Crier - Joy Dreamer.

Whenever i don't feel at ease,

the tears are slowly falling on my knees,
And when i'm done with that,
I start to fall asleep in my ehaustion...

I'm honest,

the night like that are on repeat,

they are consistent yet seem so incomplete,
and when I wake...
I am at another suffocating morning...

The worry and regret and neverending darkness

And all the envy for the people that are stressless

And how the jealousy and bias slowly damage me

And turn to tears again, overflowing;

Crying agin, crying again...

And here i stand and still can't change a small simple thing;

All inside me, all agony

I simply can't help to feel afraid...

Having nothing, I am longing

I'm praying that someone will come and reach what i see...
Taking my eyes. taking my heart, just take them all away from me;

Right away...

the people that i know they go and lie so they get their way,
But i can never see right through them at the end of the day,
So im sitting here and clinging to the words you gave me...

still believing;

so everything you said and all your lies or what the heck they are?
so deep, so deep, they wound me yet again so deeply...

i've had enough already, look at me!

This is the wound and it is hurting where it always did,

You; just keep adding more, I am done for!

Over again, over again...

I hear the spilling out selfish words they always say;

Hurting again, but it's sure when

I'm very self-centerded myself

"Nothing you've got, you should just stop"

I like to just pretend, that i cannot hear the things they say;
 More than they know, more than i know
I am concerned and can't act cool .. I'm such a fool

You know it's over if you simply go and call it quits,

but im sure that i can never do the thing that fits,
Cause i've been fooled just by the words and how you make them sound;

Now their pushing me and I am falling to the ground;

And now i really don't care, and now I really don't care!

And while i agonize i'm thinking that i really don't care,

You really think that pain and hurt will turn you stronger if you don't give up?
How many times will I just have to keep on crying??

Crying again, crying again...

And here I stand and still can't change the smallest little thing

I'm really so sad, regretting and mad ...

But here I am and still I can't do a thing...

Having nothing, still with nothing

The tears I cry have soaked my wounded heart eternally

It's really a blur, and hurting occur .. But I can't stop it anymore

Over again, over again

I've looked just for a reason so that i'd choose to live

Not being sure what is my cure

And still not knowing why i cry...

Having nothing, still with nothing

But each and everytime the day will break to stop my tears...

"I am so glad, where I stand at"

and this i just hope that I can say...
Fo this, I always will pray....