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‫ﺍﺴﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻷﺼﻠﻴﺔ‪:‬‬

‫‪The Looking for love in all The Wrong Places‬‬
‫ﺍﺴﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻐﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺭﺒﻴﺔ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﻁﺌﺔ‬
‫ﺠـﻭ ﻭﺍﻴــﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﺴﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﺘـﺏ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﺴﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺭﺠﻡ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﺴﻡ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺸـﺭ‪:‬‬
‫ﺘﺼﻤﻴﻡ ﻜﻤﺒﻴﻭﺘﺭ‪:‬‬

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‫ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺭﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺘﺒﻌﺙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺸﻌﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﺨﺎﺼﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺎﻨﺏ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ ﺇﻥ ﺴﺄﻝﺕ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴـﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﺸﻌﻭﺭﻫﺎ ﺤﻴﻨﺫﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻥ ﻴﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻭﺼﻔﻴﺔ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻷﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺒﺒﺴﺎﻁﺔ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻬﺩﻑ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﺍﻝـﺫﻱ ﻭﻀـﻌﻪ ﺍﷲ‬
‫ﻝﻴﺼل ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼﻝﻪ ﻭﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻲ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺠﺴﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺍﻷﺼﻴل ﻝﻠﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝـﺫﻱ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜـﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻭﺼﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﺄﻥ ﻤﺅﻝﻑ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻴﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺨﺫ ﺒﻴﺩ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﺸﻌﺭﻭﻥ ﺒﺘﺤﻁﻡ ﺤﻠﻤﻬﻡ ﺍﻝﺸﻔﺎﻑ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻴﺼل‬
‫ﺒﻬﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻭﺍﻗﻊ ُﻤﻤﻜﻥ ﻭﺜﺎﺒﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻗﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﻭﺃﺴﻤﻪ "  ا " ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﺭﺽ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻭﺍﻨﺏ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺠﺭﻴﺌﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﺨﺼﺼﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻤﻨﻁﻠﻕ ﻨﻅﺭﺘﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ‬
‫ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻷﻨﻤﺎﻁ ﺍﻝﺴﻠﻭﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺠﺘﻤﻌﻪ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﻴﻜﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻲ ﻭﺠﺩﻨﺎ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﻴﺎﻡ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺩﺨﻠﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺠﺘﻤﻌﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻤﺼﺭﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺩﻭﺍﺌﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺜﻘﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻁﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﻀﺎﺭﻱ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺴﻴﺭ ﻗﹸﺩﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺍﻝﺘﺸﻜل ﺒﺒﻌﺽ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻷﻨﻤﺎﻁ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻌﺎﻨﻰ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺘﻤﻊ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﻴﻜﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﺸﻴﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﻁﺌﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴ‪‬ﺒﺤﺙ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻝﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﻭﺍﻝ ‪‬ﻤﺴﻜﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﻋﻘﺎﻗﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻬﻠﻭﺴﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻨﺠﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺨﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺒﻴﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺜﻤﺭﺓ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﻠﻔﺕ ﺍﻨﺘﺒﺎﻫﻨﺎ ﺒﺼﻭﺕ ﻋﺎ ٍل ﻜﻤﺎ ﻓﻌل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻭﻻ ﺯﺍل ﻓﺘﺠﺩﻩ ﻴﻘـﻭل "‬
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" ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺘﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻤﻠﺊ ﺒﺎﻻﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻡ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﺌﺫﺍﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺼﺤﺎﺒﻬﺎ ﻝﻨﺸﺭﻫﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﻁﺕ ﻝﻪ‬
‫ﻗﻴﻤﺔ ﺨﺎﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻥ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻜﻤﺘﺭﺠﻡ ﻝﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻗﺩﻤﻪ ﻝﻜل ﺸﺎﺏ ﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺤﺎﺠﺘﻪ ﻝﺘﻘﻭﻴﺔ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﺯﺀ ﺍﻝﻬﺵ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ ﻝﻴﺼﺒﺢ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻗﻭﻩ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻴﺼل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﻗﺼﻰ ﺇﺸﺒﺎﻉ ﻭﺘﻜﻴﻑ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺨﻠﻘﻬﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻝﺘﺤﻘﻴﻕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻭﻫﻰ "  ا ا " ‪..‬‬

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‫ﺃﺭﺟﻮﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺤﻠﻢ ﻣﻌﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ‪..‬‬

‫ﻋﺶ ﺣﻠﻤﻚ ‪ ..‬ﻫﺬﻩ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻚ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﺸﺎﺏ ﺻﻐﻴﺮ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻧﺖ ﺗﻘﻒ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻋﻈﻢ ﻣﻔﺘﺮﻕ ﻃﺮﻕ‬
‫ﻳﻮﺻﻠﻚ ﻟﻠﺤﺐ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺠﺰﺀ ﺍﻟﻬﺶ ﻓﻴﻚ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ ﻗﻮﺓ ﻭﺟﻤﺎﻻﹰ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻳﻨﻜﺴﺮ ﻣﺤﻄﻤﺎﹰ ﺑﺤﺰﻥ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻳﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﻣﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﻓﻰ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺃﺳﺎﺑﻴﻊ ﺃﻭ ﺷﻬﻮﺭ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻣﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺻﺔ ﻷﺧﺬ ﺑﻴﺪﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺳﻴﺮ ﻣﻌﻚ ﻟﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﺪﻗﺎﺋﻖ ﻓﻘﻂ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺣﻠﻢ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﻲ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺣﻠﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼﺒﺢ ﺣﻘﻴﻘﺔ ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻴﻌﺘﺒﺭ " ﻭﺍﻝﺕ ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﻤﻥ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻤﺒﺩﻋﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺠﺎل ﺼﻨﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺤﺭﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻗﺼﺼﻪ ﺍﻝﺨﻴﺎﻝﻴﺔ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﻜل ﺇﺒﺩﺍﻋﺎﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺄﻝﻘﺔ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻝﻡ ﺘﺘﻔﻭﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻤﻠﻪ ﺍﻷﻡ " ﻭﺍﻝﺕ ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻁﺭﺃﺕ ﻓﻜﺭﺓ ﺒﺴﻴﻁﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻫﻨﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﺎﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺒﻨﻰ ﻋﺎﻝﻡ ﺨﺎﺹ ﺒﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺭﺽ ﻤﺴﺘﻨﻘﻌﻴﻪ ﻓﻰ ﻓﻠﻭﺭﻴﺩﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﺭﺏ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺃﻭﺭﻻﻨﺩ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﺃﺴﺘﺎﺫﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻅﺭﺘﻪ ﻝﻠﻤﺸﺭﻭﻉ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﻭل ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺎﺀ ﺘﺤﺩﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻘل ﺭﺅﻴﺘﻪ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻝﻜل‬
‫ﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﺸﺘﺭﻙ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺇﻨﺠﺎﺯﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ " ﻋﺎﻝﻡ ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﺤﻠﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﻨﻪ ﻋﻥ ﺨﻴﺎل ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﻋﺭﻑ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗـﺩ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴـﺭ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻔﻘـﺕ‬
‫ﻤﻼﻴﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻼﻴﻴﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﻨﺎﺩﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻼﺠﺊ ﻭﺍﻝﺒﻴﻭﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻁﺎﻋﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻨﺘﺯﻫﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻝﺘﻔﺕ ﺤﻭل ﻤﻨﺎﺯل " ﻤﻴﻜﻰ ‪ ،‬ﻤﻴﻤﻰ ‪ ،‬ﺒﻠﻭﺘﻭ ‪،‬ﺩﻭﻨﺎﻝﺩ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻐﺭﻕ ﻋﺎﻝﻤﻪ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﺘﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﻻﺒﺘﺴﺎﻤﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺭﺴﻡ ﺍﻝﻀﺤﻜﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺠﻭﻩ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎل ﻤﻥ ﺴﻥ ﺴﻨﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺎﺌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻗﺼﻴﺭ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﺤﻘﻕ ﺤﻠﻤﻪ ﺍﻝﻌﺠﻴﺏ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻨﻅﻡ ﻭﻴﺨﻁﻁ ﻭﻴﻌﻤل ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨـﺎ ﻴﻅﻬـﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺭﻭﻉ ﻴﻜﺘﻤل ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺨﻴﺎﻝﻴﺔ ﻭﺒﺭﻭﻋﺔ ﻤﺘﻨﺎﻫﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﻗﺎﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻨﻘل ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﻋـﻥ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘـﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻝﻜل ﻤﻥ ﺍﺸﺘﺭﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻨﺎﺌﻬﺎ ﻤﻌﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌﺎﹰ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻨﺒﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜل ﻨﺠﺎﺭ " ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻴﺴﻤﺭ ﺒﻤﺴﻤﺎﺭﻴﻥ ﺸﺊ ﻴﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﺔ "‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺒﻨﻰ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ‬
‫" ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻜل ﻋﺎﻤل ﺃﻭ ﻤﺸﺭﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﺭ ﻴﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺤﻔﺭ " ﻤﺜل ﺃﻯ ﺤﻔﺭ "‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺒﻨﻰ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘﻪ ﻋﻠـﻰ ﺃﺴـﺱ‬
‫ﻤﺘﻴﻨﺔ ﻭﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤ‪‬ﻤﻜﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻜﺘﻤﺎل ﺍﻝﻔﻜﺭﺓ ﻅﻬﺭﺕ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﺘﻨﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺤﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺒﻘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﻴﺯﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻬﺩ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺠﻠﺏ ﺍﻷﺤﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﺩﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻠﻭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﺭﻯ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺘﻭﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﺘﺭﻗﺹ ﻗﺩﺍﻤﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺒﺎﻝﻭﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻀﺨﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺘﻠﺌﺔ ﺒﻐﺎﺯ ﺍﻝﻬﻠﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل‬
‫ﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻴﺤﻴﻁ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﻠﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺄﺩﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻋﻅﻴﻤﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﻨﻔﻕ " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﺜﻼﺜﺔ ﻤﻼﻴﻴﻥ ﺩﻭﻻﺭ ﻝﻴﺭﺍﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺩﻋﻰ ﺇﻝﻴﻬـﺎ ﻜـل ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺤﺎ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﺸﺘﺭﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺘﺤﻘﻴﻕ ﺤﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺨﻼل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺄﺩﺒﺔ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻋﺒﻘﺭﻴﺔ ﻤﺸﺭﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﻋﻥ ﻜل ﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﺴﺘﻁﺎﻉ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺎﻁ ﺭﺅﻴﺘـﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻯ ﺼـﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺨﻴﺎﻝﻪ‪ ،‬ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﺠﺯﺀﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻠﻤﻪ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻜﻤل " ﺩﻴﺯﻨﻰ " ﻋﺎﻝﻤﺔ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺠﺩﺍﻭل ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺍﻋﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻯ ﻤﻘﺎﻭل ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘﻪ ﺘﻌﺘﺒﺭ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﺠﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺩ ﺫﺍﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻔﺘﺎﺡ‬
‫ﻫﻭ " ﺘﻤﻜﻴﻥ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻴﻁﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺭﻭﺍ ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺭﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﺌﻰ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺩﻕ ﺃﻭل ﻤﺴﻤﺎﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺉ ﻫل ﺍﺴﺘﻁﻌﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻠﺘﻘﻁ ﺭﺅﻴﺔ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﻴﺭ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ ﻭﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ ﻭﻤﺸﺒﻌﺔ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺭﺅﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺭﻭﻴﺔ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺤﺩﺩ ﺃﻫﺩﺍﻓﻙ ﻭﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎﺘﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺸﻜل ﺍﺨﺘﻴﺎﺭﺍﺘﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺭﺅﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺘﻤﻠﺔ ﻫـﻰ‬
‫ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻀﺤﺔ ﻝﺸﻜل ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻭﺤﺔ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻤﺘﻨﺎﺴﻘﺔ ﺍﻷﻝﻭﺍﻥ ﺘﺘﻔﺭﺩ ﺒﺘﻤﻴﺯ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻑ ﻭﻋﺠﻴﺏ ﺘﻜﺴﺏ ﺼﺎﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﻗﻴﻤﺘـﻪ‬
‫ﻭﺸﻌﻭﺭﻩ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻭ ﺒﻤﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻁﻌﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺭﺅﻴﻪ ﻓﺄﻨﺕ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻭﻁ ﺍﻷﺴﺎﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻔﺭﻋﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘـﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﺘﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﺼﻭل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺇﻤﻜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻨﻘﻠﻬﺎ ﻝﻶﺨﺭﻴﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﻓﺘﺤﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻤﺤﺕ ﻝﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺼﺏ ﻭﻴﺸﻜل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺩﻙ ﺒﺈﻤﻜﺎﻨﻪ ﺍﺴﺘﺒﻌﺎﺩ ‪ %٩٠‬ﻤﻥ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺯﻥ ﺍﻝـﺫﻱ ﺘـﺭﺍﻩ‬
‫ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻝﻠﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻤﻥ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻤﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺫﺍ ﻋﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﻤﻨﻐﻠﻘﺔ ﺘﺭﻓﺽ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻴﻌﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﻠﺠﻭﺀ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺼﺢ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺃﻤﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺤﺯﻨﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻙ ﻤﻊ ﻓﺘﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻷﻤـﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺒﻴﻥ ﻝﻙ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻭﺍﺠﻪ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻙ ﻁﺭﻴﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺼﺨﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺼﻠﺒ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺴﻤﻊ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﺸﺎﺏ ﺒﺎﻝﻎ ﺃﺼﻴﺒﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ ﺒﺎﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ‪..‬‬
‫" ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﻰ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻁﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺭﺩﻫﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻋﻥ ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻝﺩﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻤﻭﺭ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻙ ﺘﻌـﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺸـﺒﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﺒﺄﻯ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻴﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﻷﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﻀﺒﻁ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺍﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﺃﺨﺴﺭ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻭﺼﻠﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻷﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺭﺩ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻤﺎﻉ‪ .‬ﻤﻥ ﻓﻀﻠﻙ ﺼﻠﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻨﻰ ﺍﷲ ﻷﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪".‬‬

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‫ﺍﻁﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻠﻡ ﺤﻠﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻌﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ! ﻋﺵ ﺤﻠﻤﻙ ! ﻫﺫﻩ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ !! ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﺴﺎﻋﺩﻙ ﻝﻜﻲ ﺘﻔﺘﺢ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻙ ﻋﻥ ﺃﺨﺭﻫﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ‬
‫ﻴﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺒﺭﺅﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﻗﺩﺍﻤﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻁﻠﻕ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺒﺎﻝﻭﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻬﻠﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﻬﺎﻤﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻨﻌﻡ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ !! ﺃﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻫﻡ‬
‫ﻤﻔﺘﺭﻕ ﻁﺭﻕ ﻓﻰ ﺴﻨﻰ ﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺼﻨﻊ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻔﺭﺽ ﺸﻜل ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﺤﺩﺩ ﺒﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﺨﺘﺒﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻷﻤل ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﺤﺯﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺒﻼ ﺤﺴﺎﺏ‪.‬‬

‫ﺩﻉ ﺒﺎﻝﻭﻨﺎﺕ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺘﺤﻠﻕ ﻋﺎﻝﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ !! ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻴﻨﺘﻅﺭﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﻭﻜﺏ‪ ،‬ﺸـﺒﻊ‬
‫ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﻭﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﺎﻤﺭﺓ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻨﻅﺭﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺒﻌﻨﺎﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻝﻘﻴﻤﺔ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ ﻭﻝﻌﻼﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺸﺎﺏ ﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﻤﻔﺘﺭﻕ ﻁﺭﻕ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺠﺯﺀ ﺍﻝﻬﺵ ﻓﻴﻙ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﺭﺍﺌﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻤﻬﺸﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺼـﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺩﺭﺍﻤﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻴﺎﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﺴﺎﺒﻴﻊ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺩﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﻁﻨﻰ ﻓﺭﺼﺔ ﻜﻰ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺨﺫ ﺒﻴﺩﻙ ﻭﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﻤﻌﻙ ﺩﻗﺎﺌﻕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻠﻡ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ‬
‫ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺼﺒﺢ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻫل ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﻓﻜﺭﺓ ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻅﻴﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺃﻡ ﺘﺭﺍﻫﺎ " ﺨﺒﺭﺍﺕ ﺭﻭﺘﻴﻨﻴﺔ " ﺒﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ‪ :‬ﺍﻝﻴـﻭﻡ‬ ‫‪-١‬‬
‫ﻤﺜل ﺃﻤﺱ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻐﺩ ؟‬
‫ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺅﺜﺭ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺼﺎﺌﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺘﺨﺫﻫﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ؟‬ ‫‪-٢‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻝﻠﻐﺎﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻜﺸﺨﺹ ﺭﺍﺸﺩ ﻴﺘﺤﻤل ﻤﺴـﺌﻭﻝﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻼﻤﺒﺎﻻﺓ ﻜﻤﺭﺍﻫﻕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺴﻬ ﹰ‬ ‫‪-٣‬‬
‫ﺃﻓﻌﺎﻝﻪ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ‪ ،‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ؟‬
‫ﻫل ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ؟ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ؟‬ ‫‪-٤‬‬
‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﺤﻠﻡ ﻴﺘﺤﻘﻕ ؟ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﺴﻌﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻰ ؟‬ ‫‪-٥‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺘﻁﻠﻕ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﻝﻭﻨﺎﺕ ﻤﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺠﺒل ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ ﻓﻤﺎ ﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻨﻬﺎ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﻝﻭﻨﺎﺕ ؟‬ ‫‪-٦‬‬
‫ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺃﻫﻡ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﻫﺩﺍﻑ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ؟ ﻤﺎ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺘﺤﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻝﻜﻰ ﺘﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﻫﺩﺍﻑ؟‬ ‫‪-٧‬‬

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‫ﻤﻥ ﺨﻠﻕ ﺃﺩﻡ؟ ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ " ﺍﻨﻔﺠﺎﺭ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻌﻨﺎﺼﺭ ﺍﻝﻜﻴﻤﻴﺎﺌﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﺨﻠﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻔﺎﻋﻠﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻭﺠﻭﺩ ﻋﻭﺍﻤل ﻭﺴﻴﻁﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻋﺎﻗﻠﺔ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺒﻼﻴﻴﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﻨﻴﻥ ‪ " ..‬ﻻ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﺨﻠﻕ ﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﺒﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ !! ﻤﻥ ﺨﻠﻕ ﺃﺩﻡ ؟ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺨﻠﻕ ﺃﺩﻡ !!‬
‫ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺤﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺍﻝﺒﺸﺭﻯ ﺒﺭﻓﻀﻪ ﺍﻝﺤﻕ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﻅﺭ ﻝﺒﺭﺍﻫﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻜﻤﺔ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻴ‪‬ﻅﻬﺭ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻤﻌﻠﻨـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻴﺎﻫﺎ ﺒﺄﻜﺜﺭ ﻭﻀﻭﺡ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺭﻴﺦ !! ﻤﺎ ﻋﺩﺍ ﺇﺴﺘﺜﻨﺎﺀﺍﺕ ﻤﻌﻴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﺸﺨﺹ ﺫﻜﻰ ﻴﻔﻜﺭ ﺒﺸﻜل ﺇﻴﺠﺎﺒﻰ ﻭﺼل ﺤﺘﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ‬
‫ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻥ " ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﻘل ﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻅﻤﻪ !! ﻴﺠﻤﻊ ﻜل ﺸﻰﺀ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ " ‪.‬‬
‫ﻰ ﺃﺩﻡ ﺍﻷﻓﻴﺎل ﻭﺍﻝﺯﺭﺍﻑ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﻤﻴﺭ ﻭﻋﺠﻭل ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺫﻫﺒﻭﺍ ﺃﺜﻨﻴﻥ ﺃﺜﻨﻴﻥ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﷲ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺨﻠﻕ ﺃﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺭﺃﻯ ﻭﺴﻤ ‪‬‬
‫ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻨﻘﺼﻪ‪ .‬ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻔﻘﻭﺩﹰﺍ !! ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ " ﺯﻭﺠﻴﻥ " ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺩﻡ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﹰﺍ‪ .‬ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﺨﻠﻕ ﺍﷲ ﺤﻭﺍﺀ ﻝﻜﻰ ﺘﺸﺎﺭﻜﻪ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﻋﻥ‬
‫ﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻠﻭﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﺭﺘﺒﻁﺎ ﺒﺭﺒﺎﻁ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻁﻭل ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻭﻴﻜﻭﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻤﻴﺯ ﺨﺎﺹ‪ ،‬ﻤﻨﺤﻬﻡ ﺍﷲ ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻝﻴﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﻜل ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺨﻠﻕ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺒﻜل ﺠﺯﺀ ﻤﻨﻪ ﻜﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺠﺩﻴﺩ ﻝﻺﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻕ ـ ﺍﻝﺘﻜﺎﺜﺭ ـ ﻭﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻌﻁﻴﺔ ﺘﺠﻌل ﺃﺜﻨـﻴﻥ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﺸـﺭ ﺫﺍ ﻜﻴﺎﻨـﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻔﺼﻼﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ ﻭﻋﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﻔﺭﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻤﻤﻠﻜﺔ ﻤﺎﺩﻴﺔ ﻻ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺼل ﺇﻝﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻯ ﻤﺨﻠﻭﻕ ﺃﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺭﺠل ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻭﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻤﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩ‪ .‬ﺭﺠل ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻭﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩ ؟!! ﻨﻌﻡ ﺘﻭﺠـﺩ ﻤﻌﻭﻗـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺘﺤﻭل ﺩﻭﻥ ﺘﺤﻜﻤﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻪ ﺃﻯ ﻤﻌﻭﻕ ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻜل ﻓﻰ ﺴﻴﻁﺭﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﺭﺴﺎﻝﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﺎﻤل ﻤﻊ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﻴﻭﺍﺠﻬﻬﺎ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﺸﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ـ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻫﻭ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺃﺒﺩﻴﺔ ﻤﺘﻴﻨﺔ ﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺠﻨﺴﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‬

‫ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﻓﺭﺹ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭﺩ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺴﻠﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻨﺎﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ ﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺘﻭﺍﻓﻕ ﺍﺤﺘﻴﺎﺠﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻤﺸﺒﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻤﺩﻫﺸﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻭل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻝﻠﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﺯﻭﺍﺠ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﻭﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺘﻤﺘﻌﻭﺍ ﺒﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺭﻓﻭﺍ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻌﻴﺸﻭﻫﺎ ﻝﺫﺍ ﻭﺠﺩﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ‬
‫ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ ﻭﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﻓﻀل‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻻﺨﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺒل ﺃﻭ ﺘﺭﻓﺽ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ !!‬
‫ﺃﺴﺄﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻅﻬﺭ ﺤﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﻁﻼﻕ ﻭﺍﻹﺠﻬﺎﺽ ﻭﺍﻹﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻻﻏﺘﺼﺎﺏ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﻩ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ؟؟ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﺼـﻭﺭﺓ ﻋﻼﻗـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺘﺤﻤل ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻝﻭﺍﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺂﺒﺔ ﻭﻜﺴﺭ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﺏ ؟؟‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ـ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻅﻡ ـ ﻴﺨﺘﺎﺭﻭﻥ ﺭﻓﺽ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺒﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺤﺯﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺁﺨﺭ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ‬
‫ﺃﺭﻯ ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﻥ ﺍﻨﺤﺭﻓﻭﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻝﻴﻔﻌل " ﻤﺎ ﻴﺸﺎﺀ " ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﺠﺭﺡ ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻪ !!‬
‫ﺃﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺴﻤﻊ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻘﻭل ﻝﻙ ﺨﺎﻝﻘﻙ ﻭﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺍﻷﻝﺼﻕ ؟‬

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‫ﻼ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺸﻘﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﺒﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺭﺠﻼﹰ‪ ،‬ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺍﻷﻭﻗـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﻴﻼﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻁﻔ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﺜﺎﺭﻩ ﻭﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ .‬ﻫل ﺘﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺍﻋﺘﺩﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻴﻘﺎﻅ ﻗﺒل ﺒﺯﻭﻍ ﺃﻭل ﺸﻌﺎﻉ ﻝﻠﺸﻤﺱ ﻝﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ " ﺒﺎﺒﺎ ﻨﻭﻴل " ﻗﺩ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺃﻡ‬
‫ﻻ ؟ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺭﺍﺌﻊ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺃﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺼﺎﺭ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺇﻤﺘﺎﻋﺎ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺴﺘﻴﻘﻅ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﻅﺎﺭ ﺒل ﺃﺒﺩﺃ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻴﻘﺎﻅ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺍﻗﺏ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺭﻙ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺩﺨل ﺍﻝﻤﻁﺒﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻓﺘﻌل ﻀﺠﻴﺠﺎﹰ ﺒﺎﻷﻁﺒﺎﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻤل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﻤﻌﻭﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻴﺴﺘﻴﻘﻅ ﺃﺼﻐﺭﻫﻡ ﻭﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺘﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﺒﻘﻴـﺔ‪ ،‬ﺘﺠـﺩﻫﻡ‬
‫ﻴﺘﻌﺜﺭﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺩﺍﻴﺎﻫﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﻷﻨﻬﻡ ﻻ ﺯﺍﻝﻭﺍ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻌﺎﺱ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻴﻘﻅ‪ ،‬ﺒﺎﺨﺘﺼﺎﺭ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﻭﻀﻊ ﻜﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺭﺘﺒﺎﻙ ﻭﻓﻭﻀﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﺩﻴﻨﺎ ﻜﺎﻤﻴﺭﺍ ﻤﺯﻭﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺒﻔــﻼﺵ ﺘﺼــﻭﺭ ﻜــل ﺤﺭﻜــﺔ ﻭﻝــﻭ ﺼــﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻴــﺎﻩ ﺃﻨــﻪ ﺃﻤــﺭﹰﺍ ﻅﺭﻴــﻑ‪ ،‬ﻓـــ " ﺒــﺎﺭﺍﺩﻯ " ﻴﺤــﺏ ﻝﻌﺒﺘــﻪ‬
‫" ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺤﻨﺔ " ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﻅﺭ " ﻜﻭﺭﺘﻴﻨﻰ " ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﺘﺢ ﺍﻝﻬﺩﺍﻴﺎ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺘﺘﻁﺎﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﺍﺌﻁ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﻭﻨﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﻴﻁﻴﺭ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻕ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻴﻀﺤﻙ ﻭﻴﺼﻴﺢ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ !! ﺃﻨﻪ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ‪ ،‬ﻴﻭﻡ ﺨﺎﺹ‬
‫ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﻴﺸﻪ ﻜل ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‪ .‬ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﻤﻴﻼﺩ ﻤﻀﻴﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﺭ ﺃﻭﻻﺩﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺜﻨﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺭﺘﻴﺏ‪ .‬ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺭﺍﺌﻌ ﹰﺎ !!‬
‫ﺩﺭﺍﺠﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﺒﻌﺠﻼﺕ ﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺎﻨﺒﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭﺍﺠﺔ ﺒﺜﻼﺙ ﻋﺠﻼﺕ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺸﺎﺤﻨﻪ ـ ﻝﻌﺒﺔ ﻤﻴﻜﺎﻨﻭ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﺩﺍﻴﺎ " ﺒﺎﺒﺎ ﻨﻭﻴل "‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻨﺎ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﻁﻔﺎل ﺃﺸﻘﻴﺎﺀ ﻝﻨﻨﻘﻠﻬﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻨﺘﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﻠﻴل‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺃﺒﻰ ﻤﻴﻜﺎﻨﻴﻜﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﺒﺩﺃ ﻭﺍﺠﺒﺎﺘﻪ ﻜﻤﻌﺎﻭﻥ ﻝـ " ﺒﺎﺒﺎ ﻨﻭﻴل " ﻝﻴﺭﺘﺏ ﻜل ﺸﻰﺀ ﻤﻌﻪ ـ ﺃﻗﺼﺩ ﻤﻌﻰ ـ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺼـﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻠـﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻨﺎﺩﻴﻕ ﻭﺼﻨﺎﺩﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﻬﺩﺍﻴﺎ‪ .‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺎﻤﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺒﻼﺴﺘﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﻴﺎ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﺠﻼﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻁﺎﻁﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﺸﻰﺀ ﻤﺒﻌﺜﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻨﺼﻑ ﺴﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ‪،‬ﻭ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺘﺏ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺊ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻡ ﺒﺄﻯ ﻋﻤل‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺩﺨﻠﺕ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻭﺃﺤﻀﺭ ﺃﺒﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻴﺕ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺭﺘﺏ ﻜل ﺸﺊ‪.‬‬
‫" ﻫﺎﻯ ‪ ..‬ﺒﺎﺒﺎ ﻨﻭﻴل ﻜﻴﻑ ﺤﺩﺙ ﺫﻝﻙ ؟!! "‬
‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺠﺭﻯ؟! ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻝﻘﻰ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻙ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻠﺤﻅﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻵﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻷﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺩﺍﺀ ﺒﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﺃﺫﻜﻰ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﺘﻘﻭل ﺒﺤﺯﻡ‪ " :‬ﺃﻝﻡ ﺘﻔﻜﺭ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻗﺭﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ؟!! " ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ !! ﻻ ﺃﺤﺩ ﻴﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻷﻯ ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ! ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻀﺽ ﺃﺨﺭﺠﺕ ﻜﺘﺎﻝﻭﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻴﻜﺎﻨﻭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﻌﺠﺒﺕ ﻓﻤﺎ ﺃﺴﻬل ﻤﺎ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻋﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﺒﻬﺩﺍﻴﺎ " ﺒﺎﺒﺎ ﻨﻭﻴل " !!‬
‫ﻼ ﻁﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﻀﻊ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻜﺘﺎﻝﻭﺠﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻠﻌﺏ ﺒﺠﻭﺍﺭ ﻤﺩﻓﺄﺘﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺘﺄﻜﺩ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎل ﺃﻥ " ﺒﺎﺒﺎ ﻨﻭﻴل " ﻜﺎﻥ ﺭﺠ ﹰ‬
‫ﺼﺎﻝﺤﺔ ﻝﻠﻌﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻫل ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺭﺓ ﺨﻼل ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﺎ ﻭﺘﻌﺠﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺩﻡ ﻭﺠﻭﺩ ﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺓ ؟ ﻫل ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﺍﻵﻥ؟‬
‫ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻻ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻭﺤﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺴﺅﺍل ﻫﻭ‪ " :‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻨﺩ‪‬ﻋﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﻜﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻹﺒﺩﺍﻉ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺒﺔ ﻓﻨﺩﺨل ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺭﺓ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻨﻁﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺓ ؟ "‬
‫‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺒﺩﺭﺠﺎﺕ ﻤﺘﻔﺎﻭﺘﺔ ﻨﺤﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ ـ ﻜﻠﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻬﻭﺍﺀ ﺴﻭﺍﺀ ـ ﻫل ﻓﻜﺭﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻗﺭﺍﺀﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ؟‬
‫ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﻭﺠﻭﺩﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل‪ ،‬ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﻤﺼﻨﻊ ﻜﺎﻤل ﻝﻜﺘﺎﻝﻭﺠﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺃﻤﺭﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺇﻝﻪ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺨﻠﻕ ﺃﺩﻡ ﻭﺤﻭﺍﺀ ﻭﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺨﻠﻘﻙ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻴﺤﺒﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﻤﺜل ﺩﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺭﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺭﺤﻰ‪ ،‬ﺘﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺨﻴﻭﻁ‪ .‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﻘـﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ‬
‫" ﻴﺸﺩ ﺨﻴﻭﻁﻙ " ﻭﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺤﺒﻪ ﻭﺘﺴﻴﺭ ﺨﻠﻔﻪ ﺠﻴﺌﺔ ﻭﺫﻫﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻴﻤﻀﻰ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﺘﻭﻤﺎﺘﻴﻜﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﻝﺘﻔﻌل ﺍﻝﺸﻰﺀ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ‬
‫ﻻ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻻﺨﺘﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺼﻨﻌﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻴﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺴﺌﻭ ﹰ‬

