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Solo Retreat Notes
Feb-Mar 2019
"If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to a man as it is, infinite."
— William Blake
— Mansur Al-Hallaj
Ideas here are presented raw, unpolished, and half-baked, trying to stay true to how I experienced
things.
These are some of the highest teachings, the deepest insights mankind has. To understand what
is written here will require a typical human 40 years of hardcore meditative practice — and even
then, you will still likely not understand everything said here. Keep in mind that this is radically
advanced stuff, totally beyond the ego-mind's ability to accept or understand. These teachings are
the equivalent of enrolling in the most advanced college calculus class. It requires an deep
foundation of psychological, philosophical, and spiritual inquiry and research.
If all of this sounds like too much for you, you probably should just forget all this and go do some
basic self-help for 5 or 10 years. Then come back. Most people are not equipped to comprehend
what is said in this document. Only a tiny number of human beings on the entire planet will
understand what is said here. That’s just how it must be given the enormity of what reality is.
Awakening is deeper than I ever thought, imagined, or previously experienced.
The highest teaching is:
o 1) You are God & 2) God is infinite & 3) God is nothingness
Infinite power
Infinite intelligence
Infinite goodness
Infinite love
Infinite creativity
Eternal
Infinite fractal
Infinite pure consciousness
Infinite selflessness
Absolute Truth
To be fully woke is to realize all the above and have it be a part of your living
daily experience.
o You are NOT just a part of God, you are God, period.
I am now suspicious of any nondual teachings which do not explicitly call out the existence of
God, or that you are God. They are either not the highest teachings or they are playing coy or
Facets of Awakening:
Realizing you are God
Realizing there is and never was a self
Realizing I AM-ness
Realizing you are everything
Realizing you are nothing
Realizing nothing = everything = infinity = zero
Realizing eternity, realizing that time is an illusion
Realizing there is no perception, you aren't seeing things, you are being things
Realizing what is samadhi/direct experience/Being
Realizing you & other are one
Realizing you are Buddha, Jesus, Mahavira, Muhammad, etc.
Realizing you cannot die
Realizing that everything is nowhere
Realization of what Truth is and means
Realization of what Absolute is and means
Realization of infinite Intelligence
Realization that the world is designed, not random or arbitrary
Realization that you created yourself