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Playfulness, "World"·Travelling,
and Loving Perception
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t1on, but I do not have any doubt that many women have been taught
to abuse women m th1s particular way I am not mterested m ass1gnmg
respons1b1hty I am mterested m understandmg the phenomenon so as
to understand a lovmg way out of 1t
There 1s somethmg obv10usly wrong w1th the love that I was taught
and somethmg nght w1th my failure to love my mother m th1s way
But I do not thmk that what 1s wrong 1s my profound deslíe to 1dent1fy
with her, to see myself m her, what IS wrong IS that I was taught to
1dent1fy w1th a v1ct1m of enslavement What 1s wrong 1s that I was taught
to pract1ce enslavement of my mother and to learn to become a slave
through th1s practlce There 1s somethmg obv1ously wrong w1th my hav
mg been taught that love 1s cons1stent w1th abuse, cons1stent w1th ar
rogant perceptlon Not1ce that the love I was taught 1s the love that
Frye (1983, 73) speaks of when she says "We can be taken m by this
equat1on of serv1tude w1th love " Even though I could both abuse and
!ove my mother, 1 was not supposed to love servants Th1s 1s because
m the case of servants one 1s and 1s supposed to be clear about thelf
serv1tude and the "equation of serv1tude w1th love" 1s never to be
thought clearly m those terms So, 1 was not supposed to love and could
not love servants But I could love my mother because decept10n (m
particular, self-decept10n) 1s part of th1s "lovmg " Serv1tude 1s called
abnegation and abnegat1on 1s not analyzed any further Abnegat1on
1s not mst1lled m us through an analys1s of 1ts nature but rather through
a heraldmg of 1t as beautiful and noble We are coaxed, seduced mto
abnegat1on not through analys1s but through emot1ve persuas1on Frye
makes the connect10n between decept1on and th1s sense of "lovmg"
clear When I say that there IS somethmg obviously wrong w1th the lov
mg that I was taught, 1 do not mean to say that the connect10n bet
ween th1s lovmg and abuse 1s obv10us Rather I mean that once the
connect1on between th1s lovmg and abuse has been unveiled, there 1s
somethmg obv1ously wrong w1th the lovmg g1ven that 1t 1s obv1ous that
1t 1s wrong to abuse others
I am glad that I did not learn my lessons well, but 1t 1s clear that
part of the mechamsm that perm1tted my not learnmg well mvolved
a separat1on from my mother I saw us as bemgs of qmte a d1fferent
sort lt mvolved an abandonmg of my mother while I longed not to
abandon her I wanted to love my mother, though, g1ven what I was
taught, "love" could not be the nght word for what I longed for
I was disturbed by my not wantmg to be what she was I had a sense
of not bemg qmte mtegrated, my self was m1ssmg because I could not
1dent1fy w1th her, 1 could not see myself m her, 1 could not welcome
her world I saw myself as separate from her, a d1fferent sort of bemg,
not qmte of the same spec1es Th1s separation, th1s lack of love, 1 saw,
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and I thmk that I saw correctly as a lack m myself (not a fault, but
a lack) 1 also see that 1f th1s was a lack of lave, lave cannot be what
I was taught Lave has to be rethought, made anew
There 1s somethmg m common between the relat10n between myself
and my mother as someone I d1d not use to be able to lave and the
relat1on between myself or other women of color m the U S and
Wh1te/Anglo women there 1s a failure of !ove I want to suggest here
that Frye has helped me understand one of the aspects of th1s fallure,
the d1rectly abus1ve aspect But I also thmk that there 1s a complex
failure of !ove m the failure to 1dent1fy w1th another woman, the failure
to see oneself m other women who are quite d1fferent from oneself
I want to begm to analyze th1s complex failure
Not1ce that Frye's emphas1s on mdependence m her analys1s of lovmg
percept1on 1s not part1cularly helpful m explammg th1s failure She says
that m lovmg percept1on, ''the obJect of the seemg 1s another bemg
whose ex1stence and character are log1cally mdependent of the seer and
who may be pract1cally or empmcally mdependent m any particular
respect at any particular time" (Frye 1983, 77) But th1s 1s not helpful
m allowmg me to understand how my failure of !ove toward my mother
(when I ceased to be her paras1te) left me not quite whole It 1s not
helpful smce I saw her as log1cally mdependent from me It also does