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‫ﻭﻝﻴﻤ‪‬ﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻗﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻫﻭ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻝﻠﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻜﺘﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺨﻁـﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺴﻤﻰ " ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ "‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺄﻗﺹ ﻋﻠﻴﻙ ﻗﺼﺔ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺘﺼﻑ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﺒﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺴﻁﺢ ﺍﻝﻜﻭﻜﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻨﻌﻴﺵ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺼﻨﻊ ﺼﺒﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻩ ﻗﺎﺭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﻴﻠﻌﺏ ﺒﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻜﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻘﺭﻴﺒﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻗﻀﻰ ﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻘﻭﻴﺱ ﻫﻴﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﺭﻜﺏ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻼﺘـﺯﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌــﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺸﻜــــ ّل‬
‫ﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﻭﻋﻤل ﻓﻴﻪ ﺒﻔﺭﺸﺎﺓ ﺃﻝﻭﺍﻨﻪ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺼل ﺒﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺸﻜﻠﻪ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﺌﻲ‪ .‬ﺠﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ ﻝﻴﻘﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﺒﺄﻭل ﺭﺤﻠﺔ ﻝﻪ‪ ،‬ﻜـﺎﻥ ﻫـﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ ﺍﻝﻔﻘﻴﺭ ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﻘﺎﺭﺒﻪ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺨﺭﺠﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻭل ﻤﺭﺍﻜﺏ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻷﻨﻪ ﺼﻨﻊ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺒﻴﺩﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﺫﻝﻙ ﺘﺭﻙ ﻗﺎﺭﺒﻪ ﻴﺠﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺭﺘﺴﻤﺕ ﺍﺒﺘﺴﺎﻤﺔ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺠﻬﻪ ﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﻤﻨﻌﻜﺴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺠﻪ ﻤﻴـﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻜـﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻤـﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻴﺭ ﻤﺘﺯﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻨﺴﻴﺎﺒﻴﺔ ﻭﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺃﺴ‪‬ﺭ ﻓﺠﺄﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺸﺩﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺼﺎﺭ ﻜﺄﻨﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺴﺒﺎﻕ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻴﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﺃﺴﺭﻉ ﻭﺃﺴﺭﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ﺠﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻰ ﺒﺠﺎﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻜﺔ ﻤﺤﺎﻭ ﹰﻻ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺎﻁﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﻔﺯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺸﺠﺎﺭ ﻭﺩﻓﻊ ﻴﺩﻩ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻜﺔ!! ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﻝـﻡ ﻴﺴـﺘﻁﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺎﻁـﻪ!‬
‫ﺍﻨﻬﻤﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻭﻉ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﻭﺴﺎﻝﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺠﻬﻪ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺭﻯ ﺃﻋﺯ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻤﻠﻙ ﻴﺫﻫﺏ ﻋﻥ ﺒﺼﺭﻩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺤﻁﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘـﺩ ﺍﻨﺘﻬـﻰ‬
‫ﺤﻠﻤﻪ ﺴﺭﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻰ ﻴﺴﻴﺭ ﻋﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻤﺘﺠﻬ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ ﻓﺭﺃﻯ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻔﺕ ﺍﻨﺘﺒﺎﻫﻪ ﻓﻰ " ﻤﺘﺠﺭ ﺍﻝﺭﻫﻨﻴﺎﺕ " ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺃﻯ ﻗﺎﺭﺒﻪ ﻤﻥ ﻨﺎﻓﺫﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺠﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻫﻭ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺜﻤﻥ ﻤﻜﺘﻭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ " ‪ ١٠‬ﺠﻨﻴﻬﺎﺕ ﺇﺴﺘﺭﻝﻴﻨﻰ "‪ .‬ﻓﺭﻜﺽ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺠـﺭ‬
‫ﻭﻭﻗﻑ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﺼﺎﺤﺒﻪ ﻭﻗﺎل ﻝﻪ‪ " :‬ﺴﻴﺩﻯ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻗﺎﺭﺒﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺼﻨﻌﺘﻪ " ﻓﺄﺠﺎﺏ ﺼﺎﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺠﺭ‪ " :‬ﻻ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻗﺎﺭﺒﻰ ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻠﻔﻨﻰ ‪ ١٠‬ﺠﻨﻴﻬـﺎﺕ‬
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‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺫﻝﻙ !! ﻋﺎﺩ ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺴﺭ ﺤﺼﺎﻝﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺎﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺠﺭ ﻭﺍﺸﺘﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺭﺃﺴﻪ ﻤﺭﻓﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﻫﻭ‬
‫ﻼ ﻗﺎﺭﺒﻪ ﺒﺄﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﻭﺇﺨﻼﺹ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻪ‪ .‬ﻗﺎل ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﻨﻅﺭ ﻝﻘﺎﺭﺒﻪ ﺒﻔﺨﺭ " ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻠﻜﻰ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻴﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ ﺤﺎﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﺼﻨﻌﺘﻙ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺍﺸﺘﺭﻴﺘﻙ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﺃﺭﺠﻌﺘﻙ ﻤﻘﺎﺒل ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺃﻤﻠﻙ "‪.‬‬
‫* ﻗﺼﺔ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺸﻴﻘﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻝﻴﺱ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ ؟!‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺘﻤل ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻡ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻤﻌﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﻴﻨﻁﺒﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﻴﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﷲ ﺼﻨﻌﻨﻲ ﻭﺼﻨﻌﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﺨﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﻤﺎ ﺼﻨﻌﻪ‬
‫ﻝﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﺨﺘﺭﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻌﻁﻴﻪ ﻅﻬﻭﺭﻨﺎ ﻭﻨﺫﻫـﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﺃﻋﺩ ﺨﻁﺔ ﻝﻴﺸﺘﺭﻴﻨﺎ ﻭﻴﻌﻴﺩﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺸﺭﻴﻌﺘﻪ ﺘﻘﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺍﺠﺭﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ـ ﺍﺴـﺘﻘﻼﻝﻴﺘﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻨﻔﺼﺎﻝﻨﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﷲ ـ ﻫﻰ ﻤﻭﺕ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ ﺘﺸﻴﺭ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻤﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﺒﻴﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺭﻓﻌﺕ ﻭﻗﺩﻤﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻘـﺩ‬
‫ﺃﺨﺘﺎﺭ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﺩﻡ ﺃﺒﻨﻪ " ﻝﻴﺸﺘﺭﻴﻨﺎ " ﻭﻝﻴﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻝﺨﻼﺹ ﺒﺎﺒﻨﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻀﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻤﻠﻜﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﻭﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻜﻠﻔ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﷲ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻠﻔﻪ ﺃﺒﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻗﺩﻤﻪ ﻝﻴﻤﻭﺕ ﻤﻭﺕ ﺍﻝﺼﻠﻴﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﻗﺴﻰ ﻤﻭﺘﻬﺎ ﻋﺭﻓﻬﺎ ﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﻘﻭل ) ﺭﻭ ‪ " ( ٣٢:٨‬ا)ي 
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‫ﺤﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﻁﻴﻙ ﺍﺒﻨﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻫﺩﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻥ ﺃﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﻤﻨﺯﻝﻰ ﺃﻭ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺘﻰ ﺃﻭ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻤﻠﻙ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ؟! ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺴـﺒﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻫﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ ﻭﻝﻤﺴﺘﻭﻯ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻥ ﻋﺸﺕ ﺒﻪ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﺸﻑ ﻝﻙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻴـﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺴـﻌﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ‬
‫ﺭﻓﻀﺘﻪ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺒل ﺃﺠﺭﺓ ﺨﻁﻴﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﻝﻙ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل !!‬
‫‪ " ford‬ﺃﻭل ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻀﻊ ﻜﺘﺎﻝﻭﺝ ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ﺨﺎﺹ ﻓﻰ ﺼﻨﺩﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﻌﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻤﺜل ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺍﻝﻜﺘـﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘـﺩﺱ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺼﻨﻊ " ﻓﻭﺭﺩ‬
‫ﻜﺘﺎﻝﻭﺝ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻗﺩ ﺼﺩﺭﺕ ﺘﺭﺠﻤﺎﺕ ﻋﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﺼﻴﺭﺕ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺀﺓ ﺴﻬﻠﺔ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺘﻘﻭل ﻻ ﺘﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺎﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻝﻜﻥ‬
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‫ﺃ ﻉ ‪٢٠ : ١٥‬‬ ‫‪ ٢‬ﻜﻭ ‪٢١ : ١٢‬‬ ‫ﺨﺭ ‪١٦ : ٢٢‬‬
‫ﺭﻭ ‪٢٤ : ١‬‬ ‫ﻏل ‪١٩ : ٥‬‬ ‫ﻻ ‪٢٠ : ١٩‬‬
‫‪ ١‬ﺘﻰ ‪١ : ١‬‬ ‫ﺃﻑ‪٣:٥‬‬ ‫ﻋﺩ ‪٢٥‬‬
‫ﻋﺏ ‪٤ : ١٣‬‬ ‫ﻜﻭ ‪٥ : ٣‬‬ ‫ﺘﺙ ‪٢١ : ٢٢‬‬
‫‪ ١‬ﺒﻁ ‪٣ : ٤‬‬ ‫‪ ١‬ﺘﺱ ‪٣ : ٤‬‬ ‫ﺘﺙ ‪١٧ : ٢٣‬‬
‫ﻴﻬﻭﺫﺍ ﻜﻠﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺠﺎ ‪٢٦ : ٧‬‬ ‫ﺍﻷﻤﺜﺎل ﻜﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺭﺅ ‪١٤ : ٢‬‬ ‫ﻫﻭ ‪١١ : ٤‬‬ ‫‪ ١‬ﻜﻭ ‪٩ : ٦‬‬
‫ﺭﺅ ‪٨ : ٢١‬‬ ‫ﻤﺕ ‪١٩ : ١٥‬‬ ‫‪ ١‬ﻜﻭ ‪ ١٥ : ٦‬ـ ‪٢١‬‬
‫ﺭﺅ ‪١٥ : ٢٢‬‬ ‫ﻤﺭ ‪٢١ : ٧‬‬ ‫‪ ١‬ﻜﻭ ‪٤ : ٧‬‬

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‫ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ ﻴﻘﻭل ﻝﻠﻤﺘﺯﻭﺝ‪ " :‬ﻻ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺯﻭﺠﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻐﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠﻴﻥ‪ " :‬ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ! "‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻝﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺭﺴﻭل ﺒﻭﻝﺱ‬
‫ﺘﻌﺎﻝﻴﻤﻪ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺒﻤﻔﻬﻭﻡ ﺍﷲ ﻓـﻰ) ‪ ١‬ﺘـﺱ ‪ ٣:٤‬ـ ‪" " (٨‬ن ه‪ <)0‬ه‪ :0‬إرادة ا‪4 5‬ا‪
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‫ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﷲ " ﺍﻨﺘﻅﺭ ! " ؟ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﺴﺒﺎﺏ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﻭﻝﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻷﻥ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎل ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺃﺏ ﻭﺃﻡ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠﻴﻥ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻭﻨﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩﺍﻥ‬
‫ﻝﻠﻁﻔل ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺩﻡ ﻝﻜل ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺼﻤﻴﻡ ﻗﻠﺒﻴﻬﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﻬﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻋﺩﻡ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﻅﺎﺭ ﻴﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﺸﻜل ﻤﻐﻠﻭﻁ ﻝﻠﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺤﻴﺙ ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺭﻋﺏ‬
‫ﻭﻤﻀﻴﻌﺔ ﻝﻠﻭﻗﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺭﻴﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﻓﻰ ) ﺃﻡ ‪ " ( ١٩ ،١٨ : ٥‬أ‪AB‬ح
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‫ﻤﻌﻠﻥ ﻜﺸﻰﺀ ﻁﻴﺏ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻏﺭﻀﻪ ﺍﻝﺘﻤﺘﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻫﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻬﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ـ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻓﻘﻁ ـ ﺤﻴﺙ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻼﺜﻨﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺘﻨﻔﺼل ﻋﻥ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﻁﻠﺒﻭﻨﻬﺎ ﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪.‬‬
‫ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻫﻭ ﻋﻁﻴﺘﻙ ﻝﺯﻭﺠﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻌﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺘﻘﺩﺭ ﺒﺜﻤﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺸﺒﻪ ﺃﻯ ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺜﻤﻴﻨﺔ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﻓﻬـﻰ‬
‫ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻻ ﻴﻤﺘﻠﻜﻪ ﺇﻻ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﻴﻥ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ .‬ﺍﷲ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺠﺩﺩ ﺫﻫﻨﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻻ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻠﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻨﻀﻊ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻌﻁﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﻠﺅﻫﺎ ﺍﻻﺤﺘـﺭﺍﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻜﺭ ﺃﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺕ ﻤﻴﻌﺎﺩ ﻤﻊ " ﻝﻴﻨﺩﺍ " ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺘﻤل ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﻤﻥ ﺭﺠل ﺃﺨﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﻗـل ﻝـﻰ‬
‫ﻜﻴﻑ ﺴﺘﻌﺎﻝﺞ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ؟ ﻭﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺴﺘﺠﺩ ﺸﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻏﻴﺭﻙ ﻴﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ !! ﻜﻴﻑ ﺴﺘﻌﺎﻝﺞ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ؟‬
‫ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ ﺸﺎﺏ " ﺴﺄﻗﺘﻠﻪ ﺇﻥ ﻭﻀﻊ ﻴﺩﻩ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ " ‪ ..‬ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺘﺭﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩﻫﻡ ﺒﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﻭﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺨﻠﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺴﺘﻔﻌل ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺍﺏ ﻭﺘﻨﺘﻅﺭ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺍﻨﻪ ﻻ ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﻨﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﻋﺭﻭﺴﻙ ﻤﺠﺭﻭﺤﺔ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻬل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻴﻥ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻁﺒﻘﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻐﺯﻯ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻙ ﻭﻋﻼﻗﺎﺘﻙ ﻭﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺘﻙ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ‪ .‬ﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺘﺨﺭﺠﻴﻥ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻝﻴﻠﻪ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺕ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻻ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ـ ﻭﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻻ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ـ ﻫـﻭ ﺍﻝﺭﺠـل ﺍﻝـﺫﻱ‬
‫ﺘﺭﺘﺒﻁﻴﻥ ﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﹰﺍ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻰ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ؟! ﻓﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺱ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺕ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻌﺭﻓﻴﻨﻪ ﺒﻌﻤﻕ ﻭﺇﻴﺠﺎﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻙ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻌﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ؟‬
‫ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﷲ ﺒﺎﻻﻨﺘﻅﺎﺭ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻨﺼﺎﺌﺢ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﻫﻰ ﻭﺼﺎﻴﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻷﻨﻅﺎﺭ ﺼﻌﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺃﺼﻌﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﺠل‪ ،‬ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺼﺎﻴﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺘﻤﺩﻙ ﺒﺤﻤﺎﻴﺔ ﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﺫﻫﻨﻙ ﻭﺘﻤﻨﺢ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﻗﻭﻯ ﺍﻝﺸﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﺘﺴﺘﻤﺩ ﺃﻨﻔﺎﺴﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻴﻁﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻼﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﻗﻁ ﻫـﻭ‬
‫ﻤﻭﺠﻭﺩ ﻭﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﻁﻠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﻴﻕ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺘﺩﺨﻠﻪ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺍﻹﺩﻤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺼﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ‬ ‫•‬
‫ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺸﺭﻭﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ‬ ‫•‬
‫ﺘﺩﻫﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺘﺕ‪،‬‬ ‫‪<----‬‬ ‫ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‬ ‫•‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﺴﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺏ ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ‪ ،‬ﺍﻻﻀﻁﺭﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﻏﻴﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﺩﻡ ﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﻴﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺯﻨﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻁﻼﻕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎ ﻴﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﻕ ﻭﺍﻀﺤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻴﻁﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻝﺸﻴﻁﺎﻥ ﻴﺒﺙ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻫﻨﻙ ﺃﻨﻔﺎﺴﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﻴﺌﺔ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﻭﺍﻁﻑ‬
‫ﻭﺘﻤﻨﺢ ﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﻗﺘﻴﺔ ﺒﺎﻫﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﻝﻴﺤﺭﻤﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺌﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻫﻰ ﻨﺼﻴﺒﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻠﺩﻴﺔ ﺍﺸـﺘﻴﺎﻕ ﻋﻅـﻴﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻀـﻊ ﺃﻓﻜـﺎﺭﻙ‬

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‫ﻭﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﻝﻠﻔﺭﺡ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﺠﺩﻩ ﻴﻘﻭل " ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﻤﻜﺎﻓﺄﺓ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺸـﻴﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻀل ﺒﻜﺜﻴﺭ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻓﻬﻰ ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﺘﻁﻭﺡ ﻭﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺫﻨﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻪ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻝﺼـﺎﻝﺢ‪ ،‬ﺍﷲ ﻴﻌﻠـﻡ ﺃﻨﻬـﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻓﻀل‪.‬‬

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‫ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﺼﺩﻕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻋﻁﺎﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺯﻭﺩ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻨﺎ ؟‬ ‫‪-١‬‬
‫ﻫل ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﺎ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺸﺒﻬ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻌﺭﺍﺌﺱ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺤﺭﻜﺔ ؟‬ ‫‪-٢‬‬
‫ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﺎﻝﺢ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻠﺘﺯﻡ ﺒﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺨﺼﻨﺎ ؟‬
‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻌﻨﻰ ﻗﺼﺔ " ﻤﻠﻜﻰ ﻤﺭﺘﻴﻥ " ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ ؟ ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻨﻅﺭ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻝﻠﻨﺎﺱ ؟‬ ‫‪-٣‬‬
‫ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﺎ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺸﺭﻴﻙ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ؟‬ ‫‪-٤‬‬

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‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺼﺒﻰ ﻴﺭﺘﺩﻯ " ﺃﻓﺭﻭل " ـ ﻋﻔﺭﻴﺘﺔ ـ ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺘﻌﺜﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺼﺒﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻭﻗﻑ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﻤﺘﺠﺭ ﻝﺒﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻭﺍﻨﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺘﻔﺭﺱ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻗﻔﺎﺹ ﺍﻝﻜﻼﺏ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﻭﺠﻨﺘﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺘﻠﺌﺘﺎﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﻤﺵ‪ ،‬ﻨﻅﺭ ﻭﺇﺫ ﺒﻪ ﻴﻠﻤﺢ ﻜﻠﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻴﺨﺘﻠﻑ‬
‫ﺸﻜﻠﻪ ﻋﻥ ﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺴﻼﻝﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺤﻴﺙ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻨﻘﻁﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺠﺎﺀ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﺴﺎﺒﻴﻊ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺼﺩﻤﺘﻪ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺘﺭﻜﺕ ﻝﻪ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﺭﺠل ﻓﻘﻁ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﺼﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ " ﺴﻴﺩﻯ ‪ ..‬ﻜﻡ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺜﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﻜﺴﻴﺢ ؟ " ﻗﺎل ﻫﺫﺍ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻕ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﻴﺘﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻠﺘﺎﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﺘﺎ ﺘﻁـﻼﻥ‬
‫ﺒﺄﻤل ﻜﺒﻴﺭ ﺨﻠﻑ ﻗﻀﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻘﻔﺹ‪ .‬ﻓﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻼﺫﻋﺔ " ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻝﻠﺒﻴﻊ " ﻓﺴﺄل ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ " ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟ "‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎل ﺍﻝﺭﺠل " ﻷﻨﻪ ﻜﺴﻴﺤ ﹰﺎ‬
‫! ﺃﻻ ﺘﺭﻯ ؟! ﻝﻘﺩ ﻭﻀﻌﺘﻪ ﻫﻨﺎ ﻝﻴﻨﺎﻡ ﻝﻠﻐﺩ "‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎل ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ " ﻝﻜﻥ ﺴﻴﺩﻯ … " ﻓﻘﺎل ﺍﻝﺭﺠل " ﻻ ﺘﻀﺎﻴﻘﻨﻰ ﻴﺎ ﺒﻨﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﺘﺨﺫﺕ ﻗﺭﺍﺭﻯ "‪.‬‬

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‫ﺍﻨﻬﻤﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻭﻉ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻴﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ ﻓﺠﺭﻯ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ ﻭﻅل ﻁﻭﺍل ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻗﻠﻘﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻤﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻘﻑ ﺃﻤـﺎ ﺒـﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻼ ﻴﻨﺒﻐﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭﻡ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎل ﻝﺼﺎﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺠﺭ " ﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺨﻴﺭ ﻴﺎ ﺴﻴﺩﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻋﺩﺕ ﻷﺭﻯ ﻜﻠﺒـﻰ ﺍﻝﺼـﻐﻴﺭ‬
‫ﻤﺘﺠﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻭﺍﻨﺎﺕ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻪ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﻋﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﻷﺭﻯ ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻗﺩ ﻏﻴﺭﺕ ﺭﺃﻴﻙ " ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻭﻀﻊ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﻴﺩﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜﺘﻑ ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ ﻭﻨﻅﺭ ﺒﻌﻤﻕ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﻭﻗﺎل " ﻴﺎ ﺒﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﻨﻙ ﺘﻅﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺼﺩﺭ ﻤﺘﻌﻪ ﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻜﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺭﺠﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺒﺅﺴﻪ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺭﻜﺽ ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ ﻭﻓﻰ ﻤﻨﺘﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺘﻭﻗﻑ ﻭﺭﺠﻊ ﻋﺎﺌﺩﹰﺍ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺘﺠﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻭﺍﻨﺎﺕ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺒﻜﻰ ﻜل ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﺼل ﻗﺎل " ﺴﻴﺩﻯ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ " ﻗﺎل ﺍﻝﺭﺠل " ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﺏ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻴﺎ ﺒﻨﻰ " ﺼﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ " ﻝﻜﻥ ﺴـﻴﺩﻯ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺎﻝﺞ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺎﻝﺞ ﻜل ﺸﺊ "‪.‬‬

‫ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻨﺤﺘﺎﺠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻨﺼﺒﻭ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻨﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺤﺒﻭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺃﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻌﺘﻘﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻤﺭ ﻻ ﺒﺎﺱ ﺒﻪ " ﻓﻬﻭ ﺃﻤﺭ‪ ‬ﻋﺎﺩﻯ ﻻ ﺨﻁﺄ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﺒﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺘﺤﺒﻬﺎ "‪ .‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺘﺠﺩ‬
‫ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﻭﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻷﻤل ﻴﺯﺤﻔﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﹸﺘﺩﻤﺭ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺘﺴﺄل " ﺃﻴﻥ ﻫﻭ ﺨﻁﺅﻨﺎ؟! "‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻴﻘﻭل " ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺘﺴﺘﺭ ﻜﺜﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ "‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺃﺒﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺎﻓ ﹰﺎ ﻏﺎﻤﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻴﺴﻤﻰ " ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ " ﻭﻫﻰ ﺒﻨﺕ ﻋﻡ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﻤـﺎ ﺸﺨﺼـﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺩﻫﻡ ﻴﻌﻴﺵ ﻓﻰ ﺸﻤﺎل ﺍﻝﻭﻻﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺤﺩﺓ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﺨﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺠﻨﻭﺒﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﻴﻜﻭﻨﺎﻥ ﻋﺎﻝﻡ ﻤﻔﻜﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻬﺩ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩ ﻨﺠﺩ ﺃﺭﻭﻉ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺘﺏ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻤﻥ ﺴﺘﻘﺎﺒل ﻭﺴﺘﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺤﻕ ﻭﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺤﺏ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻷﻨﻪ ﻜﺘﺏ‬
‫ﺒﻭﺍﺴﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﻤﺜﺎل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ) ‪١‬ﻜﻭ ‪ ( ١٣‬ﻨﻘﺭﺃ‪:‬‬
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‫ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﻻ ﺘﺤﻁﻡ ﻗﻭﺍﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺼﺎﻝﺢ‪ ،‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺃﻤﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻨﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺠﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﻻ ﺘﺘﺭﻙ ﺨﻠﻔﻬﺎ ﺃﺴـﻔ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﻨﺩﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺤﺯﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻋﺯﻝﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺫﻨﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺨﻭﻓ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﻓﻬﻰ ﺘﻁﻠﺏ ﺇﺸﺒﺎﻉ ﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻭﺘﺤﻁﻡ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺩ ﻝﻠﺸﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺼﺩﻕ ﻭﺘﻘﻭل ﺃﻯ ﺸـﺊ‬
‫ﻝﺘﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺘﻔﺭﻴﻎ ﻝﻠﻁﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻻﺌﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺨﻁﺭ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﺘﺩﻤﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻨﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﺘﻌﻤل ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺏ ﺭﺠل ﻤﻥ ﻭﻻﻴﺔ " ﻜﻨﺘﺎﻜﻰ " ﻗﺩ ﺃﺨﺒﺭ ﻓﺘﺎﺘﻪ " ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ ﺘﻌﺎ ِل ﺍﺫﻫﺒﻰ ﻤﻌﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﻁﺎﻋـﺕ‬
‫ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺘﻪ ﻭﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺤﺎﻤل‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺕ " ﺤﺒﻴﺒﻬﺎ " ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻴﺔ ﻝﻬﺎ " ﺃﺠﻬﻀﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ " ﻭﻗﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﺃﻴﻀﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻗﻠﻴل ﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻜﻤﺔ ﻤﺩﺍﻨﺔ‬
‫ﺒﺠﺭﻴﻤــﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺘــل‪ ،‬ﻭﻜــﺎﻥ ﺃﻭل ﻤــﻥ ﺸــﻬﺩ ﻀــﺩﻫﺎ ﻫــﻭ " ﺤﺒﻴﺒﻬــﺎ " !! ﻫــل ﺍﻨﺩﻫﺸــﺕ ؟! ﻭﺒــﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﺸــﻜل‬
‫ﻴﺘﻜﺭﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻬﺩ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻤﻊ ﺍﺨﺘﻼﻑ ﺍﻝﻤﻼﺒﺴﺎﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ .‬ﺃﺘﻌﺠﺏ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻴﺴﺭﻗﻥ ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠـﺔ ﺃﻋﻅـﻡ ﻋﻁﻴـﺔ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺯﻭﺍﺠﻬﻥ ﺘﺤﺕ ﻤﺴﻤﻰ " ﺍﻝﺤﺏ " ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﻤﻘﺯﺯﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺤﺯﻥ ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻻ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ " ﺍﻝﺤﺏ " ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻭﻗﻌﻭﻥ ﺒﺄﻨﻔﺴﻬﻡ ﻭﺒﻐﻴﺭﻫﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﺩﻋﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺴﻤﻰ ﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺘﺴﺘﺭ ﺒﺭﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪.‬‬
‫" ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﺤﺏ ﺍﻻﻴﺱ ﻜﺭﻴﻡ ﺒﺎﻝﺸﻜﻭﻻﺘﻪ " ‪ " ،‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺏ ﻓﻁﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﺎﺡ " ‪ ،‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺘﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ " ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ ﻭﺍﻵﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻁﻴﻨﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ " ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺭﺨﻴﺹ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺴﺘﻬﻠﻙ ﻭﻴﻠﻘﻰ ﺠﺎﻨﺒﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﺘﺭﺘﺩﻯ ﺜﻭﺏ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﻨﺠﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺒﺸﺭ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﻓﻬﻡ ﻴﺨﺩﻋﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﻋﻁﺎﻴﺎ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺎ ﻭﻗﺩ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل‪ ،‬ﺃﺘﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺨﻠل ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﻤﺤﺒﻪ ﺭﺒﻰ ﻝﻲ ﺴﻴﺒﻴﻥ‬
‫ﻝﻰ " ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ " ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺩﻡ ﺍﺴﺘﺤﻘﺎﻗﻰ ﻷﻯ ﺠﺯﺀ ﻤﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﻌﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠـﻭ " ﻝﻴﻌﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻜل‬
‫ﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﺃﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺘﻌﺒﻴﺭﻯ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻭﺘﻌﺒﻴﺭﻫﺎ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻝﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﺘﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺒﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻫﻭ ﺴﺒﺏ ﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻪ ﺘﺘﻠﻘﺎﻨﻰ ﺍﺒﻨﺘﻰ ﺼـﺎﺤﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﺜﻼﺜﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺏ ﻝﺘﻘﻔﺯ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺯﺭﺍﻋﻰ ﻭﺘﻬﻤﺱ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺫﻨﻰ " ﺃﺒﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺒﻴﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺩﻯ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺃﺼﺭﺥ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻓﺭﻁ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺡ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻗﺼﺔ ﺨﻴﺎﻝﻴﺔ ﺃﺴﻁﻭﺭﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺸﺊ ﺫﺍ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﻴﺔ ﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﺃﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟ ﻷﻨﻰ ﻝﺴﺕ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻨﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻷﺼـﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻤـﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻌﻴﺸﻭﻥ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺴﻨﻙ ﻻ ﻴﺯﺍل ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺏ ﻤﻔﺘﻭﺡ ﻝﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﻤﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﺯﺍل ﻤﺘﺎﺤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ!! ‪ ..‬ﺃﻴﻬـﺎ ﺍﻝﺸـﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﺘﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺨﻁﻴﺒﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻨﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﻝﻥ ﺘﻀﻐﻁ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺘﺸﺠﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻯ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺭﺠ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺴﻭﻑ ‪ -١ ..‬ﻴﻔﻘﺩﻫﺎ ﺍﺤﺘﺭﺍﻤﻬﺎ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -٢‬ﻴﻔﻘﺩﻜﻤﺎ ﺍﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻜﻤﺎ ﻝﻸﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -٣‬ﻴﺴﺒﺏ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -٤‬ﻴﺨﻠﻕ ﺸﻭﺸﺭﺓ ﻭﻗﻴل ﻭﻗﺎل‪.‬‬
‫" ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﻜﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻋﻥ ﺒﻁﻭﻻﺘﻪ ﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻪ "‬
‫ﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻜﺩ ﻝﻥ ﺘﻐﻴﻅﻪ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻠﺒﺴﻙ ـ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﺍﺀ ﻤﻼﺒﺱ ﻗﺼﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺠﻭﺍﻜﺕ ﻤﻔﺘﻭﺤﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻤﻼﺒـﺱ‬
‫ﺃﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺔ‪ :‬ﺇﻥ ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺘﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻨ ِ‬
‫ﺒﺤﺭ ﻓﺎﻀﺤﺔ ـ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺃﻓﻌﺎﻝﻙ ﻭﺴﻠﻭﻜﻙ‪ ،‬ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻴﻌﺘﻘﺩﻥ ﺨﻁﺄ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﻥ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﺤﺎﻓﻅﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺸـﺒﺎﺏ ﻓﻼﺒـﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺒـﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻤﻐﺭﻴﺎﺕ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ !! ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﻌﻤل ﻝﺒﺭﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﻗﻴﺔ ﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﺒﺎﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻪ ﻭﺃﻡ ﺃﻁﻔﺎﻝﻪ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﻭﻀﻊ ﻝﺜﻘﺘﻪ ﻭﺍﺤﺘﺭﺍﻤﻪ ﻭﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺄﻨـﻪ ﻴﺤﺒﻬـﺎ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﺕ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻨﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل !‬
‫ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﺘﺭﻡ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻬﺎ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺃﻯ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻨ ِ‬
‫ﻗﺎل ﺃﺤﺩﻫﻡ ﻤﺭﺓ‪:‬‬
‫" ﻜﻥ ﺼﺎﻝﺤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﻓﺘﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺃﺒﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﺒﻨﺘﻙ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ "‬

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‫ﻗﺩﻡ ﺍﻝﻌﺩﺩ ﺍﻷﻭل‪ :‬ﻝﻤﺠﻠﺔ " ﺃﺨﺒﺎﺭ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ " ﻤﻘﺎل ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﻴﻥ ﻝﻴﺩﺨل ﺒﻬﺎ ﻋﺎﻤﻪ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩ ‪ .١٩٧٩‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺒﻌﻨﻭﺍﻥ " ‪Tips For‬‬
‫‪ " Teens‬ﺃﻭ " ﺒﻘﺸﻴﺵ ﻝﻠﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﻴﻥ " ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫل ﺃﻥ ﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩ ﻝﻨﺼﻴﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ؟!‬
‫ﻭﻫﻭ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﻫﻰ‪:‬‬
‫" ﺃﻨﻪ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﻁﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻤﻨﺢ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﻝﺤﻅﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﻨﺘﺒﻪ ﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻤﻘﺒـﻭ ﹰﻻ ﺒـل ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺘﺸﺠﻊ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺨﺒﺭﺓ ﻤﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺨﺎﻝﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜـﻥ ﻤﻬﺘﻤـ ﹰﺎ ﺒـﺫﻝﻙ‬
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‫ﻓﻌﻠﻴﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺯﺭﻉ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎﺕ ﺇﻀﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﺨﺎﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻌل ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﻜﻬ ﹰ‬
‫ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﺅﻜﺩ ﻝﻙ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﻀﻰ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻊ ﺭﻓﻴﻘﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ " ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ "‪ ،‬ﻗﺩ ﻨﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻭﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻋﻼﻗـﺔ ﺤﻴـﺔ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﺏ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﺤﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﻏﻔﺭﺍﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﺴﻼﻤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﻓﺭﺤﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻨﺎﻀﺠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺏ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻤﺎ ﻗﺒل ﻭﺃﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺯﻭﺍﺠﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻭل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻯ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺜﻼﺜﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﺒﻌﻴﻥ ﻋﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻅل ﻴﻤﺴﻙ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﺒﻴﺩ ﺍﻵﺨﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺠﻭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻼﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻀﺤﻜﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻠﻬﻭ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﻤﺘـﻊ ﻜـل‬
‫ﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻤﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﺒﺸﺭﻴﻜﻪ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﻭل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ !! ﻫﺫﻩ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ !! ﻝﻜﻨﻙ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻊ ﻨﺼـﻴﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﻌـﺎﻝﻡ !!‬
‫ﺘﻘﺎﻁﻊ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺘﻘﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺨﺘﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﻗﺭﺍﺭ ﺃﻜﺒﺭ ﻭﺃﻫﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﺨﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺠـﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺘﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻓﻠﻭﺭﻴﺩﺍ ﻭﻓﻰ ﻨﺎﺩﻯ " ﻝﻭﺩﺭﺩﻴل " ﺘﻘﺎﺒل ﻤﺩﺭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺸﺎﺏ ﺫﻭ ﻋﻀﻼﺕ ﻀﺨﻤﺔ ﻭﻁﻭل ﻗﺎﻤﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻋﺎﺩﻯ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺭﺘﺩﻯ " ﻓﺎﻨﻠﺔ "‬
‫ﺭﻴﺎﻀﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﻁﺒﻭﻉ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ " ﺴﺎﻋﺩﻭﻨﺎ ﻝﻨﺠﻬﺽ ﺍﻝﻌﺫﺭﻴﺔ " " ‪ ، " Help Stamp out Virginity‬ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل‬
‫ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺃﻗﺘﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺩﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺩﻴﺙ ﻗﺎل ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺏ‪:‬‬
‫" ﺃﺤﺘﻔﻅ ﺒﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﻨﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺄﻨﻙ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻌﺩ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﺘﺩﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻁﻭﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﻝﻘﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺩﺭﺝ ﺍﻝﺩﻭﻻﺏ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭﺒﻊ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻑ ﻝﺘﺘﺒﺎﺭﻙ ﺒﻤﻭﻝﻭﺩﺓ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺘﻔﺎﺤﺔ ﻓـﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻴـﻙ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫـﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘـﺎﻩ‬
‫ﺘﺭﺯﻕ ﺒﺄﻁﻔﺎل‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻙ ﺤﻅ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎ ﹰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﺒﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻘﻠﻘﺎ ﺃﻨﺕ ﻭﺃﻤﻬﺎ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺨﺭﺠﺕ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻭل ﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﻝﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻘﺎﺒل ﻤﺠﺭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻋﺼﺎﺒﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﺘﺭﻫﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻴﺎ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻷﻥ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﻝﺩﺭﺝ ﺍﻝﺩﻭﻻﺏ ﻭﺘﻀﻊ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﻨﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﺒﻼﺴﺘﻴﻜﻴﺔ ﻭﺘﺴـﻠﻤﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻝﻠﻁﻔل ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺍﺸﺘﺭﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﻨﻪ "‬
‫ﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻀﺕ ﺃﺨﺫﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻁﻼﺏ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ " ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺔ " ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺭﺤﻠﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﺎﺭﺏ ﻋﺒﺭ ﺸـﻼﻻﺕ‬
‫ﻜﻠﻭﺭﺍﺩﻭ ﻝﻠﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﻻ ﺃﻨﺴﻰ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﺍﻨﻁﻠﻘﻭﺍ ﻜﺎﻝﻘﻨﺎﺒل‪ ،‬ﻭﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﺘﻌﺜﺭ ﻤﻨﺎ ﺤﻭﺍﻝﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺜﻤﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ‬
‫ﻋﺸﺭ ﺃﺸﺨﺎﺹ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻻﺠﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺼﺭﺥ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻻﻨﺤﺩﺍﺭ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻭﺠﺩﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻷﺸﺠﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺤﺘﻤﹰﺎ ﻻﺒﺩ‬

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‫ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺭﺠﺎل ﺇﻨﻘﺎﺫ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﻴﺩ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺤﻭﺍﻝﻰ ﺃﺜﻨﻰ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺫﺭﺍﻉ ﻭﺭﺠل ﻭﺤﺫﺍﺀ " ﺒﻭﺕ " ﻤﺭﺒﻭﻁﻴﻥ ﺒﺎﻨﺸﻭﻁﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻀﺤﻜﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻫـﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﻭﺠﻌﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺫﻫﺒﻨﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻝﻨﻘﻀﻰ ﻭﻗﺘ ﹰﺎ ﻗﺼﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻨﺎ ﻤﺭﺭﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺘﺠﺭ ﻝﺒﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﻨﻼﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﻭﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻨﻤﺎﺫﺝ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻁﺒﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﻨﻼﺕ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﺩﻕ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺘﺄﺜﺭﺕ ﺠﺩﺍﹰ ﺜﻡ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺘﺄﺫﻯ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﺠﻬـﻰ ﻤﺤﻤـﺭﹰﺍ‬
‫ﻭﻤﺘﻭﺠﻬ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﺍﺭﺓ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻭﻉ ﺘﻨﺴﺎﺏ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻴﻨﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﺌﻁ ] ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻤﻴﺹ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺌﻊ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ [ ﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻁﺒﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻝــ " ﺭﺍﺠﻴـﺩﻯ ﺁﻥ "‪" ،‬‬
‫ﺭﺍﺠﻴﺩﻯ ﺁﻨﺩﻯ " ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻴﺘﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺒﺘﺎﻥ ﻝﻘﻠﺏ ﻜل ﻁﻔل ﻭﻫﻤﺎ ﻴﻤﺎﺭﺴﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ !! ﻤﻥ ﻓﻀﻠﻙ ﻻ ﺘﻀﺤﻙ !! ﻫل ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻁﻔﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺜﺔ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺭﻫﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻭل ﺩﻤﻴﺔ ﺘﻠﻌﺏ ﺒﻬﺎ " ﺭﺍﺠﻴﺩﻯ ﺁﻨﺩﻯ " ؟! ﻫل ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﺸﻌﻭﺭﻯ؟! ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺠﺩ ﺒﻨﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻷﻋﺯﺍﺀ ﻤﻊ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺒﺭ ﻗﺎﺭﺓ ﺃﻤﺭﻴﻜﺎ ﺍﻝﺸﻤﺎﻝﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺘﻌﺘﺒﺭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻰ ﻫﻰ ﻝﻌﺏ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎل ﺍﻝﻤﻔﻀﻠﺔ ﺴﻭﺍﺀ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻓﻘﺭﺍﺀ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻏﻨﻴﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺌﻊ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻬﻡ ﻴﺜﻘﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺠﺫﺍﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻤﺭﺓ ﻝﻘﻴﻤﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل ﺃﻋﻁﻰ ﻓﺭﺼﺔ ﻝﻸﻁﻔﺎل ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﻔﻌﻠﻭﺍ ﺫﻝﻙ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻓﺎﻨﻠﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺒﻴﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺕ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻝﻌﺏ ﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻫﺯﻤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﺎ ﺼﻠﻴﺕ ﻭﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻝﻁﻴﻔﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻭﻀﻌﺕ ﺯﺭﺍﻋﻰ ﺤﻭل ﻜﺘﻑ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﻭﻫﻤﺴﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺫﻨﻪ ‪ "..‬ﻫل ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺄﻝﻙ ﺴﺅﺍ ﹰﻻ ؟ "‬
‫" ﻨﻌﻡ ‪ ..‬ﺒﺎﻝﻁﺒﻊ ﺘﻜﻠﻡ "‬
‫"ﻻ"‬ ‫" ﻫل ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺃﻁﻔﺎ ﹰﻻ ؟ "‬
‫"ﻻ"‬ ‫" ﻫل ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺝ ؟ "‬
‫" ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺩ ﻭﺒﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻤﺭ ﺜﻼﺙ ﻭﺃﺭﺒﻊ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻤﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻁﺎﻫﻡ ﺩﻤﻴﺘﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﻨﻔﺱ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺘﻠـﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺴﻭﻤﺘﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﻨﻼﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺒﻴﻌﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻅل ﺘﺭﺘﺩﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺘﺒﻴﻌﻬﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺫﻝﻙ ؟!! "‬
‫ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻝﻑ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺤﺩﺓ ﺘﺴﺄل ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻔﻁﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﺨﻼﻕ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﺒﻌﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻹﺤﺼﺎﺌﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺴﺒﻪ ‪ %٦٠‬ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺴﻥ ‪ ١٩ ،١٨‬ﻗﺩ ﻤﺎﺭﺴﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭ‪ %٥٧‬ﺘﻁﺭﻗﻭﺍ ﻝﻤﻭﻀـﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻁـﻼﻕ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﺩﺭﻜﻭﺍ ﻤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﺘﺄﺜﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺊ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ‪.‬‬

