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Chase Bush
English 1201
18 November 2021
As a child I never thought of myself as normal. Although I had quite a few friends in my
childhood, I would still stand out from others. I did not notice my exact behavior in my earlier
years since I was merely a little kid, but others would think there was something different about
me. As I started growing up, questioning my character and intellect. In school I often found myself
daydreaming and having trouble paying attention in class. My grades throughout middle school
were mediocre to say the least, and were not improving. I would usually get in trouble with my
teachers because I would get caught talking while they were talking. While this was a lot for me to
There were many days that I would contemplate whether I was good enough. In school I
did not retain the information that was taught and I became frustrated. I fell into learned
helplessness, a psychological term that describes how a person who has failed many times at
controlling a situation tends to lose hope on achieving their goal. I would try to pay attention to the
information to get a better understanding, but I would get poor grades on tests. I felt hopeless and I
thought that I would never amount to anything in life. I thought my grades defined me as a person
and I started pondering my intelligence. My inability to pay attention, constant fatigue, and poor
test results led me to believe that I was not a smart person, and that made an impact on my mental
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health. I started to lose faith and I eventually stopped trying in school. My mental health was
deteriorating, leaving me questioning who I was and what my purpose was in life.
I never really talked to my parents about myself until I was pushed to my limit. I would
constantly ask my mom if I was stupid and if I was good enough. I started exhibiting bad behavior
and unhealthy habits. I did not have many friends in school, but the friends I would spend time
with were bad influences. I started displaying bad behavior in school and I would usually get in
trouble for my actions. I was angry and scared at the same time because I did not know where my
life was going or if I would turn out to be successful. Eventually my mom took me to the doctors to
evaluate my situation. After observing my behavior for a couple of months, I was diagnosed with
ADHD. Although I knew that something was wrong with me, I did not expect to be diagnosed
with this neurological disorder. The symptoms of ADHD and my behavior corresponded with each
other so it made perfect sense to me. The next step for me was to decide how I could find success
There are a variety of medications that combat the symptoms of ADHD. I went through a
couple of medicines before I found the right one. Although my problem was diagnosed and I was
attempting to treat it, I thought it could not be treated since even the medicine was not reducing my
symptoms. I was still having trouble paying attention in school and a month later I went back to the
doctors. The medication was not working and I was becoming even more frustrated with my
situation. My doctor then prescribed me adderall, an amphetamine that enhances a person’s focus
and cognitive abilities. A couple months after taking this medication I started noticing a change in
my behavior and grades in school. The changes I noticed were positive instead of negative. I was
finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and my depression started fading away.
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After all of the hardships and obstacles I had to face were worth it in the end. My ADHD
was finally controllable and I was starting to show who I really was. I started getting all A’s in high
school and a 3.9 GPA or higher. I proved to myself that I was a very intelligent person, I just could
not see that at first because my ADHD was in the way. I was finally happy for the first time in a
while and I started making new friends. Although I still have some symptoms of ADHD while on
this medication, Adderall still helps me achieve my goals. I still have trouble understanding
information, but I study and work hard to be the best I can be. Personally I do not accept
mediocrity, and I never will. This neurological disorder has taken a toll on me, but I will never let it