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SPCC who is aspiring to become an educator, explore and travel the world
Speech:
Hello, Good afternoon people. How are you today? Are you all alright, alive?
Wait, I would like to ask you a question. Do you want to die? To those people who
wanted to die, raise your hand. Alright, how about those people who disliked to die? How
So, why did I ask that question? It is because one day, in a blink of light, in a split
of millisecond, days, months, and years; all of us are going to die. No jokes aside, all of
us will eventually die. We might die later, in the next minute, or hours, day, week, or
decades; right? No one will live forever. So why am I saying all of these? It is because
we are lucky for we are living our lives to the fullest; we are enjoying the life that is
bestowed upon by the Lord and drop it unto us. We are lucky, right?
So, what is the reason why am I standing here today? I know that the word
“bullying” was very open to us now; bullying and discrimination. Yes, I am a proud
member of the LGBT QIA+ community. You were all probably wondering of what is the
significance of those things that I have mentioned earlier here in the Quasi-Death
Experience.
I was bullied by my classmates ever since I was in elementary. No one will be
able to notice it because I was always smiling and I tend to laugh a lot. I always throw
jokes and look oddly weird sometimes. I always wear a mask, a mask that shows the
good side of me even though on the inside I was much wrecked. Yes, my heart is like a
glass but mine was already powderized. That is how painful it was, I was always
offended, bullied physically and emotionally to extent that you wanted to withdraw
You can’t see not a single sign of depression in me right? Look at me, I am just
standing here. It is really painful on the inside and the only way for it to end is to die. I
grew up not having my Father by my side, one that shall tell me to become straight. We
are an all-girls family. Most of my cousins were girls. I have my grandmother and my
mother by my side. My grandfather was in abroad. So, I don’t really have a Father figure.
That made me think that I am like this because I was like this, and I act like this.
In school, I was a softy, a gay perhaps. But the feeling was different when it’s you
who was getting stepped on by people. Sometimes I just avoid it and think of the purpose
as to why I am here today. I told myself, “I don’t want to die.” If I die, I will no longer be
capable to do all the things I aspire to do. Yes, it’s true because when you die, you’re
nothing but just a skeleton that gets withered and be eaten by the ground. So what will
One time, I thought of taking my life and making my death possible. It happened
years ago when I was in Senior High School. It was the time where I was bombarded by
things that stressed me out. Maybe my classmates had no ideas. Most of my classmates
are here in CAS. They don’t know anything about it and I am not planning on telling
them. I am only saying these things today because I finally went out of my comfort zone.
On that day that I decided to take my life, I don’t remember what I took. All I
know that it was enclosed in a bottle and it was already expired. I don’t know what it was
called. I was greatly influence of the shows I watched back then. They just drank
whatever there is inside the bottle. So I did it as well. Was there person in their right state
of mind who will do that? No one, it was only I. After I did that, I lay in my bed with my
Suddenly, I felt like the thing that I drank has an effect on my body. It felt like my
soul was being pulled out of my body and I see darkness. I saw a dark atmosphere that
feels really light; there were also sparkly lights that made me feel like I was in the outer
space. I was floating in nowhere and it felt good. I felt no pain on those times that I felt
like I was being stepped on by other people. I was like, “was this heaven already?”
Some say that when you took your life, you will go straight to hell. I don’t know
but it felt light as if I was already in heaven. I stayed a bit on that state but suddenly I
asked myself why I ever did that. I wanted to be a teacher and I f ever will not be able to
my normal state; my dreams will be shattered just like my heart. Luckily, there was a
voice that whispered on my ear that says, “You can do it. You can surpass your feelings
and emotions. You can be better. You can be the better version of yourself.” No matter
who you are yesterday, when you attain success, no one will step on you anymore. No,
you’re not going to be the one who shall step on others but you will feel very satisfied
I prayed to the Lord, “I want to go back, if you’ll allow me.” then it happened.
My sister was waking me up and then all of it felt like I just woke up from a dream even
though I slept for about 24 hours. It felt like I came back in my body. If we will say
death is evil, death is pain, no it is not. Death is the lightest thing that can happen to us as
humans because after we did all of the things that we needed to do, we can die
peacefully. We can’t think of anything but our legacy that shall live on when we die.
I am thankful that I was speaking and sharing this experience because I believe
that death is not that bad. Death is somewhat we call a blessing because there is more of
us when we die. And I think that the Lord will welcome us in his home, in his hands, and
in his love. Just like what I mentioned earlier in my introduction, after I graduate I will
teach and I planned to travel the world to tell my experience and tell others that death is