miserable? The choice is completely, totally yours. It does not depend on anyone else. Always remember that suffering is the pastime of only the fools and rascals. So why punish yourself by remaining in material consciousness? Don't be an idiot. Awaken your dormant Krishna consciousness and be swimming at every minute in an ocean of unlimited transcendental bliss. This is real intelligence. Anything else is sheer idiocy. I hope you make the right choice because I am disappointed when anybody is suffering.