Dear El Nee

I should've send you a real letter.. But I'm afraid it'll take longer time for it
to get to you..

You know... I'm really bad at talking. I should learn how to communicate better
because I keep making communication mistake.
Since you're from communication major, would you help me? teach me how to do it
better..

I'm sorry that I didn't talk to you yesterday.. When you're down and need help.. I
was away..
I should've stay by your side.. But yesterday was a rough day for me..
So I was unsure to help.. I'm afraid that my incompetence would bring more
trouble..
but then I still made it.. I'm really sorry..

I didn't mean to say that you're lack of imaan.. That you don't pray enough or that
you don't believe in Allah well..
Yuki told me that your father said it'll be hard for you to find a job.. the words
hit you hard..
I just wanted to tell you that he might be wrong.. As long as you pray and believe
in Mighty God, if you ask Allah to help you.
Don't mind his words.. He's your parent, but he's not the one to decide your
future.. You'll live your own life in the end, no?
Julian has been planning it.. Yuki is helping too.. It will be alright. Keep on
praying. Tawakal..
Allah is The Mightiest, he'll decide the best for you.

I'm so sorry.. That my words hurt you so bad..

But sister.. Please.. You're precious.. For me, for Az, for all of us..
You're the center of our team.. You mean a lot for us.
I can't do it up until now without you..

You see, now i'm back to my real self. Not a guy anymore.
So it won't be a problem if you want to unyel-unyel me and Az won't go all sulking
anymore.
It's alright if you don't want to see me anymore..
But really.. I admit it was my fault, my mistake.
I should've done it better..
I know it's not easy to forgive me.. It must be hurt to face it..
A thousand sorry won't be enough and yet it won't change the truth..
But yeah... I'm really sorry..
I hope you'll be fine..
Be well, El Nee.