Hei, there! Long time, no write (see).

I’ve been busy, but not thar busy… i’ve benn wondering if now I’m good enough and ready to
be in a relationship… Like I really want to… I’m not excited, but I really want to have somebody
who I can confide in, to just be me and to feel safe, loved and to have fun with… I promise you
I’m not the same as I was last year. I’m more fun and ME. Finally I love and appreciate myself.
That’s very important now for me… To just focus on the good things. Only good vibes 🙃. I can’t
wait to just attend to a concert and just dance with my special someone… just the two of us
against the world… Relax and forget about the world for a few minutes. That’s all I’m asking for
but now I don’t know how to do it… Because I tried to find him myself but without luck, so I think
he has to find me… But I feel like I’m always one step behind when it come to love and men. I’m
not afraid anymore it’s just that sometimes I don’t know how to react because I can be so hard
on myself. I’m so, so, so perfectionist… AnAnd I just have to stop it. I want to be trully happy
with someone who indeed loves me for me, not for my “position” and accepts me the way I am.
I’m pretty simple, I don’t wait fortunes, fancy clothes or cars. I just want someone who can
spend time with me and never be afraid it’s going to waist his time because of me. That’s all. It’s
pretty paintfull to be alone… It’s been two years for now… II feel so lonely and unvalued… why I
am not worth of anyone love? Why can I be happy? Why I have to wait that long? Because I
have to work on myself harder? I’m not good enough? Of.. So many questions… I feel so
dissappointed…