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Beneath The Veil of Lies PDF
Beneath The Veil of Lies PDF
I sought peace in a place I couldn’t find solace,
I sought comfort in a cold embrace,
The lies I told to keep moving forward,
Snow over my eyes to hide the courage I never had.
The sirens blared in the middle of the night,
I falsified sleep to protect me from truth’s fright...
Loans of love taken without a thought,
Are Now as the restlessness that my debt has wrought..
Where there was once warm silence,
Is engulfed by a cold cadence,
Where we once knew noise,
Is the quiet that inspires my prose
And all the walls we built in the sky,
See how they crumble, they don’t even try!
Rage and terror knock on my door,
But there’s nothing le� to take, it’s all gone..
Buried beneath the rubble,
Are the dreams of one so stubborn..
Who mistook folly for persistence,
And fed on lies for sustenance...
I sought peace in a place I wanted to call home,
I sought safety but I ended up on my own..
Lying in bed with the custodian of my company,
I stared at the dark ceiling thinking of how unhappy,
Sex had made me
...
Two orgasms down the night,
I longed for a chance to fight,
To set free the feral beast,
To set ablaze our ephemeral tryst
Instead she held me �ghter,
Whispers and hearty laughter,
I could feel her heart reach out,
I could feel her emo�ons shout ...
But they fell on deaf ears,
Because life was no more here,
Berate me all you want,
Call me something nice..a cunt!
I won’t be here either,
No sir, I’ll be much further..
Further than I’ve ever been from the corals of normal,
Far enough to touch between the thighs of sorrow...
Her words said talk to me,
Her eyes glistened with tears,
I tell you now it was folly,
Because my heart’s been silent for years.
Silence, the color of darkness’ bride
The cold embrace of sha�ered glass,
Lo behold I no more shall hide,
From my fate, from my curse
Si�ng under the shade of my dreams,
The one place in hell I’d rather not be...
Reenac�ng my darkest fears,
I screamed too silently for my future to hear..
A leaf fell from atop the tree,
Upon it a worm, or two or three,
And the darkness whispered ,”best believe”
They ought to chomp you up for free...
Gripped by terror my feet scurried up,
But there I was glued by her unsavoury sap,
To thorny roots with gnarly spines,
Behold, sorrow my concubine....
Encircled I was by those snake like roots,
And dragged to the beneath to feed her fruits,
One last breath, one last sight,
One last chance to give up my fight,
Alas, I awoke from deaths epiphany,
And sat uncomfortably under my future’s tree.
... is the voice that calls from deep within,
Preten�ous-check
Gregarious-check
Morose- check
Gregarious?wait!!
Hoarse and groggy, her words so sullen,
Let’s give her a name...I’ll call her Hellen.
Hellen speaks in half syllables
, she concocts parables,
a designer of what I call- fear!
She picks a paint brush
, she says to me “hush!”
She drabbles over in a rush, the canvass now looks like trash...
...
It was white when we started,
To create art is what I wanted,
My muse was ready, seated,
But Hellen, always so conceited...
So where I’d put green she’d put grey,
The color of something dead,like clay,
Where I’d put yellow she put red,
“t won’t be okay” she’d said...
It was never going to be okay,
Not when she sat on my thoughts all day,
Not when she whispered gloom in my ears,
Not when she robed herself in my fears...
It was never going to be okay,
For as long as my nights were spent drinking,
And my thoughts coralled and thinking,
That the creature I saw when I looked in the mirror,
Bowed, bent, broken,oh dear,
Was the truest version of we...
My mind robs my soul of a few moments of peace,
How I long for an eternity of bliss,
Quiet in the deep, beneath the veil of sadness,
Where pain feels no worse than sex,
And joy feels no ho�er than madness,
That’s the place I shall find rest!...
The feeling when my head hits the water,
You’d be surprised how long you can hold your breath in the sink,
Bubble, bubble
There’s no pain in the deep
And if you follow me under water I promise you won’t weep,
Hands �ghtly gripping the sink,
It’d be pre�y if blood wasn’t crimson but pink..
Bubble bubble,
I feel my chest �ghten,
The song calls out in the voice of a siren,
Coax, cajole, there is no hesita�on,
My journey is fueled by wicked dedica�on
Jerks in my foot,
Hold me down harder,
It’s much easier to shoot,
No pain, just color..
