Give me anaesthesia for the days

i have been with or without you

either ways i wish to forget
a longing for the perfect two.

I close my eyes every now and then

hoping this would just be a dream
but its more, its a dark nightmare
finding myself shatter and scream.

I tell my self this would be over

and fake my smiles a little clearer
at times i feel i deserve an oscar
for acting yet so happy and shover.