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Literature — I thought it was AP Barron’s books, SAT Prep books, short stories, and boring
books your teacher makes you read. But, literature is also tweets, educational documentaries,
interesting audiobooks, and play scripts. Eight months ago I would have never believed that this
would be true. From my approach to writing to my perception of my writing, learning this has
concepts and has revealed facts about me that I never noticed! And, this past year my writing
even when it’s worse than what you had before. This is what I — what millions of people —
have done this past year. Except, I didn’t know I had resilience until I began writing! The first
essay was about summer reading. I wrote about how I learned to influence change through
literature and how it impacted my personal growth. And well … It was bad! (The first and
second drafts at least) At first, I wrote an outline — which I thought was an essay at the time —
then I wrote something that was more essay-like … but, I got a 30! It was a whole roller coaster!
Thankfully, with Mr. Weinstein’s critiques, I started to adapt by changing the way that I
approached and thought about writing. Instead of saying negative fictions, I started to say
positive truths. For instance: “Everything is going to be fine, Mr. Weinstein will help me through
this.” Or, “ Don’t listen to what people have said, you can write this essay.” Through this, I have
built up my strength, flexibility, confidence, and overall resilience toward essay writing. Even
with the whining and crying, I came out with something. And, when I wrote my first essay, I
showed myself that. Even though it took five times to get it right!
I have a voice. I’ve always known that, but a year and a half ago I never used it. However,
this year I used it in my writing. Usually, I’m the student that’s always quiet and only speaks
when asked. Writing allows me to “speak” as loud as I want to. Although, prior to junior year, I
never knew how to express myself in writing. In former essays, I just didn’t make sense to the
teachers, and through that, I wasn’t able to find my voice. I felt like I didn’t have the ability to
write about my feelings. Positively, I was able to find it over the course of the year. My voice in
writing then became louder and louder, which made me realize how vocal I was in writing. No
matter what my essay was about, I had an opinion! And, I always circled back to topics that were
important to me. From environmental issues to LGBTQIA+ rights, I had something to say. I even
went as far as talking about my mental health! (Something I never thought I’d do.) And, I owe it
Reflections:
Pride
I am proud of every single one of my essays, but the one that I’m most proud of is my first
essay —“Out Of My Comfort Zone.” Before junior year, I felt like I couldn’t write an essay!
Every aspect was hard for me to write, for instance: writing the thesis, opening sentences, and an
introduction. However — this year I learned that I could write a decent essay. (Which surprised
me!) In the past, I didn’t care about school, which was a disadvantage to me later on when I
needed the skills that I was taught. Teachers that I had later on didn’t want to teach step-by-step
how to write an essay. This led me to believe that I could never -- will never -- have the ability
to write a good essay. But, that was until I got to … Ms. Sorise’s class! And she taught us how to
create an argumentative essay step-by-step. After that, I felt like I could moderately write an
essay?! But then when I got to Mr. Weinstein’s 11R English class, that's when I finally learned
that I could write an amazing essay. Mr. Weinstein was the only English teacher I had who -- that
I liked -- took us step-by-step and who gave us a second chance. And, on my first essay - - with
blood, sweat, and many tears - - I was able to come out with an amazing essay. That’s what my
Flexibility
Pieces that show my flexibility are my poems. I strongly dislike poems - - the only type of
poem I like are haikus - - since they are usually boring. Writing poems this year was the hardest
thing I had to do. I didn’t know how to write a poem; even when I was shown how I still didn’t
get it. It was hard for me to find a topic I wanted to write about and to find uncommon words that
rhymed. Overall, I just did not want to do it, but I had to do it or my grade would suffer!
Consequently, I decided to write poems about subjects that interested me. This helped me with
the main topics of my poem. Then, when I wanted to find uncommon rhymes, I went on a few
websites and tested them out on my poem. Due to this, I was able to create six decent poems that
I was pretty proud of. “ARE” — is my favorite poem of them all. “ARE” is about a theory I
learned in AP Psychology class this year. Psychology has been a subject I loved learning about
this year, so writing a poem about a concept class made it easy to write. In the end, writing these
poems forced me to become flexible and find a way to navigate myself through assignments I
didn’t like.
May 28, 2021, at 1:20 PM, I realized that I despised my literary essay. On Friday, Mr. Weinstein
and I went over my essay to revise it. I got a 90, which should mean that I’m happy right? No!
When Mr. Weinstein started to read my essay out loud, I loathed it. I don’t know what it was
specifically, I just hated it. Now that I think back to it… I hated it when I submitted it. My essay
was a reflection of the year. How did the literature I read impact or influence me? The alternative
literature I chose were lessons from my brother, Yaw, and the documentary, The Secret. I guess
the two just didn’t mesh or the quoting was bad. I just don’t know! This essay was supposed to
be the best for me and Mr. Weinstein, and in that sense, I feel like I failed. To me, this was the
worst essay I’ve ever written. Anyway, the only thing I can do now is work up the courage to
revise it and get 100! (Future me: I did resubmit it and I got 100! I manifested this.)
Progress
In my opinion, I have made tremendous progress as a writer over the years. In the past, I was
intimidated by writing, and I didn’t know how to write a proper essay. But now, I'm less
intimidated by writing and I know how to write an essay! I know this may seem like something
small to you, but to me, this is extremely significant. My essay writing struggle has finally
Education
For me, being educated about our society is what is important. Of course, core subjects like:
math, science, English, and social studies are important, but being informed about world events
I usually hate English class. In the past, it was the class I did the worst in or I enjoyed the
least. On the contrary, English class this year was my favorite — or the class I hated the least —
surprisingly!
