I stood alone among the music and the socialites, fidgeting with my
left hand, and gripping a half-full plastic cup in my right, thinking:
“I ought to say hello to someone” But just as the thought completed itself in my mind, she appeared in front of me. I lowered my eye line to match hers, and started to articulate an introduction, in hopes of maybe learning her name at some point down the line. She looked at me with a static expression though, seemingly trying to communicate something to me, through merely the virtue of that expression. The way her eyes probed me effortlessly from below the flat horizon of her disapproving brow, and her fish-like jaw hung beneath the rest of her face- it bewildered me. I had begun my introduction mere seconds ago, but words started to become caught in my throat, in fear of whatever assertion this look that I was receiving could possibly serve to make. Soon any semblance of eloquence in my yammering was defeated by the look, which exuded disgust the likes of which I had never seen before; an unnerving blend of apathy and horror at the fact that I was even attempting verbal contact with her. While, in my naivete, I had initially thought her visually unassuming, I soon realized she had a figurative shut up written directly across her face. I pondered how it could possibly be that she harbored such immediate disdain for the words I was saying. I pondered further; could it be that the muscles in her face were simply comatose? If she sought to infect me with whatever affliction she had, it had been a complete success, as before I knew it, instead of choking on my words, I was saying nothing at all. Every shred of confidence had been depleted. I tried to conjure in my head a combination of words which might break the ice, but she was the ice. I briefly paused my introspection to get another look, but the slack jawed phantom had vanished as quickly as she arrived. I stood alone again among the music and the socialites, with my left hand limp at my side, and a mouth ajar, into which I emptied the contents of the cup in my right hand. I thought to myself: “I ought to go home now.”