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™ What can I do to shift out of this identity of no matter what, no matter how smart or aware I am, I’m
still going to be stuck in that failure? Gary: You might have to do something terrible. Like what? Gary:
Choose against your family. Ah… Gary: My father died when I was seventeen. I wanted to go into the
Army. I wanted to become a Marine. My mother said, “You need to go to college. If you don’t go to
college, your father will roll over in his grave. It was the only thing he wanted you to do.” So I went to
college. I had been in college for three years. I went home for a visit, and my younger sister had become
a holy roller. These are people who roll down the aisle in the church screaming, “Yes, Jesus! Yes, Jesus!”
I was about twenty at the time. My sister said to me, “If you don’t believe in Jesus, you’re going to hell!”
I said, “Well, to be honest with you, I’m not sure I believe in God.” She ran into the house screaming and
yelling because I didn’t believe in God. My mother said to her, “Don’t worry, honey. That’s just some
silly idea he picked up in college.” My mother had forced me to go to college based on the idea that my
dad was going to turn over in his grave if I didn’t go, but her point of view was that I just picked up silly
ideas in college. I looked at it and said, “That’s crazy. You’re telling my sister that it’s a stupid idea I
learned in college and you’re telling me I need to go to college because otherwise I’m stupid. I’m sorry,
this is stupid!” I started flunking out of college just to prove her wrong. I finally looked at that and said,
“You know what? That’s stupid too! Why am I trying to prove my mother is right by proving I’m stupid
for going to school and that I’m stupid by not going to school and that I’m stupid for flunking out of
school and what the hell am I trying to believe here?” So, would any of you who are still trying to please
your living or longdead parents, stop doing that and instead ask the question: How stupid were my
parents? Everything that is times a godzillion, will you destroy and uncreate it all? Right and wrong, good
and bad, POD and POC, all 9, shorts, boys and beyonds.™ Question: The first time I experienced being in
the question, it felt like nothing at all. It didn’t feel like what you guys are saying. When I ask questions,
it seems like I’m in the mud. It feels like I’m in the mind. Dain: Everything you’ve decided that living as
the question is—and everything that you think it’s going to feel like when you do it—is a projection from
a point of view. It’s not a question. Gary: Everything you’ve decided living as the question is going to be
and what it’s going to look like, will you destroy and uncreate it all times a godzillion? Right and wrong,
good and bad, POD and POC, all 9, shorts, boys and beyonds.™ Dain: When you have a way of being that
is about this reality, you function from answer. You twist you out of the willingness to be the question as
though that’s an abhorrence. When you do that, you’re setting up your body to be the physical
embodiment of this reality and to carry that burden for you so you don’t have to twist yourself out of
the question every moment of every day. Gary: Your body has to go along for the ride of consciousness
as much as you do. It’s amazing, the changes that can occur in your body and in your connection with
everything around you when you live as the question. Your body is a sensory organ that gives you
information. It tells you what’s going on around you. If you’re not willing to be in communion with it,
you cut off ninety percent of what you’re capable of perceiving, knowing, being and receiving. Is that
where you want to live?