Female 17-20

I Am an Emotional Creature by Eve Ensler

Title: STEPHANIED

I was raised Catholic.

I found Christ.
Then I found Stephanie.
I always find a good thing
Then I find something better.
I’m not gay
I’m not straight
I’m Stephanied.
I didn’t do anything if she didn’t do it
I played house with her
I held her hand all the time
Everyone disappeared from my world
She wore jelly sandals
She had long black hair
She hated kickball
I hated kickball
She loved super-cinnamon gum
I loved it too
Once when I was in her bedroom
I snuck into her drawers
I stole her T-shirt
It was soft and it smelled like her
Nothing was good unless she liked it
Nothing was fun unless she wanted to do it with me
She said you have to give your money to anyone who needs it
She said it was important to rehearse for dying
We used to lie still and hold our breath
She said we should practice kissing
She told me to put my tongue in her mouth
It tastes better when you take your time
She said you can only love someone
if they’re your friend.
I’m not gay
I’m not straight
I’m Stephanied.