The Design
When you look at my portfolio, it may look random. It may not make sense to you, with a
photo from California to a photo that says confidence; however, it makes perfect sense to me…
since I decided to turn my portfolio into my vision board! The website contains pictures I
wanted to use for my vision board a few months ago but never got to do due to APs.
Over the course of the year, I have been through many failures and successes. I hate having
to experience failures, but I also feel that if I never had them, then I would have never tried ten
Reflection On Pandemic
The pandemic has affected me in ways that I didn’t even notice until a year into it. I didn’t know
how disconnected I was from the world. And, not going to the grocery store every other week --
weirdly -- is what started my mental downfall. When I was able to go to the grocery store, I still
had some connection to the world. But, one thing led to another and I wasn’t allowed. At first, I
was relieved but as the months went on I was becoming more and more confined and I kept
sequestering myself from the world. I didn’t notice this until someone suggested that I should go
outside. Let’s just say my reaction wasn’t pleasant! Before the pandemic, I didn’t have anything
or anyone. I didn’t have friends to talk to or much of social life, so when the pandemic hit it felt
like everyone was in the same boat, which made me feel like I wasn’t alone in my situation. And
when everything started getting better, I didn’t want to reconnect with anything or anyone. I felt
fine in my little bubble! However, later on, I realized that I was not fine at all. With all the social
issues taking place during the pandemic and having no one to talk about it with, it’s driven me
Before The Flood: This piece is a visual response to the documentary, Before The Flood. The
documentary is about climate change and actions you can take to help slow it down. This
documentary was significant to me since it talked about topics that are important to me, but the
Summer Reading: Thinking back to the beginning of the year when I had to do my summer
reading piece, I was so … unsure? At the time, I felt like I didn’t do actual reading, and it made
me feel like I didn’t have anything good to put down. But, that was before Mr. Weinstein taught
us about alternative literature. After we learned about alternative literature, I realized that I read
developed by Hans Selye. The three stages are: alarm, resistance, and exhaustion. For instance,
these stages usually take place during finals week in college. Alarm: when your body is on high
alert. Resistance: when your body tries to adapt and maintain itself. Finally, exhaustion: when the
person’s resources are depleted, which leads them to get sick or die(hence the second to the last
stanza). The last stanza is to point out that my teachers are my stressor, causing this pattern to
occur. Teachers usually blame the students for being stressed out or they say that we aren’t
stressed and that we are being overdramatic. This poem is significant to me — even though I
hate poems — because I wrote this at a time when I was very stressed out. And when I’m
stressed, I want to lay on the floor and cry, but when you’re me, you can’t do that. When I’m
stressed, I bottle it up and try my best to get through it, which doesn’t lead to the best outcomes.
Instead of bottling it up this time, I decided to express it in writing poems, which helped relieve
“Assignments”— is also about the amount of work and stress teachers have been giving
students. Teachers assign a bunch of work and assume that it doesn’t affect their students in any
way. They think that we’ll be fine and there’s nothing to stress about, even though we have eight
or even nine other classes. This has been a recurring theme. It’s honestly part of the reason why I
don’t enjoy school and why I think that stress and depression rates are higher for teenagers. I
don’t want to push all the blame on teachers, however, teachers need to understand our
perspective on certain situations. I know that older generations tend to call us dramatic, but
numbers don’t lie! We need help, but most adults don’t want to hear us.
which both bring change and transformation into your life. People charge them with their
manifestations and they are supposed to help you get to them. But they don’t get you there in the
nicest way. The moldavite takes unneeded things out of your life. The malachite brings up your
past, so you may feel a lot of emotions when you first get it. But in the end, they will help you
become your best self. And writing this poem has allowed me to express my feelings about these
My personal goal is to gain a large amount of confidence so I can have the courage to do
anything I set my mind to. In the past, with certain things, I felt like I couldn’t do it and I feel
I’m not sure of what I want to do or be in the future. But in 5-10 years from now, I want to look
back at myself and laugh at myself for being -- extremely-- overdramatic and scared about the
future. I also want to be in a place where I can help other people as much as I can.
Doctor Strange
While I was working on my manifestation research paper, I discovered that Doctor Strange is
very similar to what I was researching! Doctor Strange is about a doctor whose life drastically
changed due to a car accident. His hands were his most-used tool, but after his car accident, he
couldn’t use them as he did before. Since traditional medicine failed him, he decided to seek
alternative treatment. The alternative treatment was healing through belief. Which is very similar
to manifestation. Since manifestation is attracting something into your life simply because you
believe it will.
Notebook Addendums
1/2. The first two pages are from a quick write. While I was doing it, I was feeling stressed and
frustrated about school, so I took my crayons and I scribbled how I was feeling. This quick write
4. This is a loop back to a quick write. It is one of my favorites because they are all items I want
to help change. I'm not sure what I want to do in the future, but all I know is that I want to help
5. This is a mind map of research paper topics that I was considering doing. When I looked back
at all of the topics, I just felt so heavy. Many of them are very serious topics that people need to
know, but I felt like too much. I like educating myself additionally on these topics, however, I
6. This is from a funny, quick write we did a few months ago. My favorite part is the
autobiography exercise. We had to write a chapter name and/or a book title for our
7. This is one of the first free writes in my notebook. I love this one because -- I'm doing what I
always do -- I'm talking about the issues of the live-action Mulan. I was trying to amplify the
Asian voices who were -- gratefully -- explaining why the movie wasn't okay.
8. This is a mind map that I hate and love of alternative literature I did over the summer. This
was for my first essay, which did not turn out so well the first time around!
9. This piece was my attempt at abstract art. Most abstract art contains rectangles and squares, so
I wanted to do -- the opposite of squares -- circles. And I love it solely because it's different.
10. Lastly, this is from another quick write. The prompt was “circle,” so I drew a bunch of