Who am I?

"Know thyself." Socrates said. Some people know who they really are, few are still wandering to find
theirselves. I am inbetween those people. I know who I am today but at the same time, I'm still exploring
to find myself. I can't say that I am this and that for things change, people change, I continuously change.
For now, the answer for that question is I am Juvielyn C. Juan, a college student who knows she's
different from the others but aware that 19 years of living is not enough to know who you really are.
Juvielyn loves her family so much, she always forgive people who are dear to her heart, she has a big fat
heart for those people who are always by her side and she's attracted to people who always choose to
be kind. She has so many flaws and she's aware of that, in fact she's proud of those flaws and slowly
turns it to beautiful one. One of her flaws is, she is always scared, she's scared of everything - she's
scared that she'll fail in school, she's scared that she will fail as a daughter and a friend, she's afraid that
she'll fail as a human. She often overthink things - with her mind she can definitely turn the good things
into a negative one but the small dot in her heart - a small dot of hope in her heart always win, she used
those fear of failing to study hard, she used the fear of not being good enough as a daughter to love and
support her family more, she always try to be there for her friends for she wants them to feel
appreciated all the time. Juvielyn is not a girl who is always positive, she focus on negative results and try
her best not to come up with that outcome, others always tend to be positive, maybe being a negative
thinker makes her different from the rest and the best part is she's not ashamed of being negative
because she faced so many fears by being motivated by her negative thoughts. It's odd to cope up with
the challenges of life by being negative, yes but that's Juvielyn, she's odd and unusual. But Juvielyn is not
always negative, she knows when to see the good things and that's her strength, that balances her
negative and positive side. Her mind might not full of positive thoughts but when someone needed
hope, she gladly spike some. What makes Juvielyn unique? She knows that if she have time to go back
and change the path she takes, she wouldn't for she is proud of her beautiful scars. With her scars, with
her fears, with her negative thoughts and with that small dot of hope, she can conquer the challenges
being thrown to her, to prove that not all negative things is bad and hideous. She may think that she's
weak for the way she feels and think but deep inside her, there's a small voice telling her she's brave to
face her negative thoughts and turn it to a wonderful one. She believes that "What happens, happens"
and if she dwell on the things that cannot be controlled and turn back to, she can't move forward and
change the ending. Juvielyn is a girl who knows what she lacks and she continue striving to discover
more and turn those imperfections to a beautiful one and that alone is beautiful. This is Juvielyn, the girl
who said that 19 years of being alive is a short time to know her true self.

Purpose in life

Everything happens for a reason. I happened. But I don't know the reason why i did happen, though. I
believe that everything is destined. Even our lives. The years I've lived is short enough to know my
purpose in life, my general and true reason why I'm alive and still breathing. Maybe, my purpose in being
a student is to study and graduate and find a job or just meet people who will be part of my life. Maybe
my purpose as a friend is to be there for them, support and create happy moments with them or just to
experience being left by people who I used to do everything with - laugh with, and cry with. Maybe the
reason why I am the one who is the daughter of my parents is I have a big heart for them and willingness
to express my love for them. Maybe my purpose of living is to experience things or maybe my purpose in
life is to know the reason why me, why am i alive and my purpose in this world. Would I make an impact
in someone's life? Would I ruin someone's life? I don't know yet my purpose but I know things have time,