OTHER WORLDS WE COME TO our senses. Well, Olly comes to his. He pulls away, grips my shoulders with both hands. “What are you doing out here? Are you all right? Is something wrong? Is your mom OK?” I’m all bravado, “I’m fine. She’s fine. I’m running away.” The light from his room above casts just enough light so I can see confusion across the planes of his face. “JT don’t understand,” he says. take a deep breath, but freeze midway. The night air is cold and moist and heavy and completely unlike any air I’ve ever breathed. Luy to unbreathe it, to expel it from my lungs. My lips tingle and I’m light- headed. Is that just fear, or is it something else? “Maddy, Maddy,” he whispers against my ear. “What have you done?” I can’t answer. My throat is blocked like I’ve swallowed a stone. “Try not to breathe,” he says, and starts guiding me back to my house. Tlet him pull me for a second, maybe two, but then I stop moving. “What is it? Can you walk? Do you need me to carry you?” I shake my head and pull my hand from his. Itake a sip of night air. “I said I’m running away.” He makes a sound like a growl. “What are you talking about? Do you have a death wish?” “Opposite,” I say. “Will you help me?” “With what?” “J don’t have a car. I don’t know how to drive. I don’t know anything about the world.” He makes another sound halfway between a growl and a laugh. I wish I could see his eyes in the dark.Something slams. A door? I grab his hands and pull us both flat against the side of his house. “What was that?” “Jesus. A door. From my house.” I press myself flatter against the wall, trying to disappear. I peek over to the path leading from my house, fully expecting to see my mother coming down it. But she’s not there. I close my eyes. “Take me to the roof.” “Maddy—” “T’'ll explain everything.” ‘My entire plan hangs on him helping me. I didn’t really consider what would happen if he refused. ‘We are quiet for one breath. And then two. And then three. He takes my hand and guides me around to the side of his house farthest from mine. There’s a tall ladder leading to the roof. “Are you afraid of heights?” he asks. “1 don’t know.” I start climbing. I duck down as soon as we get to the roof, but Olly says there’s no need. “Most people don’t look up anyway,” he says. It takes a few minutes for my heart to return to normal. Olly folds himself down with his usual unusual grace. I’m happy to watch him move. “So, what now?” he asks after a time. I look around. I’d always wanted to know what he did up here. The roof is gabled in parts, but we’re sitting on a flat section toward the back. I make out shapes: a small wooden table with a mug, a lamp, and some crumpled papers. Maybe he writes up here, composes bad poetry. Limericks. “Does that lamp work?” I ask. He wordlessly turns it on, and it casts a diffuse circle of light around us. I’m almost afraid to look at him. The crumpled papers on the table are fast-food wrappers. Not a secret poet, then. Next to the table there’s a dusty gray tarp covering something, or somethings. The ground is littered with tools—wrenches, wire cutters in various sizes, hammers, and a few others that I don’t recognize. There’s even a blowtorch.I finally look over at him. His elbows are on his knees and he’s staring out at the slowly brightening sky. “What do you do up here?” I ask. “That can’t possibly matter right now.” His voice is hard and he doesn’t look at me. There’s no trace of the boy who kissed me so desperately a few minutes ago. His fear for me has crowded everything else out. Sometimes you do things for the right reasons and sometimes for the wrong ones and sometimes it’s impossible to tell the difference. “Thave pills,” I say. He’s barely moving as it is, but now he grows completely still. “What pills?” “They’re experimental, not FDA-approved. I ordered them online. From Canada.” The lie is easy, effortless. “Online? How do you know they’re even safe?” “ did a lot of research.” “But still, you can’t be sure—” “T’m not reckless.” I hold his eyes. These lies are for his own protection. Already he looks relieved. I press on. “They should give me a few days outside. I didn’t tell my mom because she wouldn’t want to risk it, but I—” “Because it’s risky. You just said they’re not FDA—” “They’re safe enough for a few days.” My tone holds no doubt. I wait, hoping that he will swallow the lie. “Jesus.” He drops his face into his hands and holds it there. When he looks up, it’s a less obstinate Olly staring back at me. Even his voice softens. “You could have told me this five minutes ago.” I make my best effort to lighten the mood. “We were kissing! And then you were getting angry with me.” I’m blushing from the talk of kissing and from my easy lying. “I was going to tell you. I am telling you. I just did.” He’s much too smart to fall for this, but he wants it to be true. He wants it to be true more than he wants the truth. The smile that breaks across his face is cautious, but so beautiful that I can’t look away. I would lie to him again for that smile. “Now,” I say. “What’s under that thing?” He hands me a corner of the tarp and I pull it aside.SRA DeN YAN is At first I’m not sure what I’m looking at. It’s like reading a seemingly random collection of words before the sentence becomes clear.