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ًا هب‬
‫ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻑ ﻭﺘﺭﻯ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﺎل ﻭﺍﻹﺒﺩﺍﻉ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻭﺜﻴﻕ‬

‫ﺑﲔ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺝ ﻭﺍﻟﺰﻭﺟﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﲑ‬

‫ﻴﺫﻫﺏ … ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺏ … ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺏ …‬
‫ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﻀﻴﻊ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ‪..‬‬

‫ﻟﻦ ﻳﻀﻴﻊ ﻣﻨﻚ ﺇﻥ ﻓﺘﺤﺖ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻙ ﻭﺃﺣﺒﺒﺖ‬

‫ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻭﻨﻅﺭﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ‪ ..‬ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺍﻷﻝﺼﻕ‬
‫ﻭﻨﻅﺭﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺘﻙ‬
‫ﺍﺒﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻙ ﺒﺒﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﺔ ‪..‬‬
‫• أ)("ر و&"‪:%‬‬

‫‪ -١‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺸﻜﺎل ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ؟‬

‫‪ -٢‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺸﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﻐﻠﻭﻁ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﻘﺩﻤﻪ ﺍﻝﺘﻠﻔﺎﺯ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ؟‬
‫‪ -٣‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻙ ﻭﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭﻙ ﺒﺸﺄﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺭﻴﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﺘﺨﺩﻡ ﻤﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ‪:‬‬
‫ﺕ ﺘﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﺃﺜﺒﺕ ﻝﻰ …………… "‬
‫ﺃ [ " ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨ ِ‬
‫ﺏ[ " ﺍﻝﻜل ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ …………………… "‬
‫ﺝ[ " ﻨﺤﻥ ﺴﻨﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل ………………… "‬
‫ﺩ [ " ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﺒﻊ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺘﻙ ﻓﻘﻁ ………………… "‬

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 ‫‪ " [{â‬ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﺤﺒﻰ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻬﺎ ………… "‬
‫ﻭ[ " ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻋﺎﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻁﺎﻝﻤﺎ ﻻ ﻨﺨﻭﺽ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ………………………… "‬
‫ﺯ[ " ﻝﺩﻯ ﺭﻏﺒﻪ ﻗﻭﻴﺔ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺇﺸﺒﺎﻋﻬﺎ …………………………‬

‫ﺍﻝﻔﺼــــل ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻊ‬
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‫ﻼ ﻋﺠﻭﺯﹰﺍ ﺤﻜﻴﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻼﺤﻅﺔ ﺫﻫﺒﻴﺔ ﺨﺎﻝﺼﺔ ﻋﻥ ﺠﻴﻠﻰ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺎ ﻤﻤﻠﻭﺀﻴﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﹰﺍ ﺜﻭﺭﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻝﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻀﻊ ﺭﺠ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﺤﻤﺎﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺴﺎﺫﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻨﻘﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻨﻌﻴﺵ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺜﺒﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﺍﻝﻌﺠﻭﺯ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻪ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﻭﻗﺎل‬
‫" ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻌﺘﻘﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺴﻤﻌﻭﺍ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺴﺌﻠﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ !! " ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺇﻝﻴﻙ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺴﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻷﻤﻴﻨﺔ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺴﺎﻋﺩﻙ ﻝﺘﻘﺭﺭ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﻩ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻤﺎ ﻫـﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻁـﺔ ﺍﻝﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻁﺎﻫﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻠﺘﺯﻡ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪.‬‬
‫‪ (١‬ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﺃﻡ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ ؟‬
‫‪ (٢‬ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺸﻬﺭ ﻋﺴل ﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﺃﻡ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻫﺘ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺭﺠل ﺃﻭ ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ؟‬
‫‪ (٣‬ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻤﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﻡ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺭﺓ ﻭﻤﺸﺒﻌﻪ ﻭﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ؟‬
‫‪ (٤‬ﺒﺄﻯ ﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻙ ؟‬
‫‪ (٥‬ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﻋﺭﻴﺱ ﺃﻡ ﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻨﻰ ﻋﺭﻭﺱ ﺃﻡ ﺯﻭﺠﻪ؟‬
‫‪ (٦‬ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺸﺭﻴﻙ ﺤﺴﻥ ـ ﺠﻴﺩ ـ ﻴﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﻌﻙ ﺒﻜﻼﻡ ﺤﺏ ﺜﻡ ﻴﻬﺭﺏ ﺃﻡ ﺯﻭﺝ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻷﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺭﺒﻰ ﺃﻭﻻﺩﻙ ؟ ﻫـل ﺘﺭﻴـﺩﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﺍﻝﻅل‪ ،‬ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺓ ﺠﻴﺩﻩ ﺃﻡ ﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺯل ﺘﺜﻕ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻵﺨﺭ ﻭﻋﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﺎﻡ ؟‬
‫‪ (٧‬ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻌل ﻗﺭﺍﺭ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻤﺭﻫﻭﻨﺎﻥ ﻝﻠﺤﻅﺔ ﻋﺎﺒﺭﺓ ﺃﻡ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺭﻭﺤﻴﻪ ﺘﺩﻭﻡ ﻁﻭﻴﻼﹰ؟‬

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‫ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﺎ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻓﻠﻭﺭﻴﺩﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺨﺒﺭﺍﺘﻪ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻭﺼﻠﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﺩ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤـﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜﺘـﺏ " ﺁﻨـﺩﻯ ﺘـﺎﻴﻠﻭﺭ " ﻗﺼـﻴﺩﺘﻪ‬
‫ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻗﺎل ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪:‬‬
‫" ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻯ "‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﺤﺭﻕ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻭﻤﺎﺕ ﻭﻜﺘﺏ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ "ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨـﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻤﻼﻨـﻰ ﺒـﺎﻝﺨﻭﻑ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺸﻜﻭﻙ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺍﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ‪ .‬ﻤﻥ ﻓﻀﻠﻙ ﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻨﻘﺎﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﺩﺓ‪،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺘﻠﺘﻤﺱ ﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﺫﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻤﻭﻗﻔﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﺎﺌﺱ ﻫﺫﺍ"‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ‪:‬‬

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‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﰱ ﺟﺎﻣﻌﺔ ﻓﻠﻮﺭﻳﺪﺍ ﺷﺎﺑﺎﹰ ﻳﺒﻠﻎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﻋﺸﺮﻳﻦ ﻋﺎﻣﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻭﺟﺪ ﻣﺘﻔﺤﻤﹰﺎ ﺑﻔﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﲑﻭﺳـﲔ ﰱ ﺳـﻴﺎﺭﺗﻪ‬

‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻌﺪ ‪ ١٠٠‬ﻳﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻣﻦ ﻣﱰﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﻫﻴﺌﺔ ﺍﶈﻠﻔﲔ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻣﺎﺕ ﻣﻨﺘﺤﺮﹰﺍ ‪..‬‬

‫ﻜﺘﺏ ﺘﻴﻠﻭﺭ " ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﻴﺴﻤﺎﺱ ﺘﻌﺭﻀﺕ ﻝﺨﺒﺭﺓ ﺴﻴﺌﺔ ﻤﻊ ﻨﻭﻉ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻴﺴﻤﻰ ) ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻜل ‪ ( Mescaline‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺩﺨﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﻝﻔﻪ ﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭﻭﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻗﺭﺍﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻨﺫ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻁﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺘﻠﺕ ﻨﻔﺴـﻰ ﻷﻨـﻰ ﻝـﻡ ﺃﺴـﺘﻁﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻝﺘﻔﺎﺕ ﻝﻤﺼﻠﺤﺘﻰ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﻅﻬﺭﻭﻥ ﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻓﺸﻠﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺘﻘﻭﻴﻡ ﻨﻔﺴـﻰ ﻭﺇﺼـﻼﺤﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺼﺎﺭ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻤﻥ ﺴﻴﺊ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺁﺴﻭﺍ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﺤﻭﻅﺔ ﻓﻠﻡ ﻴﻭﺠﻬﻬﺎ " ﺘﺎﻴﻠﻭﺭ " ﺴﻭﻯ ﻝﻭﺍﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﻭﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻪ ﻤﺒﺎﺸﺭﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻯ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﺎﻤﺤﺎﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻷﻨﻰ ﺘﺭﻜﺘﻜﻤﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺒﻴﺘﻤﺎﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺩ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﻌﻴﺵ ﻤﻊ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺘﻤـﺎ‬
‫" ﻤﻥ ﻓﻀﻠﻜﻤﺎ ﻴﺎ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺩﻴﻥ ﺼﺎﻝﺤﻴﻥ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺘﻜﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺘﺠﻌﻼ ﻤﺎ ﻋﺯﻤﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻴﺅﺜﺭ ﻓﻴﻜﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺄﻨﻜﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻤﻼ ﻋﺎﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺃﺨﻁﺄﺕ ﻭﻝﻴﺱ‬
‫ﺃﻨﺘﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻓﻼ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻸﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺴﻤﺤﺕ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﺏ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻔﺴﺎﺩ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﻭﺠﻪ ﻜﻼﻤﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ‬
‫ﻴﺠﺏ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻏﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﻭﺀ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﻠﻤﻭﺍ ﺃﻨﻔﺴﻬﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻴﺤﺎﻭﻝﻭﻥ ﻤﻌﺭﻓـﺔ ﺃﻯ ﺸـﺊ ﻋـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺒﺘﻼﻉ ﺍﻝﺤﺒﻭﺏ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﻜﺒل ﻋﻘﻭﻝﻬﻡ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﻔﺸﻠﻬﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻤﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻤﻌﻰ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺼﻌﺏ ﻝﻠﻐﺎﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻴﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺸﻔﻘﺔ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺍﻝﺒﺸﺭﻯ ﻋﻀﻭ ﻋﺠﻴﺏ ﻭﻤﻌﻘﺩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻁﻠﻘﺔ ﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﻭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻭﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺄﻜل ﻭﺘﻨﺎﻡ ﻭﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﺃﺨﺭ‬
‫ﺘﻘﺭﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻤﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺜﺎﺭ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻤﺔ ﻫﻰ ﺩﻗﺔ ﻭﺘﻌﻘﻴﺩ ﻭﺫﻜﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺍﻝﺒﺸﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺼﺩﻕ ﺃﻥ ﺤﺩﻭﺙ‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺫﻜﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻤﻴﺯ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺼﺩﻓﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﻤﺭ ﺒﻌﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺤﺩﻭﺙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﺍﻀﺤﹰﺎ ﻷﻯ ﻤﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﺍﻡ ﻋﻘﻠﺔ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺠﻴﺩﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺩﺍﺨل ﺭﺃﺴﻙ ﻋﺠﺎﺌﺏ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﺘﺸﻑ ﺒﻌﺩ ! ﻭﻝﻥ ﺘﻘﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﺒﺸﺭﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻋﻤل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻤﻜﺘﻤﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫" ﻫل ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﺃﻡ ﻋﺩﻭ ؟ "‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﹰﻻ‪ :‬ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﺘﻪ ﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﻌﻴﺵ ﺒﺩﻭﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺠﺒﻙ ﻗﻤﻴﺼﻙ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺯﻋﻪ ﻭﺘﺘﺭﻜﻪ ﻭﺘﺴﺘﻤﺭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺤﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﻗﺩﻡ ﺃﻭ ﻴﺩ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻴﻥ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻫﻭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ!!‬
‫ﺜﺎﻨﻴ ﹰﺎ‪ :‬ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻤﺜل ﺠﻬﺎﺯ ﺍﻝﻜﻤﺒﻴﻭﺘﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺘﻐﺫﻴﻪ ﺒﻪ ﻴﺴﺘﺭﺠﻌﻪ ﻝﻙ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻁﻠﻌﺕ ﻋﻠـﻰ ﻤﺠـﻼﺕ ﺠﻨﺴـﻴﺔ ﻤﺼـﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺸﺎﻫﺩﺕ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﺍﻤﺞ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﻊ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺘﻙ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻭﻀﺒﻁ ﺍﻝﻨﻔﺱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜل ﻓﻌل ﺘﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻓﻕ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻏﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﻔﻼﺴﻔﺔ " ﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻔﻜﺭ " ‪ ..‬ﺃﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻙ ﻤﻤﻠﻭﺀﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﻘـﺫﺍﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﻜﺭﺍﻫﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻌﻨﻑ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻘﻊ ﺒﺴﻬﻭﻝﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺨﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﺼﺭﺍﻉ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺇﻥ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﻤﺕ ﺒﺎﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺤﺴﻨﺔ ﻭﺒﺎﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺒﺘﺴﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ‬

‫ﺘﻌﺘﺒﺭ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺘﺤﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻙ ﻝﻠﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻓﻬﻭ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻜل ﺍﻝﺭﺠﺎل ﻭﺍﻝﻨﺴﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﺘﺒﻌﺩ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺘﻙ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻓـﻰ ﺘﻠـﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﻌﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﺍﻓﻕ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﻻ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻜﺭ ـ ﻭﻻ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ـ ﻓﻰ " ‪ " Miss July‬ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﻤﺠﻠﺔ " ‪ " Play boy‬ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺒل ﻓﻰ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ ﻓﻘﻁ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﺫﺍ ﻗﺒل ﻜل ﻤﻴﻌﺎﺩ ﺃﻭ ﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﺴﻭﺃ ﻋﺩﻭ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺸﺒﺎﻉ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺠﻤـﻊ ﺭﺠـﺎل‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻭﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺨﺼﺼﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻤﻭﺭ ﺍﻻﺭﺘﺒﺎﻁ ﻭﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺨﺼﺎﺌﻴﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻔﺴﺎﻨﻴﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ " ﺍﻝﻌﻘل " ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻏﻠﺏ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل‬
‫ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻘﻭﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺴﻌﻴﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻘﺩﺍﻥ ﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ ‪ ..‬ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ ﺘﻀﻊ ﺤﺩﹰﺍ ﺤﺎﺠﺯﹰﺍ ﺤﻭل ﻗﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻤﻨﺢ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﺸﺭﻴﻜﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺒﻤﻌﻨﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺸﺒﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﺸﺭﺡ ﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻴﺘﻀﻤﻥ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺎﺀ ﺭﻭﺤﻰ ﻭﺠﺴﺩﻯ ﻭﻋﻘﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻬـﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨـﻰ ﺍﻝﺠـﻨﺱ‬
‫ﺒﻤﻔﻬﻭﻤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻻﺜﻨﺎﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻭﺍﻓﻕ ﻜﺎﻤل ﻭﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺃﺼﻴل ﺒﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻻ ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﺒﻭﻀﻭﺡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻗﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻤﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻴﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺒﺫﻝﻙ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺴﺭﻗﺕ ‪ %٩٨‬ﻤﻥ ﺤﺠﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻫﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﺤـﻕ ﺸـﺭﻴﻙ ﺃﻭ‬
‫ﺸﺭﻴﻜﺔ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻗﺼﺩ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺨﺘﺒﺭﻩ ﺒﻜﺎﻤل ﻤﻜﻭﻨﺎﺕ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻴﻕ ﺒﺎﻝﺸﺒﻊ ﻭﺍﻻﻜﺘﻤﺎل ﻤﻭﺠﻭﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺯﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻰ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻙ‪ .‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﺤﺭﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﻤﻥ ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﻭﻴﺘﻁﻬﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻜﺭﻴﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺨﺒﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺌﺔ ﻝﻠﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺘﺫﻭﻕ ﺍﻹﺸﺒﺎﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻰ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻻﺌﻘﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺴﺎﻓﺭﺕ ﻋﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻴﻁ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﺒﺭﻓﻘﺔ ﺭﺠل ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻋﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﺃﺨﺘﺒﺭ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻝﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻁﻠﻘﺘﻪ !! ﻓﺴﺄﻝﺘﻪ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟؟ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ‬
‫" ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﺴﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻋﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻐﻔﺭ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻝﻡ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻹﺸﺒﺎﻉ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺤﻠﺕ " ‪.‬‬
‫ﺘﻌﺭﻓﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺘﺩﻋﻰ " ﺩﻴﺎﻨﺎ " ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻫﺎ ﺴﺘﺔ ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﺴﻨﻪ ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺠﺫﺍﺒﺔ ﻭﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻓﺭﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﺎﺒل ﻗﻠـﺔ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﻤﻬﺎ ﻤﻜﺘﺌﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﻝﻴﺎﻝﻰ ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺯﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻬﺎ‪ " :‬ﺃﻤﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻻ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸـﺒﺎﻥ ﺴـﻭﻑ‬
‫ﻴﻁﻠﺒﻨـــﻰ ﻝﻠﺨـــﺭﻭﺝ ﻤﻌـــﻪ " ﺴـــﺄﻝﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﻤﻬـــﺎ‪ " :‬ﻝﻤـــﺎﺫﺍ ؟ " ﻨﻜﺴـــﺕ " ﺩﻴﺎﻨـــﺎ " ﺭﺃﺴـــﻬﺎ ﻭﻗﺎﻝـــﺕ ﺒـــﺒﻁ‪:‬‬
‫" ﻷﻨﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺨﺭﺝ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺸﺭﺏ ﻭﻻ ﺃﻓﻌل ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﺒﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ " ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻤﻬﺎ ﺤﻜﻴﻤﺔ ﻓﻘﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻬﺎ‪ " :‬ﺩﻴﺎﻨﺎ ‪ ..‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜـﺎﻓﺌﻴﻥ ﻤـﻥ ﺃﺠـل‬
‫ﺍﻗﺘﻨﺎﻋﻙ ﺒﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻁﻌﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼﺒﺭﻯ ﻭﺘﻨﺘﻅﺭﻯ ﺍﷲ ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺄﺘﻴﻙ ﺒﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺘﻤﻴﺯ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﻴﺸﺎﺭﻜﻙ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﺍﺒﺩﺌﻰ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻼﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﺍﻵﻥ ‪." ..‬‬
‫ﻭﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﺨﻤﺱ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﺤﻔﻅﺕ " ﺩﻴﺎﻨﺎ " ﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺼﺎﻕ ﺒﺄﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺒﺎﻗﺘﻨﺎﻉ ﺘﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺼﻠﻰ ﻴﻭﻤﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﺍﻝـﺫﻱ‬
‫ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﺘﺴﺘﻤﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﻜﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺼﺎﺭ ﻋﻤﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ " ﻫﺎﻨـﻙ " ﺫﻝـﻙ ﺍﻝﺸـﺨﺹ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻅﺭﻴﻑ ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﻀﻰ ﺼﺎﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻤﻴﺯﺓ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﻤﺘﻌﺎ ﺒﺴﺕ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﻴﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺯﻭﺠﻴﻥ‬
‫ﺭﺃﻴﺘﻬﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺸﻜل ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻫﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻌل ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﻭﺀ ﺇﻥ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺘﺤﻠﻡ ﻫﻭ ﺘﺨﻴﻼﺕ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻨﻘﻴﺔ ﻷﻨﻙ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﻝﻡ ﻴﻤﺘﻸ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﻤﺎﻤـﺔ‪ ،‬ﻴﻤﻜﻨـﻙ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺘﺘﺨﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻘﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺠﺩﺭﺍﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺴﺘﺤﺩﺩ ﻤﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﻤﻨﺯﻝﻙ ﻭﻤﺎ ﺍﻷﻓﻌﺎل ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺒﺭﺃ ؟‬
‫ﺍﺒﺩﺃ ﺒﻭﻀﻊ ﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﻭﺍﻀﺢ ﻝﻠﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻨﺎﻨﻴﺔ " ‪ " Metanoia‬ﻓﻰ ﻤﺨﻴﻠﺘﻙ !! ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺴﺨﺔ ﺍﻷﺼﻠﻴﺔ ﻝﻠﻌﻬﺩ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺩ ﹸﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﻤﺕ ﺒﻭﺍﺴﻁﺔ " ﻴﻭﺤﻨﺎ " ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﺌﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻨﺯل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺭ ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﺼﺭﺥ ﻤﻨﺎﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﻭﺒﺔ ﻝﻠﺤﺎﺌﺭﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‪ .‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺘﻌﻨﻰ‬
‫" ﺍﻝﺘﻭﺒﺔ " ﺃﻭ ﺤﺭﻓﻴ ﹰﺎ " ﺘﻐﻴﻴﺭ ﻤﺴﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻫل ﻴﻨﻅﺭ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻜﺒﺸﺭ؟ ﺃﻡ ﻜﺫﺌﺎﺏ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ؟!‬
‫ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺜﺎﺒﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺴﺌﻭل ﻭﺃﻨﻙ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺒﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻴﻀـ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻠﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺒﺄﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﻭﺃﻡ ﺘﺴﺎﻋﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻨﺎﺀ ﺃﺴﺭﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺴـﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﺃﻴﻀـ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺨﻁـﺄ‬
‫ـﻭﻥ‪:‬‬
‫ـﺒﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸــﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﻴﻌﻴﺸــﻭﻥ ﺒﺤﺴــﺏ ﺃﻤــﺯﺠﺘﻬﻡ ﻭﻴﻘﻭﻝــ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺄﺴــﺎﻭﻯ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﻴــﺭ ﺍﻝﻴــﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻜــل ﻤــﻥ ﺍﻝﺸــ‬
‫" ﻨﻌﻡ ‪ ..‬ﻨﻌﻡ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﺒﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﻝﻜﻥ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺄﻤﻭﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼﺔ "‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺴﻤﻊ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﻴﻥ ﺃﺘﺄﻝﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻷﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺤﻭﺍﻝﻰ ﺨﻤﺱ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﻭﺩ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻰ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺇﻝ ‪‬‬
‫ﻭﻴﻘﻭل " ﻴﺎ ﻝﻴﺘﻨﻰ ﺴﻤﻌﺕ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺠﺭﺤﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺃﺨﻁﺎﺌﻰ " ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺸﺨﺼﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﺭﺍﺭﹰﺍ ‪ .‬ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌـﻴﺵ ﺍﻝﺠـﻨﺱ ﺒـﻼ‬
‫ﻀﻭﺍﺒﻁﻪ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ ﻭﺘﺘﻭﻗﻊ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺍﻷﻭﻗﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻻﺒﺩ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺨﺎﻁﺊ ﺤﻴﻨﺫﺍﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺍﺨﺘﻴﺎﺭﻙ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺘﻌﺎﻝﻴﻡ " ﻴﻭﺤﻨﺎ " ﻭﺘﻌﺎﻝﻴﻡ ‪ %٩٨‬ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻠﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﻴﻥ ﺤﻴﻥ ﺫﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﻅﻬﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺭﺘﺒﻁﺔ ﺒﻤﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺒﻤـﺎ‬
‫ﺘﻤﻠﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺃﻨﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻫﻰ ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﻔﻜﺭ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﻁﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ ﻭﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻻ ﻴﺴﺘﻤﻊ‬
‫ﻝﻠﺘﻔﺎﻫﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﻻ ﻴﻤﻴل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﻀﺤﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻝﻸﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻻ ﻴﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺒﺄﻯ ﺤﺎل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻁﻤﻪ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫل ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﻤﺒﺎﺸﺭ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﺭﻴﻊ ﻝﻌﻘﻠﻙ ؟ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﻘﻠﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻴﻥ !! ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺭﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻐﻠﻕ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﺭﻙ‬
‫ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻗﺒﻴﺤﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺘﺨﺘﺯﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ !! ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺼﻌﺒﹰﺎ ﻝﻤﻥ ﻗﺭﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻷﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻏﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﻫﻤﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫" ﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﻤﺴﺎﺭ ﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭﻙ " ﻤﺘﺎﺡ ‪ ،‬ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻁﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻘﻨﺎﺓ !ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻗﻑ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺘﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺠﺎﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻭﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺤﻴﺙ ﺍﻷﻀﻭﺍﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﻝﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﺒﻪ ﺼﺨﺏ ﺸﺩﻴﺩ ﺒل ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺸﺎﺭﻉ‬
‫ﻫﺎﺩﺉ !! ﺃﻁﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﺘﺩﻯ ﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺒﺤﺭ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﻤﺤﺘﺸﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻏﻴ ‪‬ﺭ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﻁﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﻨﺯ ﺍﻝﻀﻴـﻕ‬
‫ﺒﺄﺨﺭ ﻭﺍﺴﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺠﺎﻜﻴﺕ ﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻜﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻝﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﻌﺜﺭﺍﺕ ﺒﺄﺨﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺎﻋﺏ ﺘﺠﻠﺒﻬﺎ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﻁﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺃﺫﻨﻴﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻬل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﻻ "‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻔﻌل ؟! ‪ ..‬ﻗﺎل ﺍﻝﺭﺴـﻭل‬
‫ﺒﻭﻝﺱ‪:‬‬

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‫ ‪ $K>  a‬إن آ‪ ' JB S1‬وإن آن ح ‪ ,B‬ه)< ا‪AB‬وا "‪ ) .‬ﻓﻰ ‪( ٨:٤‬‬
‫ﺃﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺘﻙ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﺎ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺠﺴﺩﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺩﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﺴﺘﻌﺩﺍﺩ ﺠﻤﻴل ﻝﻠﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺭﺒﻤـﺎ ﺘﻜـﻭﻥ ﻫـﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠـﺔ‬
‫ﻼ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺭﻭﻉ ﺨﻼﺌﻕ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺴﺘﻨﺘﻬﺯ ﻜل ﻓﺭﺼﺔ ﻝﺘﺤﺴﻥ ﺒﻘـﺩﺭ ﻤـﺎ ﺘﺴـﺘﻁﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺩﻴﺔ ﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺴﺘﻠﺩ ﻝﻪ ﻁﻔ ﹰ‬
‫ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻬﺎ‪ ..‬ﻤﻥ ﻓﻀﻠﻙ ﺃﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻋﻥ ﺠﺴﺩﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻨﺩﻫﺵ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﺼل ﺇﻝﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻭﺭﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺘﻨﻤﻭﺍ ﻭﺘﺯﺩﻫﺭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﻴﺎﻨﻌﺔ ﻨﺎﻀﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﺩﺓ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺘﻔﺘﺢ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﻭﻗـﺕ‬
‫ﻗﺼﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺘﺩﺨل ﻓﻰ ﻨﻤﻭﻫﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺼﻨﻊ " ﺍﻨﺘﺼﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ " ﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﻓﻰ ﺠﺫﺏ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺤﺎﻭﻝـﺔ‬
‫ﻓﺎﺸﻠﺔ ﻝﺩﻓﻌﻬﺎ ﻝﻠﻨﻤﻭ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺩﻡ ﺍﺴﺘﻌﺩﺍﺩﻫﺎ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﻌﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ !! ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﺘﺢ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﺘﻌﻠﻥ ﺠﺎﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﺩﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ‪..‬‬

‫• أ)("ر و&"‪:%‬‬

‫‪ -١‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻬﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﺄل ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺃﺴﺌﻠﺔ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺠﺎﺒﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺩﻤﺔ؟‬
‫‪ -٢‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻬﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻤﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ؟‬
‫‪ -٣‬ﺃﻴﻬﻤﺎ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺃﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺃﻡ ﺍﻝﻀﻤﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺼﺎﻝﺢ ؟‬
‫‪ -٤‬ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻌﻨﻰ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ " ‪ " Metanoia‬؟ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻁﺒﻕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺎﺘﻙ ﻭﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺘﻙ ﻤﻊ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺘﻙ ؟‬
‫‪ -٥‬ﻫل ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻀﻁﺭ ﻷﻥ ﺘﺨﺘﺒﺭ ﻜﺎﺴﺘﻌﺩﺍﺩ ﻝﻠﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺯﻭﺝ ؟‬
‫‪ -٦‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺨﻁﺘﻙ ﻝﻸﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺩﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﻁﺒﻘﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺠﺎل ﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺘﻙ ؟‬
‫‪ -٧‬ﻤﻥ ﺃﻴﻥ ﺠﺌﻨﺎ ﺒﺘﻌﺒﻴﺭ " ‪ " Falling in love‬ﺃﻭ " ﺍﻝﻭﻗﻭﻉ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ " ؟‬
‫ﻰ ؟ ﻫل ﺍﷲ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺸﺭﻴﻙ ﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺸﻴﺌﺘﻪ ؟‬
‫‪ -٨‬ﻫل ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺩ ﺇﺤﺴﺎﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻝ ‪‬‬
‫‪ -٩‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﻌﻴﺩ ﺒﺭﻤﺠﺔ ﻜل ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺘﺒﻜﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ؟‬

‫] ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻴﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺭﺃ ﺭﺴﺎﻝﺔ ﻓﻴﻠﺒﻰ ﺍﻹﺼﺤﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺒﻊ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﺩﺩ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻤﻥ [‬

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‫ﻭﻀﻊ ﺴﺘﺔ ﺃﺸﺨﺎﺹ ﺃﻋﺯﺍﺀ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻨﻔﺴﻬﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺸﺎﺭﻜﻭﺍ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺄﺨﺭﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺴﺭﺩ ﻗﺼﺼﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻏﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺠﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻬﻡ ﺠﻴﺩﹰﺍ‪ .‬ﻜل ﻗﺼﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺼﺼﻬﻡ ﻓﺭﻴﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻌﺎﻨﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻗﺎﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺤﺩﺍﻫﺎ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل ﺃﻭ ﺒﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻴﻨﺎﺴﺏ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﻴﺸﻬﺎ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻁﻠﺒﻭﺍ ﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺒﻘﻰ ﺘﻭﻗﻴﻌﻬﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤل ﺨﻔﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩ ﺃﻨﻙ ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟‬

‫•  ـــ‪2‬ا " ا‪A,b‬ان"‪..‬‬

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‫ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ‪ ١٩‬ﺴﻨﺔ ﻭﻝﺩﻯ ﻁﻔﻠﻪ ﻋﻤﺭﻫﺎ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺸﻬﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﻁﻔﻠﺘﻰ ﺒﻼ ﺃﺏ !! ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﻜل ﺸﺊ‪ .‬ﻨﺸﺄﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺘﺘﻌـﺎﻴﺵ ﻤـﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻴﻘﺎﻉ ﺍﻝﺒﻁﻰﺀ ﻝﻠﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺤﻴﺙ ﺍﻷﺨﻼﻕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺸﺩﺩﺓ ﻭﻻ ﺘﻌﻨﻰ ﻻ ‪..‬‬

‫ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻘﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻋﻬﺩﻯ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻨﻀﻤﻤﺕ ﻝﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ ﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺘﺄﻝﻑ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﻴﺴﻤﻭﻨﻨﻰ " ﺃﻴﺱ ﻜﺭﻴﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ " ﻭﻋﺭﻓﻨﺎ ﺠﻤﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻨﺴﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﻠﻭﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ ﺒﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﻤﺘﻌﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻭﻓﻕ ﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﺠﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﻝﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺁﻤﻨﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻭﻗﻔﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻬﺯ ﻤﺒـﺎﺩﺌﻰ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ " ﻭﻝﺩ " ﻜﺎﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻔﺎﺠﺌﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﺭﻯ !!‬
‫‪ " Midwest‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ‬ ‫ﻯ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻨﻨﺘﻘل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺠﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺴﻜﺎﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻼﻕ ﻓﻰ " ﻤﻴﺩ ﻭﻴﺴﺕ‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﻰ ﺃﻋﻠﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻓﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﻝﻠﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﺭﻯ ﻓﻜﺭﺓ ﻤﺫﻫﻠﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺕ ﺒﻘﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﻜﺴﺭ ﻭﺩﺍﻋ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻜل ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺫﻝﻙ " ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ " ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺘـﻪ ﺨـﻼل‬
‫ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﻭﻴل‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩﺓ ﻝﻠﺘﺤﺩﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻗﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺸﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺘﺒﺭﻩ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺃﻤﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﺴﺎﺒﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻗﻀﻴﺕ ﻭﺤﺩﻩ ﻤﺭﻴﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﻋﺘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ‬
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‫ﻁﻭل ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻯ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ‪ .‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﺴﺒﻘﻴﺘﻰ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺼﺩﺍﻗﺎﺕ ﻭﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻌﺭﻭﻓﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﻋﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﻼ ﻝﺫﺍ ﻗﺩ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺨﻼل ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﺍﻷﻭل ﺍﻨﻀﻤﻤﺕ ﻝـ " ﺸﻠﺔ " ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻤﻼﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺀﻭﺍ ﻜﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﻪ ﻴﻠﺘﻔﻭﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻰ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺨﺎﺼـﺔ‪،‬‬
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‫ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﻤﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﻀﻭﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺜﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻷﻗﺎﺒل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻨﻀﻤﺎﻤﻰ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺘﻠﻘﺎﺌﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻓﻬﻤﺕ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺄﻝﻭﻓﺔ ﻝﻠﺤﺼﻭل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺒﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺴﻘﻁﺕ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺸﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻜل ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺼﻤﻤﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻭﺯ ﺒﻪ ﻤﻬﻤﺎ ﺤﺩﺙ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺠﻤل‬
‫ﺸﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻨﻀﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻠﻤﺫﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻜﺄﻯ ﺸﺎﺏ ﺃﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻀﻴﺕ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺜﻼﺜﺔ ﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﺘﻌﺭﻓﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ ﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﻤﻘﺭﺒﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﻰ‪ .‬ﻷﻨﻰ ﻭﺠﺩﺘﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻨﻘﺎﺀ ﻭﺒﺭﺍﺀﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻗﺩ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﻝﺘﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺒﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﺼﺩﻤﺔ ﻋﻨﻴﻔﺔ !! ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﺘﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴـﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﻜﺎﻤـل‬
‫ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﺫﺭﺍﺀ ﻭﺫﺍﺕ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺕ ﺭﺠﻌﻴﺔ ﻤﺘﻤﺴﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻗﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻝﺩﻯ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺠﻌل ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺩﺭﻥ ـ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺩﻴﺜﺔ ـ ﻓﻼﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺩﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺎﻋﻰ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻀﺎﻓﺕ ‪ " :‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻋﺎﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻥ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﺸﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻷﻜﺜﺭ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﺔ ﺃﺴﺎﺒﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺴﺘﺭﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻜل ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻜﺒﺭ ﺩﻝﻴل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺃﻯ ﺨﻁﺄ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ " ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺒل ﺘﺼﺩﻴﺕ ﻝﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﻜﻘﺭﺍﺭ ﺃﺨﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻗﺎل ﻝـﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻨﺎ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻭﻴﻨﺒﻐﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻁﻪ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﻭﺃﻻ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺘﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘــﺩ ﺘﻤﺯﻗــﺕ ﺒــﻴﻥ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴــﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴــﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻭﺒــﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜــﻭﻥ ﻤﺜــل ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴــﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻜــﺫﺍ ﺍﺨﺘــﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺒﻘــﺎﺀ‬
‫ﻤﻊ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗﻭل ﻓﻰ ﺤﺯﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ " ﺩﺍﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺒﺎﺩﺌﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ "‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﻨﻅﺭﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻑ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻜـﻡ ﻜـﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻴﻤﺎﻨﻰ ﻤﺘﺯﻋﺯﻋ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺇﻴﻤﺎﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻏﻴﺒﻭﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﻭﻕ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﻨﻤﻭ ﻜﻤﺅﻤﻨﻪ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﻫﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﻔﻌﺎل ﻭﺍﻝﺠﻭﻫﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼﻝﻪ ﻤﻭﺍﺠﻬﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﺠﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻼﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ " ﻭﺍﻗﻔﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻭﺭ " ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺒﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﻭﻻ ﺤﺎﺭﺓ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻓﺎﺘﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻘﺭﺭ ﺠﻤﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺕ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺭﺸﺩﻨﺎ ﺃﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻨﻁﻭﻋﻬﺎ ﻝﻜﻰ‬
‫ﺘﺘﻭﺍﻓﻕ ﻤﻊ ﺸﻜل ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺭﻭﻕ ﻝﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻗﺭﺭﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺠﻌل ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ " ﺠﻭﺍﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﻐﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﻔﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻘﻭﻝﻨﺎ " ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻘـﻭل ﺒﺄﻨﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﺒﺼﺩﺩ ﻜﺎﺭﺜﺔ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ‪ .‬ﻜﻠﻨﺎ ﻴﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺨﺘﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺠﺎﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﻴﻠﺘﺯﻡ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﻨﺭﻯ ﺴـﺭﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺍﻝﻨﺘـﺎﺌﺞ‬
‫ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺄﺨﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﺍﷲ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻨﺨﺘﺎﺭ ﺨﻁﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﺃﻭل ﺨﻁﺄ ﺒﻘﻭﻝﻰ " ﻨﻌﻡ " ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ ﺍﻝﺭﻫﻴﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻷﻨﻰ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺨﻭﺽ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻭﺤﺎل ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺤﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭل " ﻨﻌﻡ " ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺘﺨﺭﺠﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﻤﻊ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﺃﺴﻬل ﻭﺃﺴﻬل ﻋﻠ ‪‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻤﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺤﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻤﺤﺒﻭﺒﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻘﺩ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺼﻭﺹ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺘﻭﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺤﺎ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﺠﺒﻪ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺤﻠﺔ ﺼﺎﺭ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻭﻜﺄﻥ ﺜﻠﺠ ﹰﺎ ﻴﺘﺤﻁﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﻤﺅﺨﺭﹰﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺎﺏ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺇﻻ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺘﺒﺭ " ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ " ﻝﻜﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﺄﺜﻴﺭ ﻜﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻤﺅﻗﺘ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﺎﻝﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﻴﺴﻜﻭ ﻭﺍﻝﺠﻠﻭﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻌﺩل ﻗﺒﻭﻝﻰ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﻨﺨﻔﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺤﻴﻨﺫﺍﻙ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ‬
‫‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺘﺒﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻤﺭﺤﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﺸﻜل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩ ﻤﺘﺴـﻴﺏ ﺠـﺩﹰﺍ‬

