“Poetry is Life”

By
Author
Donna M. Solitario
Poems from the heart
www.outskirts.com/DonnaSolitario
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 I am a Poet

I am a poet and I write from the heart

Some may call poets a gift of the arts
I believe that music and poetry are precious gifts from God
You could say that I am sensitive and wear my heart on my sleeve
That is quite ok with me
For I write for God who inspires my heart and voice
Perhaps someone who reads me may make a wise choice
I love to rhyme
To take the time
To follow God’s will
Jesus I adore you and always will
Yes I am a poet who writes from the heart
How great thou art
For I know no better way
To share who I am with dignity and grace

Some may not care for what I say

I am but a vessel for him and here is where I’ll stay
Many have told me that my words have touched their lives
What an honor and inspiration I hold onto tight
For what better way than to live one’s own life
Inspiring others through faith, hope, and light
 Writing frees my soul
To a place I treasure and hold
For I am a poet who writes from the heart
It empowers me each day to make a new start
To follow my dreams
Become all that my father in heaven wills me to be
As I walk through my journey
I pray to always walk in harmony
Sharing with the world the amazing beauty
That still exists
Some ask how one takes such risks.
To bare one’s soul as open as this?
I thank God for his precious gifts
I believe that were all connected to one another
Sharing poetry can bring us all closer
Sometimes poems can be painful to read
Especially those of us who hurt and grieve
We can all reach down inside and believe
The truth can set us free
For poets write from the heart
To inspire others to make a brand new start
To love our sisters and brothers
Learn to live in peace with one another
I am but a poet who writes from the heart
I pray by the grace of God
I never stop

Loss of Love
What doesn’t kill you in this in this lifetime
 The good book says will make you stronger
Just look over yonder
The one who did not break
That gave it all their faith
There are consequences from every decision that we make
Then there’s the ones that had to forsake
The broken hearted survived
With an ache inside
Love will prevail all
The voice of an angel makes that call
What then will it be?
Carry on to be free

Shinning Divine Love

Love shines through

Sweet Jesus because of you
 There’s a spark within
That can’t be dimmed
A bright mystical light
That shines beyond this world
The boys and girls
Feel the magic come alive
From the spirit of the great divine
They follow along
To eternally belong
Love shines through
To make hearts renewed
Hope is beautifully restored
Like never before
No more dreams to restore
For they have come true
Blessings go beyond compare as they consume
Every breath of life for the chosen one
Sent with faith, hope and love from the son
 Blooming Love

Blooming love is in the air

Intrigue and passion explode with flare
Electricity flows like the oceans breeze
While he dreams of holding his love tenderly
She caresses his hopes and dreams
Love is blooming in the midnight air
Intrigue and passion explode with flare
A deep love of music and poetry is shared
Leaving their hearts vulnerable and bare
Risking the chance of heartache and pain
Two hearts sharing laughter in the rain
Never will their lives ever be the same
Lovers feeling happy and carefree
Love birds fly over them graciously
Fireworks light up the midnight sky
Gazing into each other’s big blue eyes
Lovers feel mesmerized
Nature peaks with enchanting beauty
Emotions erupt like a volcano splendidly
Lovers falling in love as if their sweet sixteen
Hearts soften when bonded in spirituality
Love is blooming in the air
Intrigue and passion explode with flare
Hearts open where they once did not dare
Having a childlike faith that can’t be seen
Trusting in Gods will believing in dreams
Praying it lasts for eternity

Upon Waking I Suddenly Realized

I had been running from grief deep down inside
Oh how it made my heart ache
I bowed my head down and began to pray
I thought that I had come so far
That my soul had renewed with a brand new start
Funny how we can hide the secrets within our hearts
The ocean tide swept away my dreams of fantasy
That you were still here with me
 A Serenade of Soulful Bliss
He wanted to serenade her till the break of dawn
Forever and a day he had patiently longed
To bring his lyrics into her life
To him she was a cherished dream
Who shined like beautiful waterfall colors and starlit moonbeams
Filling his heart and soul with endless daydreams
His passionate voice blended in a magnificent harmonious rhythm
Serenading her until dusk
The sweet sounding and rhapsodic melody’s gently tugged
At her fragile heartstrings
As they strolled together sleepwalking in an enchanting utopia dream
A colorful fairytale of sweet bliss
Yearning for lovers first kiss
They embraced each other till the break of day
In a heavenly place
 Love is Alive
There’s something in the midnight sky
That has captured all of my love tonight
Dancing with joy in the streets
The moonlight is romancing where lovers meet
Everything is magical and majestic
I visualize the face of Jesus
While holding me tenderly in his loving arms
Graciously blessing me to be faithful and strong
There’s something in the midnight sky
That makes my spirit to come alive
There’s a radiant glow all around me
Solace eases each breath that I breathe
A powerful spirit of never ending joy ad love
Shines down on me from up above
May you capture something special in the midnight sky
That will treasure in your heart until the end of time
 What is faith?
Many say that faith cannot be seen
One just has to believe…
Such as an unduly storm causing a shipwreck at sea
When the captain feverishly seeks
To gain control
He prays there won’t be any lost souls
Could the ships destiny depend on simply letting go?
Will an abiding light begin to unfold?
Yes shelter from the storm is regained upon the shore
It will soon be the light of day!
Everyone aboard bowed to pray
Woes over yonder soar in mind air
Calmness is felt and life seems fair
Radiant light sends an intoxicating glow
The captain had faith, did his part, and let go
An awakening to paradise is adored
Gratitude for life is felt like never before
A cold shiver that was once felt from within
Is replaced with faith, hope and cherished love begins
 As faith is reborn with an abiding peace
Holding dearly onto ones beliefs
Letting go of what could be
Walking in faith and being set free
Trusting in God surrendering effortlessly
For faith has been restored
By his amazing grace forevermore
Once lost souls reach out to humanity
By the grace of God their faith made them free
 Losses from the heart
Loss appears to be everywhere today
I woke up this morning feeling grave
I wondered what happened to being brave
Since I was taking my losses as they came
My heart took over and had something to say
This morning I felt empty and enraged
Trying to do the next right thing I prayed
At the touch of dawn I thought I truly gave
All that I could day by day
Sometimes it seems it won’t matter any way
One just can’t please some it’s just their way
Loss of love can hurt
Disappointment will tuck at your self-worth
Heartache can make your soul burst
I pray and go to church
Feelings of abandonment tug at the heart
It’s not always easy to make a new start
People can often break your heart
People, places and things
Can make your heart sing
 But when losses of the heart
Are relentless and dark
Then you feel the pain
With faith and inner strength you can regain
Loving feelings once again
Call a cherished friend
Pray to the heavens
Ask God for meaningful blessings
Try to be grateful for all that you are
For we are all shinning stars
The great Divine will mend your heart
It’s ok to feel the losses of the heart
Feel the pain, let go, and know who you are
A beautiful child of God
 To the Alter

