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DECONSTRUCT ~ LEARN ~ CELEBRATE
INTP (Introverted i N tuiting T hinking Perceiving) is one of the sixteen
personality types under Myers-Briggs typology. INTPs are the Architects, the
discoverers, and the system-builders. If you are an INTP and sometimes feel
isolated or struggle to understand your place in the world, you've come to
the right place!
Although INTPs enjoy wonderful gifts that allow them to observe, quantify,
and understand the world, these skills often don't equate with closeness and
companionship. I've set out to determine, once and for all, why?
This site is different than general Myers-Briggs sites. It is written by INTPs,
for INTPs. Here, we turn our powers of observation to the dark places.
Here, we hunt down and answer the whys.
The INTP Experience Articles:
INTRODUCTION - WHERE DID THIS ALL COME FROM?
CHAPTER 1 - WHY DO I FEEL DISCONNECTED?
CHAPTER 2 - OVERLOAD
CHAPTER 3 - TONIGHT'S MAIN EVENT: ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS
VERSUS THE EVIL TWINS OF THE INTP PSYCHE
CHAPTER 4 - BUSTING THE MYTH THAT INTPs ARE NOT EMOTIONAL
CHAPTER 5 - YOUNG ADULTHOOD AND THE FIX-IT STAGE
CHAPTER 6 - HOW TO DATE (AND INTERPRET) AN INTP
CHAPTER 7 - INTP SURVIVAL TOOLKIT
CHAPTER 8 - SURVIVING THE LONG AND GRINDING ROAD
Chapter 2: Overload
(WHAT'S NEW! 2/22/15--The new CHAPTER 8 is posted! SURVIVING
THE LONG AND GRINDING ROAD)
I'll admit it. I like being an INTP very much. It's a state of being that puts
some nice tools in your hands. However, it also brings some potent blind
spots and traps. And usually, the dangers you can't see tend to be the
ones that cause you the most grief. It's like getting hit by Wonder
Woman's invisible jet plane. As you're lying mangled on the ground, all you
can see are clear skies overhead.
Today I'm going to focus on overload. It's a very insidious INTP trap,
because the path to overload covers the same ground as our most loved
and valued INTP analytical functions. As a result, the more you try to solve
that unhappiness with the tools at your disposal, the deeper you dig
yourself. As is often the case in life, our greatest strength can be our
greatest weakness.
Let's say you're a proto-human walking from your cave for the first time.
The world is fresh and wide-open. You feel this interesting sensation on
your skin that bright, summer day. Today, in English, we would call the
sensation "heat." Another morning, you walk out of your cave, and you feel
a different sensation. The sky is cloudy with a stiff wind. We would call
that one "cold." These two sensations perplex you. What makes you feel
these differences? Is some kind of unseen spirit possessing your body?
Was it something you ate? Your mind flips into analysis mode.
You note that the big shining orb in the sky makes an even stronger
sensation on your skin when it hits you. When you step into the shade, the
feeling lingers in your skin a bit, then goes away. Interesting. Maybe the
soil and trees and rocks absorb something from the orb and release it back
into the air. Maybe the orb causes heat.
But wait. Over time, you notice the effect of seasons. Each day doesn't
heat and cool the same way. Sometimes it's hot even at night. Sometimes
it's cold with a bright sun. The conundrum deepens. After climate, you
study air currents, ocean temperature, global water currents, the orbit of the
Earth, solar flares, the ozone layer. On and on and on and on. Every new
discovery factors in and opens new possibilities. But as you delve and find
more and more questions to answer, you eventually begin to approach an
overall limit of energy. The observations and hypotheses mount. The
complexity of the problem starts to breed a sort of paralysis or surrender.
We begin to label the overall conundrum as not reasonably solvable . It's
like staring over a chasm at an ice cream stand. As much as we want a
banana split, we believe we've amassed sufficient information to determine
that realistically we just can't get there. For an INTP, everything has the
ability to spiral into an overload situation. But there is one area that seems
to be a quagmire more than any other. My first article focused on it--
interpersonal relationships and isolation.
If you feel isolated, I bet that you can regurgitate the huge amount of
information and analysis you've amassed on the subject. You could tell me
about the friction in your childhood. How your parents didn't seem to get
you. How when you said this, they heard that. You could give me your
theories. Your observed truths. The way your relationship with your
college roommate started with great promise, but cooled and ended up with
you being increasingly alienated. You've deconstructed your interactions.
