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Please accept my most humble obeisances in the dust of your lotus feet.
All glories to you!
This year I have no tales to share with you of adventures in foreign
lands, of festivals so grand that a million souls heard the holy names
and tens of thousands took prasadam, or of your temples around the
world where I was witness to your faithful followers’ preaching of your
wonderous glories far and wide.
For exactly 50 years to the day, I have traversed this planet sharing your
message of Krsna consciousness wherever I go and with whomever I
meet. It was the joy of my life and I thought it would never end! Then
suddenly the entire world came to a screeching halt, and I with it. From
where I was stationed in Vrindavan, India, I watched in disbelief as an
invisible foe forced the entire human race to their knees and a lockdown
sent the world spiralling downwards like nothing within living
memory.
But for all the chaos and confusion that has eclipsed the world, the
worst outcome has been that the loud chanting of Krsna’s holy names
has been muffled to a whisper. Usually resounding throughout the
world, the names are now being chanted and heard only by isolated
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devotees huddled in front of computer screens. They watch the best of
ISKCON’s kirtan leaders, often singing alone, with no call and response
to enliven them.
As the world struggled with the viral pandemic, I, like every other
human on the planet, was forced to adjust to a new reality. The driving
force in my life has always been your instruction to me: “Preach boldly
and have faith in the holy names.” While contemplating the
alternatives for continuing my service from behind closed doors, I
began searching for directives from your Divine Grace. How could I sit
tight in Vrindavan for months – maybe even for years – and not become
restless? Then I remembered an instruction you gave me in a letter in
1971: “Always follow in the footsteps of advanced devotees.”
Traditionally, Vrindavan is the place where advanced devotees retire to
engage in solitary bhajan day in and day out with a fixed routine of
basic hearing and chanting. Although you have many times warned
that neophyte devotees should not leave their preaching services to
engage in solitary bhajan, there appeared to be no alternative for me.
Fortunately, I was aware of your purport in Srimad Bhagavatam where
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you actually invite your disciples to come to Vrindavan for the very
purpose of advancing in Krsna consciousness:
“One must go to the Vrindavan forest and take shelter of Govinda. That
will make one happy. The International Society for Krsna Consciousness
is, therefore, constructing a Krsna-Balarama temple to invite its
members as well as outsiders to come and live peacefully in a spiritual
atmosphere. That will help one become elevated to the transcendental
world and return home, back to Godhead.”
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speak. But any doubts that remained about sitting tight in Vrindavan
doing “solitary bhajan” were dispelled the next day when I chanced
upon another one of your stellar purports in Srimad Bhagavatam:
“Thus Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakur advocated that every devotee,
under the guidance of an expert spiritual master, preach the Bhakti
movement, Krishna Consciousness, all over the world. Only when one
is mature can he sit in a solitary place and retire from preaching all over
the world. Following this example, the devotees of the International
Society for Krishna Consciousness now render service as preachers in
various parts of the world. Now they can allow the spiritual master to
retire from active preaching work. In the last stage of the spiritual
master’s life, the devotees of the spiritual master should take the
preaching activities into their own hands. In this way, the spiritual
master can sit down in a solitary place and render nirjana-bhajan.”
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You looked at me and replied:
“Yes. He’s praying how you can become mad without seeing Krsna. That
is highest stage. It cannot be explained. But when you gradually go
higher and higher you will understand.”
Srila Prabhupada, I’m ashamed to say that after so many years I have
still not reached the goal. But I hope that one day I will truly
understand how Lord Caitanya was “mad” in separation from Krsna! A
similar emotion is expressed by Rupa Goswami:
"I have no love for Krsna, nor for the causes of developing love of Krsna
– namely, hearing and chanting. And the process of bhakti-yoga, by
which one is always thinking of Krsna and fixing His lotus feet in the
heart, is also lacking in me. As far as philosophical knowledge or pious
works are concerned, I don't see any opportunity for me to execute such
activities. But above all, I am not even born of a nice family. Therefore I
must simply pray to You, Gopijana-vallabha [ Krsna, maintainer and
beloved of the gopis ]. I simply wish and hope that some way or other I
may be able to approach Your lotus feet, and this hope is giving me
pain, because I think myself quite incompetent to approach that
transcendental goal of life."
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“Once when a cowherd boy named Vrsabha was collecting flowers from
the forest to prepare a garland to be offered to Krsna, the sun reached its
zenith, and although the sunshine was scorching hot, Vrsabha felt it to
be like the moonshine. That is the way of rendering transcendental
loving service to the Lord; when devotees are put into great difficulties –
even like the Pandavas, as described above – they feel all their miserable
conditions to be great facilities for serving the Lord.”