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Ocean of Thoughts
Ocean of Thoughts
Senior year of high school was the most dreaded time in my life. It was the year where
everyone went their separate paths to get closer to their dreams. Most pursued their education in
universities in Manila, some stayed in the smaller colleges of my province, Iloilo, and a few
decided to venture farther abroad. Senior year to me meant leaving everything and everyone I
knew and jumping into the terrifying ocean of uncertainty. It felt like I had to enter the never-
ending, mysterious, and dark depth of the ocean, without knowing where life would take me.
Conveniently, I never had to worry about that. Before I could even form opinions, my
parents had already planned out my life. They had packed everything I needed to sail the vast sea
of adulthood and far future. The boat they had prepared for me, however, was autopiloted to take
As planned, I went along; like a dead fish that flowed with the current. I began my journey
all alone, away from my family and friends. The waters were rough and rigid, enough to trigger
my deepest fear of drowning in the uncertainty of the dark sea. Unexpectedly, the closer I got to
where my parents wanted me to be, the waves became horrifyingly larger, as if it were my mind
telling me that I never wanted to go where I was autopiloted to. Eventually, after struggling for so
long, I was engulfed in the waves of my own doubts and began to drown. I was defeated in my
own internal battle of thoughts. In the deep, dark waters of the sea, I was lost. I did not know where
to go, how to swim, nor how to tell my parents I could not make it to where they wanted me to be.
At that point, I had reached a suffocating slump in my life – the deepest trench of the ocean.
Feeling hopeless, I prayed hard not for salvation, but for a redirection. This was when I
gathered all my remaining energy to find the courage to finally tell my parents that I did not want
to be the dead fish that followed the current, which was their planned path for me.
In a voice as calm as the lake, my parents forfeited as if they had already known. At last, I
was free to go where I wanted, alongside the newly packed goods that my loving parents prepared,
and a boat set to go to where I wanted to go – to the clearest blue waters of Ateneo. Indeed, I was
afraid to sail again, but this time, the waves were not so rough. The skies were bright, and the
current was with me, as if I had garnered the support of my parents which soothed my troubled