As I come the alter dear God today

I bow down my head to pray
I’m so grateful to receive your holy Eucharist
Today in my beautiful church
I only feel gratitude and heavenly grace
My soul is filled as I enter a heavenly state
I leave my brokenness behind
For you are the great Divine
I sing the psalms and praise your holy name
I give you thanks for all that you gave
The blessings that you bestowed upon me
Sing the hymns in harmony and glee
I pray for world peace
For every man woman boy and girl
I pray wholeheartedly to follow your will
Meditate and pray to keep still
To take up the cross
Pray for those who are alone and lost
Thank you for your undying love
I’m soaring through the skies like a dove
I hope to pass onto others your goodness and light
Praying for peace as I lay down tonight
You fill my heart and soul with dignity and delight
You are my God and you’re the only way
For sunshiny brighter days
Thank you for your amazing grace
 A Poem of Song

Sing a simple lullaby

Make a silent wish tonight
Write a poem of song that reaches the hearts home
To place comfort for those who roam
Embracing solace for the ones who mourn
To give life to those unborn
Earths essence searches for loves sweet fragrance
Majestic, hypnotic, symphonic, melancholic, extravagance
Beckoning souls to a golden door so that darkness will endure
Only the light of daybreak
Surrendering souls at heaven’s gate cherished words whisper truth and magic
Helping to offset the tragic
Loneliness and grief within its waking shell
Never to endure the anguish of hell
Only life’s true meaning to endure
The spirit of a tender poem of song
Leaving traces of love and solace forever
 Utopia
I’m going to Utopia
Yes I am
As soon as I get there
I’ll reach out my hand
The people will be gentle as a lamb
There is no violence
Voices remain silent
To gossip or judging others
 One just feels the love between sisters and brothers
There’s always plenty to eat
A nice warm home to rest my feet
The children will be precious and sweet
We’ll help each other the best that we can
God will be pleased with his perfect plan
I’m going to Utopia
Yes I am
As soon As I get there
I’ll reach out my hand
The people there will be gentle as a lamb

Thank you Jesus for your Precious Love

I have no words dear Jesus to express

The gratitude I have in my heart for your loving kindness
How you died on the cross brings tears to my eyes
The pain you suffered and keeping it all inside
How you forgave the ones who crucified you
Teaches me forgiving others bears great fruit
I love you my Jesus I praise your holy name
I promise to serve you while helping your people; for the rest of my days
Mother Mary I love you so much too
How your heart must have ached, the way your son was taken away from you
I hear the whispers of your need for all of us to pray
Love one another and be blessed by God’s grace
To enable us to do our part to make the world a better place
Dear Jesus I kneel before thee
With hope in my heart for others to find your love and peace
My precious Jesus thank you for dying for me
 Violins Danced Upon the Heart

Upon the hearts drum

Echoes slipped through the morning sun
Rose petals sprung across the window pane
Chariots of fire rained
Upon the breast of a motionless heart
Anguished clusters of darts
Were thrown in the heated
Torn and defeated
Tunnel of visions
While the mission
Is mysteriously replaced
The flute expressed a golden grace
That heightened desires of the heart
The piano struck a fallen note
A chord broke
Suddenly the harp
Dressed the moonlight with a hidden glance
Deeply tucked inside a trance
Where drums suddenly awakened
To a gracious nightcap
 Listening to astounding horns blowing eagerly
Silently
All music ceased as violins whispered superstitions
Replacing a peaceful sleep
The heart remembering
Its paradise of contentment in Surrendering
 There is something about that twinkling star

Way over yonder

Thousands of light years afar
I feel a stars energy fly over the moon
I get a sense of peace watching it from my room
It speaks to me in the language of my heart
I can only adore you oh little star
What secrets do you hold?
Will you still be there as I grow old?
After I’m gone, will you remember how your bright light lifted my soul?
Have you unspoken tales to be told?
Dazzled by your beauty and gentle peace
Do you hear the dreams human beings dare to speak?
Is it possible that you shed tears each time, a lonely soul weep’s
Are you disappointed in Humanity?
The tales of our brothers and fathers
&
The tales of our sisters and mothers
What about the innocent we try so hard to protect?
Were there countless times that you have wept?
For the fallen souls, and the dark secrets in which they kept
Please pray for us oh little star
Even though you’re so very far
I hold the essence of your inner beauty and light, deep within my heart
 I’m Not Perfect
I am not perfect I am a human being
Perhaps if you gave me the opportunity
I could surprise you
With a heart and soul that is true
It’s possible that I could disappoint you
It would hurt me, and leave me feeling like a fool
To God and myself I must be true
If you don’t like what you see
Well just maybe
You don’t really know me
Sometimes I have different sides
It makes me feel alive
To just be me
As I continue my journey
To become all that I can hope to be
As I learn and grow
Please have faith and lie low
For there is so much more that I need to know
I dare to believe in my dreams
Won’t you walk alongside of me?
Often if one is given the opportunity
To walk in dignity
Please give me the benefit of the doubt
Together with God, we can work it out
 A Treasured Love

A treasured love is a gift from God

It can soften a hardened heart
Adds sunshine to a dark and lonely soul
Awakens a heart of stone
No longer are you all alone
Makes one feel grateful to be around
It brings out the best that life has to offer
With treasures of love to embrace forever
A pure love which is kept within the highest plane
Being protected and cherished, as it lessons disappointment and pain
A parade of joy in the midst of autumns dazzling colors
Sparkles over the land with magic and wonder
Yes, a treasured love is a gift from God
Filling one’s life with precious love
 Star Gazing
Did you ever gaze at stars in the sky?
With someone special by your side
Could it be that the stars hold a great mystery?
Along with enchanting beauty?
I always see a special twinkling star
It sometimes seems so far
It makes me feel peaceful inside
While I think of the miracle of God
Stars appear to give the soul peace and love
A special gift from up above
Such a treasure for the imagination
Filled with enlightenment and fascination
The twinkling stars in the sky and the golden sun
Are wondrous gifts for everyone
While a special star can catch your eye
One can breathe in joy and peace inside
The stars in the sky
Help to make a spirit come alive
 Unknown Forces
Unknown forces generate
A deep rooted heartache
Attacks at the core of a human frailty
Refusal of a daunting reality
Relinquish the last catch of the day
Unknown forces held at bay
Overtake a bittersweet sensation
Of forgotten blood sucking emotions
Captured and put into a prison of ghastly chambers
Only to be left and forgotten, by evil the ones and haters
While heavens angels come to life in the morning dew
Unknown forces lose their grip to unglue
The haunting grieving of sorrow
Upon forgiveness, love and acceptance, the way for an enlightened tomorrow
 The Heart that Meant Well

There once was a heart that meant well

It scattered love and joy to those who fell
Little did this heart know
It needed love and light to keep this special glow
To touch the hearts of others
This heart needed to clean out the clutter
Of adversities it held onto during its life
For the broken had no roots to grow from, dimmed was the light
Eventually this weary and sad heart stopped to grow
It withered one day, and as it died and let go
To a brighter light sent by the Divine
This heart began to shine
No longer was it a heart that meant well
It became a pure heart that inspired souls
 Lost Paradise

Paradise lost
Deep unspoken loss
Pegs unfit
Ripped
Shattered
Dreams envisioned on a platter
Wild Eagles dismayed
Portrayed
Adrift
Of a Captains sunken ship
Paradise lost
Yesterday’s visions sought
Fairy tales with unforeseen endings
Marks uproar and distention
Encountering a haunting image
Of visions with false fairy tales
Mystic innocence swells
Within the magnitude of its mind
 Shelters mankind
With an illusion
Utter confusion
Collects debts of a nonexistent meaning
Of a lost paradise