Theorized about what kind of person you need to find and where you might
find them. You can tell me how many times you were hopeful that you
found one, but then a progression of events proved that you were mistaken.
All of this information builds into an ever-growing conceptualization of the
problem. Why does it grow? Because we want to solve problems exactly
and fully, and nothing else will suffice. As we apply each potential solution
and step back to observe the result, we'll take each point of failure as a
new challenge to be analyzed. It's our rational optimism at work. A
solution must exist, we just have to try harder.
The trap of INTP is that your thorough and unflinching approach to solving
problems inherently increases their size. Size, in turn, begins to empirically
prove that the solution may be impossible or beyond your abilities. So
what do you do? You try HARDER. The complexity of the problem grows.
HARDER YET. Bigger. The building overload spawns negative emotions.
Fatigue, frustration, and disappointment mount, finally fermenting into
despair.
Nowhere do INTPs seem to fall victim to overload more profoundly than in
interpersonal relationships. The most likely reason is that relationships
involve a great deal of tricky emotional content. You have your own
emotions to contend with (even if you're convinced that you don't have any),
as well as the other person's. Since INTPs would rather suppress emotions
than embrace them (which actually is an emotion-driven decision), we have
a need for skills that we aren't terribly eager to master. But let's tackle the
problem of interpersonal relationships in the most logical place. Us. Since
our own emotions ultimately control whether we have the experience of
enjoying life or being tortured by it, our own emotions are the place to start.
What I'm proposing is really very simple. However, it's foreign to usual
INTP thinking. If overload is created by being exacting and looking too big,
then happiness can achieved by being less exacting and going small. But
here's the catch. Small means pieces, not grand solutions. Discrete little
victories. Each one might not amount to much, but if you walk around
collecting pebbles, you will eventually have a sack of pebbles as heavy as a
boulder.
So, how do we narrow our focus in interpersonal relationships? Let's say
you know someone who you've spent time with, and although you once
hoped that this person would be a kindred spirit, you've determined that it's
never going to happen. You've observed too much incongruity. The person
let you down too many times. But now you have an opportunity to have a
cup of coffee with this person. Your rational brain says, "why bother? I've
already established that this person isn't a kindred spirit. I'm just going to
be further disappointed. I'm going to come away feeling worse than if I
didn't spend time with them at all." That is overload talking. Perhaps
there is some part of this person that you enjoy. Maybe over coffee, you'll
end up joking around. Maybe there is something that the two of you can
commiserate on. If you just look at the joking or the commiserating, you
can enjoy being with this person for a short time. You feel a slice of
happiness, because in that moment, you are feeling good.
I submit to you that feeling bad is bad, and feeling good is good. Even
though the cup of coffee does not solve the problem of your place in the
world, you can feel happy for that half hour in the coffee shop. And that is
meaningful. That is good. Did you solve the problem? No. Did you
determine that this person is actually a kindred spirit after all? No. It's an
imperfect solution. A partial solution. But remember that bag of pebbles.
I'm trying to get you working on that sack of pebbles.
Be mindful of where you have opportunities to experience small moments of
happiness. When you go collect one, make yourself step back from the
exacting, rational machinations of your brain. Be more aware of your
emotional state. Fight the urge to leap to negative emotions if little
setbacks happen during the experience. Collect more and more of these
moments with the goal of building some stability and future predictability.
Establish which friends you can call upon for what. By having options for
small victories, you have a means to achieve more happiness.
What I've just described will certainly seem like a no-brainer to other
personality types. But to INTPs, it's not natural. It's an effort. And let me
be clear. It's NOT the answer to our isolation. As an INTP, I'm still
convinced that we are, in fact, isolated. However, even though it's not
solving the problem, what it does achieve is some much needed training,
experience, and success for our emotional side. Emotions are much more
subject to our control than we realize. They are not simply the result of a
situation. We have a huge amount of opportunity to make choices
regarding how we feel. But in order to do it, we have to stop making the
mistake in interpreting emotions as an indication of truth.