“It’s beautiful,” I say. “Tt’s called an orrery.” “This is what you’ve been doing up here? Making universes?” He shrugs. ‘A small wind blows and the planets spin slowly. We both watch their motion without speaking. “Are you sure about this?” Doubt has crept back into his voice. “Please help me, Olly. Please.” I point to the orrery. “I need to escape, too, just for a litde while.” He nods. “Where do you want to go?”ALOHA MEANS HELLO AND GOOD-BYE, PART TWO Email paqooce seams OS Mahalo For Choosing Plumeria Airlines! oe msox.e) une Aries ele DRAFTS TRASH MORE Plumerfia A\firllimes Get ready to say Aloha Your flight details are below. ‘CONFIRMATION NUMBER: AFTOOQ, DEPARTING FROM 70 PASSENGER(S) CLASS SEAT Oct 10,2014 LAX OGG Madeline Coach 21F/) 7:00 a.m. Los Angeles, Kahului, HI Whittier cA Oliver Bright Coach 21HAPPY ALREADY “MADS, BE SERIOUS. We can’t go to Hawaii.” “Why not? I got us plane tickets. I booked us a hotel.” ‘We're sitting in Olly’s car in the driveway. He puts the key in the ignition, but doesn’t turn it. “Are you kidding?” he asks, scrutinizing my face for evidence that I’m kidding. He doesn’t find any and begins shaking his head slowly. “Hawaii is three thousand miles away.” “Hence the airplane.” He ignores my attempt at levity. “You’re serious? When did you do this? How? Why?” “One more question and you'll have a Fast Five,” I say. He leans forward, presses his forehead into the steering wheel. “Last night, with a credit card, because I want to see the world.” “You have a credit card?” “I got my own a few weeks ago. There are perks to hanging out with an older woman.” He pulls his forehead off the wheel, but still stares straight ahead not meeting my eyes. “What if something happens to you?” “Nothing will.” “But what if it does?” “[have the pills, Olly. They’re going to work.” He squeezes his eyes shut and puts his hand on the key. “You know, we have plenty of world right here in southern California.” “But no humuhumunukunukuapuaa.” A small half smile forms at the corner of his lips. I need to make it spread across his entire face. He turns to face me. “What are you talking about?” “The humuhumunukunukuapuaa.”“What is a humu-whatever?” “The state fish of Hawaii.” His smile broadens. “Of course it is.” He turns the key in the ignition. His eyes linger on his house and his smile fades, just slightly. “How long?” “Two nights.” “OK.” He grabs my hand and gives it a quick kiss. “Let’s go see this fish.” Olly’s mood gets better, lighter somehow, the farther away from his house that we get. This trip gives him the perfect excuse to let go of the burden of his family for a little while, at least. Also, an old friend of his from New York, Zach, lives in Maui. “You'll love him,” he tells me. “[’ll love everything,” I respond. Our flight’s not until 7 a.m. and I have a detour I want to make. Being in his car is like being in a very loud, very fast-moving bubble. He refuses to open the windows. Instead, he presses a button on the dashboard that prevents air circulation. The sound of the tires on asphalt is like someone hissing Jow and constant into my ears. I fight the urge to cover them. Olly says we’re not going very fast, but to me we’re hurtling through space. I’ve read that passengers on high-speed trains say that the world outside the train blurs from the speed. I know we’re not going anywhere near that fast. But still, the landscape moves too quickly for my slow eyes to hold on to. I barely catch glimpses of houses in the brown hills in the distance. Overhead signs with cryptic symbols and writing come and go before I can decipher them. Bumper stickers and license plates appear and disappear in a blink. Even though I understand the physics of it, I find it strange that my body could be moving though I am sitting still. Well, not exactly still. I’m pushed backward into my seat whenever Olly accelerates and I lurch forward whenever he brakes. Every so often we slow down enough and I can see other people in their cars. ‘We pass a woman shaking her head and slapping at the steering wheel with her hands. Only after we’ve passed her do I figure out that she was probably dancing to music. Two kids in the back of another car stick their tongues out at me and laugh. I don’t do anything because I’m not sure what the etiquette is forthat. Gradually we slow down to a more human speed and leave the highway. “Where are we?” I ask. “She lives in Koreatown.” My head buzzes from trying to look everywhere at once. There are brightly lit signs and billboards written only in Korean. Since I can’t read the language, the signs seem like art pieces with beautiful, mysterious forms. Of course, they probably just say things as mundane as Restaurant or Pharmacy or Open 24 Hours. It’s early, but still there are so many people doing so many things—walking or talking or sitting or standing or running or riding bicycles. I don’t quite believe they’re really real. They’re just like the mini figures I pose in my architecture models, here to give Koreatown the vigor of life. Or maybe it’s me that’s not really real, not really here at all. We drive along for a few minutes more. Eventually we pull up to a two-story apartment complex with a fountain in the courtyard. Olly undoes his seat belt but makes no move to leave the car. “Nothing can happen to you,” he says. Treach over and take his hand. “Thank you,” is all I can think to say. I want to tell him that it’s his fault that I’m out here. That love opens you up to the world. I was happy before I met him. But I’m alive now, and those are not the same thing.