The Tone within the Home

Can leave one feeling lost and all alone

It can lead to a heart of stone
It sheds dark clouds on some days
Learn to control its volume, so that you won’t suffocate
 Let your voice be heard, so that the tone won’t drown you out
Rise above for the tone is not what you’re all about
It has a darkness which could lead you astray
Fill your soul with visions of light and love upon each awaken day
Keep the faith
For you’re not the tone in the home

Begin to follow your heart

Let go of the piercing darts
That have the potential to sting
The core of your very being
For the tone is an insidious lie
Your perfect please don’t cry
Yes the tone attempted to control your spirit the day that you were born
Don’t let it tarnish your dreams and make you feel torn
For our loving God brought you into this world, the day that you were born
His will for you is to be happy and reborn
He alone can set you free
By being all that you were meant to be
What is Faith?
Many say that faith cannot be seen
One just has to believe
Such as a ship lost at sea
When the captain feverishly seeks
To try and believe
A higher power will take over to control
Could the ships destiny depend on simply letting go?
Yes an abiding light begins to take hold
Shelter from the storm is regained upon the shore
Woes over yonder soars in mid air
Radiant light sends an intoxicating glow
An awakening of paradise is adored
A once cold shiver that was felt within
Is replaced with faith, hope and love begins
As faith is reborn with an abiding peace
Holding dearly onto ones beliefs
Letting go of what could be
Walking in faith being set free
Trust in God surrender effortlessly
For faith has been restored
All because of his amazing grace
Once lost souls reach out to humanity
By the grace of God faith has reached its peak
 Deceptions of the heart

Can sway you away from God

Cunning words pretending to be sweet gestures
Can turn emotions into a blunder
Of destructive obsessions
Which could falter your chances to embrace heaven
Deceptions of the emotions
Imprison truth, innocence, and imagination
While being left out in the cold with infatuation
Pray to be wise and open up your eyes
Walk in humility and swallow your pride
Ask God to be your guide
He will show you the way one day at a time
 The Heart that broke into a Million Pieces

Ceased to stop beating

Feelings were misleading
The heart wished it had known better
As it tried to take care of itself in all kinds of stormy weather
The heart stayed awake with a flicker of hope
The fallen heart yearned for love the most
It did everything it could to protect it
Now it lies empty and extremely infected
It was once full of magic and vitality
All that’s left now is a deadened spirituality
With a shaken faith and broken dreams
Deep inside this broken down heart it screams
With hopes to build a facade
Of love and acceptance for one million more days
For it aches deep inside, and the pain is haunting and grave
With hopes to diminish the heart
So it can lavish intoxicating messages to pull it apart
Although at times it relinquishes a sacred memory
 It will soon diminish its full sincerity
Crushing and agonizing thoughts seeps through and through
With blood sucking whiplashes and impending doom
With a flicker of hope it lives on with gloom
Praying one sweet day it will begin anew
 If I Could Change the World

I would start with me

Ask for guidance from thee
Seek God’s will with humility
Reach out to the little children
Show them how much Jesus loves them
To remind them of his love through his eyes
With his Holy Spirit working through mine
The little children would feel his undying love
How they would fly like a dove
To embrace the pure essence of Jesus” grace
We’ll laugh and sing together, and give him thanks & praise
The children will know of your unconditional love, through his grace
As we all seek the way to our heavenly father
Jesus will guide us to surrender
He will raise us all up in faith, hope and love as he is our Savior
As we watch the little children, youth, and adults be blessed
We will walk together in unity among the rest
Can you hear his calling in the middle of the night?
By a brook, country ride, or a new born baby’s cries
God I know that you need all of your people to help change the world
Yes every man, woman, boy and girl
I pray to be more like you
To live in love and harmony and practicing gratitude
I know I can’t do it perfect, but I’m willing to try
It is a true blessing to be by your side
I’ll pray for the ones that can’t be reached
Dear Jesus teach me your peace
 The Lake of Fallen Tears

The lake of fallen tears

Smells like misty dew in the air
It leads to an overflow of deep emotions
With thoughts and torn feelings left unspoken
While it cries out to be heard
Whispers of the heart are tragically absurd
A magic potions slows down the anticipated overflow
As the Lake’s tears beg for mercy to the unknown
A lonely tattered soul
Reaches out in a desperate search
For tears that disappeared from the Earth
A river joins in on the anticipation
Streams of tears are suffocating
With soft waves approaching the shore
An ocean breeze sweeps away tears and feelings that were once ignored
Captivating waterfalls sweep away all of the fallen tears
Shedding hope and light while twirling around old fears
An old treasure chest of awakened love takes over for a moment in time
Leaving no trace of its existence behind
Acceptance guides tears with a bright white light
Tucking them safely away from their strength and might
As the tide rushes in, the Lake of fallen tears goes back to its natural state
As tears turn to water with a clean slate
A soul begins to heal and elegantly let’s go
While dreaming of a pool of satin rain water that flows
Leading the heart and soul
To a cleansing from the Lake of fallen tears
Sailing away from younger and painful years
Bringing on new memories of gentle love and good cheer for future years
 A Sheltered Mask

A sheltered mask was worn

On this brisk October morn
With silenced displeasure
Bathed in black and leather
A hostile image of horror
Captured an anesthetic heart without honor
Protruding an infinite loss and pain
Nothing in life would ever be the same
Insult and displeasure was on the front for all to see
As angel dust was sprinkled to empower it to be set free
Yet a disfigured mark was left
What could possibly happen next?
The sheltered mask was cordially and promptly discarded
A malicious tongue sucked in venom and departed
Leaving no hope for an escape
After all it was Halloween for Pete’s sake!
 The Forest Embraced the Essence of her smile

She strolled through the forest with ease and care

The essence of her smile captured
The animal’s one by one
With a smile as bright as the sun
A forest ranger was mesmerized by her elegance
Soon after talking to her he was swept away by intelligence
A bear curled up to her by the stream
Blue jays and Robins Sang love songs in her ears
The baby birds chirped then quietly disappeared
They were all captivated by her infectious smile
With an abiding love with in her heart
Making the animals hearts throb
She came to the forest each day for some solace and peace
A place where she felt happy and free
Playing with the baby cubs
Brought to her love
They too were infected by her warm touch
Together they felt the presence of God
 A Sweet Embrace
I reminisce of special moments with you
A secret crush makes love come true
I visualize your warm and sweet embrace
As I sense a trace
Of loving eyes on my face
I gaze up at you as you tenderly kiss
My cheeks and tender lips
Suddenly the moon shines brighter
While starlit skies ponder
Upon you and I tonight
Hearts are touched with pure delight
As flowing thoughts dance through my mind
I lovingly watch your glowing eyes shine
For everything you do is so fine
The glow of your heart warms my soul
As we passionately embrace, we soar wild oats
I reach for your hand as your loving arms hold me close
 Upon opening my longing eyes, I realize that I’m alone
To keep the moment alive, my spirit dances to your welcoming home
We take a dip in your pool
It’s refreshing yet cool
Love comes to life
Embraced together under the moonlight
Trembling together with passion until daylight
Praying that we never part
A promising love fills our hearts
 God’s Love Leads the Way