Water on my mind,
I could leave this act behind,
The fight is with pain,
There are no spoils, no gains...
Bubble, bubble,
I can breath under the rubble,
Dreams sha�ered to pieces,
No more regrets, no more wishes.
Been losing for a while now,
Don’t know why I’m s�ll playing.
They called it quits on the show,
But I’m s�ll wai�ng...
Been out of cards to play but I’m s�ll at the table,
Wanna get up and leave but God I’m not able...
Lost all my chips in a round of harsh plays,
Now hoping for an angel to come and save the day...
But there ain’t no angels coming this far down,
Desola�on the name I call this lonely town..
There ain’t no miracles either, coz we don’ believe,
So we live our lives like a pack of thieves..
We rob the hearts of some to fill up gaping holes,
But one love’s never enough for a broken soul.
I look to the heavens and cry out to my Deity,
Tears flow in streams and I drown in infidelity,
Where is redemp�on for those this far gone,
Where is that person we can call home...
So we flirt with death and kiss pain on the cheek,
No one told us strong was the new weak..
Don’t know how to win any be�er than how to exist,
I served happiness with a cease and desist...
So I’m all out of aces,
And I’m Coun�ng the paces,
It’s gonna take me to walk away,
To a new table, to a new play.
History will remember,
The tears I caused to flow,
The love I burned, the bridges I broke..
It will remember stormy nights and raging tempests
Punishment for feelings in excess...
It will remember bright fiery flashes in the night,
Because we brought guns to a heart’s fight!
And smoke rising up in gloomy plumes,
Karma the bitch portending my doom...
History will tell of poison ivies that grew,
From an earth soaked by tears old and new..
The scent of darkness that wa�ed forth,
Beau�ful tragedy, as far as it goes...
History will remember false promises and truer lies,
That caused hearty laughter and mournful cries,
Lost souls in the search for self,
Broken hearts decorate my shelf...
So let’s sing songs that serve as a reminder,
Of all the innocent hearts we’ve had to plunder,
Warming our souls and breathing in soot,
From the fire burning our lovers’ loot
Title by A.10
My shrink got �red of me,she said I can’t be fixed..
Said it’d be easier to separate shit and water that had been mixed..
I told her I’m the shit and she’s the water and we’d make a great pair,
She cursed at me, called me senseless and told me it’s over..
We’re dri�ers in the wind, floa�ng about like plas�c bags in a sand storm..
Our paths intertwined with infinite chaos,
Our name is faceless and our brand is loss...
Like birds we perch on the precipice of risk,
Watching the mundane unfold like a story from Poe...
Life’s the show we didn’t get invited to,
Tickets too pricy the tag said happy.
So we’d sat on the roof of insanity’s domicile,
And using the space between life and death as a stage,
We enacted the tragedy that was our wages,
For sins unforgiven,
Loves unforgo�en,
Promises unkept,
Sa�sfac�ons unfelt...
We danced on the �ps of des�ny’s spears,
Waltzed to the so� hum of our darkest fears,
Drank toasts to our homes going up in flames,
Tore up our lists of safe haven’s names...
The moon painted our voices a silvery sad,
Tiny reflec�ons of madness illumina�ng the sky like a rain of stars;
See how we choose to drive to the edge in our beat cars,
The revving, the screeching, the skidding is an orchestra,
They sing a song called the heart collector...
Sun rises and safety bleeds away,
Another face for another day,
Pop some pills coz we learned to be healers,
But in reality, we are just dri�ers
There you go again loving the way I smile,
There you go again following me for another painful mile;
Crying yourself to sleep into your pillow case,
See that brilliant smile on your morning face;
Pain�ng coats of red paint over the grey,
You’re losing your self but you refuse to say...
It’s ge�ng colder in here yet s�ll you stay,
This path leads to damna�on, there’s no other way..
Hair stands on my body when I think of you,
Beau�ful memories now filtering through,
Walls of concrete hiding corpses,
Of lovers and of my losses....
Minus one degree and You are star�ng to shiver,
Difference is when I was born is when I started to wither...
Blankets are unwelcome, there’s no room for safety,
TREVOR KWAGALA