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‫ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﻨﻘﺹ ﺍﻹﺭﺸﺎﺩ ﺍﻷﺴﺭﻯ ﻭﻀﻴﺎﻉ ﺍﻷﺨﻼﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻅﻬﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻡ ﺍﻝﺠﺎﻤﻌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻓﻔﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﺒﺩﺕ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺴﺘﻬﻠﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﻜﺱ ﺼﺤﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻴﺘﺴﺎﺒﻘﻥ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﺭﻭﺍ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺨﺫ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻬل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠـﺩ‬
‫ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺠﺎﻝﺴ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻴﺄﻜﻠﻭﻥ " ﺍﻝﺫﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻤﺼﺔ " ﻭﻴﺸﺎﻫﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻠﻔﺎﺯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺘﻜﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻌﻬﻡ ﻭﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﺠﻴﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ‪.‬‬
‫ﺘﻭﺭﻁﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺴﻨﻪ ﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻡ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ ﺤﻴـﺎﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻓﺠﺄﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺍﻜﺘﺸﻔﺕ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺤﺎﻤل ﻤﻨﺫ ﺨﻤﺱ ﺃﺴﺎﺒﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌل‪ .‬ﻨﺼﺤﻨﻰ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﺒﺎﻹﺠﻬﺎﺽ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺠﻠﺴﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻴـﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺠﻬﺽ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﺨﻤﺱ ﺩﻗﺎﺌﻕ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﺕ ﻭﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﻷﻨﻰ ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺠﺎﺀ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻭﺃﺨﺫﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ " ﻻ ﺘﻘﻠﻘﻰ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻨﺘﺯﻭﺝ " ﻫﺫﺍ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻬﺩﺃ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻀﻁﺭﺍﺒﻰ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻷﻨﻰ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻝـﻭ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺩ‪‬ﻤﺭﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﻜﺎﻤل‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺤﻠﻤﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺼﺎﻝﺢ ﻭﺃﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺭﺍﻋﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻨﺯل ﺠﻤﻴل‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﻤﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﺃﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﻨﺒﺩﺃ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺨﻁﻴﻁ ﻝﻸﺴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﺃﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺴﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺘﻠﻙ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﻓﻜﺭﺘﻰ ﻋـﻥ ﻤﺴـﺘﻘﺒل‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻨﺎ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺎﻥ ﺘﻘﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻜﻴﻑ‬
‫ﻯ ﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﺍ ﺸﻴﺌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻗﻠﻘﻴﻥ ﻋﻠ ‪‬‬
‫ﻭﻤﻥ ﺤﺴﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻅ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻫﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺃﻫﻡ ﺃﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ !! ﺫﻫﺏ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻝﻴﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻝﺯﻭﺍﺠﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻠﺤﻅﺔ ﺍﺘﺨﺫﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻭﺠـﻪ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻠـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒﻭل ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻜﻤﺨﻠﺹ ﺸﺨﺼﻰ ﻝﻰ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ‬
‫ﻼ ﻭﺠﺫﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻓﻌل‪ .‬ﻷﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﻝﻴﻔﻌﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺴﺭ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺒﺄﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺨﻠﻕ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻜﺎﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻭﺣﻴﺪﺓ ﰱ ﺷﻘﱴ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﻠﻦ ﺍﷲ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﱃ‪ ،‬ﻭﲰﺢ ﱃ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺣﺒﲎ ﻭﺃﻋﺘﲎ ﰉ ﻛﺜﲑﹰﺍ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺃﻫﺘﻢ ﰉ ﻛﺜﲑﹰﺍ ﻷﻧﻪ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﳜﻠﺼﲎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻄـﺮﻕ‬
‫ﺍﳋﻄﲑﺓ ﺍﻟـﱴ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﻼ ﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻗﺼﺩ ﻭﻫﺩﻑ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﺸﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻤﻸ ﻓﺭﺍﻏﻰ ﻭﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻻﻜﺘﻔﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺒﻠﻨﻰ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺃﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺨﻁﺔ ﻋﻅﻴﻤﺔ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﻭ ﺇﺠﺎﺒﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭﺠﺎﺌﻰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﻤﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻤﻌﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﻔﺘﺕ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﺘﺤﺘﻰ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻴﻌﻭﺩ ﻭﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻴﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﻁﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺭﻜﻪ ﻭﺸﺄﻨﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺤﻁﻤﺔ ﻭﻤﺫﻋﻭﺭﺓ ﻓﺩﻋﻭﺕ ﺃﺒﻰ ﻭﺃﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺒﻜﻰ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺸﺭﺡ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻜل ﺸﺊ‪ ،‬ﺤﺭﺼﻭﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻅﻬﺭﻭﺍ ﻝﻰ ﻜـﻡ ﺃﻨﻬـﻡ‬
‫ﻴﺤﺒﻭﻨﻨﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻭﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺴﻴﻌﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜـﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻤﻌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺭﻭﺤﻪ ﻴﻌﺯﻴﻨﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﺫﺭﺍﻋﻴﻥ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﻴﻥ ﻴﺤﻴﻁﺎﻥ ﺒﻰ ﻭﻴﻀﻤﺎﻨﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﺸﻌﺭﺍﻨﻰ ﻜﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻤﺤﺒﻭﺒﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ‪ ..‬ﻋﻤل ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﻜﺱ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻨﺨﻁﻁ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺒﺄﻨﻔﺴﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﺩ ﹰ‬
‫ﺇﻝﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻷﻨﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺤﺎﻤل ﺒﻤﻭﻝﻭﺩ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺸﺭﻋﻰ ﻭﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﺘﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﺒﻼ ﺭﺠﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺘﻰ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻋﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ﺃﻋﻁﺎﻨﻰ ﺍﷲ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺼـﺔ ﻷﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻭﻀﻊ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻫﺩﺍﻓﻰ ﻭﺃﻭﻝﻭﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﻨﻌﻡ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﻝﻘﺩ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﺩﺃ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻕ‬
‫ﻯ ﻭﻝﻁﻔﻠﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﻗﻤﺔ ﻝﻠﺠﺒل‪ ،‬ﻫﻭ‬
‫ﺴﺭﺕ ﻋﺒﺭ ﻨﺼﻴﺒﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻭﺩﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺒﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻭﻝﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻴﻌﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﻰ ﻭﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﻤﺜﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺯﻝﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻭﻝﺩﻱ ﻁﻔﻠﺔ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺸﻬﺭﻫﺎ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺙ ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﻝﻠﺘﻭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻤﻊ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﺼﺎﺭ ﺒﻪ ﻝﻰ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺩﺨل ﻗﻠﺒﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻝﻪ ﺒﺄﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﺩ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﺒﺩﻭﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﻬﻰ ﺤﺩﻴﺜﻰ ﻤﻌﻙ ﺒﻜﻠﻤـﺔ ﻨﺼـﺢ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻭﺍﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻤﺒﺎﺩﺌﻪ ﻫﻰ ﺘﻌﺒﻴﺭ ﻋﻥ ﻤﺤﺒﺘﻪ ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻔﻅﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻴﺄﺱ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺭﺘﻪ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻬﺒـﻙ‬
‫ﻙ ﻤﻊ ﺯﻭﺠﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ ﻓﻘـﻁ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨـﻪ ﻴﺭﻴـﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻁﻔل ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺴﺘﻨﺠﺒﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻴﺕ ﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺏ ﻭﺃﻡ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻭل ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻝ ِ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪.‬‬

‫• ر‪-‬رد " ا)ا  ــ ا>ة "‪..‬‬

‫ﻼ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺨﺎﻭﻑ ﻭﺍﻝﻘﻠﻕ ﻭﻋﺩﻡ ﺍﻷﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸـﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﻌـﺩﻡ‬

‫ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺘﻰ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺕ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻀﻤﻴﺭﻯ ﻤﺜﻘ ﹰ‬
‫ﻯ ﻗﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﺎﻨﻰ ﻭﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎ ﺒﻰ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﺒﺭﺕ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺴﺘﺤﻘﺎﻕ ﻭﺍﻝﻘﻴﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺒﻭ ‪‬‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺴﻤﻌﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺔ " ﺃﺤﺒﻙ "‪ .‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺃﻅﻬﺭﻭﺍ ﻝﻰ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻬﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺒﺭﺍ ﺸﻔﻬﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻰ ﻋﻥ ﺤﺒﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﻌﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻁﻔ ﹰ‬
‫ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻵﻝﻔﺔ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻝﻤﺴﻪ ﺴﻼﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺘﺤﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻓﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻤﻜﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻁﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﺸﺵ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻗﻭل ﻝﻨﻔﺴـﻰ "‬

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‫ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﺤﺒﻭﻨﻨﻰ ﻓﻼﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻅﻬﺭﻭﺍ ﻝﻰ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺤﺒﻬﻡ ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺤﺒﻭﻨﻨﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺇﺫﹰﺍ ﻻ ﺒﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺤﺒﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻨـﺎﻙ‬
‫ﻰ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺨﻁﺄ ﻤﺎ ﻓ ‪‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺒﻰ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻤﻰ ﻫﺎﺩﺌﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﺤﻔﻅﺔ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺒﻰ ﺤﺎﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﻤﻤﺎ ﺠﻌل ﺒﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺸﺒﻪ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺸﺭ ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺽ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺴﻬ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺴﻠﺒﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺼﻌﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻫﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺘﺸﺠﻴﻊ ﺘﺒﻨﻴﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻌﻤل ﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ ﻝﻴﺅﻤﻥ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺤﺎﺠﺎﺘﻨﺎ ﻤﻤﺎ ﺤﺭﻤﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻀﻴﻬﺎ ﻤﻌﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻭﺤﺩﺓ ‪ ..‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﺒﻭل ﻭﺍﻻﻨﻁﻔﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻨﻌﺯﻝﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻷﺤﻤﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺠﺭﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺭﺴﻡ ﺍﺒﺘﺴﺎﻤﺔ ﻋﺭﻴﻀﺔ‬
‫ﻰ ﻫﻡ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﻌﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﻜﻡ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﺅﺱ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﻌﻴﺵ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻭﻴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺠﻬﻰ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺭﺒﻴﻥ ﺇﻝ ‪‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻻﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼل ﺇﻝﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﺤﺎﻓﻅ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﺒﻭل ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺘﺨﺫ ﻁﺎﺒﻊ ﺍﻝﻜﻤﺎل‪ .‬ﻨﺎﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺎ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ " ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﺫﻗﻨﻰ‬
‫ﻯ ﻭﺃﺴﺎﺘﺫﺘﻰ‪ ‬ﻭﻓﺘﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺎﻝﻤﻨﺎ ﻤﺅﺴﺴ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺎﻋﺩﺓ ﺃﺴﻤﻬﺎ " ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل "‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻜﺒﺘﻲ " ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻓﻨﺤﻥ ﻨﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻋﺒﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﺘﺼﻨﻴﻔﺎﺘﻨﺎ ﻭﺘﻘﻴﻴﻤﺎﺘﻨﺎ ﻭﺁﺭﺍﺌﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻏﻠﺏ ﺍﻷﺤﻴﺎﻥ ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻝﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺇﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﻭﺘﺠﺭﻴﺢ ﻭﻤﺭﺍﺭﺓ ﻭﻋﺩﺍﻭﺓ ﻭﺇﻨﻌﺯﺍل‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺨﻰ ﺍﻷﻜﺒﺭ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺒﺎﺭﺯ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﺠﺎل‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ‬
‫ﺃﺠﺘﺎﺯ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻡ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻭﺤﻘﻕ ﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺼﺒﻭﺍ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺠﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻗﻪ ﺒﻌﺩﻡ ﺍﻷﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺒﻊ ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻨﻘﺹ ﻭﻋﺩﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل ‪ ..‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺄﻨﻪ ﻤﻬﻤﺎ ﻓﻌل ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻥ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺴﺘﻭﻯ ﺍﻝﻜﻤﺎل ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﺘﻁﻠﺒﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺨﻴﺭﹰﺍ‬
‫ﺘﻭﺭﻁ ﺃﺨﻰ ﻤﻊ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﻤﻰ " ‪ " Fonzie‬ﺘﻤﺎﺭﺱ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻨﺸﺎﻁﺎﺕ ﺍﻹﺠﺭﺍﻤﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺘﻭﺭﻁ ﻓﻰ ﻨﺸﺎﻁﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻁﺒﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺸﺭﺏ ﻜل ﻝﻴﺎﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻜﻭﻨﻪ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺨﻼل ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺒﺤﺜﻪ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل ﺒﻤﻭﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻤﻨﻅﺭ ﺃﺨﺘﻰ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺒﻜﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﺴﺘﻘﺒﺎﻝﻨﺎ ﺨﺒﺭ ﻭﻓﺎﺘـﻪ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﺘﻘﻭل " ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻘﺒﻭل ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻔﻬﻤﻨﻰ " ﻭﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺘﻁﻠـﺏ ﺇﺸـﺒﺎﻉ ﺸـﻌﻭﺭﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﻘﺒﻭل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻠﺢ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻋﻭﺍﻡ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻝﺤﻘﺕ ﺒﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﺍﺽ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﺤﻴﺙ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻭﺍﺌﻁ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻼﻝﻡ ﻭﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻤﺒﻁﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﻁﺎﻁ ﻝﺤﻤﺎﻴﺘﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺸﺎﺭﻜﺘﻙ ﺒﻘﺼﺔ ﺃﺴﺭﺘﻰ ﻷﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜﻠﻰ ﻤﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﻋﺩ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻋﺼﺒﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﻴﺭ ﺴﻠﺱ ﻤـﻊ ﺍﻝﺒﻨـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻼﺘﻰ ﺼﺭﻓﺕ ﻝﻬﻥ ﺍﻫﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺼﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻬﻡ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺘﺎﺌﻬ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺼﻌﻭﺒﺔ ﺒﺄﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﻜﻴﺎﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺨﻴﻑ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﻤﻨﻰ ﻭﺒـﺩﺃ‬
‫ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﻋﺩﻩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻻﺒﺘﻌﺎﺩ ﻋﻨﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻰ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻊ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻋﺼﺒﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺄﻝﻭﻓ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻤﻁﺎﺒﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻋﻼﻗﺎﺘﻰ ﻤﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻭﻗﻊ ﺍﻝﻔﺸل‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻋﺯﻤﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻠﻤﻬﺎ ﻗﻠﺕ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺇﻥ ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺒل ﺩﻋﻭﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻝﻠﺨﺭﻭﺝ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻘﺒﻠﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺒﻠﺕ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻭﺍﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﻁﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻜﻬﺩﻴﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻴﺎﻩ !! ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺼﺩﻕ ﻫﺫﺍ !! ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻨﺩﻫﺸ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ‬
‫ﻭﺒﺎﻷﺨﺹ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﻰ ﻤﻐﺎﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﺘﺠﻨﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻁﻭﺍل ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻷﻨﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺨﺎﺌﻔ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺭﺘﺒﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﻓﺘﺭﻓﻀﻨﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﻴﺯ ﻓﻰ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺘﻰ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﻗﻤﺕ ﺒﺒﻨﺎﺀ ﺤﺎﺌﻁ ﹰﺎ ﻝﺤﻤﺎﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺠﺭﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﺘﺭﻜﺘﻬﺎ ﺘﻘﺘﺭﺏ ﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﺴﺤﺏ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺨﻠﻑ ﺤﺎﺌﻁﻰ ﻝﻜﻰ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻤﻨﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ‬
‫ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻷﻤﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻩ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻭﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺘﻪ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﻴﺕ ﺜﻤﺎﻨﻰ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻗﺒﻌﺔ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺠﺩ ﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻊ ﻓﺭﻴﻕ ﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻡ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻤﺜﻠﻬﻡ ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻊ‬
‫ﻓﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻭ ﺒﻭﻯ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﻴﺕ ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﺜﻠﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﻫﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺠﻬﺩﻯ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻴﻡ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺃﻋﻤﻕ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝـﻡ‬
‫ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻴﻤﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻰ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻝﻔﺘﺭﺓ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻤﻌﻰ‪ .‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﺼﺩﻤﻨﻰ !! ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺭﺩ ﻓﻌﻠـﻰ ﺃﻨﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﻗﻁﻌﺕ ﺼﻠﺘﻰ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺍﺘﺨﺫﺕ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺴﻬل ﻭﺘﻭﺍﺭﻴﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭ ﺘﻌﺭﻓﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ " ﺠﻴﻥ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻬﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻜﺎﻝﻴﻔﻭﺭﻨﻴﺎ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻭل ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻼﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺄﻨﻨﺎ ﺨﻠﻘﻨﺎ ﻝﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﻭﺜﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ‪.‬ﻭﻤﺭﺓ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻨﺎ ﻤﺘﻌﻪ ﻭﻓﺭﺡ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ" ﻗﻔﺹ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﻭﺩ "‬
‫ﺘﻜﻠﻤﻨﺎ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﺸﻌﺭﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺩﺨﻴﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻝﻡ ﻨﻔﻁﻥ ﺇﻝﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺸﻌﺭﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺠﺭﺒﻬﺎ ﺒﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻭ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺘﺨﺫ ﺍﻝﻁﺎﺒﻊ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﻴﻡ ﺘﺘﺩﻫﻭﺭ ﺒﻔﻌل ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻻ ﺒﺄﺱ ﺒﻪ ﻷﻨﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻨﺤﺏ ﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺽ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﻀﻌﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﺎﺸﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺴﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺨﻠﺹ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﻪ ﺤﻴﻨﺫﺍﻙ‪ .‬ﺠﺎﺀﺕ‬
‫ﻝﺤﻅﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﺨﺭﺝ ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ " ﺠﻴﻥ " ﺘﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺼﻑ ﺒﻌﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﻭﺨﺼﻭﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻬﺎ ﻭﻋﺼﻑ ﺒﻜل ﺸﺊ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﻨـﺫﺭﻫﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻗﺩ ﺯﺍل ﻋﻨﻰ !‬
‫ﻭﻗﺩ ﺍﺨﺘﺎﺭﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺤﻁﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻜﺄﻥ ﻭﻫﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺠﻤﻴ ﹰ‬

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‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺘﻤﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻭﻜﺒﺘﻪ ﺨﻠﻑ ﺍﺒﺘﺴﺎﻤﻪ ﻋﺭﻴﻀﺔ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺍﻓﻌل ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﻝﻠﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺼﺩﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﺭﻯ !! ﻓﻌﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻌﺭﻭﻓ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﻀﻴﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﻴﺔ ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺼﺎﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﻴﺽ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﺠﺩ ﺸﺨﺼـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻗﻴﻡ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﺼﺩﻴﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻗﺩﻤﻨﻰ ﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﺴﻤﻬﺎ " ﺴﺎﻝﻰ " ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﻋﺘﺒﺭﺘﻬﺎ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ ﻓﺤﺴﺏ ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﻤﺎﻨﺴﻰ ﻨﺤﻭﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻭﺤﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﺒﺎﺤﺜ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل ﻜﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻫﻰ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻗﺘﺭﺏ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺒـﺄﺨﺭﻯ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺭﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﻊ " ﺠﻴﻥ " ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻅﻠﻠﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻰ ﺒـ " ﺴﺎﻝﻰ " ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﻤﻤﺎ ﺴﺎﻋﺩﻨﻰ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺘﺠﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺠﺭﻴﺢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻜﺭﻨﺎ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻻﺒﺩ ﻭﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺔ ﻋﻥ ﺒﺤﺜﻨﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺭﺓ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺤﺩﺩﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻤﻴﻌﺎﺩ‪ .‬ﻭﻤﻨﺫ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻠﺤﻅﺔ ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻹﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺇﻋﻁﺎﺀ ﺍﻝـ " ‪ " OK‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺍﻓﻘﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻷﻨﻨﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻨﺘﺯﻭﺝ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻜل‬
‫ﻫل ﻭ‪‬ﻀﻌﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺒﺤﻴﺙ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺨﻁﺄ ﻝﻜﻨﻙ ﻻ ﺘﺯﺍل ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻓﻴﻪ ؟! ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﺜل ﻗﻁﺎﺭ ﻴﺫﻫﺏ ﺜﻤﺎﻨﻭﻥ ﻤﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺤﻁﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﻭﻝﻴﺱ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺴﺒﻴل ﻝﻠﺘﻭﻗﻑ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻬل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺘل ﻜﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺜﻠﺞ ﻝﺘﺴﻘﻁ ﺃﺴـﻔﻠﻪ‬
‫ﻭﺤﺘﻰ ﻝﻭ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻨﺎﻋﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻭﻗﻑ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺤﺘﻰ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺃﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﺠﺯﺀﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﻴﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻀﺨﻤﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺼﻁﺩﻡ ﺒﺸﻰﺀ ﺼﻠﺏ ﻤﺜل ﺸﺠﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﻗﺎﻉ ﺍﻝﺘل‪.‬‬
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‫ـﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻋــ‬
‫ـﻰ ﺸــ‬
‫ـﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﻔــ‬
‫ـﻡ ﺍﺴــ‬
‫ـﻭﺡ‪ .‬ﻝــ‬
‫ـﺎﻜﻠﻰ ﺒﻭﻀــ‬
‫ـﺘﻁﻌﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻤﺸــ‬
‫ـﺭﻋﺔ ﺍﺴــ‬
‫ـﺎ ﻭﺒﺴــ‬
‫ﺘﺯﻭﺠﻨــ‬
‫" ﺴﺎﻝﻰ " ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻤﻌﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻰ‪ " .‬ﺴﺎﻝﻰ " ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﺭﺩﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺒﻠﻨﻰ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺭﻓﺽ ﻴﻬﺩﺩﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﺸـﻌﺭﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻜﺫﺏ ﻭﺃﻗﻭل " ﻻ " ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻨﻰ " ﻨﻌﻡ " ﻭ " ﻨﻌﻡ " ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻨﻰ " ﻻ "‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺤﺭﻴﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﻓﻘﻬﺎ ﺤﺘـﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻓـﺽ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺒﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﻴﻨﺎﺒﻴﻊ ﻝﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻗﺒﻭﻝﻬﺎ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ‪ .‬ﻨﻔﺫ ﺼﺒﺭﻯ ﻓﻁﺭﺩﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻀﺕ ﻋﺼﺒﻴﺘﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺘﻠﻘﺎﺌﻴﺘﻰ ﻭﻝﺒﺎﻗﺘﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﺤﺒﻨﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺸﺭﻭﻁﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺃﺤﺒﺒﻨﺎ ﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ " ﻝﻭ " ﻭ " ﻷﻥ " ﺍﻝﺸﺭﻭﻁ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺒﺭﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﻝﻭ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﻭﺘﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﻤﻅﻬﺭﻯ‬
‫‪،" Ifs‬‬ ‫ﻭﺸﺨﺼﻴﺘﻰ‪ .‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﺼﻨﻊ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺴﻁﺤﻴﺔ ﻀﺤﻠﺔ ﻤﺅﺴﺴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻭﻑ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻤـﺎﺫﺍ ﻝـﻭ ﺨﺭﺠـﺕ ﺍﻝﺸـﺭﻭﻁ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺒـﺭﺭﺍﺕ "‬
‫" ‪ " Becauses‬ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﻓﺫﺓ ؟ ﺇﻥ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﻅﺭﻭﻑ ﻫل ﺴﻴﺒﻘﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ؟ ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻝﻡ ﻨﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﻤﻘﺎﻭﻤﺔ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﺩﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺨﻼل ﺜﻤﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﺸﻬﺭ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ " ﺴﺎﻝﻰ " ﻜل ﺍﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ ﻭﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻜﻨﻪ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻭﺘﺭﻜﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺯل‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺼـﺭﺨﺕ‬
‫ﻭﻗﻠﺕ ﻝﻪ " ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜﻭﻜﺏ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻋﻔﻨﻪ " ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﻪ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻗﺘﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃﻝﺘﺼﻕ ﺒﺄﻯ‬
‫ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﺃﻯ ﻜﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﻝﻠﻤﺭﻩ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻤﻴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﻌﺯﻝﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺭﺍﺥ ﻤﺜل ﻁﻔل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻴل‪ ،‬ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ﺍﷲ ﺇﺠﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﻭﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﺎ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻤﻴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ ﻝﻠﻤﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﻤﺎ ﻜﻨـﺕ ﺃﻨﻔـﻕ‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺸﺎﺒﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ ﻝﻠﺨﺩﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﻜﻠﻤﺎﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﻥ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﻤﻨﻴﺎ‬
‫ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻤﻌﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺩﻋﻭﺕ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﻐﻴﺭﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺨل ﺜﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺒﺼـﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺘﻠﻘﺎﺌﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﺒﻊ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻗﺩ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻋﻤﻠﺕ ﺠﺎﻫﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﺍﺜﻨﻴﻥ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﻪ ﻷﺭﺒﺢ " ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل "‬
‫ﺘﻌﻠﻤﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﻘﺒﻠﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺴﺎﺱ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻤﻬ ﹰ‬
‫ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﻘﻭل ﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ " ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻘﺒﻭل " ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺩ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺠﺎﻫﺩ ﻷﺭﺒﺢ ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻝﻭﺼﻭل ﻷﻓﻀل ﻗﺒﻭل ﻷﻨﻪ‬
‫ﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻗﺒﻭﻝﻰ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺒل ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺩ ﺃﻀﻌﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺘﺼﻨﻴﻔﺎﺕ ﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺴﺎﺱ‬
‫ﻤﻠﻜﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻨﻤﺎ ﻓ ‪‬‬
‫ﻗﺒﻭﻝﻬﻡ ﻝﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘـــﺩ ﻋﺭﻓـــﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺤﺒﻨـــﻰ ﺒﺼـــﻭﺭﺓ ﺭﺍﺌﻌـــﺔ ﻏﻴـــﺭ ﻤﺸـــﺭﻭﻁﺔ‪ " .‬ا‪A000G 000 M%‬ح ا‪000d‬ف إ‪000E 000‬رج "‬
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‫) ‪ ١‬ﻴﻭ ‪ ( ١٨ : ٤‬ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ُﺃﺭﻓﺽ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻴﺠﺭﺤﻨﻰ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻜﻠﻑ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﻨﻊ ﺤﻔ ﹰ‬
‫ﺼﺎﺨﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺃﺩﻋﻭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭل " ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺠﺭﻭﺡ ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ‪ .‬ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻓﺽ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺸﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﻙ ﻴﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﺒﻙ ﺍﻝﺨـﺎﻝﺹ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺤﺒﻭﺏ ﻭﻤﻘﺒﻭل "‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻴﺸﺒﻌﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻷﻨﻨﻰ ﻗﺒﻠﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻗﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻤﺅﻤﻨ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻨﻅﺭ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺩ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﻗﺒﻭ ﹰ‬
‫ﻼ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻭ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﻤﻌﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻝﺘﺤﻁﻤﺕ‪ .‬ﺍﻵﻥ ﻴﺤﻴﺎ ﺒﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ ﺸﺨﺹ‬
‫ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﺍﻗﻑ ﺃﺼﻌﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﺠﻬﻬﺎ ﻗﺒ ﹰ‬
‫ﻫﺎﺩﺉ ﻭﻝﻁﻴﻑ ﻫﻭ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻴﻤﺩﻨﻰ ﺩﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻘﻭﺘﻪ ﻝﻴﺤﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﺤﻴﻁﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﻔﺭﺡ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺤﻀﻭﺭﻩ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻯ ﺍﻝﻠﺫﺍﻥ ﺭﺒﺎﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺨﻼﻕ ﺍﻝﺩﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺘﺤﻘﻘـﺕ ﺃﺤﻼﻤـﻰ‬
‫ﻰ ﺃﺘﺸﻜﺭ ﻝﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺃﻝﻘﻰ ﻨﻅﺭﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺎﻀ ‪‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻁﻔﻭﻝﻴﻪ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺒﺸﻜل ﺃﻓﻀل ﻤﻤﺎ ﺤﻠﻤﺕ ﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺸﻬﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﺤﻴـﺎﺓ " ﺤﻜﺎﻴـﺔ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻯ ﻨﻤﻭﺫﺠ ﹰﺎ ﺠﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﻋﻤﻠﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺇﻅﻬﺎﺭ ﺤﺒﻬﻡ ﺒﺸﻜل ﻭﺍﻀﺢ ﻝﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ ﻭﻷﺨﻭﺘﻰ ﻭﻝﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻁﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﻀﻊ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻜﻠﻨﺎ ﻨﺤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﻌﺔ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺼﺤﻭﺍ ﻤﺒﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﺤﺩ ﻝﻨﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ ﻭﻤﺩﺍﺭﺱ ﺍﻷﺤﺩ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻴﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻼﻋﺘﺫﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺇﻻ ﻓـﻰ ﺤﺎﻝـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺽ ﻭﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﺠﺭﺠﺭﻭﻨﻨﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ! ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﺩﺭﺒﻭﻨﻨﺎ ﻭﻴﻌﻠﻤﻭﻨﻨﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻤﻌﺎﻗﺒﺘﻨﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺼﻔﻊ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻨﺘﻤﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺨﻠﻑ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻱ !! ﻝﻡ ﺃﺸﻙ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺒﻬﻡ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻬﻡ ﺍﻻﺘﺠﺎﻫﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ ﻤﺠﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﺩﺭﻴﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﻘﻭﻭﻥ ﺸﻌﻭﺭﻨﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻜﻡ ﺃﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﻜﺒﺭ ﺍﻝـ " ﺨﻤﺴﺔ " ﺃﻁﻔﺎل ﻭﺍﻨﺘﺸﺭﻭﺍ ﻋﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺤﺩﺓ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﻴﻜﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻘﻴﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻘﺭﺏ ﻗﻠﺒـﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﺨـﻼل ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﺒـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻻﺘﺼﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﻬﺎﺘﻔﻴﻪ ﻭﺍﻝﺼﻠﻭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻴﺎ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﻋﻅﻴﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻤﺘﻴﺎﺯ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺠﺯﺀ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﻗﺩ ﺘﻠﻘﻴﺕ " ﻗﺒﻠﺘﻰ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ " ﺤﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺴﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺴﻨﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺜﻨﻴﻥ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺘﻌﻤﻕ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻨﺸﻁﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻨﻭﺍﺩﻯ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺴـﻴﺭ ﻋﻠـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻀﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻼﻗﻰ ﺇﻋﺠﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﺩﻯ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩﻫﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺠﺯﺀﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺸﻠﺔ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺠﺯﺀ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺸﺎﺭﻜﺘﻨﻰ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ " ﻜﻴﻑ ﺍﺼﻨﻊ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﻊ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ " ﻗﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﻘﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭﺩ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻭﻴﻌﻁﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ) ﻴـﻭ ‪( ١٠:١٠‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺸﻭﻗﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺤﻭل ﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻭﻋﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﻠﻤﻬﺎ ﻝﻪ ﻋﻘﺏ ﻗﺭﺍﺭﻯ ﺒﺘﺴﻠﻴﻡ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﺇﻻ ﻤﻨﻁﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻝﻡ‬
‫ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﺨﻠﺹ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺕ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﻋﺠﺒﻨﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺤﺏ ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﻤـﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ‬
‫ﻷﻨﻰ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﻥ ﻤﻤﻠﻴﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺴﺘﻤﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺜل ﻜﻤﺎ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺍﻭﻤﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻥ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺘﻤﺴﻜﺕ ﺒﺎﻫﺘﻤﺎﻤﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺒﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻀﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻫﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺩﺍﻭﻤﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺭﺸﺎﺩﻯ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻜﻥ ﺭﻏﻡ ﺫﻝـﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻁﻔﻴﺔ ﺼﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﺴﻡ‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﺤﺴﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺒﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﺃﺒﻰ ﻭﺃﻤﻰ ﻓ ‪‬‬
‫ﻰ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻴﺘﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺘﺭﻜﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻨﺎﺩ ﺸﺩﻴﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﻨﺢ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤل ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺤﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻓ ‪‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻭﻨﺼﻑ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺸﺒﻊ ﻷﻥ ﺸﺊ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴ‪‬ﻔﻘﺩ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻤﺭﻜﺯ ﻋﻼﻗﺎﺘﻰ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﺘﺨﺫﺕ ﻗﺭﺍﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﻭل ﻜل ﺠﺩﻭل ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺘﻰ ﻝﻠﺭﺏ ﻭﻗﺩ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻕ ﻗﻠﺒﻰ‪ .‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﺠﻴﺏ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻜﺒﺭ ﻤﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻗﺒل ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻁﺒﻊ ﺘﻤﺘﻌﺕ ﺒﺘﻤﻀﻴﺔ ﻭﻗﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺸﺎﺭﻜﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻥ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺘﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﺤﻼﻡ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻫـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻭﺘﻜﻭﻴﻥ ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﻭﻤﻥ ﺜﻡ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺯﻭﺝ ﺒﻴﻥ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﻋﺩﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﻭﺍﺠﻬﺕ ﻋﻼﻗﺎﺕ ﻤ‪‬ﺭﺓ ﻗﺼﺩ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺘﺒﺭﻫﺎ ﻓﻠﻡ ﺘﺒﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻨﺎ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺠ‪‬ﺭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻌﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺨﻁﺎﺀ ﻜﺜﻴـﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻜﺒﺭ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﻭﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻭﻻ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻔﻬﻤﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻨﺼﻑ ﺍﻵﺨـﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﻓـﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺒﻴـﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻰ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻘﺩﺕ ﺍﺠﺘﻤﺎﻋ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺃﻋﻠﻨﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﻥ ﺭﻏﺒﺘﻰ ﺒﺄﻥ ﺃﺠﺩ ﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻘﻭﺩﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻻﺘﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﻝﻜﻰ ﺃﻗﺎﺒﻠﻪ ﺒﺤﺴﺏ ﺘﻭﻗﻴﺘﻪ ﻭﻤﺸﻴﺌﺘﻪ ) ﺃﻤﺜﺎل ‪.( ٩:١٦‬‬
‫ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻨﻤﻭ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻤﻜﺘﻤﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺤﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻏﻠﻕ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺒﻭﺍﺏ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻰ ﻤﻥ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻘـﺎﺒﻼﺕ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺕ ﺘﺨﺭﺠﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻴﻑ ﻭﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺼﺔ ﻝﺤﻀﻭﺭ ﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ ﻤﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺩﺓ ﻜﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺤﻭل ﻭﻻﻴﺘﻰ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻁﻔـﺎل ﻤـﺩﺍﺭﺱ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺤﺩ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺘﺤﻴﺭﺓ ﺒﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﺨﺘﻴﺎﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻔﺼﻭل ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺠل ﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺃﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﻨﺎﺴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﻐﺎﻤﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴـﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﺩﻫﺎ ﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺃﺜﺎﺭﺘﻨﻰ ﻭﺃﺴﻌﺩﺘﻨﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭ ﺒﻘﺼﺩ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻔﺎﺩﺓ ﺒﻤﺠﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﺨﺩﻤﺔ ﻭﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﺠﺩﺩ‪ .‬ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﻤﻤﻥ ﻜـﺎﻨﻭﺍ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺨﻠﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺨﺼﻭﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻱ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺒﺭﺍﺤﺔ ﻋﺠﻴﺒﺔ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺄﺨﺭﻯ ﻝﻘﺩ ﺸﻌﺭﻨﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﻭﺍﺼل ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻜﺄﻥ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻁﻭل‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺠﻰ‪ .‬ﻋﺭﻓﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺤﻤﻴﻤﺔ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺒﺄﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺒﻴﺩﻯ ﺃﻯ ﺃﻤﺎل ﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻭﺭﻓﻀﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻀﻊ ﻴﺩﻯ ﺃﻭ ﺭﺃﺴﻰ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺃﻗﻔﺯ ﻗﺒل ﺘﻭﻗﻴﺕ ﺍﷲ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻭﺍﺜﻘﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺴﻴﺒﻨﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻩ ﻤﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﻤﺘﻰ ﻴﺤﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ) ﻤﺯ ‪.( ١:١٢٧‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺼﺩﺍﻗﺔ ﺍﺴﺘﻤﺭﺕ ﻭﻨﻤﺕ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ " ﻤﺨﻠﻭﻗﺎﻥ ﻝﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ " ‪ ..‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺴﺒﻌﺔ ﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻨﺎ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻭﺘﺯﻭﺠﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻜﻡ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻷﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺼﺭﺡ ﻷﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺒﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻤﻨﺎﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﷲ ﺃﻝﺘﻘﻁ ﻝﻰ ﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻗل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻭﻯ ﺒل ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻔﻌـل‬
‫ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻤﺎ ﻨﻔﺘﻜﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺩﺍﺌﻤــ ﹰﺎ ﻤــﺎ ﻴﻘــﻭل ﺍﻝﻨــﺎﺱ ﺃﻨﻨــﻰ " ﺨﻴﺎﻝﻴــﺔ ﻤﻔﻜــﺭﺓ ﻭﻜﺜﻴــﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﺤــﻼﻡ " ﻜــل ﻤــﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﻓــﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺤﻴــﺎﺘﻰ‬
‫" ﺤﻜﺎﻴﺔ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ " ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺤﻠﻤﺕ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺘﺤﻘﻘﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻷﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﻷﻭﻻﺩﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺸﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻴﺎ ﺃﻤﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺸﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻴﺎ ﺃﺒﻰ ﻷﻨﻜﻤﺎ ﺭﺒﻴﺘﻤﺎﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻀﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ ﺒﻀﻭﺍﺒﻁ ﺃﻫﻠﺘﻨﻰ ﻝﻠﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻤﺄﺴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﺊ ﺒﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺫﻜﺭﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﺯﻴﻨﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﺴﻔﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺍﺘﺨﺫﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ "‬
‫ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻨﻤﻭﻯ " ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺸﺭﻴﻨﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﻭﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻻﺜﻨﻰ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻋﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺭﻭﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺴﺄﻓﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺩﺕ ﻭﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺨﻁﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺴﺎﻫﺎ ﻫﻰ ﻤﻭﺍﻋـﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﺭﺒﻴﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺴﺭﺓ ﻤﺤﺎﻓﻅﺔ ﺤﺎﺯﻤﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺒﻭﻴﻥ ﺼﺎﻝﺤﻴﻥ ﻜﺎﻨﺎ ﻨﻤﻭﺫﺠ ﹰﺎ ﺠﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﻝﻜﻨﻬﻡ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﻠﻤﺎﻨﻨﻰ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ " ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻝﻭﻤﻬﻡ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺠل ﻤﺸﺎﻜﻠﻰ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺘﻠﻘﻴﺕ ﻤﻌﻠﻭﻤﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻭﻤﻥ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺭﺒﻴﻥ ‪." ..‬‬
‫ﺘﻭﺭﻁﻰ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻀﺤﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺩﺱ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺘﻨﺎ ـ ﺸﻠﺘﻨﺎ ـ‬
‫ﻗﺩ ﺘﺒﻌﺜﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻏﺭﻑ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻵﻥ ﻗﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﺒﻨﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ " ﻤﻐﻠﻘﺔ ﻝﻠﺘﺤﺴﻴﻨﺎﺕ "‪ .‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺘﻨﺎ ﻝﻡ ﻴ‪‬ﻘﺒل‬
‫ﺃﺤﺩﹰﺍ ـ ﻤﺎﻋﺩﺍ ﺍﻝﺨﺠﻭﻝﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻘﺩ ﺴﻤﻌﻨﺎ ﻋﻥ ﻝﻌﺒﺔ ﻤﻤﺘﻌﻪ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﺘﻴﻨﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﺴﻤﻬﺎ " ﺃﺴﻜﺏ ﺍﻝﺯﺠﺎﺠﺔ " ﻭﻗﺩ ﻋﻠﻤﻨﺎ ﺇﻴﺎﻫﺎ ﺸﺎﺏ ﻤﻥ ﻁﻼﺏ‬
‫ﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﺠﺎﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻤﻥ!! ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻨﺎ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻨﻔﻌل ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﺠﺎﺠﺔ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻨﺎ ‪ ..‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ !! ﻤﺎ ﻋﺩﺍ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﻘﻁ ﻋﻠ ‪‬‬
‫ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻫل ﺃﻀﺤﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻗﹸﺒل ﻤﻥ ﻴﺠﻠﺱ ﺒﺠﻭﺍﺭﻯ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺒﻜﻰ ﺃﻡ ﺃﻓﺘﺢ ﻋﻴﻨﻰ ﺃﻡ ﺃﻏﻠﻘﻬﺎ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺘﺠﻌﺩ ﺭﻤﻭﺸﻰ ﺃﻡ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻓﺼﺎﻋﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺘﻌﺎﻤل ﺠﺴﺩﻯ ﻤﻊ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺸـﺊ ﻓـﻰ ﻏﺎﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻭﺭﺓ ـ ﻤﺜل ﺘﻘﺒﻴل ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻼﻝﻡ ـ ﻭﺍﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺎﻝﺞ ﺒﻌﻨﺎﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺤﺒﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺍﺴﻤﻬﺎ " ﻨﺎﻨﺴﻰ "‪،‬‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﺤﻴﻨﺫﺍﻙ ﺃﻯ ﺘﺼﻭﺭ ﻋﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﺒﻌﺩ ﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﺘﻘﺭﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺠﺴﺩﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻗﺩ ﻗﻁﻌﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻬﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻨﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ " ﻻ ﻨﺨﻭﺽ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ " ﻝﻜﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﻔﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﺒﺎﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ ﺃﻭﻗﻌﺘﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺫﺍﺕ ﺜـﻼﺙ‬
‫ﺍﺘﺠﺎﻫﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻭل ﺸﺊ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺨﺭﺝ ﻝﻠﻨﺯﻫﺔ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﻨﺒﻁﺊ ﻭﻨﺒﺩﺃ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺠﺩﻴـﺩﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻝﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺤﻴﺙ ﻨﺒﺩﺃ ﻭﻨﻌﻭﺩ ﺃﺩﺭﺍﺠﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺜﺎﻨﻰ ﺸﺊ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﺤﺼﺩﻨﺎ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻤﺴﻜﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻔﺴﻨﺎ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻌﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺫﻫﺏ ﻝﺒﻌﻴﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﻴﻬﺏ ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻴﻘﻭل ﻝﻰ " ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻀﻁﺭ ﻝﻠﺘﻭﻗﻑ ‪ ..‬ﻻﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻭﻗﻑ "‪ ،‬ﺘﺒﺎﺩﻝﻨﺎ ﺒﻨﺎﺀ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺕ ﻤﺭﻴﻀﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻜل ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻴﺨﺩﻉ ﺍﻵﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺴﻭﺃ ﺍﻝﻜل ﺃﻨﻪ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﺎﻤﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻭﻗﻌﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺏ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﻁﺭﻨﺎ ﺴـﻭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﺃﻭل‬
‫ﻤﺭﺍﺤل ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺒﻴل ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺘﺨﻠﻴﺕ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺤﺒﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻋﺫﺭﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺨﺒﺭﺍﺕ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﻏﻴﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻭل ﺸﺊ ﺼﻤﻤﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺒﻌﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺠﻌﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻓﺭﻴﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺼﺭﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻁل ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻭﻓﻌﻠﻨﺎﻫﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﺍﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻤﺼﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻗﻭﺓ ﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻝﻠﺨﺭﻭﺝ ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻭﻓﻕ ﺃﻭﻀﺎﻉ ﻤﻐﻠﻭﻁﺔ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻋﻥ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸـﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤـﺎ ﻴﻜﺴـﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻘﻭل ﻝﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻨﺘﺯﻭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﺭﻭﺭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺫﻜﺭ ﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺒﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻹﻀﻔﺎﺀ ﻨﻭﻉ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﺤﺘـﺭﺍﻡ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺎﻤﺢ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻗﺩﺕ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﻌﺫﺭﺍﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻴﺎﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻝﺴﺕ ﻤﺠﻨﻭﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺫﻨﺒﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺴﺄﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻜﺎﺫﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻭ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻗل ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻗﺩ ﺠﺭﺤﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺫﺍﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻭﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻜﺘﺸﻔﺕ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻁﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻝﺸﺨﺹ‬
‫ﺃﺴﻤﻪ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻤﺤﺘﺎﺠ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻘﻭﺘﻪ ﻝﻜﻭﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺭﻴﺩﻩ ﺒﺸﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻷﻨﻰ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻨﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻰ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭﺒﻊ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺯﻥ ﻭﺍﻷﺴﻑ ﺍﻝﺸﺩﻴﺩ ﻷﻨﻰ ﺩﻓﻌﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻓﻔﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻻ ﻴﻤﺭ ﻋﻠ ‪‬‬
‫ﺍﻻﻨﺤﺩﺍﺭ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﺃﻨﺎﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻨﺴﻴﻨﻰ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻜﻴﻑ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺤل ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ " ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ " ﻭﻜﻠﻤـﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺘﻪ ﻭﻭﺜﻘﺕ ﺒﻪ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺍ ًﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﺏ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻭﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺃﻨﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻻ ﺘﺤﻁﻡ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻭﺏ ﻭﻻ ﺍﻝﻘﻴﻡ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻨﺠﺤﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘـﺔ‬
‫ﻤﻌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻﺯﻝﺕ ﺃﻨﻤﻭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺸﺨﺼﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺅﻤﻥ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻨﺠﺢ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻴﺸﺘﺎﻕ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻤﻨﺢ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺘﻤﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤل‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻝﺴﻨﻴﻥ ﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﻥ ﻭﺜﻘﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻭﺴﻠﻤﺘﻪ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺤﻁﻡ ﺃﻯ ﻗﻭﺍﻋﺩ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻭﻉ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺤﺭﹰﺍ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺠﺎﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺒﻭﺩﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻭﺍﻁﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺤﺭﹰﺍ ﻷﻋﻴﺵ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻷﺨﻼﻗﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﺌﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻅﻴﻤ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻗﻭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻵﻥ ﺘﻌﺎﻤل ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺒﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﺨﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺒﻨﺘﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺎﻤل ﺒﻬﺎ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﺨﺘﺒﺭ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺴﻌﺩ ﻭﺃﻤﺘﻊ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ !!‬