When troubles come your way

Remember to trust God and pray
If your dreams seem like there not coming true
You’re in his heart in all that you do
While tragedies happen in life every day
hold onto a muster seed of faith
Love will set you free
Ask him to help you be all that you were meant to be
Even when the road less travel that you’re on
May bring tears, woes and sad songs
Hold on for the king of kings will carry you through
Jesus, he gave up his life for me and you
 Shades of Love

Shades of love sparkle at twilight

With rainbow colors all through the night
Bright rays of light and love soar through the Universe
Working their majestic appearance with a gallant burst
Of hope for the lonely hearts who thirst
For a hint of love sent from God up above
With hopes to ignite a spark
Of love that dares to bark
Up the right tree
Love and light elegantly
Tender shades of love
 Soft Spoken Words
Soft spoken words were left on my doorstep tonight
A cool breeze opens the door with no one in sight
Thoughts race through the cobwebs of my mind
Thinking back to a place and time
Where the wonder of love filled my life
A sparkling engagement ring on my finger would prove to make me his wife?
Yet the tender words left upon my doorstep
Opened treasures to be investigated or simply not to accept
The wonder of romance and intrigue
Leaves a fragrance of unopened love letters to read
Should I take a leap of faith and look inside this shell?
Perhaps a promise of a valentine fantasy forbidden to tell
Feeling eager like shimmering butterfly wings
Grasping the joys of the birth of spring
As soft spoken words of love leave my door tonight
I’m left with a flicker of love to cherish for the rest of my life
 Jesus I Have Always Loved You

It’s true I have always loved you

From the day that I was born
Your precious love I adore
Upon my heart and spirit
Nothing higher gives greater merit
Than the precious love that I have for you
When I was one and two
I felt your love so true
At ages three, four, five, six and seven
Your love graced me with your angels in heaven
Always joyfully watching over me
How your love set me free
At the ages of eight, nine, ten, eleven and twelve
Your undying love kept my soul from the pits of hell
 When I was a lost teen I turned again to thee
I was rebellious, self-centered, lost and lonely
As a young adult often I went astray
You waited patiently for me to change my ways
As I approached motherhood
Your unconditional love, I finally understood
Now a grandmother of four
Your amazing love I still adore
 Intriguing Love

Within two hearts and souls

Love blossoms into a beautiful rose
With its petals falling gently like the fallen rain
It erases all heartache and pain
In intriguing eyes there lies a mist
Of sweetness and bliss
My eyes sparkle with the thought of you
Shedding tears of joy while our dreams come true
Music is played in our ears
Takes away all cares and tears
Brings us both back to younger years
Making our spirits young and alive
Intriguing love is warm deep inside
Your tender touch makes me feel light yet strong
Sitting by the piano playing our song
The love song reaches your soul
With each loving note
It brings us ever so close
We delve into a sea
Of intriguing love that flows endlessly
 A Poet Writes
To express true feelings of the heart
Allowing strong emotions to flow until their ready to stop
Their feelings are held deep within
Writing makes the poet feel clean
From broken promises and dreams
Many poets share life’s mysteries
Of faith, hope, & love, to sad or happy
Yes a poet sometimes cry
But often they ride with the tide
Of Life…
A poet does not hide
Who and what they are
Shining and creative stars
Reaching out to the world
As their thoughts often twirl
In a frenzy while looking for a blessing
Many times they reach for strength from the heavens
As angels hear their empowering voices
New poets learn that they too can make empowering choices
To write from the heart
Make a brand new start
They believe in the freedom of speech
 Cherish their creativity
With pen in hand
They try to help others understand
The importance of reaching out to touch souls
To walk in humility and when needed to be a little bold
For those who would scold
The poet dares to let go
The grace of God will show
How they can make miracles happen
From fallen tears to begin laughing
With blessings galore
Show others how to soar
Portraying love and peace upon the shores
Making connections with love and affection
Sharing with others with no hesitation
The spirit is lifted up to higher ground
For the poet was once lost but now is found
 The Blessings of Love

Someone special who tries to understand

The way they reach for your hand
True love is in God’s plan
When they have faith and believe
That both of them were meant to be
A special person whom they honor
The beauty that lies within is what really matters
They found what they were searching for
Together forever they will always adore
Sharing all of their dreams
Give support to one another and never scheme
They allow each other to be themselves
Put each other above everyone else
Except for God as they know he must always come first
They pray together in Church
While they enjoy the fruits of great humor
They dream of making a bright future
For this woman is a gift from God
And this man has captured her heart
 Hidden Tears

There once was a heart that hid its tears

Day after day
Year after year
It stood strong and endured
Life’s ups and downs
Even when feeling like a clown
When no one was around
To give refuge when in the lost and found
Its tears turned to stone
Made itself a new and heartwarming home
Turned itself around
Rose to higher ground
then one day the heart took a chance
Opened the door to romance
To only once more close hearts door
For unfallen tears dared not to shed, and it closed its doors
Maybe one day the heart with no tears
Will have strength to relinquish its fears
And allow tears to fall
In spite of it all
 With an abiding love
Surrendering to the grace of a loving God
 Anguished Memories

When I was born you named me Donna Marie

Did you ever hold me when I was a baby?
You were so handsome and smart
So many times your drinking and unkind words broke my heart
I tried to be just like you because I thought you were my hero
It hurt when mom put me outside when it was zero
I remember you coming home drunk
I sat up with mom all night when she got in a funk
Leaving us four kids alone with the wrath of mom was painful
For she took her strife out on us when she got hateful
She said you were in the bars drinking
That you had been with other women?
Mom was nice at times
It was sad, when she missed you and cried
Then she would change her moods, and be full of rage
Singing in the cellar and reciting my poems, was my saving grace
Praying, always praying, for peace
It was as if I was living in a nightmare, and an anguished dream
I was so scared, and I am sure my dear sisters were too
I stayed up with mom sometimes until two
If I was bad she’d beat me black and blue
I was always kicked out of the house too
 I was so sad and full of shame
My childhood was mostly anguished pain
We were like water and vinegar you and I
Many nights I laid on my pillow and just cried
You never really talked to me
I never heard the words you’re smart, loved or pretty
It hurt when you put me down though
It broke my heart when you told me at twelve years old
Because mom was abusing me and you were too and I need to let go
I turned into a heartbroken and confused problem child?
As a teen I was running wild
It hurt deep down so much
I needed a mother and fathers love
I was left with mom’s wrath for you
I was the scapegoat child, left broken and bruised
It goes on and on…
Bullying, being treated differently, abused, and there were no happy songs
I have taken myself out of this family dysfunctional role
The Scapegoat
Not taking any more unacceptable behavior and as I go
I feel love for myself and peace inside
Now I wonder why
I didn’t see the light
God has lit the light for me to see
To have love, joy and peace
I needed to forgive my family
I forgave for me
It set me free
 The Ache within My Soul

