Blessed fear

I faintly see what is coming, hurdling fast and intently

I feel it hunting, eyeing like a predator but more deadly

To trap and set me free

To enslave me so gracefully

To hit me hard and shape me softly

I feel something I can’t describe

I’m going deeper every time I try to gasp

It won’t let me breath, as I did before

But tells me I will never need air any more

It is seeking me out to make and destroy me

I’m losing myself bit by bit, to the spirit of the crazy

I fear the life he wants from me, the demands of the infinite

I tremble in fear, seeing the ones

The ones that don’t see only through eyes

The ones that live as they are

Children delighting in the divine

Destroyed and made, he broke and fixed

To be before him truly naked

To be infected by his spirit, cleansed anew

To lose thy self and seek with fear

To tremble truly in awe of his face

A gift I shall cherish, a gift I shall embrace

 I fear and hope this is my fate

For I seek this fear and love it dearly

For it points towards greater glory

It’s my freedom from empty atoms, my salvation from burning hell

A fear I fear will disappear

A fear I pray for, a fear I long to

Divine fear, the best and worst

The fear of god, the fruit of all knowledge