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‫ﻜﻡ ﻤﺭﺓ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺼﺒﺕ ﺒﺎﻻﻨﻬﻴﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﺼﺒﻰ ؟! ﺃﻥ ﺠﻤﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻭﺍﺠﻬﺘﻬﺎ ﺨﻼل ﺍﻝﺜﻼﺙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻤﺱ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺴﺒﺒﺕ ﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﻐﻁ ﺍﻝﻌﺼﺒﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﻘﺭﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺕ ﺒﺎﻻﻀﻁﺭﺍﺏ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋـﻴﺵ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺯﻴﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل‪ .‬ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﺭﺠﻊ ﺒﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻑ‪ ،‬ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻁﺎﻝﺒﺔ ﻤﺴﺘﺠﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻤﻴﺯ ﺒﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻗﻴﺎﺩﻴﺔ ﻤﺭﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻰ ﺸﻌﺒﻴﺔ ﻭﺤﺴﻨﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﻅﺭ ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻨﺸﻴﻁﺔ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﻝﻴﺱ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ ؟! ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺸﻬﺭﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺘﻰ ﻝﻬـﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸـﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻜﻨﻴﺴﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﻻﻋﺏ ﻜﺭﺓ ﺃﺴﻤﻪ " ﺠﻭﻥ " ‪ ..‬ﻜل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﺠﻤﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺤﺎﻤل‪ .‬ﺍﻵﻥ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ !! " ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ "‪ .‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ﻝﻜﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻜـﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤل !! ﺃﻗﺘﺭﺡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺩﻯ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺠﺭﻯ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺇﺠﻬﺎﺽ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻀﺩ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻝﻜﻥ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ﻋﻤﻕ ﺍﻝﺠﺭﺡ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﺒﺒﺘﻪ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻭﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺒﻌﺩﺘﻬﻡ ﻋﻨﻰ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺨﺠل ﻭﺍﻝﻌﺎﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺠﻬﻬﻡ‪ .‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﻓـﻰ ﺃﺠـﺭﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻹﺠﻬﺎﺽ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺴﺄﺤل ﺠﺎﻨﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﻴﺴﻭﺀ ﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺴﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻅﻬﺭ ﺤﻤﻠﻰ ﻭﻋﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺼﻌﺒﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻝﻠﻐﺎﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﺍﺠﻪ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻫﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﻭﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ !!‬
‫ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺘﺹ ﺒﺄﺠﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻀﺩ ﺃﺤﻼﻡ " ﺠﻭﻥ " ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﺯﻭﺠﻨﻰ ﻭﻋﻨـﺩﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻋﺩﺕ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﺭﺠﻊ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺴﺎﺒﻕ ﻋﻬﺩﻫﺎ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺘﺴﻭﻴﺔ ﻤﺅﻗﺘﺔ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺠﺭﺤﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﻼ ﻤﺜل ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺨﻠﻊ ﺃﺤﺩ ﺃﺴﻨﺎﻨﻙ ﻋﻨﺩ ﻁﺒﻴﺏ ﺍﻷﺴﻨﺎﻥ ؟! ﻻ ﺘﻨﺨـﺩﻋﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘـﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻭﻝﻬﻡ ‪ ..‬ﻫل ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺇﺠﺭﺍﺀ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻹﺠﻬﺎﺽ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺴﻬ ﹰ‬
‫ﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻀﻐﻁ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻰ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﻭﺼﻔﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺴﺘﻤﺭﺭﻨﺎ ﻨﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭ " ﺠﻭﻥ " ﻭﻓﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﻤﻨﺎ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﺨﹸﻁﺒﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺘﺨﺭﺠﻨﺎ ﺒﻌﺎﻡ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﺘﺯﻭﺠﻨـﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒـﺩﺃﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻨﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﻨﺤﻭ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺃﻜﺒﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﻀﻰ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ !! ﺸﻰﺀ‪ ‬ﺠﺩﻴﺩ ﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﻨﻬﺎﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝـﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘـﺩ‬
‫ﺘﻌﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﻏﺴﻴل ﺍﻷﻁﺒﺎﻕ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻼﺒﺱ ﻭﺃﻋﻤﺎل ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻋﺎﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻤل ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺯﻤﻼﺌﻰ ﻴﻘﻭﻤﻭﻥ ﺒﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻗﻭﻡ ﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻏﻠﺒﻬﻡ‬
‫ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠﻴﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل ﻴﺴﺘﺭﻴﺤﻭﻥ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻌﻤل ﻤﺭﺘﻴﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺜﻼﺜﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻓﺘﻘﺩﻫﺎ‬
‫‪ ..‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﺯﻭﺠﺕ ؟ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺼﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻓﻌل ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﻭﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﺨﺎﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺤﺭﺓ !!‬
‫ﻭﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻷﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﺴﻑ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺁﻝﻤﻨﻰ‪ .‬ﻫل ﻗﺒﻠﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺯﻭﺝ " ﺠﻭﻥ " ﻝﻜﻰ ﺃﻫﺭﺏ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺫﻨﺏ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻹﺠﻬﺎﺽ؟ ﻫل ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل ﺠﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﻤﺩﻴﻭﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ؟ ﻨﻌﻡ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﺤﺒﻪ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻴﻨﺒﻐﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺯﻭﺠﻨﺎ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺭﺃﻯ ﻤﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻤﺸﺒﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻌﻭﺍﻁﻔﻰ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻤﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﻁﻡ ﻜﺒﺭﻴﺎﺌﻪ ﻭﺤﺒﻪ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗﻴﻡ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺭﺠ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﺃﻁﻠﺏ ﻤﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻁﻼﻕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺭﻫﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺴﺒﺒﺘﻪ ﻝﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﺘﺯﻭﺠﺘﻪ ﻷﺨﻔﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺼﺎﺒﻨﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻹﺠﻬﺎﺽ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺃﺅﺫﻯ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‬
‫ﻯ ﻭﻫﻡ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻭﻨﻨﻰ ﻜﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﻝﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒـﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘـﺔ ﻋﻨـﺩﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻻ ﺃﻫﺘﻡ ﺴﻭﻯ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻰ‪ .‬ﺘﻌﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻭﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﻗﺩﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪.‬‬

‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﻪ ﻭﻤﻁﻠﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﻤﺎﻥ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻴﻬﻤﺎ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻗﺼﺔ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﺒﻜل ﺸﺊ ﺍﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺸﺭﺡ ﻝﻙ ﻜل ﺍﻝﻌﻭﺍﻁﻑ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺴﺄﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ‬
‫ﺘﺴﻴﺭ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻙ ﺒﻘﺩﺭ ﺍﻹﻤﻜﺎﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﺒﻌﺩ ﻁﻼﻗﻰ ﺍﻨﻔﺭﺩﺕ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺸﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﺄﺱ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺸﻜل ﻤﺅﺴﻑ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﻁﺌﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻓﻜـل‬
‫ﺇﺠﺎﺯﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻗﻀﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻨﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻰ ﺼﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﺩﻴﺴﻜﻭ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﻼﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻗﻭل ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ " ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠـﺔ ﺭﺒﻤـﺎ‬
‫ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻴﺸﻌﺭﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ " ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﺤﺭﻓﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻴﺎل‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﻼﻫﻰ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺸـﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻭﺤـﺩﺓ ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻌﺯﻴﻤـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻁﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺩﻭﻨﻴﺔ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺨﻤﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﻰﺀ ﻝﻜﻨﻬﻡ ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺠﺩﻭﻩ ﻤﺜﻠﻰ‪.‬‬

‫ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺸﺭﺏ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﻤﺎﻝﺔ ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﺤﻅﻰ ﺒﻭﻗﺕ ﺠﻴﺩ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻗﻤﺔ ﻤﺘﻌﺘﻰ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺴﻴﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻨﺴﻴﺎﻥ ﺤﺯﻨﻰ ﻭ ﺍﻵﻤـﻰ ﻝﺒﺭﻫـﺔ‬
‫ﻗﺼﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺩﻭﺍﻡ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺍﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻀﻴﻕ ﻭﺃﺘﻌﺠﺏ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ؟! ﻭﺘﺩﺭﻴﺠﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﺒﺘﻌﺩ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﻝﻡ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺩ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ ﺒﻬﻡ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﻬﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل‪ .‬ﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻜﺫﺒﻭﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﺃﻯ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸـﺎﺏ‪،‬‬

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‫ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺇﻥ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﺩﺍﻭﻤﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺨﺫ ﺍﻝﺤﺒﻭﺏ ﻭﺇﻻ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺴﺄﺼﺒﺢ ﺤﺎﻤل‪ .‬ﻻ ﻝﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﺤﺎﻤـل‬
‫ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺸﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﺎﻫﺭﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ؟ ﻫل ﺃﻜﺭﻩ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺤﺩ ؟! ﻨﻌﻡ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺩﺨﻥ ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﻭﻨﺼﻑ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨـﺩﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﻝﻠﻤﻨﺯل ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻌﻤل ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺭﺘﻤﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺍﺵ ﻭﺃﻨﺎﻡ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻴﻘﺎﻅ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﻝﻠﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺠﺩﻴﺩ‪ .‬ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻨـﻰ ﻜﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﻏﺎﺭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﻌﺩﻡ ﺍﺴﺘﺤﻘﺎﻕ ﻋﻤﻴﻕ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻠﻔﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻝـﻡ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻜـﺎﻥ ﻻﺯﺍل ﻴﺤﺒﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﻭﻴﺭﻴﺩﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻰ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺒﺨﻁﻴﺌﺘﻰ ﻭﺒﻜل ﺸﺊ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻓﻬﻤﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻝﻠﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﻴﺸﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻝﻌﺠﻠﺔ ﺘﺩﻭﺭ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﻋﺎﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻨﺠﺯ ﺸﻴﺌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻴﻥ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ؟! ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺭﻙ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻠﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ‪ !! ٥ ١٨٠‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻷﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﻭﻅﻴﻔﺘـﻰ ﺒـﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻯ‬
‫ﻤﻘﺩﻤﺎﺕ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺴﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺸﺊ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻝﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﻨﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻠﻙ ﻫﻰ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻩ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﻤﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺭﺃﻯ ﻅﺭﻭﻓـﻰ ﻭﻤـﺎ ﻴﺤﻴﻁﻨـﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﺴﺕ ﻗﻭﻴﺔ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻷﺘﺭﻜﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺠﺎﻨﺒﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺭﺠﻌﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻨﺯل ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﺤﻴﺙ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻨﺘﻅﺭﻨﻰ ﻭﻅﻴﻔﺔ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪،‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻭﺴﻁ ﻋﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﻭﺃﻨﺎﺱ ﻴﺤﺒﻭﻨﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﻬﺘﻤﻭﻥ ﺒﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎﺱ ﺴﺎﻋﺩﻭﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻀﻊ ﻗﺩﻤﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻤﻥ ﺠﺩﻴﺩ‪.‬‬

‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺴﺘﺩﻤﺭﻨﻰ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻋﻠﻡ ﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ﺍﻝﻀﻌﻑ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﺃﻤﺜﻠﺔ ﻫﺎﻤﺔ ﻝـﻙ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺸﺎﺭﻜﺘﻙ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻭﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻬل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺭﻓﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﺠﻠﺒﺕ ﻝﻰ ﻋﺩﻡ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﻴﺄﺱ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺯﺠﺎﺠـﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺨﻤـﺭ ﻝـﻡ‬
‫ﻴﺸﺒﻌﺎﻨﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﺓ ﻝﻠﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﻜل ﺃﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﻝﻠﻤﻼﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﻴﺔ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﺴﺎﻫﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺤل ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺯﺯ ﻭﺃﺤﺒﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﻜل ﻫﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤل‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺼﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﻫﻭ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻗﺩ ﻏﻔﺭ ﻝﻰ ﻗﺒﺎﺤﺘﻰ ﻭﻤﺎﻀ ‪‬‬
‫ﻓﺄﻨﻪ ﻴﻘﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ! ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻤﺎﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺘﺠﻠﻰ ﺤﺒﻪ ﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺭﻓﻊ ﺇﻁﺎﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻯ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺘﻌﻴﺴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺨـﺫ ﻫـﺫﻩ‬

‫ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻭﻷﻭل ﻤﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻨﺤﺩﺭ ﺃﻭ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﻰ ﻭﺤﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﺘﺭﻜﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻜﻠﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻴﺩﻴﻪ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﺘﻨﻰ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺘﻔﺎﺼﻴﻠﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﺴﺒﺢ ﺃﺴﻤﻪ ﻭﺃﺤﻤـﺩﻩ ﻷﻨـﻪ ﺃﺤﺒﻨـﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﺴﺎﻤﺤﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ !!‬

‫•   ‪ " ..‬ا ل " ‪..‬‬

‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻭﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺫﻜﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﻰ ﺸﻌﺭ ﻁﻭﻴل ﺃﺴﻭﺩ ﻭﻋﻴﻨﻴﻥ ﺒﻨﻴﺘﻴﻥ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺘﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻤﻰ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺘﺤﺭﺹ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺸﻌﺭﻯ ﻭﻤﻼﺒﺴﻰ ﻤﻬﻨﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺠﻤﻴﻼﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺠﺫﺏ ﺍﻨﺘﺒﺎﻩ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻰ ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﺒﺭﺕ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ‬
‫ﻜﻡ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻴﻨﺒﻬﺭ ﺒﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﺼﻠﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﺘﻌﺘﻤﺩ ﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻅﻬﺭﻫﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﻜﺴﺏ ﺍﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﻨﻔﺱ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺤﺭﺹ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻅﻬﺭ ﺒﻤﻼﺒﺱ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ـ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺸﻴﺌﺎﹰ ﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ـ ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻀﻊ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺎﺤﻴﻕ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻭﺃﺸﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﻷﺠﺫﺏ ﻝﻰ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺒﺎﻩ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺒـﺩﻭ ﻭﻜـﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﺎﻤﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻜﻭﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺜﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺤﺩﺙ ﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻡ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻤﻌﺭﻭﻓﺔ ﻀﻤﻥ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ " ‪ Boy Crazy‬ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺎﻨﻴﻥ "‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ‬
‫ﻝﻰ ﺁﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻫﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻴﺘﺤﺩﺜﻭﻥ ﻤﻌﻰ ﻭﻋﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻗﺎﺕ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺼل‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺠﻤﻌﺔ ﻭﺴﺒﺕ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺸﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻴﺼﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﻔل‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻫﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺤﻁ ﺇﻋﺠﺎﺏ ﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﺒﻰ ﻭﺃﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﺫﺍﻥ ﺘﻌﻭﺩﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭﻻ ﻝﻰ‬
‫ﻻ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﻔﺭﻁ ﺒﺎﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻴﻜﻠﻤﻭﻨﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻌﻠﻡ " ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻷﺒﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺘﻐل ﻭﻗﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻤﻭﺭ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺒﺩ ﹰ‬
‫؟ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻯ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻊ ﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﻘﺘﻨﻌﺔ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻰ ﺩﺍﺌﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺒﺴـﻬﻭﻝﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻨﺒـﺄ ﺒﺒﻘﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﺜﺎﺒﺘﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﺤﺭﺼﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻰ ﺼﺩﻴﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻜل ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻓﻌل ﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﻴﻨﺠﺫﺏ ﺇﻝ ‪‬‬
‫ﻗﺼﺘﻰ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻯ ﻭﻜﻨﻴﺴﺘﻰ ﻭﻜﺘﺎﺒﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺴﻤﻊ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﹰﺍ ﻴﻘﻭل " ﺍﻨﺘﻅﺭﻯ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺯﻭﺠﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺠﻌـل‬
‫ﻭﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻯ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻯ ﻁﺎﻋﻨﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺕ ﻜﻨﻴﺴﺘﻰ ﻤﻨﻘﻁﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺼﻠﺔ ﺒﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻏﺎﻤﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻙ ﻤﺘﻤﻴﺯﹰﺍ " ﻝﻜﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﺏ ‪ ..‬ﻋﺒـ ِﺭ ﻋـﻥ‬
‫ﻝﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﻜل ﻋﺭﻭﺽ " ‪ " T.V‬ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﺎﻫﺩﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﻨﺠﻡ ﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎﺌﻰ ﺭﺃﻴﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﻤﺠﻠﺔ ﻗﺭﺃﺘﻬﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﺃﺫﻫ ِ‬
‫ﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ !! "‪.‬‬
‫ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻼ ﺒﺄﺱ ﺇﻥ ﺸﻌﺭ ِ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﻐﻁ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﻪ ﻫﻭ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺴ‪‬ﻌﺩ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﺒﺄﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻨﺯﻝﺔ !! ﻭﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻓﻌل ﻤﺎ ﻴﻁﻠﺏ‬
‫ﻻ ﻤﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﺒﻬﺫﺍ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل ! ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل ! ﺍﻝﻘﺒﻭل !! ﻻ ﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻘﺒﻭﻝﺔ‪ .‬ﻜـﻡ ﻜﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻴﺘﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺏ ﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻗﺒﻭ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﺨﺸﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺭﻓﻭﻀﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﻜل ﺃﻤﻭﺭﻯ ﺘﻨﺤﺩﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺴﻔل‪.‬‬
‫ﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﺼﻠﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺃﻗﺭﺍﻨﻰ " ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﻴﺔ " ﻤﻥ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻋﻁﺎﻫﺎ ﻝﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻬﺘﻤﺔ ﺒﺄﻥ ﺃﺸﺒﻊ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺊ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻡ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ " ﻭﻝﺩ " ﻓﻰ ﻤﻜﺘﺏ ﺍﺘﺤﺎﺩ ﺍﻝﻁﻼﺏ ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺠﺫﺍﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺫﺍ ﺸﺨﺼـﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﺭﺏ ﻭﺃﻝﻌﺏ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻁﻭﺍل ﺍﻝﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻴﺔ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ " ﺃﺨﻭﺽ ﻜل ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻕ " ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺃﺤـﺏ "‬
‫ﺠﻴﻡ " ﻭﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺤﺒﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﺸﺭﺒﻨﺎ ﻤﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺨﻨﺎ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻌﺽ ﻋﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﺒﻎ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻠﻭﻁ ﻭﺘﻭﺭﻁﻨﺎ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﺭﻜﺘﻪ ﻴﺤﻁﻡ ﻤﺒﺎﺩﺌﻰ ؟! ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﻔﻘﺩ ﺍﻻﺤﺘﺭﺍﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﺒﺎﻷﺨﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺘﺤﻭﻝﺕ‬
‫ﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ " ﺠﻭﻥ " ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻑ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﺤﺘﺭﻤﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺭﺍﻋﻰ ﺸﻌﻭﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻷﻫﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻰ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﻁﻠﻕ "‬
‫ﺠﻭﻥ " ﻋﻠﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ " ﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ " ﻭﻋﺎﺵ ﺒﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻤﺎ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺒﻌﺔ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﺩﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﺸﺭﺡ ﻝﻰ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﻠﺹ ﺒﺒﺴﺎﻁﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻹﻴﻤﺎﻥ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻭﻗﻔ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﻠـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺼﺎﻝﺤﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﻤﻥ ………… ‪ ………… ، ………… ،‬ﻷﻨﻪ ﻋﻼﻗـﺔ ﺸـﺭﻜﺔ‬
‫ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ‪ .‬ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﻼ ﺼﻔﺤﺎﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﻥ ﻗﺒﻠﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻝﻴﺴﻜﻥ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭل ﺃﻨﻪ ﻗﺩ ﻏﻔﺭ ﻝﻰ ﻓﻬﺫﻩ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﻤﺸﺎﻜﻠﻰ ﺤ‪‬ﻠﺕ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺨﺩﻋﻙ‪..‬‬
‫ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺄﺨﺫ ﻜل ﻝﺫﺓ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ـ ﺒﻌﻴﺩ ﻋﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﻩ ﺍﷲ ـ ﻭﻜل ﺨﺒﺭﺓ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺸﺭﻭﻋﺔ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺘﻀﻌﻬﻡ ﻤﻌـﺎﹰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻯ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺒﻜﻴﺕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸـﻌﺭ ﺒـﻪ‪ .‬ﻓﺘﻴـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺠﺯﺀ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﻨﻜﺴﺎﺭ ﻭﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻷﻤل ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﺃﺨﺭﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻬﻥ ﺸﻌﺭﻥ ﺒﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺘﻘﺭﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺠﻌﻠﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﻏﻔﺭﺍﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻤﺤﺒﺘﻪ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺭﻭﻁﺔ ﺸﻔﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺒﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺒﺩﻭﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﺴﺘﺤﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩﺓ ﻵﻥ ﺃﻗﺎﺒل ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻴﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﺴﺏ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺨﻔﻰ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺠﺎﺫﺒﻴﺔ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺨﺎﺭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺘﻤل ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻝﻔﻘﺩﺍﻥ ﻤﺸـﺎﻋﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺩﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻁﻔﻭﻝﺘﻬﺎ ـ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻻ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﺎﻝﺞ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻬﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﻤﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﻭل ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ " ﺍﻝﻭﻝﺩ " ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻋﻠﻤﻬﺎ ﺸـﺭﺏ‬
‫ل ﻝﻡ ﺘﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﺄﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺃﺨﺫ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺘﻤﻴﺯ ﺒﻪ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻜﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺒﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺜل ﺒﺎﻗﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﻋﺎ ً‬
‫ﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﻭﻗﺎﻝﺕ " ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ؟! ﻝﻘﺩ ﻨﺴﻴﺕ ﻜل ﺸﺊ " ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﺃﻤﻭﺭ ﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﺼﻴﺒﺕ ﺒﺴـﻭﺀ‬
‫ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﻝ ‪‬‬
‫ﻜﺜﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻴﻜﻔﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻤل‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻝﻠﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﺒﻴـﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺴـﻜﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻭﻴﺴـﻜﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺸـﻴﺵ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﻜﻭﻜﺎﻴﻴﻥ … ﺇﻝﺦ …‬
‫ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻋﺎﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺤﺫﺭ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻨﺤﻁﻡ ﻋﻘﻭﻝﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺠﺴﺎﺩﻨﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺸﺭﻭﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺄﻨﻭﺍﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﻘﻠﺏ ﻗﻴﻡ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻨﺎ ﺭﺃﺴ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻘﺏ‪ .‬ﺘﺨﻴل ﺃﻨﻙ ﻋﺎﺌﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ " ﺭﺤﻠﺔ " ﻭﻗﺩ ﺼﺤﻭﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻭﻡ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻜﺭ ﻭﻭﺠﺩﺕ‬
‫ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻤﺩﻤﻨﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻤﻜﺒل ﺒﺫﻜﺭﻴﺎﺕ ﻤﺅﻝﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺎﻁﻔﺘﻙ ﻤﺜﻘﻠﺔ ﺒﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﻗﺎﺴﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻭﻫﻡ ﻴﺒﺩﺀﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﻨﻔﺎﺫ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺒﺩﺀﻭﺍ ﻴﺸﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﻼﺕ‬
‫ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﻐﻴﺭﻭﺍ ﺒﺒﻁ‪ ،‬ﺘﻐﻴﺭﺕ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﻭﺒﺩﺀﻭﺍ ﻴﺘﺨﺫﻭﻥ ﻗﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺴﻴﺌﺔ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﻴﺘﻤﻨﻭﻥ ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﻗـﺩ‬
‫ﺒﺩﺀﻭﺍ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺩﺨﻴﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺭﺏ‪ .‬ﺘﺤﺼﻴﻠﻬﻡ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﻰ ﻜﺎﻥ " ﺼﻔﺭﹰﺍ "‪ ،‬ﻭﺨﺴﺎﺭﺘﻬﻡ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺒﺩﺍ ﻝﻬﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﺭﻭﺭﻯ ﻝﻜﻰ‬
‫ﻴﺼﻠﻭﺍ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻰ " ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺼﺭﻴﺤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺴﻜﺭﺍﺕ ؟ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺴﺘﻌﻴﻥ ﺒﺄﺨﺼﺎﺌﻴﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ‬

