Yet another one of our pensive torrid nights or days
while we think we’re still young. It’s a feisty rehearsal of hope and old friends’ reembrace at a distance of seas, years and national regret, I feel…dark. It’s an infinite night of salt, haste and so much emotional chaos and hurdles On Electra’s hurdling stage, drawing me closer and closer to you on the strings of a piano from the future when I can actually play my own songs even if in my mind, Electra…she always wins with a resonating sound against my mumbling hands wounded with stains by sweet men and dyslexia blues even if it’s not even her game, I turn jealous and human, I hit and destroy, thousands of miles away, my starry night has no stars in it, no bleeding ear, just a yellow dress, solitude, yellow and blue a permanent curtain of sadness strokes of fury and paint, old peasants on fields every goddam day, no oil could make this tone unintense and unwild flowers go pale with death in any corner and vase I bleed with my dirty nails with dirt under screaming I don’t wanna paint anymore, I work to exhaustion, I write until all my verses scream “I don’t need you” My hat and my vision all fail me Until that’s nothing above me not in me anymore Just envy and hunger, like crows floating Over the whole world.