Im writing this idk why…but I think this is the only form of expressing that I can do.

Im not able to
express myself in talk.infact this way also im not able to say it all but I will try my max.

For the past few months I don’t feel good at at nd this I mean mentally not physically. The past few
weeks have been the worst. I always feel some sort of fear and pain inside my head and its so
difficult to make it go away.

I feel so tired of staying here, trying to make people happy, trying to be happy, everything. I just feel
like going somewhere far without people and just sitting. But if I get that then also I wont be happy I
know. This constant pain is driving me crazy. The last 2 things I did have made me mental and I have
realised that something is actually wrong and that I need to take help from someone.

First when raina dhi said a lot of things, its like after a point I couldn’t even process anything she
said. My mind was just fully clouded nd someone was screaming sooooooo soooo loud and it was so
scary and painful. I needed some other pain to make it go away an I was feeling so weak. So after I
fell on floor I know I hit my head on the ground so many times cz that pain felt much better than the
other inside. Then I just wanted to run away from everyone nd just go and go and go so far to try
and make it go. But I just kept feeling more and more scared and the ppain kept increasing like
anything. I knew there were ppl around me asking me to do things but I cpuldnt move. I just wanted
to run away to the farthest place. After that again I was told that I don’t care anyone , im selfish ,
only I need a boy for timepass, everything. I don’t even have parents to whom ican open up. I used
to think my father cared a lot about me and