A soul has an intense ache

While it captivates
Everything life once offered
It is now torn and tattered
With a silent ache
Avoiding everything in its wake
As its powerful force forsakes
The breath of life commences to its roaring Earthquake
Rubble and debris is all that’s left in its shadow of fate
Of impending gloom
In an empty hallow darkened room
Is painful memories
Found mysteriously
Through time and space
A shattered soul falls from grace
It begs God for shelter and peace
 Missing You Dad
I’ve missed you since you passed away
It hurts to know I will never again see your face
I wonder, did I ever make you proud?
Funny, you never did much come around
It hurt to have parents who at times, diminished my self confidence
Wish I know what I know now, but I was just a kid
I miss you and wonder where you are
Are you that bright twinkling star?
I always loved you deep down
You never acknowledged me, and I felt like a clown
The family attitude has reached its peak…
Are you in heaven or here with me?
Dad I forgive mom and you
I pray that you forgive me too
It was what it was, and it is what it is…
Alcoholism and mental illness, a family disease
Praying all will be blessed
 Writing Is:
Life
Breathing
Grieving
Feeling
Letting go
Being Bold
Walking in faith
Changing fate
Heaven’s gate
All hell breaking loose
Writing is for me and you
Darkness turns into light
Giving up the fight
Surrendering
Not pretending
Defending
One’s integrity
Protecting the heart
Making a new start
Saving a soul
 Being soothed
Truth
Bruised
Used
Betrayed
Swayed
Misunderstood
Good
Judged
Enough!
Faith, hope, and love
Writing is a guiding light
A twinkling star in the night
Trusting in God
Being true to one’s heart
A Vision of Light and Love
 Detaching in Love
Violence/Abuse
Abusers
I’m ready to make that change
Yes, I’m leaving you behind, and am no longer playing this game
I choose to no longer be a victim
I forgave you and when I did, it was then that I was forgiven
This is when the miracle happened
By the grace of God
I am free with a grateful heart
 Substance Abuse

Growing up as an adult child

Scared and angry, a teen who ran wild
Coming from a family disease
Alcoholism, pill addiction, mental illness, and poverty
Just look around, substance abuse, including the Heroin epidemic is quite real
It starts in Middle school, and even younger still
It affects all of our lives
We can all help to keep our kids, youth, and adults safe and alive
By
Reaching out to them
Acknowledge that substance abuse is a society & family disease
It affects you and me
Some of its victims are abused, used, incarcerated, hospitalized, and even die
Denial of substance abuse being a disease, is the biggest lie
Dark clouds shimmer over the horizon
Substance abusers need help, and also the family of origin
 Tears are shed and no one is smiling
Rather sickness such as: mental, physical, spiritual, and anguished despair
Rules over the addict’s home, please send some prayers
The home is a built in prison, consumed with this disease
A place where simple boundaries
Are not a safe place to express ones needs
Others learn to be enablers, people pleasers, reactors, kids suffer from PTSD
Children often lose their innocence from their toxic childhoods
Some of these teens end up in the hood
Angry, lost, addicted, torn and abandoned
Substance abuse took away their safe haven
Siblings fight and cry, while trying to survive
Living In a hostile environment
Getting a call for a fatal accident?
Substance abuse can carry a burden of resentment
Carrying toxic energy deep within the victims soul
Leaving scars to the heart, mind and soul
The results are a family’s soul sickness
But for the grace of God it can be treated
It takes surrendering and humility
Most of all the courage to acknowledge that one has been defeated
After that one day at a time, recovery can begin to flourish
The miracle of recovery can be achieved
With the willingness, to be open-minded, and living in honesty
The cycle of Addictions can be changed
 To a healthy and happy life of recovery day by day
It is no use to blame, but rather to forgive and love one another, and take responsibility for our
own lives
The grace of God can enter us and make things right
If we pray for his will and do the best that we can
All of us will one day see our Heaven

Our Soldiers

Our soldiers are proud and brave

They think nothing of all that they gave
Selfless
Pureness
Heart-touching
Every day surrendering their lives
Fighting for you and I
Some lie bleeding
Wives and families left grieving
They fight to keep us all alive
They often lose their own lives
Please protect them Lord with your guiding light
They walk in dignity
Spirituality
Stand for what they believe
 God bless America
Our fallen soldiers
Sisters and brothers
Please hold them dear God, in the palm of your hand
Let us always reach out our hands
To let them know that we care, and are there for them
God bless all of the ones in Heaven
God bless all of our Soldiers
Amen

God Bless Our Veterans

Let us thank our Veterans

For protecting our lives and freedom
Thanks so much for all that you gave
Your abiding strength
For all that you do
God bless you
For freedom for all
Your noble call
You hold a special place
In American’s hearts today and every day
Thank you for your bravery and the love of our Country
Please God keep the living ones safe
At Heaven’s gate
Hold the deceased ones in your loving arms
Guide us all to be faithful and strong

The Chosen Ones

Sent from the Son

It’s an honor for the chosen ones
He blesses their souls
Holds them tenderly close
Lost souls being saved
By his holy grace
Praying for the world
Climbing each mountain and every hill
Faith will prevail
His holiness will
Perform miracles
 The Fallen Rain

Was drenched with heartache and pain

From memories of yesterday
The dark night was humid
Shattered dreams now lied dead
Reality forced the truth
Of the tragic loss of youth
Yet there was a strange anticipation in the air
Healing love could once again begin this year
Capturing visions of joy with someone dear
The essence of dead silence
 Simply no longer resisted
The promise of a new day
Will be replaced with hope and faith

A Childs Innocence

The Innocence of a Child

Dances upon Daffodils
Skates eloquently on the frozen pond
With cherished memories that go on and on
Skipping endlessly in rainbow rain
Eating popcorn and drinking soda pop at the parade
Screaming in midair on the Ferris wheel
Sipping hot chocolate on the highest hill
Swimming playfully in the sea
 Running and jumping gallantly
Keeping them warm and safe
In a world that has evil and hate
Prayers are lifted up for them at the pearly gates
The innocence of a child will touch your heart with their precious smiles
God will know who treats them kind
For the Lord is not blind
To those who touch their tender hearts and souls
A child’s love is a treasure and hold
“When You Love a Child You Touch the Heart of God”

The Soul Awakened

It became unstuck
From the tattered
Shattered and loss of belief
Like lost sheep
Well into the darkened night
Awakened to the brisk of daylight
A soft spoken, windy, breeze
Was felt within the soul
Behold
Squander the penetrated emotions
 Frozen
Was the human
Chilled as ice
Cracked open and dehumanized
While the heart was throbbing
Pounding
A melody of
Musical chords
Struck a raw note
The soul awakened
From the nightmare
Dare to leave its shell!
Avoid show and tell
Honesty won and was fed great light
As the soul was awakened in the darkened night
Feelings

Feelings running deep are a heartbreaking sight

The Poet’s pen gives release and delight
Thoughts and strong emotions race through the echoes of time
Harboring a saving grace to reach the divine
Sadness in the heart reaches its destined peak
By surrendering completely to reach a state of peace
Comes from God’s heavenly grace
Worthy to treasure and hold for a sacred place
Of wisdom, faith, hope and love
Spreading their fruits of blessings sent from God above

The Hardened Heart

The hardened heart lies restless

Desolate
Abandoned
Rejected
Infected
Tossed and alone
 In a land of summers lost scent
Twirled in an epiphany of fallen souls
Relentless in finding a new home
An assent of the hearts decay
Settles silently adrift and dismayed
A deep rooted spirit is anguished
Distraught and pushed
Beyond human comprehension
Reaching frantically for the gates of heaven
Hell tries its hardest to destroy all signs of life
Denial of affliction replaces darkness with a guiding light
Peace replaces deep sorrow
Awakening a once sleeping soul
Faith arises to the occasion
With mercy to its final destination
Of a higher powers, supernatural, determination
To renew the heart
With a gentle love
The sea of love gains mighty strength
As the high tide comes rushes in
All is forgiven
With a powerful spiritual connection
for the unloved and forgotten
 The Season for Love