not help me to understand why the rac1st or ethnocentnc fadure of lave
of Wh1te/ Anglo women-m particular of those Wh1te/ Anglo women
who are not pained by theu failure-should leave me not quite substan
tive among them Here I am not part1cularly mterested m cases of Wh1te
women's paras1t1sm onto women of color but more pomtedly m cases
where the failure of 1dent1f1cat10n 1s the mamfestat10n of the "rela
t1on " 1 am particularly mterested here m those many cases m wh1ch
Wh1te/Anglo women do one or more of the followmg to women of
color they ignore us, ostrac1ze us, render us mv1S1ble, stereotype us,
leave us completely alone, mterpret us as crazy Ali of th1s whzle we
are in thezr mzdst The more mdependent I am, the more mdependent
I am left to be Theu world and theu mtegnty do not require me at
ali There 1s no sense of self-loss m them for my own lack of sohd1ty
But they rob me of my sohd1ty through md1fference, an md1fference
they can afford and wh1ch seems somet1mes stud1ed (Ali of th1s pomts
of course toward separatism m commumties where our substance 1s seen
and celebrated, where we become substantive through th1s celebrat1on
But many of us have to work among Wh1te/ Anglo folk and our best
shot at recogmtlon has seemed to be among Wh1te/ Anglo women be
cause many of them have expressed a general sense of bemg pamed
at the1r fallure of love )
Many times Wh1te/ Anglo women want us out of theu field of v1s1on
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than one of these "worlds" at the very same time I thIDk that most
of us who are outs1de the maIDstream of, for example, the U S dom1-
nant construct1on or orgamzatlon of hfe are "world travellers" as a
matter of necess1ty and of surv1val It seems to me that IDhab1tIDg more
than one "world" at the same time and "travellIDg" between "worlds"
1s part and parcel of our expenence and our s1tuat1on One can be at
the same time ID a "world" that constructs one as stereotyp1cally latID,
for example, and ID a "world" that constructs one as latID BeIDg stereo
typ1cally latID and beIDg s1mply latID are d1fferent s1multaneous con
structions of persons that are part of d1fferent "worlds " One ammates
one or the other or both at the same time w1thout necessanly confus
IDg them, though s1multaneous enactment can be confusIDg 1f one 1s
not on one's guard
In descnbIDg my sense of a ''world, '' 1 mean to be offenng a descnp
t1on of expenence, somethIDg that 1s true to expenence even 1f 1t 1s on
tolog1cally problematic Though I would thIDk that any account of 1den
t1ty that could not be true to th1s expenence of outs1ders to the
maIDstream would be faulty even 1f ontolog1cally unproblemat1c Its
ease would constraID, erase, or deem aberrant expenence that has WithID
1t s1gmf1cant IDs1ghts IDto non-1mpenahst1c understandIDg between
people
Those of us who are "world"-travellers have the d1stIDct expenence
of beIDg d1fferent ID d1fferent "worlds" and of havIDg the capac1ty to
remember other "worlds" and ourselves ID them We can say "That
1s me there, and I am happy ID that "world " So, the expenence 1s of
beIDg a d1fferent person ID d1fferent "worlds" and yet of havIDg
memory of oneself as d1fferent w1thout qmte havIDg the sense of there
beIDg any underlyIDg "1 " So I can say "that 1s me there and I am so
playful ID that "world " 1 say "That 1s me ID that "world" not because
I recogmze myself ID that person, rather the first person statement 1s
non-IDferential I may well recogmze that that person has ab1ht1es that
I do not have and yet the havIDg or not havIDg of the ab1ht1es 1s always
an "1 have " and "1 do not have ", 1 e 1t 1s always expenenc
ed ID the f1rst person
The sh1ft from beIDg one person to beIDg a d1fferent person 1s what
I call "travel " Th1s sh1ft may not be w1llful or even consc1ous, and
one may be completely unaware of beIDg d1fferent than one 1s ID a d1f
ferent "world," and may not recogmze that one 1s ID a d1fferent
"world "Even though the sh1ft can be done w1llfully, 1t 1s not a matter
of actIDg One does not pose as someone else, one does not pretend
to be, for example, someone of a d1fferent personahty or character or
someone who uses space or language d1fferently than the other per
son Rather one 1s someone who has that personahty or character or
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uses space and language m that particular way The "one" here does
not refer to sorne underlymg "1 " One does not expenence any underly-
