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Jhuman tour through a portion ofthe gendereutural map
normally masked “Here Be Dragons? ro which author S. Bear
Berginan sa most insightful, funny, and gracious native gue”
Hanne Blank, author of Virgie: The Untouched History
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14 Nao sit’ Funny an charming, and substantial —uch
25 suspect its authori swell I ound myself wishing that
‘here were 365 of Bea's stories so tha could read one every
«hy asa kind of meditation .."The charm of Buch ia Noun
Isat takes its subject both seriously and with humor, bat
2 gallows kindof humor, ne eat helps you survive dificult
‘work, There no mistaking the undercurrent of sadness and
‘nger, but che himor and love overwhelm both, as they shou
in any book about being butch. Telly ant recommend this
book: more highly tmade me laugh fst, then cry some, thik
seriously abou the world, nd by the end I fled been given a
at ig Betr hag”
Hen Boyd author of My Husbend Bey: Loe, Sx, end Life
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“Bear's poetry of batchnes lets ws Se nto facets of gender that
sally are‘ so transparent. And made me fl in love with
botches all over again.”
Carol Queen, author of Te eater Daddy md he Femme
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thiall drm, with love aba fom your Geng.CONTENTS
9 | Acknowledgments
j a | ANowtothe Reader
15.1 TKnow What Butch Is
20 | Fe the Copyedio, or Posibly the Author: A Few
[Notes on Pronoun
24 | Defending deity
29 | Tranny Blader
3 | Taxonomy
34 Walking with Gin
38 1 Wrestling
42 | Being a Butch with Young Men
46 | Breas
5 | Why Pm Nota Nice Young Men (Ye)
59 1 Cocks
6% 1 Border Wars
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tos | What My Day Taghe Me
109 | FeedBack
183 1 When Ws Good
185 | Sticks and Stones Wil Break My Bones, it Wonls
| ‘Will Kill MeHigh-Heeled Shoes
My Batch Brothers
Crossing the Street
Hse
Being an Asshole
‘What a Butch May Use
Ferme for Dummies
‘When Pia Fa fom Home
Faggot Batch
‘Wh the Stine Is Made OF
Borch inthe Streets, Ferme in the Sha?
‘An Apalogy to My Mother
Princess Pickle
(When I Can’ File
Being «Delight
(Chat, or How I Learned vo Flirt, Part 1
‘Your Faithfl Servant
‘The Drawbridge
Dancing
Getsing Fucked
Making Her eel
Being a Shopping Switch
Laying Down with «Barc
Touch
This Geseare
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[Afterword to the New Edition
[About the Author
Abnledgments
‘This book took thre years and alo a lifetime to wrt, and T
owe a great debe tothe people who saw it and me, ehrough. Lam
grateful beyond measure tomy frnilyespecially my parents
and brother, who have supported all manne of endeavors aboot
which they were deeply ambivalent. Hear thanks are also due
to Ton Amato, Joba Austin, Hanne Blak, Kate Borastn, ally
Browa, SJ Cohen, Irn Coyote, Malcole Gin, Sasha Goldberg,
Rabbi Jon Haddon, Andy Inkster, Mike Jenkins, Pamela Kim
nel, Robert Lawrence, Sarth Katherine Lewis, Will Liber, Zev
Lome, Skin McGuire, Zoe Medeiros, KJ Nichols, Cole Ovel-
le, Tor Paulman, Bobby Peck, Carol Queen, Caren Rau, Sott
Tamer Schofield, Gunner Sots, Peggy Shaw, Gwen Smith, Cole
“Thaler, and dhe Weis fala of whom have kept me going,
epee writing, kept me inspired, and kept me safe enough 0
do the hand parts. As mich s Twat deal each of your ind
vitoal invaluable contributions oer the course ofthe la Sifeen
yeas it would take another entire book. So, thanks fo loving
me 20 genctouly, for puting up with my nonsense for kicking
ny as when necesry, and for helping me walkthrough my fear
‘with grace. Tam bh grateful and bese to have such ends
snd mentors
"Thanks also to Les Feinberg fr writing Some Bric Bes
Gwvthout which this book would not be possibl), Greg and Tan
a Suspect Thoughts fr takings chance on me, che Millay
(Colony, the Fund for Women Ariss, anyone who ever emailed
sme to ask for a copy ofthat hing I read the night before, and
‘everyone who ever agroedto give me money in exchange for
geting up and telling my tries
inal thank you to Nicol, who has helped ane wo creat so
rch posilcy in my lif. trying my best honor itANOTE TO THE READER
‘This book was thiceand-a-half year in the raking, beginning
on dak sree in Sn Franco and finishing on a sunny afer-
‘on in my sti arMilay. While writing tI imagined a ev
cry cur the oudhws and heroes and storytellers Ihave loved and
een loved by in myife. This books ny lve letter to hem al
Here on the cusp of publication, however, there are few
‘ings T would He to mention, Ida realize I wanted to men-
tion them unl Thad ewo conversations—irst with my beloved
friend Skian, and then with my brother Jeffrey. During the
coarse of those conversation I found myself giving context to
‘ree choices T made inthe wring of this book. In due cours it
seemed wise also share them with you, the reer. n na order,
they are
{.Thisisonly my experi Is ny book abou buch density,
| dearly hope that resonates for other batches, for transmasco-
Tine fll, fo ll manne of eypes of pople—bueit is my experi-
‘ence, noching more and nothing les. donot imagine even for
minote tat Tam speaking for everyone, or even for anyone els,
‘thoagh in my heart T hope that Iam speaking to alo of ober
people. So this bol is Srmly situated not just a ny btchness,
but als in my other locations on every possible aie: rac, reli
ion, as, eduation, gener, and body eno that my experi=
‘ence of butch s profoundly affected by those things, and [don't
want anyone else ro imagine (ven fora mine chat I think 1
fave writen down the One True Way Thave written dawn my
‘vy, as honestly and completly as Ian, which ill Tean do2. bic orpoizd with buch n ind. AST got wo the pint of
structuring this book, [realized that I hada choice to make. I
could choose a way that would be mos satisfying for those who
{ele comfortable wth buches and buchness already, orn away
‘that woud he most comprehensible to people who were aking up
‘the topic forthe irs time. I made what I consider to bea poli
cal choice, and T arranged the book for my brothers 36a point
‘of pride a¢ away to hor sal That td Tam also completly