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‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺎل ﻷﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﺴﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺯﻥ ﺍﻝﻠﺫﺍﻥ ﺃﺼﺎﺒﺎ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻬﻡ ﺠﻌﻼﻨﻰ ﺃﻫﺘﻡ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﻭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺍﺘﺨﺫ ﻋﻨﺩﻯ ﺸﻜ ﹰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻨﺎﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻗﺎل ﺍﻷﺴﺘﺎﺫ " ﻤﻭﺭﻴﺱ ﺃ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻓﻴﺘﺯ " ﻤﺩﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻬﺩ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﻤﻰ ﻝﻌﻼﺝ ﻤﺩﻤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ‪:‬‬
‫"ﻭﻤﻬﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎﻴﻴﺱ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻘﻴﻡ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺃﻋﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺎﻁﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﻔﺎﻕ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻝﺩﻭﻻﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺭﺽ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻭﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺩﻤﺎﺭ ﻝﻜل‬
‫ﻭﻤﻀﻪ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻨﺠﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭل ﻴﺄﺨﺫ ﺭﻗﻡ )‪."(١‬‬
‫ﻗﺎل ﺍﻝﺩﻜﺘﻭﺭ " ﺭﻭﺱ ﻓﻴﺵ ﻤﺎﻥ " ﻤﺩﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﻠﻴﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺩﺭﻴﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺒﻊ ﻝﻠﻤﺠﻠﺱ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﻤﻰ ﻝﻤﻜﺎﻓﺤﺔ ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻴﻭﻴﻭﺭﻙ‪:‬‬
‫" ﻨﺤﻥ ﻨﺭﻯ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﺩ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﺭﻫﻡ ﻏﺎﺭﻗﻴﻥ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ " ﻭﻗﺎل ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ " ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋـﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻗﺭﺍﻥ ـ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻋﻤﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻘﺎﺭﺒﺔ ـ ﺘﻠﺢ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻷﺤﺎﺴﻴﺱ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺘﺘﺼﺎﺩﻡ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻴﻨﺸﺄ ﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻘﻠﻕ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻴﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻬﺭﺒﻭﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺭ ﺇﻥ ﻨﻘﻠﻭﺍ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺴﻠﻭﻙ ﺒﺘﻤﺎﻤﻪ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﺤﻴـﺎﺘﻬﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺇﻝﻴﻙ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎل ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺍﻗﺘﺒﺴﺘﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﺠﺭﺍﺌﺩ ﺍﻻﺠﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴﺔ‬

‫‪"<l^éÖçvÓÖ]<îßÚ‚Ú<"<Üãé×Â<Ðתè<“~<áçé×Ú<ML‬‬
‫" ﺤﻭﺍﻝﻰ ‪١٠‬ﻤﻠﻴﻭﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻠﻘﻰ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻠﻭﻡ ﻓﻰ ﻭﻓﺎﻩ ‪٢٠٥‬‬
‫ﺃﻝﻑ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻜل ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﻗﺭﺭﻩ ﻤﻜﺘﺏ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﻔﻴﺩﺭﺍﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﻀﺎﻑ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺘﺏ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻠﻭﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻘﻴﻤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺎل ﺤﻴﺙ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻠﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺕ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺽ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﻭﺍﺩﺙ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﻨﻑ ﻴﺤﺘل ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺘﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻝﺴﺘﺔ ﺇﺤﺼﺎﺌﻴﺎﺕ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭل ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺏ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺜﻠﺙ ﺤﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ ﻭﻨﺼﻑ ﺤﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﻘﺘل ﻭﻨﺼﻑ ﺤﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﻭﻓﻴﺎﺕ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺒﺸـﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓـﻭﻕ ﺫﻝـﻙ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭل ﻤﺸﺘﺒﻪ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺒﺄﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻤل ﺍﻷﺴﺎﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺴﺎﺀﺓ ﻤﻌﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﻁﻔل ﻭﻋﻨﻑ ﺍﻷﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺠﺭﺍﺌﻡ ﺍﻻﻏﺘﺼﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭل‬
‫ﻫﻭ ﺜﺎﻝﺙ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺅﺩﻯ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺇﻨﺠﺎﺏ ﺃﻁﻔﺎل ﺫﻭ ﻋﻴﻭﺏ ﺨﻠﻘﻴﺔ ﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﺸﻤل ﺍﻹﻋﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺫﻫﻨﻴﺔ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻏﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﺩﻴﺜﺔ ﺃﺜﺒﺘﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺠﺎﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﻝﻔﺘﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﻴﺵ ﺃﺴﺒﻭﻋﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻴﺩﻤﺭﺍﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺌﺘﻴﻥ ﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻌﺎﺩل ﺍﻝﺘﺄﺜﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺤﺩﺜﻪ‬
‫ﻼ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﻘﻠل ﻤﻥ ﺨﻁﺭ ﺍﻝﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﺩﻭﺭ ﻜﺒﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻹﺼﺎﺒﺔ ﺒﺴﺭﻁﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺌﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺭﻯﺀ‬
‫ﺼﻨﺩﻭﻗ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﻀﻌﻑ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺍﻝﺭﺠﺎل‪ .‬ﻜﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺴﻨﻅل ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻭﻀﻊ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺘﻘﺩ ؟!‬
‫ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﻝﻠﻤﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﻭﺙ ﺍﻝﺠﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﻴﺵ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﻭﻀﻭﺡ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻏﻠﺒﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺤﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺤﻭﺍﻝﻰ ‪ %٩٠‬ﻤﻥ ﻓـﺭﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺙ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻰ ﺘﺘﻔﻕ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻤﺎﺩﺓ )‪ (THC‬ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺠﻭﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺠﺎﺭﺓ ﺘﻤﺜل ﺨﻁﻭﺭﺓ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻹﻀﺎﻓﺔ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﺨﻁﻭﺭﺘﻬـﺎ ﻨﻔﺴـﻴ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺠﺘﻤﺎﻋﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺠﺴﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺭﻭﺤﻴ ﹰﺎ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﺎل ﺃﺤﺩ ﺍﻷﻁﺒﺎﺀ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﺨﺹ ﺍﻷﺘﻰ ﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﻬﺘﻤﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ‪ ..‬ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺘﻜﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﺨﺹ ﺘﺤﺕ ﻋﻨﻭﺍﻥ‪:‬‬
‫"‬ ‫" ‪h^fŽÖ]<æ‚Â‬‬
‫ﺒﻘﻠﻡ‪ :‬ﺃ‪ .‬ﺩ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺭ ﻝﻴﻬﻤﺎﺭﻥ‬
‫ﺨﻼﺼﺔ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ‬
‫ﻤﻊ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺸﺎﺏ‬
‫‪ -١‬ﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﻤﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻴﺒﺩﺀﻭﻥ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺸﻴﺵ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -٢‬ﺍﻻﺴﺘﺨﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻜﺭﺭ ﻴﻨﺘﺞ ﻋﻨﻪ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃ [ ﺘﻭﺍﺒﻊ ﻨﻔﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺠﺴﺩﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺏ[ ﺍﺴﺘﻬﻼﻙ ﺘﺩﺭﻴﺠﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻭﺍﻀﻊ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺝ[ ﺘﺒﻠﺩ ﻭﻏﺒﺎﻭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺩ [ ﻓﻘﺩﺍﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﻔﺱ ﻭﺨﻤﻭل ﻋﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺎﻁﻴﻥ ﻀﺤﺎﻴﺎ ﻝﻸﻤﺭﺍﺽ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻤل ﻝﺸﻔﺎﺌﻬﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻓﻀﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻤﺩﺭﺏ ﻜﺭﺓ ﻗﺩﻡ ﻴﺩﻋﻰ "ﺩﺍﻑ ﺴﻤﻴﺙ" ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻬﺘﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ﺒﺘﺄﺜﻴﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﻀﻴﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻠﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻘﺩ ﺃﺭﺴل ﻝﻜل ﻻﻋﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺩﺭﺒﻪ ﻨﺴﺨﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻤﺠﻠﺱ ﺍﻝﺸﻴﻭﺥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﻴﻜﻰ‬
‫ﻭﻁﺒﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﺸﺒﻜﺔ ﺃﺨﺒﺎﺭ ) ‪ ( NCAA‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺘﺤﺕ ﻋﻨﻭﺍﻥ‪:‬‬
‫" ]‪"<‹ËßÖ]<†Ú‚i<îjÖ]<키‬‬
‫ﺍﺸﺘﺭﻙ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﻋﺎﻝﻡ ﻤﺘﺨﺼﺹ ﺒﺎﻹﻀﺎﻓﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺨﺼﺎﺌﻴﻴﻥ ﻨﻔﺴﺎﻨﻴﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺴﺒﻌﺔ ﺒﻠﺩﺍﻥ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -١‬ﺍﻜﺘﺸﻑ " ﺩ‪ .‬ﻫﺎﺭﻭﻥ ﺏ‪ .‬ﺠﻭﻨﺯ " ﺠﺎﻤﻌﺔ ﻜﺎﻝﻴﻔﻭﺭﻨﻴﺎ ـ ﺒﺭﻜﻠﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻌﻤل ﻤﻊ ‪ ١٦‬ﺃﻝﻑ ﻤﺩﻤﻥ ﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﺎﺌﻕ ﺍﻵﺘﻴﺔ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃ [ ﺍﺼﺒﺢ ﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﺍﻝﺘﺩﻤﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﺒﺎﺌﻰ ﻝﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﻴﺵ ﻤﻘﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﺩﻗﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺏ[ ﻅﻬــﺭ ﺍﻝﺸــﺫﻭﺫ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﻭﻤــﻭﺯﻭﻤﻰ ﺤﺘــﻰ ﻓــﻰ ﺍﻷﺴــﻭﻴﺎﺀ ﻤــﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌــﺎﻁﻴﻥ ﺒــﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺠــﺔ ﺍﻝﺘــﻰ‬
‫ﺴﺒﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻘﻨﺒﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺫﺭﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺝ[ ﺘﺴــﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﺴــﻤﻡ ﻝــﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺍﻜــﺯ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻴﻘــﺔ ﻓــﻰ ﺍﻝﻤــﺦ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺼــﺔ ﺒــﺎﻹﺩﺭﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻷﺠــﺯﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﺘــﻰ‬
‫ﺘﺴﻤﺢ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﻭﺍﺯﻥ ﻭﺍﻹﺩﺭﺍﻙ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤل ﺍﻝﻼﺯﻡ ﻝﻠﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -٢‬ﻭﺠــﺩ " ﺃ‪ .‬ﻨﻴﻠــﺯ ﺒﻴﺠــﺭﻭﺕ " ﻜــﺎﺭ ﻭﻝﻨﺴــﻜﺎ ـ ﺍﺴــﺘﻜﻬﻭﻝﻡ ـ ﺍﻝﺴــﻭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺸــﻴﺵ ﻫــﻭ ﺍﻝﺴــﺒﺏ‬
‫ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻻﺨﺘﻼل ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻰ‪.‬‬
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‫ـﺎﻫﺭﺓ ـ ﻤﺼــ‬
‫ـﺔ ﺍﻝﻘــ‬
‫ـﻨﻔﺱ ﺒﺠﺎﻤﻌــ‬
‫ـﻡ ﺍﻝــ‬
‫ـﻔﺔ ﻭﻋﻠــ‬
‫ـﻡ ﺍﻝﻔﻠﺴــ‬
‫ـﻴﺱ ﻗﺴــ‬
‫ـﻭﻴﻑ " ﺭﺌــ‬
‫ـﺎﺭ " ﺃ‪ .‬ﻡ‪ .‬ﺃ ‪ .‬ﺴــ‬
‫‪ -٣‬ﺃﺸــ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ‪ % ٧٨,٥‬ﻤـــﻥ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻝﻤـــﺩﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﻝـــﺫﻯ ﺩﺭﺱ ﺤـــﺎﻻﺘﻬﻡ ﻭﺭﻏﺒـــﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﻻ ﺘﻭﺠـــﺩ ﻝـــﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﻴـــﻪ‬
‫ﻝﻠﺘﺨﻠﺹ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ـﺎ ـ‬
‫ـﺔ ﻜﺎﻝﻴﻔﻭﺭﻨﻴــ‬
‫ـﺔ ﺒﺠﺎﻤﻌــ‬
‫ـﺭﺍﺽ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻴــ‬
‫ـﺎل ﺍﻷﻤــ‬
‫ـﻰ ﻤﺠــ‬
‫ـﺙ ﻓــ‬
‫ـﻴﻥ " ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺤــ‬
‫ـﺎﺭﻓﻰ ﺒﻭﻝﺴــ‬
‫ـﺎل " ﺃ‪ .‬ﻫــ‬
‫‪ -٤‬ﻗــ‬
‫ﺒﺭﻜﻠــﻰ ﺃﻨــﻪ ﻜــﺎﻥ ﻴﻌﻘــﺩ ﻋــﺩﺓ ﻤﻘــﺎﺒﻼﺕ ﻤــﻊ ‪ ٢٠٠‬ﻁﺎﻝــﺏ ﻜــل ﻋــﺎﻡ ﻝﻤــﺩﺓ ﺴــﺒﻊ ﺴــﻨﻭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗــﺩ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻼﺼﺔ ﺍﻵﺘﻴﺔ‪:‬‬
‫ﻭﻅﺎﺌﻔـﻪ‬ ‫[‬ ‫ﺃ [ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﺍﻡ ﻤﺒﻜﺭ ﻴﺨﺩﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻻﺕ ﻭﻴﻔﻘﺩﻩ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝـﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺏ[ ﺃﻤــﺎ ﻜــل ﺍﻷﺸــﻜﺎل ﺍﻝﺒﻴﻭﻝﻭﺠﻴــﺔ ﻓﻬــﻰ ﺘﺒــﺩﺃ ﻓــﻰ ﺍﻝﺤــﺩﻭﺙ ﺒﻌــﺩ ﺴــﻨﺔ ﺇﻝــﻰ ﺜــﻼﺙ ﺴــﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤــﻥ‬
‫ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺍﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ـﺎﻡ ﻝﻠﺠﺴـــﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ـﻰ ﻤـــﺭﺽ " ﺠﻨـــﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻤـــﺔ "‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻻﺴـــﺘﻬﻼﻙ ﺍﻝﻌــ‬
‫ـﺭﻁ ﻴـــﺅﺩﻯ ﺇﻝــ‬
‫ـﺎﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻔــ‬
‫ﺝ[ ﺍﻝﺘﻌــ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﻭﻅﺎﺌﻑ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﺤﻴل ﺘﻌﻭﻴﻀﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﻋﺩﺓ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻭﺼﻠﺘﻨﻰ ﻤﻘﺎﻝﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻝﻪ ﻤﻜﺎﻨﺘﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺘﻤﻊ‪ ،‬ﺘﻀﻡ ﺨﻼﺼﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﻗﻁﺎﺭ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻋﺒـﺎﻗﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﻋﻠﻤﺎﺀ ﻭﺃﺴﺎﺘﺫﺓ ﺃﻋﺼﺎﺏ ﻭﺃﺨﺼﺎﺌﻴﻴﻥ ﻨﻔﺴﺎﻨﻴﻴﻥ ﻭﺃﻁﺒﺎﺀ ﺒﺸﺭﻴﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻝﻴﻙ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻴل ﻤﻤﺎ ﺃﻜﺘﺸﻑ‪:‬‬
‫ﻭﺠﺩ " ﺩ‪ .‬ﺠﺒﺭﻴل ﻨﺎﻫﺎﺯ " ﺃﻥ ﻤﺎﺩﺓ ) ‪ ( THC‬ﻋﻤﻠﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺨﻔﺽ ﻤﻌﺩل ﺍﻨﻘﺴﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻴﺔ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺇﻨﻘﺎﺹ ﻗﺩﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺨﻼﻴـﺎ ﻋﻠـﻰ‬
‫ﺇﻨﺘﺎﺝ ) ‪ ( RNA ) ، ( DNA‬ﻭﺍﻝﺒﺭﻭﺘﻴﻨﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻀﺭﻭﺭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺨﺼﻭﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ) ‪ ( RNA‬ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘـﻰ ﺘﻜﺴـﺏ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﺤﻴﻭﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺘﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻠﻭﻤﺎﺕ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻋﻤل ﻨﺨﺒﺔ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻠﻤﺎﺀ ﻓﻰ ‪ ١٢‬ﻤﺭﻜﺯ ﻝﻠﺒﺤﻭﺙ ﺍﻝﻬﺎﻤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﻴـﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺤـﺩﺓ ﺍﻷﻤﺭﻴﻜﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺨﺎﺭﺠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎل " ﺩ‪.‬ﻨﺎﻫﺎﺯ "‪:‬‬
‫" ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﻭﺙ ﺃﺜﺒﺘﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﺒﻎ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺘﺩﻤﺭ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻋﻘل ﺃﻭ ﺠﺴﺩ ﺼﺎﺤﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺩﻭﺭﻫﺎ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻤﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﻨـﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﺍﺜﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﻝﻁﻔﻠﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻁﻔﻠﻬﺎ ‪." ..‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻭﺒﻁﺭﻕ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺘﺩﻤﺭ ﻋﻠﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺩﺨﺎﻥ ﺍﻷﺠﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﻤﺎﺩﺓ )‪ ( THC‬ﺘﺅﺜﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻏﺸﺎﺀ " ﺍﻝﻬﻴﺒﻭﺜﻼﻤﻭﺱ " ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺒﺩﻭﺭﺓ ﻴـﺅﺜﺭ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻏﺸﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺎﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺸﺒﻪ ﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻤﺹ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﺴل ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻤﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻗﺎﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺦ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺭﻜﺯ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻭﺇﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺘﻨﻅـﻴﻡ‬

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‫ﺍﻝﻬﺭﻤﻭﻨﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻔﺎﺠﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺘﺄﺜﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺯﺩﻭﺝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﻨﺘﺎﺠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻨﻅﺎﻡ ﻴﻨﺘﺞ ﻋﻨﻪ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺨﻠل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻅﺎﺌﻑ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻭﻴﺔ ﻭﺒﻌـﺽ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺫﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﻀﺎﻑ " ﺩ‪ .‬ﻜﻭﻫﻴﻥ "‪:‬‬
‫" ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺴﺒﺏ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻝﻠﻘﻭل ﺒﺄﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﻴﺵ ﻭﺤﺩﻩ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﻴﺵ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻠﻭﻁ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﺒﻎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺠﻠﺏ ﻤﻭﺠﺔ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﻗﻭﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺴﺭﻁﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺌﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺨﻼل ﻋﺸﺭﺓ ﺃﻭ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﺔ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻬﺭﻭﻴﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﻜﻭﻜﺎﻴﻴﻥ ﻭﻋﻘﺎﻗﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻬﻠﻭﺴﺔ ﻋﻥ ﻗﺼﺹ ﻤﺤﺯﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺼﺹ ﺘﺩﻤﻴﺭ ﺃﺠﺴﺎﺩ ﻭﻋﻘﻭل‪ ،‬ﻗﺼﺹ ﻋﻥ ﺸﺊ ﺨﻁﻴﺭ ﻝـﻡ‬
‫ﻴﻜﺘﺸﻑ ﻝﻪ ﻋﻼﺠ ﹰﺎ ﺸﺎﻓﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺃﻜﻴﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ‪،‬ﻫﻭ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻭﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺘﻤﻠﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﻋ‪‬ﻁﻴﺕ ﺭﺌﺘﻴﻥ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﻗﺭﻤﺯﻴﺔ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻫـﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺴﻭﺩﺍﺀ ﻤﺘﻔﺤﻤﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﺭﻁﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﻓﺭﺼﺔ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﻝﺘﻨﺠﺏ ﺃﻁﻔﺎل ﺃﺴﻭﻴﺎﺀ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﻤﻥ ﻴﻬﺘﻤـﻭﻥ ﺒﺄﻨﻔﺴـﻬﻡ‬
‫ﻭﺒﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻴﻠﻘﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﻭﺀ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺒﻘﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﷲ ﻴﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﺴﻌﺎﺩﺘﻙ! ﻴﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻭﻴﺭﻴﺩﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘـﻭﺩﻩ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘـﺔ‬
‫ﺠﻴﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻓﻌل ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻴﺴﻜﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺏ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل ﺃﺒﻨﻪ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻜﻤﺨﻠﺹ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﻭﺼﻴﻨﺎ ﺒﺄﻥ ﻨﻌﺘﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﺒﺄﻨﻔﺴﻨﺎ !! ﺃﻻ ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻫﻭ ﻫﻴﻜل ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﻫﻭ ﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﻜﻥ ﻓﻴﻙ ؟ ﺇﻥ ﺩﻤﺭ ﺃﻯ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﻫﻴﻜل ﺍﷲ ﺴـﻭﻑ‬
‫ﻴﺩﻤﺭﻩ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﻫﻴﻜﻠﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ) ‪ ١‬ﻜﻭ ‪ .( ١٧ ،١٦ :٣‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺴﻤﻌﺕ ﺒﻌﺽ ﻤﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﻼﻡ ﻭﺍﺒﺘﻠﻌﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﻠـﻡ‬
‫ﺃﻨﻙ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﹸﻘﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﺤﺒﻭﻙ ﻭﻴﺨﺒﺭﻭﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﻕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﺍﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ " ﺒﻰ‪ .‬ﺠﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺘﻭﻤﺎﺱ " ﻤﻌﻠﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺤﺩﻴﺜﺔ ﻤﻌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺸﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻨﻪ ﻝﻠﻜﻭﻜﺎﻴﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺎﺩ ﻴﻘﺘﻠﻪ " ﺘﻤﻨﻴﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﻋﻥ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺴﻌﻴﺩ ﻷﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺼﻨﺩﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﺏ " ﺍﻝﻤﻔﺭﺡ ـ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺯﻥ " ﻴﻨﺘﻅﺭﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﻁﺎﻝﺏ ﻤﺴﺘﺠﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺔ ﻴﺒﻠـﻎ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﺭ ﺜﻤﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺴﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺎﹰ ﺤﻤﻴﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻴﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﺎﺭﻜﻙ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻜﺘﺏ‪:‬‬
‫" ﻷﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﻤﺎ ﻴﺴﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺴﻔل ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝـﺫﻯ ﻴﺸـﺒﻪ ﻤـﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻁﻠﻘﺕ ﻋﻠﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺴﻭﺩﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﺃﺸﻴﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﻭﺍﺴﻊ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺸﻤل ﺇﺩﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺸـﻴﺵ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺒﺭﺸﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺜل ﺴﻨﻰ ﻴﺴﻴﺭﻭﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻰ ﻴﺎ ﺠـﻭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜـﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺴﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺒﺠﺎﻨﺒﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻭﻝﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﻴﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻘﺕ ﺒﻤﺩﺭﺴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺍﻝﻀﻐﻁ ﻭﺍﻹﻝﺤـﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺸـﺩﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺒـﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺸـﺭﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﺼﻠﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻨﺘﺼﻑ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻷﻭل ﺼﺭﺕ ﺫﺍ ﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﻋﺎ ِل ‪ .‬ﻭﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺩﺍﺭ ﻋﺎﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﻰ ﻭﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺘﻘﺭﻴﺒـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻤﺩﻤﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﻜﺤﻭل‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻨﻔﺴﻴﺔ ﺃﺩﻤﻨﺕ ﻋﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﺒﻎ ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻜﻭﻜﺎﻴﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺘﺠﻬ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺴﻔل‪ ،‬ﻭﻝـﻡ ﺃﻜـﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺠﺎﺯﺘﻰ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻋﻴﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺒل ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ‪.‬‬
‫ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﻠﺫﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻰ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻁﺎﻑ ﺃﻨﺯﻝﻕ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻊ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﻭﺩﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻯ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻝﺨﺭﻭﺝ ﻝﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻓﻌل‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻨـﺎ ﺃﻴﻘﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻭﻗﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل‪ ،‬ﺤﺎﻭل ﺒﻴﺄﺱ ﺍﻝﺨﺭﻭﺝ ﻭﻭﺼل ﺒﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺎل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻓـﻰ ﺍﻝﻤـﻭﺕ ﺒﻌـﺩ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻓﺸﻠﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺇﻴﺠﺎﺩ ﺃﻯ ﻭﺴﻴﻠﺔ ﻝﻠﺨﺭﻭﺝ‪.‬‬
‫ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻤﺘﻘﻠﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻻﻜﺘﺌﺎﺏ ﻭﻋﺩﻤﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﺭﺏ ﺴﺕ ﻋﻠﺏ ﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ ﺩﻓﻌـﺔ ﻭﺍﺤـﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻷﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺯﻋﻭﻡ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺸﻭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺒل ﺼﺎﺭ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺃﺴﻭﺃ ﻤﻤـﺎ ﻜـﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻤﺤﻭ ﺃﺴﻔﻰ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻁﻤﻨﻰ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻋﻤل‪.‬‬
‫ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺼﻴﻑ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻫﻴﺄ ﻝﻰ ﻭﺍﻝـﺩﻯ ﻓﺭﺼـﺔ ﺍﻝـﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﻤﺨـﻴﻡ " ﻜﺎﻨـﺎ ﻜﻭﻤـﻭ‬
‫‪ " Kanakomo‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺍﺴﺘﻤﻌﺕ ﻝﻜل ﻤﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﺒﺸﻭﻕ ﺠﺩﻴﺩ ﻝﻺﻴﻤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺠﻭﻉ ﺸﺩﻴﺩ ﻷﻨﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻨﻔﺎﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻁﻭﻴل‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﺠﺭﻋﺕ ﻜل ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﻗﺎﻝﻬﺎ ﺃﻭﻝﺌﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻜﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻭﻋﻥ ﻗﺒﻭﻝﻪ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺒﻠﺘﻪ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌـل‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﺭﺘﻔﻊ ﻋﻥ ﻜﺘﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺘﻼﺸﺕ ﻜل ﻋﻘﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﺜﻘﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺎل ﻭﻜﺄﻥ ﺤﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺁﻻﻡ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻗﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺎﻝﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻤﺘﻴﺎﺯ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺤﺭﺭ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻤﺘﻘﺩﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺨﻁﻰ ﺜﺎﺒﺘﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻨﻭﺭ ﻤﺤﺒـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺘﺎﺭﻜ ﹰﺎ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺴﻭﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺯﺯﺓ ﺨﻠﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺘﺼﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌـل ﺃﻯ ﺃﻤـﺭ ﻀـﻌﻴﻑ ﺒﻘـﻭﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺴﻬﻭﻝﺔ ﻗﺎﻭﻤﺕ ﺇﻝﺤﺎﺡ ﻋﺎﺩﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺠﺎﻨﺒﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﻝﺘﺤـﻭﻝﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﺃﺴـﻔل‬
‫ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺼﻭﺘﻪ ﻴﻨﺎﺩﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻠﻔﻰ ﻭﻴﻘﻭل ] ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻴﺩﺒﺭ[‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻻ ﺯﺍل ﻴﻌﻤل ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﺠﺯﺍﺕ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺤﻤﺩﹰﺍ ﷲ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺒﻴﻥ ﻝ ‪‬‬
‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺤﺎﻓﻅ ﹰﺎ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻤﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻹﻨﻬﺎﻙ ﻭﻤﺤﺎﻭﻻﺕ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﺎﺼﺭﻨﻰ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻥ ﻭﺍﻷﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﻔـﺭﺡ‬
‫ﻋﻅﻴﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭل‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻭﺠﺩﺘﻬﺎ !! ﺒﻌﺩ ﺒﺤﺙ ﻁﻭﻴل ﻴﺄﺱ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻕ ﻋﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﻭﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻭﺠـﺩﺕ ﺍﻝﺴـﻌﺎﺩﺓ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻭﺃﺭﺘﺒﻙ ﺒﺸﺄﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻘﻭﻁ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻜﻠﻤﺘﻪ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺠﺩ ﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺨﺠل ﻤﻥ ﻤﺎﻀ ‪‬‬
‫ﺘﺭﻴﺤﻨﻰ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺠﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻓﻰ ) ﻓﻰ ‪ (١٣:٣‬ﻴﻘﻭل " أ! ا(‪E‬ة أ‪ SK 1‬أ>‪ 4 K,1 WK‬أدرآ‪ S‬و‪ 0‬أ‪0B‬‬
‫ ‪ ً g‬وا>ًا إذ أ‪ 1‬أ‪  K1‬ه وراء وأ إ و ه ‪4‬ام "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻝﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻭﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻴﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﻋﻴﻨﻰ ﻝﻜﻨﺕ ﻗﺩ ﺨﻠﺼﺕ ﺒﺒﺴـﺎﻁﺔ ﻤﻨـﺫ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻭﻫﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺤﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﻤﺭﻜـﺯﹰﺍ‬
‫ﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺨﺘﺒﺭﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺴﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺤﺼﻠﺕ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬
‫ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻯ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺭﺍﺩﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﺤﺜ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻜﻠﺘﻰ ﻴﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﻯ ﺒﺩﻤﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﻁﻔﺔ ﺘﻤﻼ ﻜﻴﺎﻨﻰ ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺭﺕ ﻤﺎ ﻗﺩﻤﻪ ﻤﺨﻴﻡ " ﻜﺎﻨﺎ ﻜﻭﻤﻭ "‪ ،‬ﻗﺩﻡ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﻭﺘﻤﺘﻠﺊ ﻋﻴﻨﺎ ‪‬‬
‫ﺭﻭﺡ ﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﻔﻬﻡ ﻭﺍﻻﻫﺘﻤﺎﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﻓﺤﺴﺏ ﻭﺃﻤﺎﻤﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻁﻭﻴل ﻴﻨﺒﻐﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ‬
‫ﻓﻴﻪ ) ‪١‬ﺘﺱ ‪ " ( ١٦:٥‬أ‪>AB‬ا آ > ‪ " $‬ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ‪ ..‬ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ‪" ..‬‬
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‫ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺍﻝﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺘﺼﺎل ﻤﺒﺎﺸﺭ ﻭﺩﺍﺌﻡ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻋﺩﺍﺩ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺍﻫﻘﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﺘﻌﺎﻤﻠﺕ ﻤﻊ ﺨﺒﺭﺍﺕ " ﻤﺭﺓ ﺤﻠﻭﺓ "‪ ،‬ﻭ " ﺍﻝﺤﻠﻭ " ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﺠﺩ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺍﻹﺸﺒﺎﻉ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ " ﺍﻝﻤﺭ " ﻫﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻨﺤﺩﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﻉ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺭ ﻭ ﺍﻝﺤﻠﻭ‪ .‬ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺒﻜﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻗﺩﺭ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﻪ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻀﺕ ﺘﺎﺒﻌﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﺴﻤﻬﺎ " ﻜﺎﺘﻰ " ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺍﻀﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻜﺘﺏ ﻝﻰ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺼﻬﺎ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﺤﻘﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺍﻗﺘﺒﺴﺕ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺭﺴﺎﺌﻠﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺴﺘﺔ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ ﺨﻼل ﺍﻷﺭﺒﻊ ﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﻁﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻴﺔ‪:‬‬
‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ‪ /‬ﺠﻭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﻬﺎﺩ ﻜﺎﺒﻭﺱ ﻤﺯﻋﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﺼﻌﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻗﺒﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻻ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝـﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻘـﺩﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﺭﻭﺝ ﻤﻥ ﻓﺭﺍﺸﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻗﺎﺘل ﻓﻰ ﻤﻌﺭﻜﺔ ﺨﺎﺴﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻡ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻨﺎﻭل؟ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌل ﻭﻻ ﺃﺘﻨﺎﻭﻝﻬﺎ ﻴﺼﻴﺒﻨﻰ ﺃﻝﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻌﺩﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻰ ﻝﻜل ﻤـﺩﻤﻨﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻬﻴﺭﻭﻴﻥ‪ .‬ﻫل ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺴﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺴﻭﺍﺭ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﻭﺍﺌﻁ ﻭﻋﺒﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺩﻭﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻭﺒﺎﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻬﻠﻭﺴـﺔ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺨﺫ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺭﻫﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﻭﺃﻯ ﺸﺊ ﻴﺨﺼﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺘﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻁﻤﻨﻰ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻯ ﻤﻨﻬﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﻫـﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﺃﻨﺎﻨﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺘﻘﺭﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺃﻨﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻭﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺓ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ !! ﺘﻤﺎﻤـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻤﺜل ﺃﻯ ﻗﺎﺘل‪ ،‬ﺘﺩﻤﺭ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻫل ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺎﺠﺭ ﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﻁﻰ ﻤﺩﻤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻬﺭﻭﻴﻥ ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻤﺠﺎﻨﻴــﺔ ﻗﺒــل ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﻁــﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻘــﺎل ﺍﻝﺸــﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺠــﺎﺌﻊ ﺴــﻠﻌﺔ ﻤﺠﺎﻨﻴــﺔ !! ﻤــﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺤــﺩﺙ ﻓــﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ؟؟ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﺃﻗﺼﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﻭﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺒﺩﺃ ﺒﻴﻭﻡ ﻁﻭﻴل ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ‪..‬‬
‫) ﻜــﺎﺘـﻰ (‬
‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ‪ /‬ﺠــﻭ‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﻭﻗﻔﺕ ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﺼﻌﺒﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﺨﺫ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻭﻨﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻀـﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸـﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺯﺭﺍﻋﻰ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﻭﻨﺼﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺍﻤﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻗﻠﻌﺕ‪ .‬ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺒﻘﻰ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋـﻨﻬﻡ ﻭﻋـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺁﻩ ﻴﺎ ﺠﻭ ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺭﻫﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻼﻴﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﻴﺠﺘﺎﺯﻭﻥ ﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺠﺘﺎﺯﻩ ﻝﻘـﺩ ﺘﻌﻠﻤـﺕ‬
‫ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺭﺍﻙ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺠﺘﺎﺯ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻗﺩ ﺃﺠﺘﺎﺯﻫﺎ ﻫـﻭ ﻗﺒﻠـﻙ ﻗـﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﻅـﺭ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺴﺘﻤﻊ‪ .‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻝﻴﻌﻠﻤﻙ ﺇﻴﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﺘﺄﻝﻡ ﻁﺎﻝﻤﺎ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺸـﺨﺹ ﻤـﺎ ﻴﺴـﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﺨﻠﺼﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻝﻤﻙ؟‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻀﺨﻤﺔ ﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﺒﺘﺩﺨﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺒﻎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺭﻴﻌﺎﹰ ﺘﺠﺩ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺒﺎﺤﺜ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﺃﻭ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻓﻀل‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﻤﺘﻌـﻪ ﺸـﻴﻁﺎﻨﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻗﻭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻀﻌﻴﻔ ﹰﺎ ﺴﺘﺴﻘﻁ ﺴﺭﻴﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺸﻴﻁﺎﻥ ﻴﺠﻌل ﺃﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﺼﻭل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺴﻬ ﹰ‬
‫ﻝﻠﻤﺯﺍﺝ‪.‬‬