1ng "I "
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Playfulness
I had a very personal stake m mvest1gatmg th1s top1c Playfulness
1s not only the attnbute that was the source of rny confus1on and the
att1tude that I recornmend as the lovmg att1tude m travellmg across
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terestmg thmg for Th1rd World people to thmk about Western c1V1hza-
t1on has been mterpreted by a whlte western man as play m the agomst1c
sense of play Hwzmga reviews western law, art, and many other aspects
of western culture and sees agon m ali of them Agomstlc playfulness
leads those who attempt to travel to another "world" w1th th1s att1tude
to failure Agomstic travellers fail cons1stently m the1r attempt to travel
because what they do is to try to conquer the other "world " The at-
tempt is not an attempt to try to erase the other ''world '' That is what
ass1milation is ali about Ass1mdation is the destruct1on of other peo-
ple' s "worlds " So, the agomst1c att1tude, the playful att1tude g1ven
western man's construct1on of playfulness, is nota healthy, lovmg at-
t1tude to have m travelhng across ''worlds '' Notice that g1ven the
agomstic att1tude one cannot travel across "worlds," though one can
kili other "worlds" w1th 1t So for people who are mterested m cross-
mg racial and ethruc boundanes, an arrogant western man's construc-
tion of playfulness is deadly One cannot cross the boundanes w1th 1t
One needs to g1ve up such an att1tude 1f one wants to travel
So then, what is the lovmg playfulness that I have m mmd? Let me
begm w1th one example We are by the nver bank The nver is very,
very low Almost dry Bits of water here and there L1ttle pools w1th
a few trout h1dmg under the rocks But mostly 1s wet stones, grey on
the outs1de We walk on the stones for awhlle You p1ck upa stone
and crash 1t onto the others As 1t breaks, 1t 1s quite wet ms1de and
1t is very colorful, very pretty I p1ck up a stone and break 1t and run
toward the p1eces to see the colors They are beaut1ful I laugh and bnng
the pteces back to you and you are domg the same w1th your p1eces
We keep on crashlng stones for hours, anxious to see the beautiful new
colors We are playmg Toe playfulness of our actlVlty does not presup-
pose that there 1s somethlng hke "crashmg stones" that 1s a particular
form of play w1th 1ts own rules Rather the atlltude that carnes us
through the acllv1ty, a playful atlltude, turns the actlVlty mto play Our
acttv1ty has no rules, though 1t 1s certainly mtent1onal act1v1ty and we
both understand what we are domg The playfulness that g1ves mean-
mg to our activ1ty mcludes uncertainty, but m th1s case the uncertainty
is an openness to surprzse Th1s is a particular metaphys1cal att1tude
that does not expect the world to be neatly packaged, ruly Rules may
fail to explam what we are domg We are not self-1mportant, we are
not fixed m particular construct1ons of ourselves, whlch 1s part of say-
mg that we are open to self-constructwn We may not have rules, and
when we do have rules, there are no rules that are to us sacred We
are not worned about competence We are not wedded to a particular
way of domg thmgs Whlle playful we have not abandoned ourselves
to, nor are we stuck m, any particular ''world '' We are there creatlvely
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We are not pass1ve
Playfulness 1s, m part, an openness to bemg a fool, wh1ch 1s a com-
bmatlon of not worrymg about competence, not bemg self-1mportant,
not takmg norms as sacred and fmdmg amb1gmty and double edges
a source of wisdom and dehght
So, pos1t1vely, the playful att1tude mvolves openness to surpnse,
openness to bemg a fool, openness to self-construct1on or reconstruc-
t1on and to construct10n or reconstructlon of the "worlds" we mhab1t
playfully Negatlvely, playfulness 1s charactenzed by uncertamty, lack
of self-1mportance, absence of rules or a not takmg rules as sacred,
a not worrymg about competence anda lack of abandonment to a par-
ticular constructlon of oneself, others and one's relat1on to them In
attemptmg to take a hold of oneself and of one's relat1on to others
m a particular "world," one may study, examine and come to under-
stand oneself One may then see what the poss1b1ht1es for play are for
the bemg one 1s m that "world " One may even decide to mhab1t that
self fully m order to understand 1t better and fmd 1ts creative
