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ber te get the snow ttes ot and go no the bank and take back
the beer bottles, becaute their husbands are auch beilliant,
vuich talented incapable men, who must be looked alter foe
the sake of the words that will some from them, ‘The
women in the audience are married 10 engineers or doctors
or businewmen, Lknow them, they are my friends. Some of
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“He stuf will be ruined”
“Best thing could happen to st. Anyway, it wou't”
‘He could noc have hit me, 1 war too lL.
did hit me, unless 1 hit him first. He sould have gone
and turned it off again, and T could have turned it on,
arul 50 00, how long could that last? He could have held
ine doven, but if 1 struggled he would have bern afraid
of hurting tie. He could have swoen at me and left the
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‘him to stay out He probably just have r
vier leat coc ave tke a blanket tnd
sep te ring rm crck fo th re of
fight hi tet what ¢ woman of em chavaces woul
are doe sk at enh wo wh wae at
to lase would have done. Rut 1 dal ot do i. ty
said 10 myself that 1 did not know haw the
Spal ial keer eeneiest oree
that [seas afeabd of Hugo. I entertaied the posbiliy that
Hugo might be right, nothing would happen. Bur ¥ wanted
something to happen, 1 wanted Hug co crash
Vas Lists os fags es gu lt pag oe
Uhapig nal, Dey wes prating ca the dor et
up of the busement star.
“You wou’ believe your eyes what's down here. tim
tap to my knees in water: {jun put my feet cat of bea and
Lip to amy lebees ios water, What happened? You heat the
pamp go afl?”
Nay" [i
"I don't know what could've gone wrongs L guem it
caulve gue overworked. U had 2 couple of beers before
wet fe eit won known thet wat wing
‘wrong: 1 usally sicp light. Bur I wan sicping
and { pur my fet out of fed! and Jean, ite a good thing
ful’ pull ashe Light switch at the same tne, 1 would
have bern Everythings floating”
[Nothing war floating upd the watcr wobld poe have
some to any grown perion's knecs, {twee abut Five inches
deep in same places, only ane ar two in other, the Aor
0 uneven, It had soaked and stained the Bortor of
her cheterfekd anil chairs and gat intn the bottom drawers
and and warped the boris of ber piano. The
cfs rel acy te lg tb
lar heater ruined,
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took a broom dewnstairs. | itarted: ying the water to
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a fault and charge her, We were in luck, [ aw. (We
were?) Dotty's expectation and thrifty relish of misfortune
made het fe likely chan almost anyone ee would have been
at to me, eh? I never get
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‘coakn's hamlet. That wa after I narned icon
“The pump couldn't hulle it ist night beenaie the
ump wae on Tight al dont kw me botany
“Well here was one, You were asleep”
“You have no idts what you've done, do you? You
don’t even stick around to look at it. I have to look, 1 have
4 cope. I have to fist 0 that poor woman.”
ist
af iy mal ie”
verity Tia a ee
carpe tere agi pry Tic Benen,
‘made anf { told you you'd make and you're blooly sorry.”
“Vhave to go to a seminar. | am sorry, J can’t talk
pow, its no goo! raking ro you mows Flan know what
youth trig to get me tay”
“Fi just trying to get you to realie.”
“All tight, relia. Thoagh 1 stil think it happened
moening
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You drainatne™
1 deamatie?™
Our Juck held, Douy’s mother war et 30 Tikey at
Dotty tw do without explanations and ic was, afterall er
floor tiles and wallboord that were ruined Hut Dotty
mathee was sick, the cold wet weather had uedeemined her
ton, am ie was taken to honpital with pncurmonia that very
morning. Dray went to live ia her mother’s house, to hook
after the botrders. The basement had « diagusting, moldy
aimell, We move out fon, & short ine Inter. Jit before
‘Clea was bor we tonk over a house in North Vancouver,
tbelonging to seme friends who had! gone to England. The
quarrel between ty aided! in the excitement of moving
‘i wat never really resolved. We did not move much from
the pomtions we had taken on the phone. Exit you don't
realize, you never reali, are be aah, what do you want ane
tomy? Why do yoo make woch a fu over this, be axed
renonably. Anybody sight worden, Long after Twa ayay
rots bien wanderel ton. could have tured on the pues,
ay T huve said, taking responsibility for boch of ur, ax 3
reilitic woman, 2 really married woman,
we dee, aT am wre Mary Francey woul have done, di
san times, uring the tes years she Tasted. Or 1 could have
told Desay the truth, though she war not a very good ehice
this42 favncthing Ive Been Meaning To Tel Yow
to receive mich information, I could have told somebody,
thaught it was that important, pied Fugo out into
timpleatant world and let him taste trouble, But 1 didn’
was ct able fay to protcct or expose him, oly 0 Rog
desperate sexnetimey,
Fors
veh Hane fing | weak hw bi
to eee ‘notion of what
pr seg my a:
ha bd fh: Ua ates eae ae
lrg” the ‘counselor said tou a while
ate We laughed rill we cried in the deeary rrnicipal hall
counseling wa | ‘That is our problem, we ssid to
cher, what a rele wo kao i ity.
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1 did not read Hugo's stary chat righ. 1 eft i with
fie Lat werd of our ecies in F and
inviting habit, She was in wach a hurry 10 agree she
te understand, Huge has remembered this, and when did
Higge err tal to Deny?
‘That dct mater, What natter is that this sory of
nleliey
‘Dotty lifted out of fife and held in light,
i the acho cht d that Fag han open all hin ie
learning bow a la ca sitchin
around i: i an act, you taight sy, of a ypecia, uneparing,
aerdeesa oA fn sod icky bree:
‘was.a lucky penon, people who understand aul value ¢hit
act_might say (ot everybody, of course, docs understand
and value thin act); she wan locky 20 live in that baseanent
for a few months and eventually to have this done to: her,
she deesn't know what has been done and wouldn't
it, probably, if ahe di know, She has passed into
Ari doce i ery
Don't Ironic objections ate a habit with
ie Vp baci a ec | ase hes been
as | rset Ente hele ai he
‘Accept my thanks,
1 did think that T wend write 2 letter to Hugo, All
the time | was preparing dinner, and eating i, and talking
(@ Gabriel and the children, | was thinking of a letter. 1 wan
tell him how strange it was for me to
realize that we shared, sill shared, the same bank of roem.
and akdments, aselest
for me, was and usable, a paying inveament,
‘1 apologize, in some nocoutright
‘hat having believed he woul bea writer. Acknowe:
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thei hive managed! sormet !
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