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She has a tiny scar right under her nose that you notice but don't mention
You catch yourself thinking about her a little, then a lot, then all the time
and eating,
that in 20 years,
someone will play that song again and just for a second
but you just met the love of your life; how lucky is that?
rather than something you think about doing all the time
She shows you new hobbies you probably wouldn't have even given a shit about before
You tell her about your shit and she pretends to care very convincingly
why not?
You drink
You screw
and suddenly all that bullshit love poetry they forced in you in school,
and smiles
or laughs
Welcome to jealously
and you notice this girl that's usually this out around the same time
whatever
You mention this to a guy you know who's been married for years
not
Scientist
or get a PhD
or a baby yet
The sex is kinda routine now and you wonder if it's just a chore for her
You go running some more and you see that girl again in the woods
so you do too
She's smart
You cook the same dish you had the night before,
And you reply that guy from work can suck a thousand dicks in hell
You sit in awkward silence for a while
Ever
or whatever it is
you're never going to wake up with her again or take her clothes off
or have another screaming drunken argument about Ice cream
You go to bed
and suddenly the place smells of her in a way you've never noticed before
Music is shit
Someone mentions that she's been hanging out a lot with whatever his name is
and they've been patiently waiting for you for fucking years now
They listen to your bullshit politely because they've been through breakups too
etc
But you don't really believe them because they weren't really in love like you're in love
You screw
and literally a minute later realize what a dumb mistake that was
You argue
the kind of stuff you imagine you won't say to your worst enemies
But you can't stomach the thought with sleeping with someone else
10 minutes a day
and you realize you have absolutely nothing to feel sad about
Not really
And again,
And subtly,
and eating,
and whatever music you're listening to at the moment will be so tied to her,
that in 20 years,
Before long,
and you can't remember the last time you've felt so alive
Maybe the whole thing is just some stupid gamble but you don't care
nothing can
nothing