Heaven’s angels sprinkle love

Upon the lonely one’s hearts
Dreams once turned upside down
 Have a chance now to turn around
The spirit of Christmas
Delights in victim’s forgiveness
Enabling a promise to ease all pain
For the lost ones walking in shame
While the poor ones have no gifts to exchange
There is a light of hope in their souls
That maybe someday they won’t walk alone
The Season for love
Takes them home

My Heart Speaks
Poetry
 Inside the core of me
My heart speaks
My soul reaches ever so deep
At the bottom of my being
With pen in hand
Using my voice the best that I can
The rhyme and reason
Speaks with seasoned
Flavors to color
The hearts of sisters and brothers
As we reach out to one another
We touch each other’s hearts
I thank my loving God
For this miraculous feeling
When we reach our calling
It’s s a blessing
To cleanse the soul
Sometimes words are bold
Other times their gentle
Filled with Love and grace
Releasing emotions of disappointment and heartache
For these words are no mistake
They are part of who I am
A child of God, and a simple woman
Thank you my poet friends who read me
 Have faith and believe
In what I believe was meant to be
I cherish your poetry words too
Together we can make our dreams come true
Try to make a positive difference in justice and truth
Inspire the world to be renewed
 Resentment

Own it then let it go

Don’t be rash in the grasp that you hold
Pretending to care
Using rationalizations to lash out at others, is just unfair
From a long ago past
As you rehash and bash
Take your drama
Unresolved anger
Dear Resentment please get help!
Do as you wish for the victims are done
There is no more volunteering, to be under your smoking gun
The accusation’s, put downs, insanity and evil lies
Sigh!
Please don’t be all torn up inside
Denial of: Abuses, etc. & your substance abuse
The excuses that you use
I see right through you
As a caged beast lurking in an alley with fierce attacks
An enemy like some of the others
Send a whiplash
Good bye Resentment, and as you go
 It’s time for you to know
I will no longer tolerate any more
Surrendering to God

Momma
Deep in the depths of my soul
 Lies a heartache in letting you go
They tell me you only have days left
Have I said all that I needed to be said?
Momma
I’m grateful for having you as long as I have
The thought of losing you forever, makes me feel very sad
Watching you suffer hurts
You seem to have a deep thirst
Eating is now such a chore
God please have mercy on her
Momma
I played one of your favorite musicals last night
“The Sound of Music,” It always gave you such delight
It appeared to calm your soul
I wept silently trying to control
The grief I hold deep in my soul
How does one say good bye to their mom?
Momma
I have known you for so very long
In all of your life struggles you stood strong
You always loved me no matter what I did wrong
You have a beautiful voice, and you were such an inspiring singer
How you touched your student’s hearts with being their piano teacher
The love of your cats
For all of the laughs
 You are one in a million
In my heart for you lies precious loving feelings
Momma
It wasn’t easy growing up
We all had our struggles but…
God pulled us all through
You stood by your four daughters so true
Last night you liked the poems I read to you
You had your favorite ice-cream
It feels like I’m living in a dream
I know that you miss your mom and dad
The others in Heaven that you love, I’m sure will be glad
To welcome you home with Jesus and God
Momma
I pray with all of my heart
You will be blessed, happy and free
When you are in Heaven, I pray you won’t forget me
I will always love you mom
I’ll think of you often, and listen to your favorite songs
Momma
I will miss you every day when you’re gone
I promise to be strong
I’ll continue to write my poems and hope to inspire the kids
Having you for my mom makes me so blessed
Momma
 I love you
God bless you
 Mother
I’ve been visiting you in the Nursing Home for over ten years
Going up to see you like that was not always easy to have a heart of good cheer
Always bringing you your favorite treats
Like bananas and ice cream
Now the Nursing Home tells us, you have just days to live.
That was two weeks ago, now you see more of your kids
Your granddaughter and grandson brought up your great grand kids
You seemed so happy and peaceful
I am so grateful
I miss you so very much though
 Nursing Home & Elder Abuse

There is no excuse
It could happen to me or you
Filthy hair and dirty body
Quite a mess, in fact it’s appalling hospitality
Picking up your peter cottontail stuffed animal, from the floor
Pillows left there from days before
Now the family discovers bedsores!!!
They all claim it would be cruel to turn you over
Break their hearts to watch you suffer
But why wasn’t this prevented in the first place?
Drifting away in a morphine haze
Blind and hands that will never now open
Did they forget to have the Physical Therapist to come in?
Less and less they ask if you’d like a drink
The food stinks
You wait for your family to come in
To give you some food that you like
You try not to put up a fight
Your Neglected and abused
God bless you
I am going to help you
I never knew
 They hid it well…
Trying to save you from this hell
Mom
Grief
My heart weighs a million pounds
I swear that my soul is in the lost and found
Trapped tears suddenly pent up agonizing grief
Only to awaken to shock and disbelief
I’m losing you
So heartbroken, scared and blue
Watching you suffer has ripped me apart
Waiting for that phone call leaves a whole in my heart
Reminiscing of memory lane
Filled with emotions and relentless pain
Wonder how I will endure this pain
When you pass I will never see you again
At least on this earth
Where the sun shines and the birds chirp
Tragic how that last stroke left you blind
Forever you will be on my mind
Mother we had our ups and downs
I always knew that you loved me deep down
Your faith and strength amaze me
Truly
You’re an inspiration to me
 As the days go by
I get all choked up inside
Sometimes I want to run and hide
How can I continue to watch you suffer?
You can hardly eat a few bites of your supper
Bed sores and trapped in that bed
All I can do is caress you head
Tell you I love you, and bring you the comfort of love
When the good Lord takes you, it will hurt so much
It’s not about me and it never was
Although seeing you in that state was really rough
It’s about you and being set free
Spiritually
God blessing you lovingly
I pray you will watch over me
I will always pray for your soul
Try to gracefully let you go
To your father in Heaven
Thank you mom for being such a blessing
I pray you will fly like a dove peacefully, joyfully, lovingly
Jesus holding you in the palm of his hand tenderly
Letting go to God as he sets you free
To be in peace with our precious Savior for all eternity
 Death

I smell it in the room

Filled with scents of stale perfume
Springtime has vanished
Feelings of panic
Over-take the intellect over emotion
Acts of kindness and devotion
Projecting hope for the victim
Of Death
A star awaits their arrival
Patient renders all possible survival
The soul knows its running out of time
Weary is the heart, soul and mind
A quiet suffering is felt in the Nursing Home halls
Anguished emotions lurk upon, the angel on call
For the hearts of loved ones
Hurt deeply from the long drawn out suffering
Of their loved one
Pain and grief grip the depth of their being
Praying and waiting with anguished uncertainty
 Final destination rests upon thee
For a sign of love and long sought out peace
Uniting with the Creator
Reuniting one day, by God’s grace with my loving mother

