PERFECT ILLUSION BY KEITH MAREKERA.

PREFACE

Greetings to you all my readers. I would like to start by apologizing for the delay of the WHO YOU ARE
AND WHAT YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR sequel. I had advertised the release of the second volume
Accountability Breeds Responsibility and failed to deliver. My hard drive had a malfunction but I am
fixing it and yes you will be receiving it real soon.

Perfect Illusion was written to help tilt the imbalances one gets in decision making and life situation. It
was really challenging for me to write, material wise and actually painting a clear picture. So I decided
to write them in series. Perfect Illusion part II is what I am beginning to work on right away, gathering
material and more expanded examples. The book is not at all purposed to change your perspectives
on anything, it is meant to be a tool you can use to balance other sides of the story. Think of it as a
penny for your thoughts instead of food for thought. I am obligated to surface the certain nature of us
all without deniability. The very you that subjected to all kinds of harm.

FROM THE AUTHOR.

 INTRODUCTION

Okay imagine having an orange, green and yellow. You peel it and cut a piece and eat. Inside your
mouth your teeth are tearing it open and the juice start coming out. Now pause here... Pay close
attention to the juices. The taste composes a bitter, sour and even more watery saliva. As you chew
and swallow your teeth are left heavy, rough surface and shivery in a way. Forget the tears that are
already sliding down your cheek(s). Your breath now smell like the semi ripe orange you just had.

A moment ago you did tell yourself not to eat it. No! Actually minutes ago you did tell yourself not to
take it down the tree and give it more time, water the tree even! That! That which made you go
ahead with it regardless, what was it? Was it the green and yellow on the fruit? Was it the taste you
were yearning? The smell perhaps? Or the thought of having an orange had a hold on you so tight you
were indecisive maybe? Whatever it was, it was so strong so much so your logic was dominated.
What your eyes were capturing amalgamated with whatever that made you take the orange fruit
from the tree, peel it, cut it and eat it. Worse, you didn’t spit it out, you swallowed. That”how strong
it was. You can also relate this to scotoma, the eyes see what they choose to see.

I believe now you on the same page with me. Now take that perfect illusion example and place the
ideology in real life scenarios. Life is what you make it, regardless how much you want to think
otherwise. You need to understand that life is creation. Whether you believe in YHWY, the big bang
theory or Darwin evolution. The trio are an explanation of creation in a way that we as humans can
comprehend. So going down existence, humans here we are and our day to day existence is filled with
choices and decisions. We choose our paths hence we create our own futures, we determine them.
Life is what you make it.

Now this document is purposed to at least help you in making the toughest decisions and choices in
life regardless the cost or what the situation might appear like. Often as humans we home one
certainty about ourselves to our own selves specifically and guard that certainty with every arsenal
we have. It is the truth of who we are, capable of and accomplishments. Reality however is the
antagonist to this certainty and the fight now are the circumstances.
Who you are as an individual is and always will be vulnerable to accountability and responsibility.
These are measures you can look at as agents set to off set your balance since our realities vary as
opposed to our differences. Meaning where Charles’ circumstances may be challenging, Kapito’s may
be difficult.
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In the presence of making a decision or life decisions you begin to analyze everything and look at all
angles, outcomes and options. Suppose you want to make an occupational or educational decision.
Usually these decisions require you to move out your parents house, change certain social
interactions and or abandon familiar circles. These decisions often make you feel as the traitor, the
bad guy and selfish too particularly if the fellowships you have to walk away from have some social
unwellness.
The boldness (your) has to recognize the intensity of what could become of you. No matter how
overwhelming it might be. You’ll need to reach out to that certainty and embrace it with all honest
and no compromising. Be true to yourself, ‘IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF.’ You see, the actuality of our very
existence is you are you and I am me. Your father is himself, your mother herself and your sibling(s)
themselves. They all have their own fights. Them being your family flesh and blood does not
necessarily mean you owe your future to them. Your family pride is not your life, your teachers’
advises aren’t your future neither. They can however pave clear paths for your vision whether they
are encouraging you or not. You need to focus on what’s best for you, no one can ever know what’s
best for you because we can never ever understand each other as humans. There’s no such thing as
understanding the next person, you can only explain the next person’s behavior. Some may ask or
wonder why? This is because we are humans and our greatest strength is freewill and we are a
creation of varying opinions. We are capable of change etc. This is why. The thought that it is wrong,
is just what it is, a thought, an idea. It is the subconscious valuation of yourself standing on your own
with nobody to depend on. So when in doubt, never hesitate to go against all odds even if it means
getting renounced by your own family, for in actuality, if you live to please other people or pursue to
be like someone. Who is going to be you then? These issues of failing to be you are one of the reasons
we have high numbers of young people suicides, drug abuses and early pregnancies.
You end up living in a world ashamed you failed to live up to someone’s expectations and you do not
fit in and then you kill yourself, you end abusing drugs because when intoxicated that’s the only time
you feel the real you and do not have to deal with the stress of not becoming who you were raised or
expected to become and early pregnancies usually are a result of getting back to a system or an
ideology you find yourself not a part of. An exposure, knowledge and or experience you were
deprived of growing up. So yes, no one knows what is best for you, only you do.