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 ‫ﺠﻭ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﺤﻴﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﻨﺘﻴﻥ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺘﻴﻥ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺴﻭﺀ ﺸﺊ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻗﻑ‪ ،‬ﺤﺎﻭل ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻨﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﻋﺎل ﻭﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﺫﻜﺭﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺼـﻼﺘﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺼﻠﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺯﻭﺠﻰ ﺼﺎﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﺤﻠﻭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺎﺩ ﻴﻔﻘﺩ ﺼﺒﺭﻩ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻁﻭﻴل‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﻨﺤﻥ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻨﺼـﺎﺭﻉ ﻫـﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺯﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻓﻌل ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺘﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺒﻪ ﺭﺴﺎﻝﺔ ﻜﻭﺭﻨﺜﻭﺱ ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺘﻌﺎﻓﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﺘﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﺘﺄﺨﺭﹰﺍ‬
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‫) ﻜــﺎﺘــﻰ (‬
‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ‪ /‬ﺠﻭ‬
‫ﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﺨﻁ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﻴﻡ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻪ ﻴﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻋﺼﻔﺕ ﺒﺯﻭﺍﺠﻰ ﻭﺒﻜل ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤـﺘﻔﻅ‬
‫ﺒﻭﻅﻴﻔﺔ ﻷﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺸﻬﺭ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻋﺸﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺭﻭﻡ ﻝﺸﻬﻭﺭ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺸـﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻘﻠـﻰ ﺨـﺎﺭﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻁﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ ﺯﻭﺠﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺠﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﻴﻜﺭﻫﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻋـﻥ ﻨﻔﺴـﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜـﻥ ﻫـﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺭﺴﺎﻝﺔ ﻤﺨﺼﺼﺔ ﻝﻰ ﻭﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺸﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻭﺭﻁ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺊ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺯﻭﺠﻰ ﻤﻌﻰ ﻜل ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻓـﻰ ﺍﻝﻴـﻭﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ؟؟!‬
‫ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺠﺫﺏ ﺨﻴﻭﻁ ﺍﻝﺸﺠﺎﺭ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺒل ﻤﻊ ﻤﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻤﻊ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ‪ ،‬ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻓ ‪‬‬
‫ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻌﺎﻤل ﻤﻊ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻁﻭﻴﻼﹰ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ ﺯﻭﺠﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻴﻜﺭﻫﻭﻨﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝـﻴﺱ‬
‫ﻜﺫﻝﻙ‪ .‬ﺒﻘﺩﺭ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺜﻕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻷﻨﻰ ﺒﻭﺍﺴﻁﺘﻬﻡ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺍﻀﻁﺭﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻯ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻁﺭﺩﻙ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﻴﻀﺭﺒﻭﻙ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﻠﺠﺄ ﺇﻝﻴﻬﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺭﺃﻴﻙ ﺒﺄﻤﺎﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫل ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻌﻭﻨﺔ ﻤﺘﺨﺼﺼﺔ ؟ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺠﺭﺡ ﺇﻥ ﻗﻠﺕ " ﻨﻌﻡ‬
‫"‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﻀﻁﺭﺒﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻻﻀﻁﺭﺍﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻭﺘﺭ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘـﻭﺩﺍ ﺍﻝﺸـﺨﺹ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻨـﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻻﻨﻬﻴﺎﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻬﺎﻤﺵ ﻴﺎ ﺠﻭ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻗﻭل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺅﺴﻔ ﹰﺎ ﺒل ﻷﻥ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﻴﻌﻤل‬
‫ﺒﺼﻌﻭﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﻤﺸﺘﺘﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﻭﺘﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩﺓ ﻤﻤـﺎ ﻴﻨﺒﻐـﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌـل ‪ ..‬ﻓﻘـﻁ ﺃﺤﺘـﺎﺝ ﻤﻌﻭﻨـﺔ ﺇﻥ ﻝـﻡ‬
‫ﺘﻜﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﻓﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻪ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺩ ﺯﻭﺠﻰ ﻷﻨﻰ ﺃﺤﺒﺔ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ‪..‬‬
‫) ﻜــﺎﺘــﻰ (‬
‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ‪ /‬ﺠﻭ‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﻀﻴﺕ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻰ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺇﻗﻼﻉ ﺘﺎﻡ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭ ﻭﺤﺎﻝﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺒﺨﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺃﺼﻌﺏ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻜﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻭل ﻴﻭﻤﻴﻥ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﺤﺭﻜﻨﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻑ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺤﻤﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺎﻋﺩﺘﻨﻰ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺒﺘﻌﺩ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻨﻘﻠﺘﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺒﺤﻴﺙ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺤﺼﻭل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻵﺠل ‪ ..‬ﻫل‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﻘﻨﻊ ؟؟ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺤﺼﻭل ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻀﻤﺎﻨﺎﺕ ﻜﺎﻓﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻘﺩ ﺃﻀﻌﺕ ﺘﺫﻜﺭﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻴـﺔ ﻝﻌـﺩﻡ ﺩﻓﻌـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫) ﻜــﺎﺘــﻰ (‬
‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ‪ /‬ﺠﻭ‬
‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺤﺎﻝﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻓﻀل‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﺴﺕ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩﺓ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴـﺭ ﻓـﻰ ﺃﻨﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﻯ ﺭﺠل ﻭﻝﺴﺕ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩﺓ ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺴﻴﻅل ﻤﻌﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩ‪ ،‬ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻨﻰ ﻤﺠﻨﻭﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺴﺄﻓﻘﺩ ﺯﻭﺠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﻝﺩ ‪‬‬
‫ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺩﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻴﺼﻔﺩ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﻤﺄﺴﺎﺓ ﺼـﻌﺒﺔ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﻷﻝـﻡ ﻷﻥ‬
‫ﻋﺭﻭﻗﻰ ﻗﺩ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻤﻠﺘﻔﺔ ﺤﻭل ﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻜﻡ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﻰ ﻻ ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻭﺇﻻ ﻗﺘﻠﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺠﻌﻠﺕ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﻴﻌﻤل‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻋﺭﺽ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﻤﺸﺎﻜﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻀﺨﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺴﺕ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ؟! ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻋﻨـﺩﻙ‬
‫ﺼﺒﺭﹰﺍ ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺸﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﻙ ﻷﻨﻙ ﺃﻓﺴﺤﺕ ﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜﻠﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻭﻗﺘﻙ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﻫﺫﺍ " ﻨﻜﺘﻪ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ "‪ ،‬ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭ ﺨﻁﻴﺭ ﻭﻻ ﻴﻭﺠـﺩ ﻓﻴـﻪ ﻤـﺎ ﻴﺅﺨـﺫ‬
‫ﺒﺎﺴﺘﺨﻔﺎﻑ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﻻ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻜﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ‪ ٢٠‬ﺩﻭﻻﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺠﻴﺒﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﻝﺸﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﻋﺘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل ﺃﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﻝﻁﻴﻔﺔ ﻋﻨﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺠﻭﻙ ﻻ ﺘﻔﻌل ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻓﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻷﺠﺫﺏ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺒﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﻓﻠﻸﺴﻑ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺨﻁﺌﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﺘﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﻌﻭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻤﻀﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝـﻥ ﻴﻜـﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺜل‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻥ ﺃﺨﺫ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻭﻗﺘﻙ ﺃﻭ ﻤﻥ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻯ ﻓـﻰ ﻫـﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻁـﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻯ‪.‬‬

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 ‫) ﻜــﺎﺘــﻰ (‬
‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﻯ‪ /‬ﺠﻭ‬
‫ﻤﺭﺤﺒ ﹰﺎ‪ ..‬ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺃﻝﻘﻴﺕ ﺤﻴﺭﺘﻰ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺤﺎﻭﻝﺕ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨـﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﻫـﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤـﺭﺓ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﷲ‬
‫ﻝﻴﻬﺒﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺠﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺤﺎﻭﻝﺕ ﻭﻓﺸﻠﺕ ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻨﺠﺢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﻓﺯﻋﺕ ﻤـﻥ ﻤﺠـﺭﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ‪ ..‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﻤل ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻤﺯﺍﺠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻤﻌﻰ ﺃﻯ ﻤﺎل ﻝﺫﺍ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻁﻠﺏ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﻝﻨـﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﺃﻗﺭﻀﻨﻰ ﺍﻝـ ‪ ٢٠‬ﺩﻭﻻﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻜﻴﺕ ﻭﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻨﻰ‪ .‬ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺒﻭﺤﺩﺓ ﻗﺎﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺜﻡ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻜﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ؟! ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﺤﻤﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴـﺎﻋﺩﻨﻰ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺩ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﻨﻰ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻁﻠﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﻭﻤﻰ ﺒﻤﻌﻭﻨﺔ ﻀﺨﻤﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻨـﻪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺓ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻤﺭ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﺔ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺘﺤﺴﻥ ﻜﺒﻴﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺼﻠﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﺃﺠﻠـﻰ ﻴـﺎ ﺠـﻭ ﻜـل ﻴـﻭﻡ ﻤـﺭﺘﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬـﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻓﺎﺌـﺩﺓ ﻫـﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤـﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻔﻌل ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺘﺭﻙ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻝﺘﻨﺤﺩﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺴﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﻐﺎﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﺍﺫﻜﺭﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺼﻼﺘﻙ‪..‬‬

‫) ﻜــﺎﺘــﻰ (‬

‫ﻴﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻔﺼل ﺤﻴﺙ ﺒﺩﺃ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﺼﺤﻙ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻭﺩﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭل ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻁﺒﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺒﺼﻤﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻐﻴـﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﺘﻐﻴﺭﺍﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻌﻭﻗﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﹸﻌﻁﻰ ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺨل‪ ،‬ﻨﻌﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ !!‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﻓﻀﻠﻙ ﻻ ﺘﺩﻉ ﺍﻝﻜﻴﻤﺎﻭﻴﺎﺕ ﺘﺩﻤﺭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻭﺭﺅﻴﺘﻙ ﻝﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺸﻪ ﻭﺘﺤﻘﻘﻪ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ ﺠﺭﺒﺕ " ﺍﻝﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﻤـﻊ ﺍﻝﺠـﻨﺱ ﺍﻷﺨـﺭ "‬
‫ل ﻭﺘﻨﺴﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺒﻘﺩﺭ ﻜﺎﻑ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻝﺘﻘﻭل " ﻻ "‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺫﻜﺭﻴﺎﺕ ﻻ ﺘﻤﺤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﷲ ﻭﺤﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻝﺘﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺯﺍﺝ ﻋﺎ ً‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻴﻁﻬﺭ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﻭﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻭﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻝﻜﻰ ﺘﺴﺘﺨﺩﻤﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﻭﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺼﺎﻝﺢ ﻝﺘﻤﻨﺢ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻭﺃﻭﻻﺩﻙ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻭﺨﺼﻭﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺎﺘﻪ ﻭﺍﻝﻜﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻘﺩﻤﻪ ﻋﻥ ﻨﻤﻭﻙ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻜﺘﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻙ ‪ ..‬ﻫل ﺃﻓﺎﺩﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ ؟ ﺃﺘﻤﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻤﻨﺢ ﺍﻝﺘﺸﺠﻴﻊ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ‪.‬‬

‫* أ)("ر و&"‪:%‬‬
‫‪ -١‬ﺇﺒﺩﺍﺀ ﺒـ " ﻝﻴﺯﺍ " ﺘﺄﻤل ﻜل ﻨﻘﻁﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻗﺼﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻜﺘﺸﻑ ﺃﻴﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ ﺍﻷﻭل ؟‬
‫‪ -٢‬ﻤﻥ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻘﻕ ﺫﺍﺘﻙ ﻤﻌﻪ؟‬
‫) ﻗل ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻙ ( ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺘﺤﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺸﺎﺭﻜﻪ ﻗﺼﺔ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﻩ ؟‬
‫‪ -٣‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻗﺼﺩ ﺍﷲ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻁﻔل ﻭﻝﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺃﺒﻭﻩ ﻭﺃﻤﻪ ؟‬
‫‪ -٤‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺘﻐﻴﻴﺭ ﺴﻠﻭﻜﻙ ﻹﺴﻌﺎﺩ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﺴﺒﺒﺕ ﻝﻬﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜل؟‬
‫‪ -٥‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺍﷲ ﺫﺍ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ ؟‬
‫‪ -٦‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺅﺜﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺃﻭ ﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﻌﻤﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﻋﻼﻗﺎﺘﻙ ؟‬

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‫ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻫﺩﻓﻙ ﻭﻝﻴﺱ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﺘﺄﻨﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﻻ ﺘﻤﺎﺭﺱ ﺍﻝﺠـﻨﺱ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻭﻗﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻝﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻁﺎﻫﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﺭﻓﻴﻘﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺠﺯﺀ ﻫﺎﻡ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻹﻋﺩﺍﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺍﺠل ﺍﻝﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘـﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﻝﺤـﺏ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﺍﺴﺘﻁﻌﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻌل ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﻁﻘﺔ ﺒﻴﻨﻙ ﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻤﺎﻥ ﺒﻤﻨﺄﻯ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺤﻘﻴﺭﺓ ﻋﺎﺒﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺴﺘﺠﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻜـل ﻤﻨـﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺤـﺏ ـ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺘﺼﺎﻻﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺼﺩﺍﻗﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻷﻝﻔﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ ـ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻜﻥ ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﻤﺸﺘﺎﻗ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻀﻊ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﻋﻠﻴﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼل ﺇﻝـﻰ ﻤﻨـﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺤـﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻤﻬﻤﺎ ﺤﺩﺙ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﻤﺎﻨﺴﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻬﺩﻑ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﺏ ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﻴﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺤﺒﻙ‬
‫ﺃﺠﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﺭﻗﻡ ) ‪ ( ١‬ﺍﺠﻌﻠﻴﻪ ﺭﻗﻡ ) ‪( ١‬‬
‫ﻙ ﺘﺤﺒﻴﻨﻪ ﻷﻨﻪ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺒﺄﻯ ﺸﻜل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻙ ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ ﺒﺄﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻤﻴﺭﻩ ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﻙ ﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺄﻨ ِ‬
‫ﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻤﻴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺃﺏ ﻷﻁﻔﺎﻝﻙ ؟ ﻻ ﺘﺠﻴﺏ ﺇﻻ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭﻙ‪ .‬ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ " إن آ"ن أ‪ ) 4:‬ا‪44 5 6) 789‬ة ا‪"2‬ء ا>‪
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‫هذا ا( ‪"A 4‬ر ‪ً44‬ا " ) ‪٢‬ﻜﻭ ‪( ١٧:٥‬‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺨﺫ ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻭﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﻭﺃﺴﺘﻌﺩ ﻝﻠﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺨﻤﺴﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺴﻨﻴﻥ ﻝﻜﻥ ﺃﺠﻌل ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻭﺠـﻙ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺘﺭﺘﺒﻁ ﺒﻬﺎ‪ /‬ﺒﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺭﻗﻡ )‪.(١‬‬
‫ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺸﻜﺭ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻙ ﻭﺃﺴﺭﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺏ ﻭﺴﻼﻡ‪ .‬ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺸﻜﺭ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻋﻨـﺩﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺘﺩﺨل ﺇﻝﻰ ﻓﺭﺍﺸﻙ ﺒﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺨﺎل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﻭﺒﺤﺏ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻨﹸﺘﻠﻰ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﻁﻔﺎﻝﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﺼﻠﻭﺍﺘﻨﺎ ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻨﺨﺘﻤﻬﺎ ﺒﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ " ﻭﻓﻭﻕ ﻜل‬
‫ﺸﺊ ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺃﻋﺘﻨﻰ ﺒﺄﻤﻰ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ! " ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻅﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺭﺠﺎل ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﻋﺭﻓﻬﻡ ﻀﺨﺎﻤﺔ ﻭﺼﻭﺘ ﹰﺎ ﺭﻗﻴﻘﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺩﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻭﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻠﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ " ﻫﺎﻨﻙ " ﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺃﺒـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﻜﺎﻥ ﻨﺎﺠﺤ ﹰﺎ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﻗﻠﺏ ﻤﺤﺏ ﻭﻭﺩﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺘﻘﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻭﻻﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﻤل ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﻭﺍﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﻀﺩ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻪ‪ " :‬ﻜﺎﺒﺘﻥ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻴﻭﺍﻋﺩﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﻭﺩﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﻼﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﻫﺭﺓ ﻭﻤﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺘﻤﺴﻜﻥ ﺒﺄﺨﻼﻗﻬﻥ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻴﺵ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺼﺎﺒﻨﻰ – ﻻ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻭﺍﻋﺩﻨﻰ ‪." ..‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ " ﻫﺎﻨﻙ " ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﺒﺤﺏ ﻭﺴﻠﻁﺎﻥ ﻤﺜل ﻗﻠﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺠﺎل ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺘﻬﻡ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻬﺎ " ﺍﹶﻤﻰ ‪..‬ﺃﺨﺭﺠﻰ ﻗﻠﻤﻙ ﻭﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻕ ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺫﻝﻙ ؟! ﺇﺭﺴﻤﻰ ﺨﻁﺎ ﻋﻤﻭﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻨﺘﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﺤﺔ ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺍﺴﺭﺩﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻴﺴﺭﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﺠـل ﺍﻝـﺫﻯ‬
‫ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺯﻭﺠﻴﻪ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ " ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺘﻜﺘﺏ "ﺠﺫﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﺫﻜﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﺏ ﺼﺎﻝﺢ‪ ،‬ﻤﺅﻤﻥ‪ ،‬ﻗﻭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻤﺨﻠﺹ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻤﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻋﻁﻭﻑ " ﻭﺍﺴـﺘﻤﺭﺕ ﺘﻜﺘـﺏ‬
‫ﺒﺘﺭﻜﻴﺯ ﻭﺃﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﺸﺩﻴﺩﻴﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺍﻨﺘﻬﺕ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻬﺎ‪ " :‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺍﺴﺭﺩﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻴﻤﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﺤﺔ ﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻫﺎ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺤﻤل ﺍﻝﺼـﻔﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺘﺒﺘﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻵﻥ ﻴﺎ ﺁﻤﻰ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻜﻭﻨﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻴﺠﺩﻙ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﻝﺘﻜﻭﻨﻰ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻪ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺨﺫﺕ " ﺍﻤﻰ" ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻭﻏﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﻤﻜﺘﺏ " ﻫﺎﻨﻙ " ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺒﺘﺴﻡ !!ﻫل ﺤﺼﻠﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻗﺔ؟ ﺘﺨﻴل ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﻋﻁﻴﺘـﻙ ﻭﺭﺩﺘـﻴﻥ‬
‫ﻝﺘﻤﺭﺭﻫﻤﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺔ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺒﺤﻴﺙ ﺘﻨﺘﻘل ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ‪ ،‬ﺒﻌﻜﺱ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻨﺘﻘل ﻤﻥ ﻴﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻴﺩ ﺒﻌـﺩ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﺄﺨﺫ ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﺠﺯﺀ ﻜﺒﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺭﺍﺌﺤﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﻊ ﻜل ﻭﺭﻗﺔ ﺘﻔﻘﺩﻫﺎ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻤﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺌﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻯ ﻭﺭﺩﺓ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺄﺨﺫﻫﺎ‬
‫ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻙ ﻭﺘﺭﻴﻬﺎ ﻷﺴﺭﺘﻙ ؟ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻭﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﻴﻌﺠﺏ ﻭﻴﺤﺘﺭﻡ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻴﺨﻠﻌـﻭﻥ ﺍﻝـﻭﺭﻕ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴـل‬
‫ﻭﻴﻌﺭﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﺩﺓ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﺍﻝﺨﺒﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ ﻷﻭﺍﻨﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻅﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜﻭﻨﻙ ﺘﻘﺎﺒل ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻝﻌﺒﺔ ﻏﺭﻀﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻤﺨﺼﺹ ﻝﺯﻭﺝ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﻤﺴـﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ‪ .‬ﻜﺜﻴـﺭ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﻝﺸـﺒﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻴﻨﺤﺭﻓﻭﻥ ﻭﻴﺘﺠﻬﻭﻥ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻁﺭﻕ ﺨﺎﻁﺌﺔ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺠﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻀﺎﻝﺘﻬﻡ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻷﻓﻀل‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻻ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺄﺨﺫﻫﺎ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻙ ؟‬
‫ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻷﻁﻔﺎﻝﻙ ؟‬
‫ﺨﺫ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺴﺭﺩ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻓﻕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﻝﻤﻥ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺨﺘﺎﺭﻩ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ‬
‫ﻻ‪ .‬ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﻐﻴﺭ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻨﻅﺭﺘﻙ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﻫﺫﺍ !!‬
‫ﻜﺘﺒﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺼﻔﺎﺘﻪ ﺃﻭ ﹰ‬

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‫ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻰ ﺍﻷﻋﺯﺍﺀ ﻫﻭ " ﻤﺎﺭﺵ ﻭﺍﻴﺕ " ﻭﻫﻭ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻤﻬﺭ ﺍﻝﻼﻋﺒﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺘﺤﺎﺩ ﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻡ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻝﻁﻴﻑ‬
‫ﻭﺭﻗﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻝﺒﻕ ﻭﺼﺎﺤﺏ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻤﺤﺒﻭﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻝﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺯﻤﻥ ﻁﻭﻴل ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺤﺩﺜﻨﻰ ﻋﻥ ﺨﻁـﻁ‬
‫ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺒﺭﻫﺔ ﺒﺩﺃﻨﺎ ﻨﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻋﻥ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﺤﻼﻤﻪ ـ ﻭﻴﺎ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺤﻅﻭﻅﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ـ ﻓﺴﺄﻝﺘﻪ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻔﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺤﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺃﺤﻼﻤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺴﺭﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻴل‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩﻫﺎ ﺃﺒﺘﺴﻡ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻓﻘﻠﺕ ﻝﻪ " ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻀﺤﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ؟! " ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﺠﺎﺏ ﺒﺤﻜﻤﺔ " ﻤﺎﺭﺵ ﻭﺍﻴـﺕ "‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻬﻭﺩﺓ ‪ " :‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﻨﻭﻉ ﻤﻌﻴﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻰ ﻝﻡ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻫل ﺃﻨﺎ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺠﻴﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺠﺎل ؟!! " ‪ ..‬ﺍﻝﻨﺠﺎﺡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻻ‬
‫ﻴ‪‬ﻭﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﻝﻜﻭﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺃﻋﻠﻨﺕ ﺸﺭﻜﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺭﻜﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻨﻘل ﺇﻋﻼﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻫﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺭﻴﺩﺓ ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻜﺎﻵﺘﻰ‪:‬‬

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‫( ﻭﻫﻰ ﻤﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﻨﻴﺘﺭﻭﺠﻠﺴﺭﻴﻥ ﺸﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﺍﻻﻨﻔﺠﺎﺭ ﻋﺒﺭ ﻁـﺭﻕ‬ ‫‪T.N.T‬‬ ‫" ﺴﺎﺌﻕ ﻤﻘﻁﻭﺭﺓ ﺨﺒﻴﺭ ﻭﻭﺍﻉ ﻝﻨﻘل ﻤﺎﺩﺓ )‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﺒﺎل ﺍﻹﻨﻜﺴﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻀﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺩﻓﻊ ﻤﺠﺯﻯ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ "‬
‫ﺘﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻠﻌﻤل ﺜﻼﺙ ﺭﺠﺎل ﺸﺠﻌﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺴﺄل ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺌﻭل ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﻅﻴﻔﺔ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺴﺅﺍل‪:‬‬
‫" ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﺘﺠﺎﻫﻙ ﺒﺯﺍﻭﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻁﻭل ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺠﺒﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺘﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﻭﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭﺩ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺯﻝـﻕ؟ "‬
‫ﺃﺠﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺌﻕ ﺍﻷﻭل" ﺁﻩ‪..‬ﻝﺩﻯ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﺒﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺎل‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﺄﻨﺎ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﺘﺭﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﺴﺎﻓﺔ ﻗﺩﻡ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﺒل"‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺌﻕ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻰ ﻓﻘﺎل " ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻠﻕ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﺎﺭﺠﻴﺔ ﻹﻁﺎﺭﺍﺘﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﺒل ﻭﺃﻅل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ " ﻭﺃﺨﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻗﺎل ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺙ " ﺃﻨﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺘﺭﻡ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻭﺍﻝﺨﻁﺭ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﻻ ﺃﻗﺘﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺇﻥ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ " ‪ ..‬ﺨﻤﻥ ﻤﻥ ﻨﺎل ﺍﻝﻭﻅﻴﻔﺔ ؟‬
‫ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻘل ﻭﺍﻝﺠﺴﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﻓﻰ ﺨﻁﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻠﻬﻭ ﺒﻠﻌﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﺇﺴﺎﺀﺓ ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﺍﻤﻙ ﻝﻠﺠـﻨﺱ‬
‫ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺅﺜﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﻜﺎﻤل ! ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺌﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﺊ ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺤﻨﺔ ﻭﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺌﻕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻫﻭ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﻴﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل‬
‫ﺃﺤﺘﺭﻡ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﻴﺤﺘﺭﻡ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺴﻭﺍﺀ ﺭﺠ ﹰ‬
‫ﺸﺭﻴﻙ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﷲ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺼﻤﻡ ﻋﻘﻭﻝﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺠﺴﺎﺩﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺘﻘﻭﺩ ﺃﺘﻭﻤﺎﺘﻴﻜﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴـﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴـﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺤﺘﻰ ﻴﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﻬﺞ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﺒﻊ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺒﻴل ـ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺜﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻓﻴﺘﺨﺫﻭﻥ ﻤﻨﻬﺠﹰﺎ ﺃﺨﺭ‬
‫ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺒﻴل ـ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺜﻡ ﺍﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﻝﻼﺜﻨﻴﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻷﺤﺩﻫﻤﺎ‪ .‬ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﺘﺒﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﻫﻥ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﺎﺫﺝ ﺍﻝﺴﻠﺒﻴﺔ ﻨﺤﻭ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺒﻘﻰ‬
‫ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﻓﻰ ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺠﺴﺩﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ﺘﺨﺼﻴﺹ ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻝﻠﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺤﺒﻪ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ؟ ﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﺨﺎﺹ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ " ﺇﺫﹰﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﹼﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺘﺼﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺠﺴﺩ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻴﺸﺎﺭﻜﻙ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ‪ .‬ﻋﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺤﺩ ﺍﻷﺴﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺼﻨﻊ ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻬﺎ‬
‫! ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺨﺘﺒﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﺍﻗﻌﻴﺔ ﺃﻨﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻬﺏ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‪ .‬ﻝﻭﺍﺤـﺩ‬
‫ﻓﻘﻁ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﻝﺫﻫﻨﻙ ﻭﻝﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻭﻝﺭﻭﺤﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺄﺨﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺡ ﻝﻠﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻷﻥ ﻴﻐﻴﺭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﺸﺨﺹ ﻝﺩﻴﺔ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻌﻴﺵ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻌﺘﻤﺩ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﺇﻥ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﻭﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺴﻠﻴﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﻝﻙ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻭﻨﺔ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺠﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﺇﻥ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻭﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺴﻭﻴﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺭﻓﻴﻘﻙ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻋﺎﻝﻴﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻁﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﻴﻜﺴﺭﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻬﺩ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﺭﺘﻔﻊ ﺃﻋﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﻁﻴﻥ ﺠﻨﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺍﻝﺘـﻰ ﺘـﻨﺠﻡ ﻋـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﻘﻭﻁ ﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ‪ .‬ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﺇﻥ ﺤﺎﻓﻅﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻘﻭﻁ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﻜل ﺨﺒﺭﺓ ﺍﺩﺨﺭﺘﻬﺎ ﻝﺭﻓﻴﻕ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒﻠﻙ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺘﺯﻭﺝ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻜﻡ ﺃﻨﻙ ﻓﺎﺌﺯ ﻷﻨﻙ ﺘﻤﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﻁﻭل ﺍﻝﻌﻤﺭ ﺒﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻹﺭﺸﺎﺩﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻻ ﺘﺯﺍل ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻻ ﺒﺄﺱ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺤﺘـﻰ ﺘـﺭﺘﺒﻁ‬
‫ﺒﻌﻬﺩ ﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺼﻴﺭ ﻝﻙ ﻓﺭﺼﺔ ﺃﻓﻀل ـ ﺃﻗﺼﺩ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻤﻥ ﺤﻴﺙ ﻤﺸﻴﺌﺔ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻌﻅ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺨﻁﺎﺀ ﺒﻌـﺽ ﺍﻷﺯﻭﺍﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﺨﻁﺒﺘﻬﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻤﺭﺓ ﻤﻊ ﺸﺎﺏ ﻭﺸﺎﺒﻪ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﺎﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺨﻁﻁﺎ ﻝﻠﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﺨﻼل ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺎ ﻏـﺎﺭﻗﻴﻥ ﻓـﻰ ﺤـﺏ‬
‫ﺒﻌﻀﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﻵﺨﺭ ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺩﻴﻬﻤﺎ ﺍﺸﺘﻴﺎﻕ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﺯﻭﺠﺎ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻁﻠﺒﻭﺍ ﻤﺸﻴﺌﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﺯﻤﻭﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺩﺨﺭﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﺒﻴـﺭ ﺍﻝﻨﻬـﺎﺌﻰ ﻝﺤﻴـﺎﺘﻬﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ‬

‫ﻴﺘﺯﻭﺠ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻜﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﻭﻗﻌﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻤﻌﺭﻭﻓﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﺨﻴﺒﺔ ﺃﻤل ﻭﺇﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﻷﻨﻬﻤﺎ ﺫﻫﺒﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻌﻴﺩ ﻭﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺫﺭ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﻭﻗﻔﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﺘﻘﻭﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ !! ﻫﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺭﺃﻴﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﺘﻔﻜﻴـﺭ‬
‫ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﻨﻅﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺘﺒﻨﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻋﻘﻠﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺠﺴﺩﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻯ ﻤﻌﻠﻘﺎﺕ ـ ﺼﻭﺭ ﻷﻭﻝﻭﻴﺎﺕ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺭﺘﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﺘﻤﻀﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﻬـﺩﻑ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻪ ﻤﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﻵﺨﺭ ﻜﺼﺩﻴﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﻤﻀﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻀﺤﻙ ﻭﺍﻝﻠﻌﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻴﺭ ﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﻴﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺩﺍﺌﻕ ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﻁﺊ‬
‫ﻭﻝﻌﺏ ﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻡ ‪ ..‬ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ !! ﺇﺫﻥ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﻨﻤﻭ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ!‬
‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻝﺴﺕ ﻁﺒﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻨﻔﺴﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻭﺴﻴﻁ ﹰﺎ ﺭﻭﺤﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﺃﻥ ﻨﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻨﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺤﻴﺙ ﺍﻝﻨﺠﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻨﺸﻜﺭ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠـل‬
‫ﺤﺒﻪ ﻝﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻻ ﻴﺴﺎﻭﻴﻪ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻭﻗﻑ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺒﺴﺎﻁﺔ ﺘﻠﺘﻘﻁ ﻴﺩﻫﺎ ﻭﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﺘﺼﻠﻰ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻜﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻋﻤﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻝﺘﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻪ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻘﻑ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻜﻤﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﷲ ﻴﻤﻨﺢ ﻭﺼﻴﺔ ﻝﻠﺤﻤﺎﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻭﻗﺎﻴﺔ ﻭﻫﻰ " ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ "‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺡ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻐﺎﻤﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺯﻭﺍﺠﻙ ﻷﻨﻙ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ‪.‬ﺍﻨﻪ ﻤﺜل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺨﺫ‬
‫ﺍﷲ ﻴﺩﻙ ﻭ ﻴﺴﻴﺭ ﺒﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺄﺨﺫ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻭﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻝﺘﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﻜل ﺸﺊ !! ﻭﺠﺩﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺡ ﻭﺍﻹﺜﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻐﺎﻤﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺫﻯ ﻗﺒل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺤﻴﺎﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﺘﺼﻴﺒﻙ " ﺍﻝﺸﻴﺨﻭﺨﺔ " ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﻴﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺇﺭﺍﺩﺓ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺤﻔﻅ ﺠﺴﺩﻙ ﻝﺸﺭﻴﻙ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﺠﻌل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻫﺩﻓﻙ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻰ‪ ،‬ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﺒﻭﻝﺱ ﻓﻰ ) ‪١‬ﻜﻭ ‪ A' ً K> " ( ١:٧‬أن " ‪ h0%‬ا‪A0‬أة "‪ .‬ﻭﻴﻘﺼﺩ ﺒﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺃﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ ﺒﺎﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﺨﻁـﺄ‪،‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻻﺴﺘﻘﺒﺎل ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺎﻓﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻻ ﻴﻨﻁﻕ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﷲ‬
‫ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﺱ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﺴﺏ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻓﺄﻨﺕ ﻤﺅﻫ ﹰ‬
‫ﻷﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻜﺎﻓﺊ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﺒﺤﺜﻭﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺤﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻗﺼﺔ " ﺃﻝﻴﺱ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻼﺩ ﺍﻝﻌﺠﺎﺌﺏ " ﺘﺼﻴﺒﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺤﺘﻰ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﺴﺎﺀل ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻜﺘﺒﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ ﺃﺴﺎﺴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻬـﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ !! ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ ﻜﺘﺒﻬﺎ " ﻝﻭﻴﺱ ﻜﺎﺭﻭل " ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺒﻨﺕ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺃﺴﻤﻬﺎ " ﺃﻝﻴﺱ " ﺭﺁﻫﺎ ﺘﻨﻤـﻭ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻤﺨﺎﻁﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ـ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻨﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ‪ ،‬ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﺫﺭﻫﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻝﺤﻔﺭ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺍﻝﻤﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻭﺍﺠﻬﻬﺎ ﻓـﻰ‬

