Dona Rose B.

Buted March 2, 2020

BS Nursing- 1A

“I will have no abortion.”

No abortion at all. My conscience would kill me. It’s not about just conscience why I

made that decisions, yet it’s more on my principles. Truly, it’s hard to decide and put

myself in a real-life and difficult situation. Surely, I will cry day and night about it.

Maybe at some point, I may think about not killing the baby. But instead, I’ll kill myself.

Stating more in details the dilemma made me feel angry and sorrowful where I put

myself in a woman who was nearly getting married but raped, had STD and got

pregnant. Still, I won’t abort the baby. Based on my own principles, there are three

reasons why I will do that. First, killing someone make my mind in chaos. Surely I will

have more psychological disorders than the anxiety I have on the dilemma if I’ll kill a

person especially an innocent one. My heart would just always tremble with fear and

the inner voice inside of me will totally destroy my being that would lead me think

more about suicidal. Second, I won’t blame the baby about what had happened to me.

The rapist is the real criminal and he should be the one to suffer. I may not love the

baby the way a mother will, yet I know that putting my anger into innocent being make

me a bias person. I’ll try to accept the baby and the disease I have even though it’s so

difficult. I’ll be helping myself to see the positive side just to live with peace. Lastly but

not the least, I will just let God decide for my life. I may not know it but by trusting

Him, he will prepare me for a new beginning. It’s up to my boyfriend if he will accept

me or not. And I will respect the decision he will make. I’ll let God handle all my life

and do the plans he had planned on me.

If I am truly in that situation, yet I’m praying not to be, I’ll just cry then cry and cry.

I don’t have the power to let the dilemma change and that upsets me. I’m so angry

about it. Right now, in my current life as a student in real life, this thing made me

realize to always pray unto God no matter what. We don’t know how life works. By

that, we must let God be with us and guide us to the ways we will go through.