due to
them, we merited to nullify the ‫ הפיל פור הוא הגורל‬of Haman.
Mordechai was a ‫דרש טוב לעמו‬, like the ‫רוח מלך המשיח‬, of whom it
says we will know it’s the true ‫משיח‬, by the yid that can find a ‫זכות‬
for every yid. Purim was a ‫ מתן תורה‬where it says there, that before
receiving the Torah, each yid had a ‫רפואה שלמה‬. The light of Purim
‫ליהודים היתה אורה‬, is a light from the ‫ שמן למאור‬of the
‫=בית השלישי‬1067=‫פורים על שם הפור‬

‫=שעטרה לו אמו‬667=‫=ואם אין מחני נא מספרך‬667=‫כנוס את כל היהודים‬

= ‫=הפיל פור הוא הגורל‬667=‫=רוח מלך המשיח‬667=‫=רפואה שלמה‬667=
‫=שמן למאור‬667=‫דרש טוב לעמו‬