The speaker recalls their father who served in the military, leaving for long periods to protect the country's borders from a young age. While the speaker was confused and angry each time their father left, they also admired him secretly. In a letter, the father explains he will not be returning home this time. The speaker is devastated, realizing their father is truly gone despite wanting to believe his absence was only temporary. Though the country claims to be peaceful, the speaker questions who protects people like their father who sacrifice their lives to maintain that peace.
The speaker recalls their father who served in the military, leaving for long periods to protect the country's borders from a young age. While the speaker was confused and angry each time their father left, they also admired him secretly. In a letter, the father explains he will not be returning home this time. The speaker is devastated, realizing their father is truly gone despite wanting to believe his absence was only temporary. Though the country claims to be peaceful, the speaker questions who protects people like their father who sacrifice their lives to maintain that peace.
The speaker recalls their father who served in the military, leaving for long periods to protect the country's borders from a young age. While the speaker was confused and angry each time their father left, they also admired him secretly. In a letter, the father explains he will not be returning home this time. The speaker is devastated, realizing their father is truly gone despite wanting to believe his absence was only temporary. Though the country claims to be peaceful, the speaker questions who protects people like their father who sacrifice their lives to maintain that peace.
I was younger then, And unlike my other friends’ dads You looked something of a part-time dad to me I was younger then Confused, Why you had to leave after staying for fifteen to twenty days with maa and me Your uniform different from anything I’d ever seen, Maa told me you serve our country And I questioned each time Why you couldn’t serve the country from right here From our home I was younger then. Dad, I was always mad at you Each time you left for the borders To protect it, The grief was always different, always new. I wanted your time. For you to prioritize my existence over all others I wanted your time And though every action of mine Reflected how much you meant to me, I never got to tell you I loved you I never said it out loud. And although it was reflected In every canvas I painted or doodles I drew I never s aid it out loud I kept it like a guarded secret You were my only weakness I never said that dad, I love you I’m older now And as I read your letter for the 67th time I can't move I feel paralyzed And I don’t know what to say or do You say you’re not returning home this year And that you wish you could tell me and maa That you’re okay And that all’s going to be fine And that you’ll be gone only for a while But you’re not going to return, I know that, I’m older now You say I’ll have to take good care of maa Like I always have I’m older now You say, I’m older now And I still cannot believe this And I still feel like you’ll be away But just for a while, Then come back home to us Just come back home dad Just come back home The newsreader said that day “Ours, is a peaceful country” That jawans like you protect us, But dad, who was protecting you You said you were proud of what you do -did, what you did And you were always there If not physically And I secretly admired you No matter what happened, you’d always come through And I want to tell you How much I love you And as I read your letter, with cloudy eyes For the 70th time The newsreader on the TV says “Ours, is a peaceful country” And I get up from that chair, And leave.