SO THE BIG QUESTION IS.

ARE YOU GOING TO SEE THE PERFECT ILLUSION OF DENYING YOUR CERTAINTY AND LIVE TO WHAT
YOU ARE FAMILIAR WITH?
OR
ARE GOING TO SEE THE PERFECT ILLUSION OF WHAT COULD BECOME OF YOU IF YOU ACCEPT YOUR
CERTAINTY?

HINT:
THE DILLEMA WHETHER YOU SHOULD TAKE THE ORANGE OR NOT HAS A FUTURE ON EITHER CHOICES.
YOU JUST HAVE TO BE WISE AND DESICIVE WHETHER YOU WANT YOUR ORANGE BITTER OR SWEET.
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Another entanglement with perfect illusion is when you so blind to see what’s in front of you not to
be what you think it is. This one is like looking in a broken mirror. Since our lives are paragraphed to
history (introduction), present (body) and future (conclusion). We at times go astray in trying to get so
creative to the extent we end up living a misdirected reality. In simpler terms this is what I mean.
Suppose you given an essay to write and your topic is myself but instead you end up writing my
favorites. These two are linked in a way that one can easily get discombobulated on which
information they should write. The truth of “your right,” is real and correct. But at the same time your
right can be your poison. You see, our concern is always about the conclusion, tomorrow, the future
etc. We are so concerned with sewing every and any thread and stuff we can to cushion our future.
The illusion comes now when you feel so right about something to such an extent other things or
actualities become lies that have been put and or told to you to keep you from blossoming.
Whereas no other person can ever know what’s best for you, one may do things for your best
interests. At least to them that will be the justification. I mean family secrets, certain opportunities
you could have used or information that could have saved you if you had known etc. We are all here
to give a piece of ourselves to the world for a healthy growth. Now when you start accepting the
reality of your social and interactive life to be who you are, you end killing yourself and your certainty.
Your social and interactive life can help you decide when soul searching in most cases yes but
problem is many people forget and others deny to realize that it shouldn’t be the foundation of who
you are.

Think about it. If you were to be separated from your deja vu, would you say for that single day only,
you actually lived? Most people are so drawn to amusement they do not have time to explore and
discover. They actually think of it as a waste of time. Peer pressure has many youths under its hold
they can’t think for themselves. This thing of finding your identity in a world of discovery is a perfect
illusion.
How you can help yourself from being swallowed is really easy and simple actually, funny too. You use
the same concept that got you in to get you out. Acknowledge everything in this world is
psychological particularly this century. You simply need to appreciate life for what it is from your
created reality. The small stuff. Try making sense about the difference and variety of languages,
obsess about it healthily till you find amusement, the genius and complexity in that.
Another tool you can use is trying to understand the creation of a sim card, SD card or bluetooth
technology. With this concept you are to make sense of how the human figured out the idea of the
above trio. How did a man thought of data transfer of one device to another. I’m sure you are getting
the picture of what I’m trying to say to you.
Now these examples may bring amusement, the genius in mankind and so forth but at the same time
inside aroused is admiration.
You now use that admiration to anchor certainty and see your actual reflection, see things for what
they really are and write the correct essay.

Acknowledging yourself can only be done by you. Everybody else we are small factors to making you
realize your position and decide your actual growth and who you need to be. Envy is not you, happy
for kin or friend is not you and someone’s accomplishments is most definitely not yours. Stop living in
shadows and shine your own light.
 NOTES

UNDERSTAND THAT IN LIFE, CLINGING TO A VERSION OF WHAT IF IS SIMILAR TO PROCASTINATION.

WHY I SAY SO IS BECAUSE YOU ARE FEEDING INTO AN UNREALISTIC EXPECTATION. INSTEAD OF YOU
BEING KINETIC TOWARDS YOUR FUTURE YOU INVEST LOT OF ENERGY IN POTENTIAL MARKET.
HUMANITY IS BALANCE AND INDIVIDUALITY IS BELIEF. BE CERTAIN ABOUT YOURSELF.

“THE POTENCY OF PROGRESS LIES IN BELIEF. FRUSTRATION IS JUST BUT A PREFERRENCE OF

ASTONISHMENT TO IGNORANCE OR DENIAL OF OWN NEGLECTION.”
~KEITH MAREKERA~