Weary
It’s dreadful, dark, and dreary
Watching you suffer
For this time mother
They say you won’t recover
Yet forced to stay in that worn down bed, day after day
You’re so sleepy, words can’t come out like yesterday
Being pumped up with drugs to ease the pain
My heart has collapsed I am sure
With a broken heart, trying to endure
Pain lingers with each passing moment in time
I reach out to the great Divine
Does he hear my plea?
How could it be?
He would allow so much suffering
Seems as though his mercy is lingering
I cling to my faith
By God’s loving grace
All will be well
 All will be well
All will be well!
Chest is congested
Bed sores become infected?
Desperately Trying To Let Go

Life is but an empty shell

I have had enough!!!
My Poor mother…
God please help her!
I know I will miss her
Taking a glass of water could possibly choke her
Eating and drinking has become a dangerous game
Nothing will ever be the same
I am heartbroken, and life seems empty and so hard
My heart is broken, and it has turned into a hardened rock
As you melt away, everything is tucked away
“Wrath is mine said the Lord”
Bring out the clowns
Staying here is painful and depressing now
As the fallen rain flows
Flickers of grief consume my soul
Dreams appear to be all blown up in smoke…
 Momma
There’s an emptiness deep within my soul
That it hurts my every bone and aching muscles
How does an adult child explain?
When one day everything in their life has changed
Due to their mom’s death
No regrets
How dare I feel this way?
When I watched you suffer every day
Yet, momma you never complained
It ripped out my heart, and tugged at my soul
I’m left here feeling scared, and all alone
 The grace of God took you home
I sit here and question the meaning of life, suffering, strife, God, and as I weep
I pray you will be with God, and your precious family
I know that life must go on
I cry as I listen to your favorite song
“Love is a many splendored thing”
But now that you’re gone, I can barely sing
With you and Dad gone, am I nothing more than an orphan?
With broken angel wings
You fought so long and hard
Your ashes have saddened my heart
I know you’re not there
Oh momma where are you, while I am in such despair?
I love you so much!
Life has changed and it’s tough
Waking up to sunlight
Used to be such a delight
Now I wake up and remember again and again
You’re gone and I pray that you’re in Heaven
I ask myself how I can possibly go on.
Now that you’re gone
You’re not coming back
Dear God I am so incredibly sad
You became my best friend
I thank God again and again
 Oh momma, I pray to ease these grief feelings of mine
But they come flooding through as the sun shines
I am as a ship up a creek
As I take shelter and weep, I yearn for sought out peace
Everyone tells me that you’re in a better place
That you lived a long life, and I need to be strong
It still hurts and it’s you that I long
To hold and love you like I used to do
I am so lost without you
I know their right deep down inside
I pray that God’s angels, will take good care of you tonight
Oh momma I’m so sorry that you had to suffer that way
When your loved ones visited you, it made you so happy
I’m so sorry momma for the way it all happened…
Ten years ago that stroke left you blind and in a wheelchair
The love I feel in my heart for you eases my despair
Oh momma, I miss you so much
My little butter cup
I pray that God up above
Will tenderly hold you in the palm of his hand
That you’re happy and peaceful, and it’s all in his plan
Until then I pray to meet you one day in Heaven
Momma
It is you that I adore
God bless you mom forevermore
 You’re Loving Daughter
Donna Marie

Mom
I thought about you mom today
There was so much that I wanted to say
Like I miss and love you so very much
Praying that God is taking good care of you from up above
I sense your unconditional love
I miss your tender touch
I pray for you
Dear God, how I love you
I pray your now at peace
I wonder do you ever sleep.
What is Heaven like?
Do you sing your songs at night?
I thought about you mom today
 I kneeled down to pray
I asked God to take the pain away
I lit a candle for you, and asked God to bless your soul
Life is so different now, and I feel all alone
When I was with you it felt like I home
I miss calling you on the phone
It hurts in the core of my bones
A lonely life I have come to know
I am grateful for God, family and friends
But it’s not the same my dearest friend
Mom do you miss me too?
I feel you’re in my heart so true, and I will always love you
 Lilacs

Lilacs are eloquently blooming in the spring

The thought of death hurts like a bee sting
Feelings of loss and despair
Pain grips at ones being, and while their crippled with fear
Lilacs colorful beauty bring on some cheer
The stars up above twinkle, as messages are sent
Surviving child abuse with a strong intent
There’s no more blame just empathy
With a full heart of love and sympathy
I forgive you now
Jesus prepares your home in Heaven
 They have come now to take your life away
Lilacs have fallen dead to the ground, on a hot summer’s day
The dark sky is flooded with tears in the clouds
There’s nowhere to fit in this world, besides the lost and found
Lilacs on the table look strange in summer’s heat
Today they told me, you were among the deceased
A heart momentarily stopped ticking
I prayed to God in Heaven
Emotions froze upon spring’s royalty cloud
The moon wept as angels came out
A grief-stricken soul was put into a wooden box
Where loved ones dared not to unlock
Lilacs sweet scent seeped into mid air
The birds chirped during the middle of the night, to let me know your still here
As the Grace of God took you safely away
I felt like an orphan for a day
Then when I felt your love so deep within my heart, I knew your spirit would always stay
I love you mom
Always and Forever,
Donna Marie
 Dad I still pray for you
God bless you
I pray you have found peace
I pray that you also pray for me
I have made many mistakes too
I pray that God blesses Mom and you

Life Goes On
Death leaves a trace of history
Life learns of new mysteries
Reaching out as Life goes on
Life forces changes that may not be fun
 You have to go on they say
Today is a new day
But how as your heart just aches
Losing your loved one with deep heartbreak
Sinking like an earthquake
Don’t bother telling others of your grief stricken heart
They will tell you get on with life and be smart
Well it’s easier said than done
One makes great efforts to survive
Trying to hide the tears in their eyes
Reach for the Heavens for peace tonight
Stars twinkle bright
Life goes on

The Heartbroken Spirit

Heartache beyond human comprehension, deepens, darker, within the spirit
 Taken toxic feelings within it
Spreading like a fatal disease
Leaving in its wake shock and disbelief
Killing the spirit as it endured
Suffering relentlessly while being tortured
With an indescribable ache of agony
Left the heart, mind and soul empty
How could a precious life could be battered this way?
Why the martyred victim needs to know
A lifetime of agony beckons an inner glow
With only a shadow of hope to carry on
With immeasurable heartache, and no song
Resilience beckoned its call
Faith knocked on its door, but would fall
Hope was but a laugh in the dark
The human’s soul lost all spark
Emptiness filled its void
Lies and deception no longer to avoid
Disappointment and despair seeped its own level
Leading to the gates of hell
Desperate faith clung onto life with a life preserver
Hoping to end the lifetime torture
Calling out to God for the answer
The next generation comes to the heart
Sent by the Grace of God
 I miss you mom and dad
It’s Veterans Day and I’m especially thinking about you dad
Susan is in the hospital sick and it’s just so very sad
 I lost two friends just in this month alone
God it feels like I lost my home
My dear friend of thirty years just got diagnosed with cancer the other day
God I wish I could turn to you and hear what you have to say
It is so dark sometimes knowing you’re all gone now
Wondering when God will take me home
There’s so many dreams still yet I yearn to come about
Its Gods will I know I must trust I pray to become devout
Lord have mercy on my family and friends
I pray for each of them until the end