poss1b1ht1es All of th1s 1s Just self-reflect1on and 1t 1s qmte d1fferent
from res1gnmg or abandomng oneself to the particular construct1on of
oneself that one 1s attemptmg to take a hold of
Conclusion
There are "worlds" we enter at our own nsk, "worlds" that have
agon, conquest, and arrogance as the mam mgred1ents m theu ethos
These are "worlds" that we enter out of necess1ty and wh1ch would
be foohsh to enter playfully m e1ther the agomst1c sense or m my sense
In such "worlds" we are not playful
But there are "worlds" that we can travel to lovmgly and travelhng
to them 1s part of lovmg at least sorne of theu mhab1tants Toe reason
why I thmk that travellmg to someone's "world" 1s a way of 1dent1fy-
mg w1th them 1s because by travellmg to the1r "world" we can under-
stand what 1t 1s to be them and what 1t 1s to be ourse/ves m the1r eyes
Only when we have travelled to each other's "worlds" are we fully sub-
Jects to each other (1 agree w1th Hegel that self-recogmt1on reqmres
other subJects, but I d1sagree w1th hts cla1m that 1t reqmres tens1on or
host1hty)
Knowmg other women's "worlds" 1s part of knowmg them and
knowmg them 1s part of lovmg them Not1ce that the knowmg can be
done m greater or lesser depth, as can the loVIng Also notice that travell-
mg to another's "world" 1s not the same as becommg mt1mate w1th
them Int1macy 1s const1tuted m part by a very deep knowledge of the
other self and ''world'' travelhng is only part of havmg thts knowledge
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Also not1ce that sorne people, m particular those who are outs1ders to
the mamstream, can be known only to the extent that they are known
m severa! "worlds" and as "world"-travellers
W1thout knowmg the other's "world," one does not know the other,
and without knowmg the other one 1s really alone m the other's presence
because the other 1s only d1mly present to one
Through travelhng to other people's "worlds" we d1scover that there
are "worlds" m wh1ch those who are the v1ct1ms of arrogant percep
tion are really subJects, hvely bemgs, res1stors, constructors of v1s1ons
even though m the mamstream construction they are ammated only
by the arrogant perce1ver and are phable, foldable, flle-awayable,
class1f1able I always 1magme the Anstotehan slave as phable and
foldable at mght or after he or she cannot work anymore (when he or
she d1es as a tool) Anstotle tells us nothmg about the slave apart from
the master We know the slave only through the master The slave 1s
a tool of the master After workmg hours he or she 1s folded and placed
m a drawer t1ll the next mormng My mother was apparent to me mostly
as a v1ct1m of arrogant percept1on I was loyal to the arrogant perce1ver's
construct1on of her and thus d1sloyal to her m assummg that she was
exhausted by that construct10n I was unwdhng to be hke her and
thought that 1dent1fymg w1th her, seemg myself m her necess1tated that
I become hke her I was wrong both m assummg that she was exhausted
by the arrogant perce1ver's construct1on of her and m my understand
mg of 1dent1f1cat1on, though I was not wrong m thmkmg that 1den
t1f1cation was part of lovmg and that 1t mvolved m part my seemg myself
m her I carne to reahze through travellmg to her "world" that she
1s not foldable and phable, that she 1s not exhausted by the mamstream
argentm1an patnarchal construct1on of her I carne to reahze that there
are "worlds" m wh1ch she shmes as a creat1ve bemg Seemg myself
m her through travellmg to her "world" has meant seemg how d1f
ferent from her I am m her "world "
So, m recommendmg "world"-travellmg and 1dent1f1cat1on through
"world"-travelhng as part of lovmg other women, 1 am suggestmg
d1sloyalty to arrogant perce1vers, mcludmg the arrogant perce1ver m
ourselves, and to the1r constructions of women In reveahng agomst1c
playfulness as mcompat1ble w1th "world"-travelhng, 1 am reveahng
both 1ts affm1ty w1th 1mpenahsm and arrogant percept1on and 1ts m
compat1b1hty w1th lovmg and lovmg percept10n
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notes
1 Graftmg the substance of another to oneself 1s partly const1tut1ve of arrogan!
percept10n See M Frye (1983, 66)
references
Frye, Manlyn 1983 The pollt,cs of reahty Essays m fem1mst theory
Trumansburg, N Y Crossmg Press
Gadamer, Hans-George 1975 Truth and method New York Seabury
Press
Hmzmga, Johan 1968 Homo /udens Buenos AJ.res, Argentma Emecé
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