All personality types misinterpret the message of emotions. That's just part
of being human. For example, if you are afraid in a dark room because
there might be someone hiding in your closet, that does not mean that
someone IS hiding in the closet. But that's not what our brains tell us in
the moment, right? It feels like there COULD be someone in the closet
because we are afraid. The emotion is interpreted as an important
indicator of possible fact. Just like our five sensory emotions. If you feel
radiant heat, you don't touch the stove. If you feel scared, there must be
something scary out there. Emotion shapes our sense of reality.
The same can happen with isolation. Are we feeling down because we are
isolated (reality indicating), or are we feeling down first and incorrectly
assuming that isolation must be the objective reason (reality creating)? I
believe that the latter is happening a great deal. Isolation is partly true and
partly false as a result of emotions that have become mired in overload. If
we can unwind the false part, we can strike a much better emotional
balance. Maybe we are less isolated than we think. Maybe there is much
more that we deserve to be happy about.
In the end, a solution to the grand problem may still exist. There's always
hope. And without overload and the weight of spiraling failure, that hope
can breathe and be healthy. In the meantime, though, collect those
pebbles. You'll feel much better in the end.
On Being an INTP
Woman
Love...Is Something
Wrong with Me?
hyperMindfulness
INTP Encyclopedia
hyperMindfulness
Anna asks:
First, how do you see hypermindfulness playing out in a relationship? I can
see a scenario where an INTP's spouse came up and was excited about
something, and then the INTP squashed that excitement by maintaining
their remove and analyzing the topic to death. But this seems more like a
general problem than a romantic problem. What other issues does
hypermindfulness create that are specific to the context of an intimate
relationship? Another thought is that you might consider renaming
"hypermindfulness"; hyper- usually implies overuse rather than poor use,
which I think is what you're getting at here. Just a thought.
I do think of this concept in the category of over use, not poor use. Seen
from the other side of the coin, we just don't know when to quit sometimes.
Most personality types don't share our drive to observe/analyze, observe/
analyze, observe/analyze. In the context of love, supporting the other
person and feeling supported in return are essential elements of a long term
relationship. If a spouse can't share his or her passions, if that sharing is
closed off, then distance, resentment, and walls will result. These can easily
grow, spreading the poison. Of course, this problem would also be pertinent
to friendships and family relationships. In love, however, the
hyperMindfulness problem can have much more catastrophic consequences.
How else does hyperMindfulness play out in love? By seeking to attach
importance to everything. When every conversation, every emotion, every
fight and bad mood potentially changes the INTP's entire view of the
relationship (i.e., the "truth" of it), you create an impossible standard. Under
that kind of pressure, nothing is going to last. It can't survive the scrutiny.
Sooner or later, a series of events and observations are going to lead you to
label the relationship as inadequate or erroneous, probably from the very
beginning. You will rewrite your entire conceptualization of the relationship
based on your progressive gathering of information.
Again, this level of mindfulness simply won't support a long term
relationship. We need to learn to set mindfulness aside at times. We need to
enjoy basic moments of existence and feelings. We need to use these later
as evidence when our mindfulness returns and once again wants to label
the relationship a lost cause. Bottom line, when you find yourself gathering
a body of negative facts and judgments about your relationship, ask
yourself, is this course going to make me happy? Is this course going to
leave me better off? Try to put on the brakes now and again. INTPs are
famous from moving from thing to thing, reaching a certain point of
understanding, then moving on. We are wired to treat relationships the same
way. But we have a choice. We just have to realize that we are empowered
to make it.
INTP Encyclopedia
Anns asks :
Could you expand on the INTP encyclopedia concept? While I get vibes of
truth off of the paragraph above, I am not reaaally able to link the principles
to incidents in my own life yet.
When we observe and analyze, we then *remember*. That's really the key
point. It doesn't flutter away. How many times have you been talking to
another person and you find yourself saying, well, we talked about this a
year ago, and you said X. When you said that, that meant this, that, and the
other thing. So I did Y, and I've been doing Y this whole last year because
that is what you asked me to do. So I don't understand your question now,
a year later. We already covered this....
The person then looks at you like you have three heads. The only word they
can seem to muster is, what??? None of this information and analysis stuck
with them. They don't remember it. Even if they thought that way a year
ago, it's long gone ago. We remember, however, and change our behavior
based on what we remember. In stress situations, we tend to be fighting
battles that the other person is not even able to conceptualize. They are
talking about today. We are talking about a year ago and everything in
between.