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LI by Mark McAuliffe
The next day when I woke up, you were curled into
a ball on the couch with your wrists between your
legs. You were adorable. Until you woke up and tried
to claw my eyes out of my head.
I held your wrists in front of me and sat down hard.
We were both sitting down with our arms between us,
and every time you growled and tried to bite me, I
would squeeze your arms and push you down on the
floor. Then I would loosen my grip and let you sit up
again and you would try to bite me again. It took the
better part of the day before you finally figured out
that each time you tried to bite me, you would end up
sitting on the floor again. Finally you surrendered. A
disappointed expression came across your face, and
you made a whimpering sound.
I stood up and backed away from you into the
kitchen. You watched me, but didn’t try to scramble
up and attack me again. I reached into the cupboard
and took out a bag of dried tangerine slices and sat
down across from you on the floor. I opened up the
bag and dumped half of it onto the floor between us.
You watched my hands with rapt fascination. I took a
dried tangerine slice from the top of the pile and put it
into my mouth, chewed it and said, “See?” pointing to
my mouth, then the pile of tangerine slices, then your
mouth.
You followed my gestures and pouted, then
reached out and took a tangerine slice and brought
both of your hands, still joined at the wrist by the
handcuffs, up to your nose. You sniffed the tangerine
slice and made a sour face. I gestured that you
should put it into your mouth, and you put it in half-
heartedly, chewed it a couple times before working it
towards the edge of your mouth and spitting it onto
the floor.
I wanted to respect the fact that you had been a
vegetarian, but everyone knows what the undead
crave. I broke out a bag of beef jerky and put a
couple strips on the floor in front of you, and you
picked one up and jammed it up into your mouth
gnawing on it with a contented look. I suppose that
one’s moral imperatives from life do not necessarily
carry over to the other side of death.
I spent the day getting you used to having me
around without trying to bite me. At the end of the
day when I started to get exhausted, I went into the
other room and closed the door, and you didn’t try to
break it down. All I heard were the quiet sounds you
were making in the other room and your rheumy
respiration.
The next day when you woke up, you sat up and
watched me go over to the kitchen. I opened up
another bag of beef jerky and gave you two strips for
breakfast. You gnawed at them contentedly, making
little nonsense sounds while you chewed.
I poured a cup of water, and when I put my hands
under your chin to lift it up and pour water into your
mouth, you watched my hands out of the corner of
your eyes, but you didn’t try to bite me. I would have
to be insane to think that you weren’t thinking about it.
You took the water in and swallowed. I poured more
into your mouth and you swallowed and gasped.
You sat on the couch watching me as I walked
around the room. I pulled your glasses out of my
pocket and put them on the bridge of your nose, then
slipped the ear bows over your ears and adjusted
them. You wrinkled your nose, then blinked and
looked around. I took out a comb and I combed your
bangs, because I remember how particular you were
about your bangs being in the right place. Finally, I
took out the chain with the padlock on it, and when I
leaned forward to put it around your neck our eyes
stayed locked. You watched my wrists as my hands
fastened the lock.
There.
It wasn’t the same. It was just sad. You still had a
beautiful face and an admirable bone structure
underneath, but there was something missing from
inside your eyes. A comprehension that would never
return.
I left apartment to go for a walk. I needed some
fresh air.
While I was out walking I thought back to the time
that we used to spend together. How I would tell you
that I loved you and how you would say that you loved
me too. I thought about New Year’s Eve when we
were having sex while the ball dropped and I kept
saying, “I love you. I love you. I love you.” Because
it was the only way I could think of to express the way
that I felt about you at that moment, as if I were to say
it enough times that it would engrave itself into your
skin and you would know it forever.
When I came back you were still sitting on the
couch making happy noises to yourself. I thought
about Frankenstein and his Bride, both returned from
the dead, then returned to the dead. I remembered
you drew me a picture once. You drew it in red ink. It
was a picture of a couple standing outside of a Tunnel
of Love and they were both spattered with blood and
were dead and were holding hands. In a creepy font
you wrote, “Till Death Do Us Part” underneath it all
and while you were talking about the picture, you said
that the couple in the picture was supposed to be us
and that you could see us being married someday.
I believed you.
That night, I unlocked your handcuffs and
massaged your wrists. When I went into the other
room, I didn’t close the door. I turned the light off and
in the darkness I heard you enter and felt the
pressure as you put the weight of both hands, then
one knee, then the other onto the end of the bed. I
felt the weight shift as you crawled up the mattress.
I don’t care what happens next. I can feel you
leaning over me, your knees on either side of me, like
we sometimes found ourselves during sex, your
sweat dripping down onto my stomach. You’re too
cold to be sweating tonight, and I can smell your sour
breath as you lean down towards me.
If living means not being with you, then I would
rather be dead.
Till death do us part again.
Sean Douglas does not want to get to know you and
isn’t interested if you want to get to know him. He’s
not interested in coming to your town and making
small talk with you or meeting your unattractive
girlfriend. Sean Douglas is interested in smoking
cigarettes and drinking coffee and not sleeping. Sean
Douglas does not have any distinguishing scars or
marks and where he lives is none of your fucking
business.
Companionable As Solitude by Lisamarie Lamb
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