The Protected Window

 I sat by my window today
Daydreaming of how it was with you since you went away
The weather was cloudy with a lingering mist portrayed
It casted a dark shadow across the window pane
The haunted dream I awakened from earlier left me in daunting pain
I wasn’t sure if you were still in hospice, or if you had already passed
Oh mom it hurts like a crushing backlash
There’s an emptiness I’ve never felt in my heart
Intruding voices refuse to depart
My protected window enables me to keep the world far away
While God sheds upon me his amazing grace

Evil Forces Lurk Upon the Horizon

A Slimy creature Lurks behind the Horizon
There lies a glare in its eyes of evil descending
Loaded with Ugly guts that transform at its waking hour
It is fostering evil, morbidity and terror
Resides in its hollow soul, is a fungus of filth
Deceiving, conniving, bearing rotten, venom, and infected fruit
The scaly creature is consumed of rotten guts, transforming at its waking hour
Its toxicity is filled with a poisonous deadly fever
It is fostering evil, puke, and a horrid fungus
It resides in a hollow soul, with a pitiless of filth, hiding among us
Deceiving, conniving, bearing rotten infected fruit
The scaly snake is consumed, within a creature from beyond
Being the lowest of God’s creatures
As you can only imagine it’s no gift to all creation
It lacks any light or truth within the world
As it is loaded with pure evil
The time is coming soon when it will hell will be paid
Let us all pray

Bleeding Heart
Bleeding heart and hollow soul
Where it begins and ends no one knows
Withered angel wings lost above the horizon
Lost smiles and weakened faith is not surprising
Ashes sprinkled over the sea
 Sunshine and blue skies are nowhere to be seen
False friends lurk around lonely corners
Overdoses and violence met by the local coroner
Haters seek to dig their claws on peaceful paths
Dying love takes swift whiplash
Loneliness seeks shelter of a peaceful state
Frantically seeking the pearly gates
Heaven is questioned from those who seek the truth
Mobility and false hope loses its fruit
The senses find solace in writing once again
A message sent from the heavens
To put all trust and love in God the almighty
Giving him thanks and praise for release from the unholy
Putting the will in the Hands of God
Thanking him for blessing the soul and heart

Fierce Flares of Disguise

Smiles upon the face

Make it difficult to trace
Memories suddenly erase
 Disgrace and distrust like a drunken lush
Soft lullabies sung are silently hushed
While closed dark and sullen eyes
Witness the haunting lies
Projecting deep into the night
Babbling words astonish deafened ears
Scars of the soul and frozen tears
Make it difficult to hide, from the drawn out agony and fears
Radiant light rescues, the wretched emotional thunder
As the soul becomes listless and wanders
A golden heart with magical love
Sheds faith, hope, and love from up above

Missing Mom

The pain inside of my heart

Refuses to go away or stop
 Focusing on loving thoughts
Of you mom, even though your now up above
I give you my unconditional love
For that is all I have left to give
I know that your spirit in heaven lives
A prayer is sent to forgive
All the hurts from yesterdays
For when I lost you that sad day in May
My soul went into the lost and found, broken and dismayed
Loneliness filled my very being, with silent sobs
I reached out to the grace of God
I prayed with an open heart
“When I walked through the storm Lord
I felt I could hurt no more
I opened my heart, then you opened the door”
You sent angels from heaven, to guide me along the way
Now all I can do is give thanks and praise
Praying for the grief of losing you eases the pain one day
I will miss you mom until I see you in heaven
For you will always be a most precious blessing
Whether on earth or heaven
I miss you mom
Pain and Anger

Pain and anger

Like rolling thunder
 Shakes the soul and heart
Leaves fiery and daunting darts
Anguish refuses to leave any traces of hopeful refuge
From the most tragic of storms recluse
Oh how the piercing heart splatters blood into the dark, and larking skies
Drenching it with mystery and disguise
Anger turns to resentment
Pain turns into torment
Forgiveness crawls on its knees
Begging the higher power to help let it go with ease
While becoming hopeful, joyous, and free
No more self-centered fear
Only an occasional fallen tear
Replaced with an unshakable faith
With a feeling of dignity and grace
Pray for the light to carry on
Let us rejoice with song
Praising the higher power for a real reason to carry on
By spreading love to on another with no more pain and anger
The heart and soul is finally set free, with no more danger
To allow pain and anger to control one’s life
The higher power has come to help make things right

Anguished
 Beast of anger
Rage of torment
Resentment flutters
Captured by toxic
Poisons of a non-love potion
Ruby red declarations
Of repentance being on trial
Being engaged with a mastermind of doom
Self-righteous act of fire
Flare of darkened gloom
Abused and a victim
Martyrdom seeks its own level
Of fallen triggers and isolation
Engaging with the enemy, becomes a brutal force of oppression
Hatred, stinky, sweaty, lousy lies of the ages
Penetrates false accusations
Morbid thoughts with peculiar faces
Leaves the bewildered one searching for traces
Of any common decency to speak of, for the soul
A hunger is left out into the brutal cold
It can never be filled
For the beast of anger is in control
Let go, let God, let go

Scattered thoughts soared through a wounded soul

 Hope vanished out into the cold
Thoughts scattered into the ocean
Over the highest mountains
At the end of the starlit skies
Painful memories told of unspeakable lies
Life
Where did it all go?
Nothing is real it’s an illusion, hold onto your soul
Take the so called reality
Put it where it deserves to be
Under a free flowing brook
Or the big blue sea
For it does not exist!
Wake up and face the facts
Everything you think, feel and believe is a joke
Take note:
Plea for mercy that’s all you have left
Next…
“Why I ask, did you stir me in the wrong direction”?
What I paid for a small fraction of affection
Oh dear God
I cannot bear this world of rot
With no hope, and sense of meaning, I feel lost
Banished in a universe of falling tears
 Forbidden to cry or shed drops of melting tears
I am all alone in the reality, of a nonexistent world
Where are all the little boys and girls?
The lovers with dreams of eternal love
Christians who worshiped God from up above
Nature and all of its glory
Not one story
Is real so why should I care?
It’s lonely inside of here
What did I believe in before this day?
What were my dreams?
Why did I pray?
Who really mattered, when no one was ever born?
Those false fears and adversities, were nonexistent storms
There is nothing to hang onto in this facade
Wish I knew when I was a babe
Even then it was much too late…
 Red splatters of stained blood
Rushed
To the head, to keep the heart alive
Almost lost from the tragic ride
Souls roam until dooms day
One heartsick person begins to pray
Dark skies threaten shelter in the empty home
Grasping for comfort while being alone
None comes as the tornado sweeps through the streets
Searching to take refuge as one valiantly weeps
Cries for the victims of innocence, are heard intently
Amidst sent in secrecy
To God the almighty
A flicker of hope is felt suddenly
 Violence over the Land
Over here over there
Violence appears to be everywhere
The fate of the fallen world
Threatens our little boys and girls
Our teens and adults
The sad result
Is less peace and brotherhood than ever before
Anger and fear and frustration, is felt more and more
Little hope is offered to settle the score
Endless violence and intense pain
Saturates the heart like the fallen rain
Folks are weary
Everything feels so dreary
People fight hard to make a change
None comes rather it’s the blame game
God is called upon in great despair
Will the world be saved with grace and flare?
 Faith
I hold my head up high
Have faith in Jesus Christ for my life
As I think of all that he went through
Yet his love for us he renewed and shinned through
Even when dark times try to overpower me
I trust in him and believe…
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