on monday i slept until noon and missed 34 calls from my landlord

later that day a girl gave me a flyer with a lot of questions

on depression and ageing one of the questions was ‘are you afraid of dying’

i think i want to die suddenly like have a heart attack and just die

like maybe eat tuna with mayo and then all of a sudden die

i never felt ok with the idea of life after death

i dont want to continue to be myself or anyone else

imagine talking to someone about the eternal return right before you die

the idea of repeting something over&&& over again

for an infinite period of time....... is scary

this makes me rethink my choices like

how much money in a lifetime for starbucks coffee

(((??????????)))
being dead sounds magnificent

the only thing that makes me exist in this very moment

is my instagram profile even tho

i havent uploaded a selfie in a rlly long time

my relationships are ambiguous and contradictory

some of them are bound 2 happen

while others are completely hazardous

its immoral for us not to be together

when things go really bad i remember there is a thing called praying

i make sure my hands touch each other in a visually pleasing way

i think god is really upset when i think about other stuff when i pray

the moment you make up your mind regarding a decision

is a moment worth of celebrating

im in serious need of a life-couch or smth

im immune to living a fully functional life

i had a nervous breakdown and i cut my hair in a very funny way.

isnt it funny

when i lay in the sun i always imagine it as a circle full of light

think abt how the sun feels when its touching the skin

p sure we can agree it must feel great

we are all little peaches burnt by the sun

i could def say i was living a profound revelation

of how light works and illuminate all things

including the perception of my body and religious beliefs

sipping lemon water in a pool is rlly refreshing

it gives you energy to study the sun&&&

the way water looks amazing in the sunlight

i wish i could love my body

as much as i love the sun

i wish it would spread its never-ending light

just like the circle remains a continous loop