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‫ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ـ ﺍﻝﺴﻘﻭﻁ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻔﺭﺓ ﺍﻷﺭﻨﺏ‪ .‬ﺭﺃﻯ ﺍﻝﺤﺯﻥ ﻭﺍﻷﺴﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﺤﺒﻪ ﻝﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻴﺌﺔ " ﺃﻝﻴﺱ " ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﺩﻡ ﻝﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺘﺤﺫﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻝﻐﺔ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻬﻤﻬﺎ ﻁﻔﻠﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻤﻨﺔ ﺘﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻠﻐﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺼل ﺍﺒﻨﺘﺎﻯ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺘﺎﻥ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺴﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺩﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﻋﻠﻕ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﻏﺭﻓﻬﻡ ﺸﻌﺎﺭﹰﺍ ـ ﺇﻥ ﺘﺭﻜﺘﻨﻰ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﺃﻓﻌـل‬
‫ﺫﻝﻙ ـ ﻴﻘﻭل " ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ‪ ،‬ﺘﻤﺘﻌﻰ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺘﺠﺭﺤﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ "‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﻷﺒﻨﺘﺎﻨﻰ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ "‪ " ،‬ﻜﻭﺭﺘﻴﻨﻰ " ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺃﺩﻋﻭﻫﺎ " ﻜﻭﺭﻜﻰ "‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﻤﺘﻌﺎ ﺃﻜﺜـﺭ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻝﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻥ ﻝﺤﻅﺎﺕ ﻋﻅﻴﻤﺔ !! ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﺭﻗﻌﺔ ﻤﺘﻌﺔ ؟! ﻫل ﻫـﻰ‬
‫ﺭﻴﺎﻀﺔ ﺍﻝﻁﻴﺭﺍﻥ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﺃﻡ ﺘﺴﻠﻕ ﺍﻝﺠﺒﺎل ﺃﻡ ﺭﺴﻡ ﻝﻭﺤﺔ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻡ ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺴﻤﻔﻭﻨﻴﺔ " ﺒﻴﺘﻬﻭﻓﻥ " ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺎﻨﻭ ؟! ﻜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﻬﺎ !‬
‫ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭل ﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ " ﺍﻝﺘﺭﺍﺠﻴﺩﻴﺎ " ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻋﻥ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺸﻜﺎل ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﻨﻭﻥ ﺨﻁﺄ " ﻤﺘﻌﺔ "‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﺭﺡ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺫﻭﻗﻬﺎ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺃﻭ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻤﻨﺫ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺒﻁﻭﻴل ﺨﺭﺠﺕ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺒﻨﺘﺎﻨﻰ ﻝﻤﻌﺴﻜﺭ ﻝﻠﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺘﻨﻅﻤﻪ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻷﺸﺠﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻐﺎﺒﺔ ﺘﺘﻨﺎﺜﺭ ﺒﻴﻥ ﻓﺭﺸﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺯﻫﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﻤﺭﺍﺀ ﻭﺃﺸﺠﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻗﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻯ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻨﺎﻀـﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﺌﺘﻼﻑ ﺘﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﻜل ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﻤﺱ ﺘﻤﻴل ﺒﺯﺍﻭﻴﺔ ‪. ٥ ٨٠‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﻴﺩ ﻭﺘﺴﻠﻕ ﺍﻝﺠﺒل ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﺤﺘﻰ ﻤﻨﺘﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﺭ ﻅـل‬
‫ﻋﻤﺎﻝﻘﺘﻨﺎ ﻴﺘﺯﺤﻠﻘﻭﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﺀ ﻴﺘﺠﻤﺩ ﺘﺩﺭﻴﺠﻴ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩﺓ ﻝﻼﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺎﻝـﺕ " ﺃﺒـﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺩﻋﻨـﻰ‬
‫ﺃﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ ﻭﻗﺘ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻀﺎﻓﻴ ﹰﺎ " ﻓﻘﻠﺕ ﻝﻬﺎ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻤﺘﻌﻰ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ‪ ،‬ﻴﺎ ﺒﻨﻴﺘﻰ ﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺒﺭﻭﺩﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﺀ ﻤﻨﺨﻔﻀﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ !! "‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺠﺎﺒﺘﻨﻰ " ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻻ ﻴﻬﻤﻨﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ " ﺃﻜﺭﻩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺠﺭﺡ ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻜﻠﻤﻬﺎ ﺒﺄﻜﺜﺭ ﺠﺩﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻨﻅﺭﺕ ﻓـﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬـﺎ‬
‫ﺒﺤﺏ ﺭﺍﺠﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻀﻊ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﻝﻠﺤﻜﻤﺔ ﺍﻷﺒﻭﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻫﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻜﻰ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻠﺕ ﻝﻬﺎ " ﺒﺎﻨﻴﻭﺕ ـ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺤﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺎﺩﻴﻬﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ـ ﻓﻰ ﺨﻼل ﺴﺎﻋﺘﻴﻥ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺯﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﻝﺠﻭ ﺒﺭﻭﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺤﻭﻝﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺩﻴﻨﺎ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻁﻭﻴل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻴﺱ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺃﻯ ﻤﻼﺒﺱ ﺠﺎﻓﺔ‬
‫ﻝﺘﻐﻴﺭﻯ ﻤﻼﺒﺴﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺒﻠﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺸﻜﻠﻙ ﺒﺎﺌﺱ ﻭﺒﺎﺭﺩ ﺒﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺭﻜﻭﺏ ﺍﻝﺯﻻﺠﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻴﺎ ﺴ‪‬ﻜﺭﺘﻰ ﺩﻋﻴﻨـﺎ ﻨﻨﺘﻅـﺭ ﺤﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻴﻑ ‪." ..‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺭﻏﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ﻝﻡ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺩﻗﺎﺌﻕ ﺨﻁ ﺍﻝﺘﺯﺤﻠﻕ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﺘﻤﺭ " ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﻫـﺫﺍ "‪ ،‬ﺃﻤـﺎ "‬
‫ﻜـﻭﺭﺘﻴﻨﻰ " ﻓﻤﻨﺫ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺜﺔ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻘﻔﺯ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻨﻁﻴﻁ ﻤﺜل ﻋﻔﺭﻴﺕ ﺍﻝﻌﻠﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﺒﻌﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺤﺒﻰ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻻﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭل " ﻻ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨـﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻨﺨﻔﻀﺕ ﺸﻌﺒﻴﺘﻰ ﺒﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ‪ % ٤٠‬ﻤﻊ ﺒﻨﺎﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺴﺎﻋﺘﻴﻥ ﺃﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻤﺤﺒﺘﻰ ﻭﺩﻑﺀ ﻗﻠﺒﻰ ﺘﺠﺎﻫﻬﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻨﺴﻴﺎ ﻜل ﺸـﺊ ﺒﺨﺼـﻭﺹ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺭﺠﻭﻉ ﺍﻻﻀﻁﺭﺍﺭﻯ!!‬
‫ﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﻝﻜﻥ ﻻ ﺘﺠﺭﺡ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ !!‬
‫ﻫل ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺭﺅﻴﺘﻙ ‪ %١٠٠‬ﻝﺘﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﻭﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻨﺘﺎﺌﺞ ﻜل ﻗﺭﺍﺭ ﺘﺘﺨﺫﻩ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ؟ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺸﺨﺼﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩ ﻝﻜـﻥ ﻋﻠـﻰ ﺍﻷﻗـل‬
‫ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺠﻨﺏ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺫﻯ ‪ ..‬ﺍﷲ ﻴﺤﺒﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺭﻯ ﺃﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻁ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﺭﻯ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻴﻀـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﺤﺯﻴﻨ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﻘﺘﻨﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻤﻕ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭﹰﺍ ﺤﻴ ﹰﺎ‪..‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﻤﺘﻌﺘﻙ‪،‬ﻋﺵ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪،‬ﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺤـﺩﻭﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻭﻀﻌﻬﺎ ﺍﷲ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺫﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ!! ﻝﻜﻥ ﻻ ﺘﺠﺭﺡ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻷﻥ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ﻝﻡ ﺘﺴﺘﻤﻊ ﻷﺒﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻑ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺒﺭﻭﺩﺓ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻠﺯﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻜﺴـﺭ‬
‫ﻗﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺴﺘﺠﻠﺏ ﻋﻭﺍﻗﺏ ﻭﺨﻴﻤﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﻴﺵ ﺒﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﻨﺫ ﺃﺴﺒﻭﻋﻴﻥ ﺤﺎﻭﻝﺕ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ ﺸﺎﺒﺔ ﻋﺯﻴﺯﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻰ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻓﺸﻠﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﻜﺴﺭﺕ ﻗﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻬـﺎ ﻻ‬
‫ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﺘﻤﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺒﻠﺩ ‪ ..‬ﺨﻁﻁ ﺍﷲ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺎﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺸـﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺼـﺤﻴﺢ‬
‫) ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺝ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﺔ ( ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﺤﻴﺢ ) ﻋﺵ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺠﻴﺔ ( ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺎﺴﺏ ) ﻓﻰ ﺠﻤﺎل ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ (‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻯ ﺸـﺨﺹ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻯ‬
‫ﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻯ ﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻫﻭ " ﺯﻨﺎ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺘﺤﺫﺭﻨﻰ ﻭﺘﺤﺫﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻬﺭﺏ ﺒﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻌﻁﻴﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻁﺭﻴﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﻬﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﻭﻋﻭﺩﻩ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻝﻙ‬
‫ﻭﻝﻰ ﻫﻰ‪:‬‬
‫" و(‪ K‬ا أ‪ K‬ا‪F‬ى ‪%HD (4 J‬ن )ق " ‪>E.8D‬ن  ‪ , >H-‬ا‪ %H.‬أ? ً" ا‪>E.8. F G9‬ا أن ‪9.D‬ا "‪.‬‬
‫) ‪ ١‬ﻜﻭ ‪( ١٣:١٠‬‬
‫ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﻨﺘﺎﻥ ﺃﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﺘﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﻝﺘﻁﻠﺏ ﺍﻝﻨﺼﻴﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﺠﺭﻭﺤﺔ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ﻭﺘﺯﺭﻑ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﺘﺎﺯ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﻓﺸﻠﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻬﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺠﺭﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﻰ ﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻋﺎﻤﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﻭل ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﺸﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺩﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﺘﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻨﻪ ﻜل ﻓﺘﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺸﻬﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﻜﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺭﻴﺎﻀﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻗﻭﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻝﻪ ﺴﻤﻌﻪ ﺴﻴﺌﺔ ﻤﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻔﺘﻴﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺘﻜﺒﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻩ ﻴﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﺨﺼﻭﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺘﻪ ﻝﻠﺒﻨﺎﺕ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺍﻨﺠﺫﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﺴﺒﻭﻋﻴﻥ ﺘﻠﻘﺕ ﻤﻜﺎﻝﻤﺔ ﺘﻠﻔﻭﻨﻴﺔ ﻤﻨﻪ ﻁﻠﺏ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻬﺎ ﻋﺎﻝﻡ ﺃﺤﻤـﺭ‬
‫ﺼﻐﻴﺭ‪.‬‬

‫ﻻ " ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﻨـﺎﻙ‬

‫ﻼ ﻤﻌﻘﻭ ﹰ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻋﻭﺍﻁﻔﻬﺎ ﻫﺎﺩﺌﻪ ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﺎ ‪ ١٠‬ﺜﻭﺍﻥ ﻭﺘﻘﻭل ﻻ ﻭﺘﻬﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻋﻁﺕ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺸﻜ ﹰ‬
‫ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺘﻪ ﻻ ﺒﺄﺱ ﺴﺄﺫﻫﺏ " ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﻝﺘﻘﻁﻬﺎ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺨﻁﻁ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻘﻴﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜﺭﺴﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻤﺭ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻌﺭﺽ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻬﺎ " ﻝﻘﺩ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﺭﺽ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻤل ﺩﻋﻴﻨﺎ ﻨﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﻁﺊ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ‪ ،‬ﺴـﻨﻠﻌﺏ ﻤﻌﻬـﻡ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻁﺎﺌﺭﺓ ﻭﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻠﻌﺏ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ ﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﺤﻤﺭ ﺜﺎﻥ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻤﺭﺓ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻁﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺎﻝﺕ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻬﺎ " ﺃﻨﻪ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺤﻭﻝﻰ ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﻻ ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل " ﻭﻗﺎﻝﺕ " ﻫﻴﺎ‬
‫ﻼ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺒﻨﺎ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﻁﺊ ﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺃﻯ ﻭﻝﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻗﺎل " ﻴﺎﻩ ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻠﺔ ﻗﺩ ﺘﺤﺭﻜﺕ‪ ،‬ﻫﻴﺎ ﻨﺘﻤﺸﻰ ﻗﻠﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ ﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﺤﻤﺭ ﺜﺎﻝﺙ‪.‬‬

‫ﻭﻗﺩ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﺼﻌﻭﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﻻ " ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻀﺌﻴل ﻷﻥ ﺘﺘﺨﺫ ﻗﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﻀﻐﻁ ﻴﺯﺩﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﻭﺍﻓﻘﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺒﻘﻰ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﻌـﺩ‬
‫ﺜﻼﺜﻴﻥ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺩﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﻘﺘﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﻤﻘﻌﺩﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻁﻠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻀﻊ ﺯﺭﺍﻋﺔ ﺤﻭل ﻜﺘﻔﻴﻬﺎ ﻭﺒﺩﺃ " ﻴﻌﻤل ﺤﺭﻜﺎﺘﻪ " ﻝﻴﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭﻫﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﻠﻡ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺒﻊ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻘﻠﻬﺎ ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﺴﻬل ﺍﻝﺭﺅﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻷﻋﻼﻡ ﺘﺭﻓﺭﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺴﺘﺴﻠﻤﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺘﺴﻊ ﺃﺸـﻬﺭ ﺠـﺎﺀﺕ‬
‫ﻼ ﺒﻼ ﺃﺏ‪ .‬ﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﻝﻜﻥ ﻻ ﺘﺠﺭﺡ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺃﻫﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ ﻤﻥ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺘﻪ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﹶﺴﻠﻡ‪ .‬ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻭﺍﻀﺤﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ‪ .‬ﻫـﻭ‬
‫ﺒﻤﻭﻝﻭﺩ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺸﺭﻋﻰ‪ ،‬ﻁﻔ ﹰ‬
‫ﻴﺤﺒﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﻀﻊ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻙ ﺤﺩﻭﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺨﺘﺎﺭ ﺍﻻﺒﺘﻌﺎﺩ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺼﻴﺩﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻰ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﺤﻤﻴﻡ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺩﻤﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﻤﺅﺨﺭﹰﺍ‪:‬‬
‫" ﺠﻭ ‪ ..‬ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل ﻻ ﻷﻭل ﻝﻔﺔ ﻤﺨﺩﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺭﻜﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺄﺨﺫ ﺍﻝﺤﺒـﻭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴـﺭﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ‬
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‫ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﺘﺸﻑ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺘﺸﺒﻌﻙ ﻁﻭﻴﻼﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺘﺠﺩ ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻭﺠﻬﻙ ﻝﻨﻭﻉ ﺃﻓﻀل ﺃﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺩﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺘﺩﺭﻴﺠﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺯﺭﺍﻋـ ‪‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻭﺭﻤﺘﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻤﻨﻅﺭﻫﻤﺎ ﻴﺩﻋﻭ ﻝﻠﺸﻔﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻭﻗﻑ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﻋﻘﻠﻰ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌل "‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻤﺴﻜﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺠﻨﺱ‪ ،‬ﺴﺭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻬﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﺔ ﻻ ﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻫﺭﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗﻑ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﻅﻬﺭ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻡ ﺃﺤﻤﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴـﻬل‬
‫ﻼ ﻝﻠﻬﺭﺏ ﻭﺘﻨﺠﻭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺒﺴﻬﻭﻝﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﻗل " ﻻ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺴﺒﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﻁﺎﻝﻤﺎ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺘﻠﺘﻬﺏ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻙ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺼﺒﺢ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺏ ﺤﺘﻰ‪ .‬ﺍﺸﻜﺭ ﺍﷲ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻴﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﻝﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺍﻨﻪ‬
‫ﻴﻬﺒﻨﻰ ﺍﻹﺭﺸﺎﺩ ﻝﻴﺨﺭﺠﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻷﻓﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﺎﺴﺘﺤﻘﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﺫﻫﺏ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻭﺃﺘﺒﻊ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﻴﺎ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ﻭ " ﻜﻭﺭﺘﻴﻨﻰ "‬

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‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺩﻓﺎﻋﻬﻡ ﻤﺘﺯﺍﺤﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺭﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻨﺭﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺓ ﻝﻸﻤﺎﻡ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﻤﺭﻤﺎﻫﻡ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺤﺭﺯ ﺍﻝﻬـﺩﻑ‪ .‬ﺒـﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺠﺭﺤﺎ ﺃﻨﻔﺴﻜﻤﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻼﻋﺏ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺙ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻊ ﻤﻨﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻗﻤﻨﺎ ﺒﺤﻔﺭ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻫﺠﻤﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﺭﻴﻘﻬﻡ‪ " ..‬ﺍﻤﺴﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﺒﻊ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻔﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﺫﻓﻬﺎ‬
‫" ﺤ‪‬ﻭﺼﺭ ﺜﻼﺙ ﻤﻨﺎ ﺒﻼﻋﺒﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﺼﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻓﺘﻤﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻠﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﻓﺎﻉ ﻴﺴﺎﺭﻯ ﻭﺍﻝﻘﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻁﺎﺭﺕ ﻨﺎﺤﻴـﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺒـﻊ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻔـﻰ‬
‫ﻯ ﻷﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻭﻡ ﺒﻬﺠﻤﺔ ﻋﻜﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺴﺄﺤﺭﺯ ‪ ٦‬ﻨﻘﺎﻁ ﺒﺴﻬﻭﻝﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﻴﻤﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻬﻭﺍﺀ ﻝﻴﻠﺘﻘﻁﻬﺎ ﺯﻤﻴﻠﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﺴﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩ ‪‬‬

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‫ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺍﻀﻁﺭﺒﺕ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻻﺭﺘﺒﺎﻙ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻰ ﺨﻁ ﺩﻓﺎﻋﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻯ ﺍﺘﺠﺎﻩ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ؟ ﻓﻜﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺫﻫﺒﻭﺍ ﻓـﻰ ﻫـﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺘﺠﺎﻩ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻻﺘﺠﺎﻩ !! ﻭﻫﺠﻤﺕ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﻫﺠﻤﺔ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ ﺠـﺩﹰﺍ! ﺫﻫﺒـﺕ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺘﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ‪ .‬ﻫل ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼﺩﻕ ﺫﻝﻙ ؟! ﻭﻓﻘﺩﺕ ﺭﺅﻴﺔ ﻻﻋﺒﻰ ﻫﺠﻭﻡ ﺍﻝﺨﺼﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺤ‪‬ﻭﺼﺭ ﺯﻤﻴﻠﻰ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺨﺴﺭﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻥ ﺃﻨﺴﻰ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﻫﺫﺍ !! ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺭﺘﺒﻜ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺠﺎﺀ ﺸﺭﻴﻁ ﺍﻝﻔﻴﺩﻴﻭ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺠل ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﺒﺎﺭﺍﺓ‪ ،‬ﻋﺭﻀﻪ ﻤﺩﺭﺒﻨﺎ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨـﺭﻯ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺍﺴﻠﻡ ﺒﺎﻻﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﻀﺔ ﻴﺭﺘﺒﻙ ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻻﺘﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺄ‪.‬‬
‫ﻴــﺩﻋﻭ ﺍﻝﻜﺘــﺎﺏ " ﺍﻝــﺫﻫﺎﺏ ﻓــﻰ ﻁﺭﻴــﻕ ﺨــﺎﻁﺊ " ﺒﻌﻴــﺩﹰﺍ ﻋــﻥ ﺍﷲ ـ ﺨﻁﻴــﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫــﺫﺍ ﻭﺍﻀــﺢ ﺠــﺩﹰﺍ‬

‫ﻵﻥ ﻜل ﻤﻨﺎ ﺫﻫﺏ ﻭﻝﻭ ﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺨﺎﻁﺊ‪ ،‬ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻨﺎ ﺨﻁﺎﻩ‪.‬‬
‫" إذ ا‪ ,9H‬ا‪ME5‬وا وأزه ‪ 4H‬ا " ) ﺭﻭ ‪( ٢٣:٣‬‬
‫" ‪" N‬رًا و‪ J‬وا‪ ) " 4:‬ﺭﻭ ‪( ١٠:٣‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺴﺒﻴل ﺍﻝﻤﺜﺎل‪ ،‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ " ﺍﻝﺯﻨﺎ " ﻤﺜل ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺤﺩﻭﺩ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻓﻰ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻙ‬
‫ﺴﻴﺊ ﻝﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺓ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﺩﻴﻨﺎ ﻫﻨﺎ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻔﻅﺎﺕ ﻵﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻗﺎل " وأ‪ 0‬أ‪4V0B 01‬ل ‪
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‫"‪A‬أة  ‪ B  !-‬ز‪ ) "  '4 B !
1‬ﻤﺕ ‪ . ( ٢٨:٥‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻴﻌﺘﺒﺭ ﺸﺊ ﺴﻴﺊ ﻤﻥ ﻭﺠﻪ ﻨﻅﺭ ﺍﷲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻡ ﺃﻗﺎﺒل ﻭﻝﺩ ﺃﻭ ﺒﻨﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﺎ ﻓﻜﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل ﻏﻴﺭ ﻨﻘﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺒﺄﺱ‪ .‬ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﺴﺎﻋﺩﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﻴﻀـﺎﺡ ﻁﺭﻴﻘـﺔ‬
‫ﺘﺘﻌﺎﻤل ﺒﻬﺎ ﻤﻊ ﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻙ‪ .‬ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻝﻤﻼﺒﺴﻬﻡ ﻭﺴﻠﻭﻜﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﻤﺴﺘﺤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﻭﻻ ﺘﻔﻜﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺒﻨﺎﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﺎﺭ ﻨﺸﺎﻫﺩ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﺍﻤﺞ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻠﻔﺎﺯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻨﻅﺭﹰﺍ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺄﻝﺔ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺘﺠﺎﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻅﻬﺭﺕ ﺸﺎﺒﻪ ﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ ﻤﺎﻜﺭﺓ ﺘﻜﺎﺩ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻋﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﻀﺤﺔ ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻙ ﻤﺒﺎﺸﺭﺓ !!‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ !! ﻝﻜﻥ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻤﻬﻡ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻷﻫﻡ ﻫﻭ ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﺄﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ‪ .‬ﻴﻤﻜﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﺨﻴل ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﺃﻭ ﻓﺘﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﺨﺭﻴﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻝﻴﺱ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺒل ﺴﻴﺴﺒﺏ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺒﻰ ﺤﻜﻴﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺴﻴﺭ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻤﻤﻠﻭﺀ ﺒﺎﻝﺒﺫﺍﺀﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ " ﻤﺎﻨﺵ ﺒﺄﻝﻤﺎﻨﻴﺎ‪ " :‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺨﻁﺊ " ﻝﺫﺍ ﻻ ﺘﺩﻴﻥ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻙ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﺭﺍﺩﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﻻ ﺘﺭﻜﺯ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺘﻔﻜﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻴﻘﻭل ﻝﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺒﻭﻀﻭﺡ ﺃﻥ ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻨﺎ ﺨﻁﺎﻩ ‪ ..‬ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻝﻠﺨﻁﺎﺓ ؟ ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﺓ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻨﻔﺼﻠﻭﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺍﷲ ) ﻤـﻭﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺒﺩﻯ ـ ﺠﺤﻴﻡ (‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻓﻘﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﻓﺼل ﻜﺘﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺭﻴﺦ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪:‬‬

‫) ﻜل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ (‬ ‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺤﺏ‬

‫) ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺨﺎﻝﻴﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ (‬ ‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻋﺎﺵ‬
‫) ﻤﻠﻌﻭﻨ ﹰﺎ (‬ ‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻤﺎﺕ‬
‫) ﻤﻨﺘﺼﺭﹰﺍ (‬ ‫ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‬
‫) ﻝﻴﺤﻴﺎ ﻓﻴﻙ (‬ ‫ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺭﺴل ﺭﻭﺤﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﻭﺩ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ) ﻝﻴﺩﻋﻭ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ ﻜل ﻤﻥ ﺘﺒﻌﻭﻩ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒﺩ (‬

‫* أ‪B‬ر و‪:A*-‬‬
‫‪ - ١‬ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺤﺩ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻻ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺍﻻﺒﺘﻌﺎﺩ ﺒﻌﺩﻩ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٢‬ﻭﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺍﻋﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ؟‬
‫ﻋﺭﻑ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻗﺎﺒﻠﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﻴﺭﻯ ﻭﻗﻭﺍﻋﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﺒﺘﺔ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٣‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ‪‬‬
‫‪ - ٤‬ﺃﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌل‪ ،‬ﻫل ﻻ ﺒﺄﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ؟‬

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 ‫‪ - ٥‬ﻤﺘﻰ ﻴﺼﺒﺢ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﺨﻁﻴﺔ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٦‬ﺃﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻗﻭﺍﻋﺩ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻨﻭﺍﻫﻴﻪ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٧‬ﺃﻯ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﺜﻨﻴﻥ ﻴﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﷲ‬
‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻨﻘﺎﺩ ﺒﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭﻩ؟‬
‫‪ - ٨‬ﻫل ﺘﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺍﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﻠﻡ ﺒﺄﻥ " ﻜل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺨﻁﺎﻩ " ؟‬

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‫ﺍﻋﺘﺩﺕ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﻤﻀﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺎﺭﺽ ﺃﻯ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻴﺭﺸﺩﻨﻰ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌل‪ ،‬ﻭﺨﺼﻭﺼ ﹰﺎ ﺍﷲ‪ .‬ﺃﺨﺒﺭﺘﻨﻰ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻯ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﺇﻥ ﺃﺨﻁﺄ ﺴـﻭﻑ‬
‫ﻴﺼﺒﺢ ﻋﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﻠﺨﻁﻴﺔ ) ﻴﻭ ‪ .( ٣٤:٨‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﺤﺏ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺍﻜﺘﺸﻔﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻜﻡ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﻜﺒﺭ ﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺃﺼﺎﺏ ﻗﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﺃﻜﺒﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻜﻤﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻤﺩﻫﺵ !! ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺸﺊ ﻏﺭﻴﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻹﻋﺼﺎﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻤﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﺡ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻪ ﺒﻁﻴﺌﺔ ﻭﺭﻗﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﺩﺨﻠﺕ ﻭﺴﻁﻬﺎ ﺘﺴﺤﺒﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺨل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﻋﻤﻕ ﻭﺃﻋﻤﻕ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻬﻼﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺴﺘﺴﺭﻉ ﺒﻙ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻤﺩﻤﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻥ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﺨﺭﻭﺝ ﺤﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﻴﻌﻜﺱ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﺭﻫﻴﺏ ﻅﻼﻝﻪ ﻋﻠﻴﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ !! ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﻤﻤﺘﻌﺔ ﻭﻤﺴﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﻤﺫﻫﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺸﻌﺭ " ﺸﻌﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﻁﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ " ﻤﺭﺓ ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺘﺴﺘﻤﺭ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺘﻘﻨﻊ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺃﻨﻙ ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻜﻡ ﻫﻰ ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﻤﻨﺎﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﺘﻴﻘﻅ ﻭﺘﻜﺘﺸﻑ ﺃﻨﻙ ﺘﺭﺯﺡ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺜﻘل ﻗﻴﻭﺩ ﻋﺒﻭﺩﻴﺘﻬـﺎ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻋﺒﻭﺩﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﻫﻴﺒﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺘﻌﺩ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﺘﺤﻜﻤﺕ ﻓﻴﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺤﺩ ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ ﻓﻰ ﻴـﺄﺱ‬
‫ﻭﺒﻜﺎﺀ ﻭﻴﻘﻭل‪ " :‬ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﻘﺫ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل "‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻹﻋﺼﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻤﺩﻤﺭﺓ ﻝﻠﻐﺎﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺘﺩﻤﺭ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺩﺍﺨل‪ ،‬ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﻝﺩﻯ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺩﻤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭﻝﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻴﺎﺌﺴﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌﻴﻥ ﺒﻘﻠﻴل ﻤﻥ ﻜﺅﻭﺱ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﻤﻊ ﻤﺩﻤﻨﻰ ﺤﺒﻭﺏ ﺍﻝﻜﻴﻑ ﻭﺤﻘﻥ ﺍﻝﻬﻠﻭﺴﺔ ﻭﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ ﻋﻨـﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻭﻻﺩ ﻭﺍﻝﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺼﺎﺒﻴﻥ ﺒﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﺍﻝﺴﻠﺒﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺭﻭﺍ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﻠﻴل ﻤﻊ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﺃﻭ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻬﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻤﺴﺘﻤﺘﻌﻴﻥ ﺒﻘﻠﻴل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻴﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﺯﺍﺌﻔ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺸﻜﺎل‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺘﺠﺭﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻴﺱ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻴﺠﺭﺡ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﺓ ﻝﻠﺠﻨﺱ ﺨﺎﺭﺝ ﺍﻝﺤﺩﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺄﺨﺫ ﺸﻜ ﹰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻬﻰ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺘﺭﻙ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫل ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻗﺼﺔ " ﺒﻭﻨﻰ ﻭﻜﻼﻴﺩﻯ "‪ ،‬ﺒﺩﺃ ﻫﺭﻭﺒﻬﻤﺎ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﻜﻭﻤﻴﺩﻴﺔ ﻭﺤﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﻭﺍ ﺘﺤﺕ ﻋﺒﻭﺩﻴﺔ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻫﻡ‪ ،‬ﻝـﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻻﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﺭﻗﻭﺍ ﻭﻴﻘﺘﻠﻭﺍ ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﻌﻴﺸﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺘﻬﻡ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺴﺠﻨﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﺎﻋﺎ ﺍﻝﺨﺭﻭﺝ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻌﺎﻡ ﻜﺎﻤـل ﻭﻨﺼـﻑ‬
‫ﻝﻴﻤﺎﺭﺴﺎ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴﺔ ! ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺍﻝﻔﻴﻠﻡ !! ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺒﺩﻭﺍ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻴﻑ ﺭﺍﻭﻏﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﻁﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻤـﺎ ﻴﻘـﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺒـﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻘـﻭل‬
‫ﻭﻴﻌﻴﺸﻭﻥ ﺒﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﻭﻴﺴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻅﻬﺭ " ﺒﺎﻨﺠﻭﺯ ﺒﻜﻥ ‪ " Banjoes Pickin‬ﺍﻝﺠﺒل ﺍﻷﻨﻜﺴﺎﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﻐﻁﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﻀﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺤﺩﺙ ﺍﻻﻨﻔﺠﺎﺭ!!‬
‫ﻭﺍﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ! ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﺍﻹﻋﺼﺎﺭ ﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﻼ ﺜﻤﻥ ﺒﻼ ﻀﻭﺍﺒﻁ ‪.‬‬
‫ﻴﺎﻩ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺤﺭﹰﺍ !! ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻹﺤﺴﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﺇﻨﻪ ﺇﺤﺴﺎﺱ ﺠﻴﺩ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺭﺘﻪ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﻫﺒﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺘﺒﻊ ﺤﻜﻤﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻓﻌل ﺃﻯ ﺸﺊ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺫﻫﻨﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻤﺭ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺩﻓﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﻩ ﻷﻥ ﺘﻔﻌل ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻌﻠـﻪ‬
‫ﻤــﻊ ﺇﺤﺴــﺎﺱ ﻁﻴــﺏ ﻭﺭﺍﺌــﻊ ﻤــﻥ ﺍﻝــﺩﺍﺨل ﻹﻨﺠــﺎﺯ ﺍﻷﻤــﺭ !! " )‪MPP‬ن ‪%PP:‬رآ ا‪PP!(D PP") KPPJ‬ن أ‪%PP:‬ارًا "‬
‫) ﻴﻭ ‪ ( ٣٦:٨‬ﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻭﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﻴﻘﻭﻝﻪ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ‪ ..‬ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﻘﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﺭﺭﻙ ﻤﻥ ﻋﺒﻭﺩﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﻨﻬﺎﺌﻴ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺼﺩﻴﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺸﺎﺒﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺤﺒﻭﺴ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺴﺠﻥ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﻴﺔ ﺃﺴﻤﻪ " ﻭﻴﺴﻠﻰ " ﻜﺘﺏ ﻝﻰ ﻤﺅﺨﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤـﺎﺕ " ﻋﻨـﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺨـﺭﺝ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻌﺴﻜﺭ‪ ،‬ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ‪ .‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺍﻗﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﻯ ﻤﻼﺒﺴﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺍﻨﻪ ﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺠﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﺘﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﺠﻴﻨﺯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﺭﺘﺩﻴﻪ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻋﺎﻤﻴﻥ ﻜﺎﻤﻠﻴﻥ "‪ .‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝـ " ﻭﻴﺴﻠﻰ " ‪.‬‬
‫ﻤﺩﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻭﻜﺎﻴﻴﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺤﺭﹰﺍ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﻌﺎﻁﻰ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺩﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺤﻭل ﻝﻴﺱ ﺤﺭﹰﺍ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ‬
‫ﻻ ﻴﺸﻌﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺒﺄﻯ ﺍﺤﺘﻴﺎﺝ ﻝﻠﻀﻴﺎﻉ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺩﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻝﻴﺱ ﺤﺭﹰﺍ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﻅﺎﺭ ﺤﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻝﺸﺭﻴﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺸﺭﻴﻜﺔ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻤﺸﺒﻌﺔ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻨﺕ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺎﻤﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺭﺃﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻋﺩﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺴﻠﻤﺕ ﺠﺴﺩﻫﺎ ﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻤـﺭﹰﺍ ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻴـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﺼﻴﺒﺕ ﺒﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﻭﺍﻻﻜﺘﺌﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﻨﻔﺱ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝـﺫﻯ‬
‫ﻙ ؟! " ﻓﺎﺒﺘﺴــﻤﺕ ﻭﻗﺎﻝــﺕ‬
‫ﻜــﺎﻥ ﻴﻁــل ﻤــﻥ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬــﺎ ﻭﻫــﻰ ﺼــﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴــﺄﻝﺘﻬﺎ " ﺴــﺎﻝﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻤــﺎ ﺍﻝــﺫﻯ ﺤــﺩﺙ ﻝــ ِ‬
‫" ﺠﻭ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﻪ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ " ‪ ..‬ﺠﺎﺀﺘﻨﻰ ﺩﻋﻭﺓ ﺯﻓﺎﻓﻬﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﺒﺭﻴﺩ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﻭﻗﻊ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺒﻬﺎ ﺸﺎﺏ ﺭﺍﺌـﻊ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻭﻝﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻭﻻﺩ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺍﻝﻠﻤﺴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﻫﻭ ﺘﻌﺎﻤﻠﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻰ ﻤﻊ ﻤﻭﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﻌﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﻤ‪‬ﺴﻜﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ ﻭﻫﻰ ﻤﻀﻁﺠﻌﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺯﻭﺝ‬
‫ﺍﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﺩﺜﺔ ﺴﺠﻠﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺇﻨﺠﻴل ﻴﻭﺤﻨﺎ ﺍﻹﺼﺤﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻤﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﻌﺩﺩ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻭ‪‬ﻀﻊ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺍﻻﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻜل ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺠﻬل ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻤ‪‬ﺴﻜﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺯﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺭﺠﺭﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺭﻉ ﻭﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺘﻤل ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻨﺼﻑ ﻋﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﻭﻤﻔﺯﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﺤﻴﺭﺓ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ‬
‫ﻋﻘﺎﺏ ﻤﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻯ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻤﺔ ﺃﺼﺤﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﺍﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﺤﺠﺎﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻴﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻝﻴﺭﺠﻤﻭﻫﺎ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺕ‪ .‬ﺨﺭﺝ ﻭﻝﺩ ﺸﺠﺎﻉ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻊ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺸﺎﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻤﻭﺠﻬ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻠﻤﻪ ﻝﻠﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺒﺸﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﻨﺤﻨﻰ ﻭﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﻜﺘﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ .‬ﻝﻡ ﻴﻘل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻜﺘﺏ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺘﺨﻴﻠﻪ‬
‫ﻴﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺨﺹ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻊ ﻭﻴﻜﺘﺏ ﻋﻨﺩ ﻗﺩﻤﻴﻪ ﺃﺴﻡ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺴﺭﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻭﻜﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﻋﻤﺎﻝﻪ ﻭﺭﻗﻡ ﺍﻝﺤﺠﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻓﻨﺩﻕ ﺃﻭﺭﺸﻠﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ ‪..‬‬
‫ﻫل ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻤﺔ ﺃﺼﺤﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﺍﺘﻰ ﻭﻫﻡ ﻴﻬﺭﻋﻭﻥ ﻫﺭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﻔﻀﺢ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻫﻡ ؟ ﺍﻝﻜـل ﺭﻜـﺽ‪.‬‬
‫‪ " O‬ﻓﻘﺎﻝﺕ " " أ>‪ ."  03 0 0‬ﻓﻘـﺎل " و" أ‪ 01‬أد‪ O0‬أ‪ً 0J‬‬
‫ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﻨﻅﺭ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺃﺓ ﻭﻗﺎل "  ا‪A‬أة أ‪ $‬ه
أو‪ Og‬ا‪-%‬ن *' ‪ِ 0‬‬
‫أذه و" ‪ Gd‬أ‪ " ً J‬ﻭﺒﻨﻅﺭﻩ ﻤﻤﻠﻭﺀﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺤﻨﻥ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻁﺒﻴﻌﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﻔﺎﻓﺔ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻘﺭﺃ ﺍﻷﻓﻜﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻋﺒﺭ ﻝﻬـﺎ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﺃﻨﺎ " ﺃﻗﺒﻠﻙِ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻏﻔﺭ ﻝﻙِ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺤﺒﻙِ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﻫﺒﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﻻ ﺘﻌﻭﺩﻯ ﻝﻠﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻥ ﻤﻠﻙ ﻝﻙ ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻭﻝﺕ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻭﻫﺠﺭﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺘﻌﺩ ﻝﻬﺎ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻨﻌﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻜﻠﻔﺎﹰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼﻴﺭ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﻜﻠﻔﻙ ﻜل‬
‫ﺸﺊ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﺌﺩ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ‪.%١٠٠٠‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻫﻰ ﺘﺤﺼﻴل ﺤﺎﺼل ﻝﻠﺸﺨﺹ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻌﻁﻰ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻤﻠﻙ ﻭﻴﺭﺩ ﻝﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻴﻤﻠﻙ ‪ ..‬ﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﺤﻅﺔ‪ .‬ﺇﻥ‬
‫ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﻴﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺜﻘﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭﺩ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻥ ﺘﺤﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺘﻜﺭﺭ ﺃﺨﻁﺎﺌﻙ ﻓﻴﻤﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ‪.‬‬
‫" اه‪PP%‬ا ‪ KPP‬ا‪ ."PP!R‬آ‪ "PP6>  PPE5 PP‬ا‪"PP8!T‬ن ه‪"5 PP‬ر ‪ KPP PP‬ا‪ KPP( 4PP8H‬ا ‪FP‬ى ‪PP!R‬‬
‫‪ XEO‬إ ‪ W48‬أم ‪9>D .8‬ن أن ‪48‬آ ه ه( ‪%‬وح ا‪4P‬س ا‪FP‬ى )‪ (P‬ا‪FP‬ى (‪P‬‬
‫‪ KPP‬ا وأ!(‪ 4PP PP(! (PP8 ! .PP8 PP‬ا‪4PPH9) K9#PP .%.PP2‬وا ا )‪ PP‬أ ‪"PP8‬دآ وأروا‪PP(:‬‬
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‫‪ - ١‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻠﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﺅﺫﻯ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ؟‬

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 ‫‪ - ٢‬ﻜﻡ ﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺘﻔﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٣‬ﻤﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ـ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺄﺨﺫ ﺸﻜل ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ـ ﺤﺭﻴﺘﻙ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﻋﻨﻙ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٤‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻓﺨﺎﹰ؟‬
‫‪ - ٥‬ﻫل ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻤﺭﺓ ﻜﻨﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺘﺤﺕ ﻋﺒﻭﺩﻴﺔ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻭ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ ؟ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺤﺭﺭﺕ؟‬
‫‪ - ٦‬ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﺭﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٧‬ﻭﺼﻑ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻹﺼﺤﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻤﻥ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺒﺸﺎﺭﺓ ﻴﻭﺤﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻭﺼﻑ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٨‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻏﻔﺭ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻥ ؟‬

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‫" ﺴــــــــــــﺎﻋﺩﻨﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻷﻨــــــــــــﻰ ﺃﺸــــــــــــﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝــــــــــــﺫﻨﺏ ! "‬
‫" ﺃﻴــــــــــــــــــﻥ ﺃﺫﻫــــــــــــــــــﺏ ﻝﻠﻤﺴــــــــــــــــــﺎﻋﺩﺓ ؟ "‬

‫" ﻝﻤــــــﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺠــــــﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴــــــﺘﻤﺭ ﻓــــــﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴــــــﺎﺓ ؟ "‬

‫" ﻝﻤــــــــﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺤــــــــﺎﻭل ﺤﺘــــــــﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋــــــــﻴﺵ ؟ "‬
‫" ﻝﻤــــــــــــﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺠــــــــــــﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻐﻴــــــــــــﺭ ؟ "‬
‫ـﺭ؟ "‬
‫ـﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺘﻐﻴـــــــــــ‬
‫ـﻑ ﺃﺴـــــــــــ‬
‫" ﻜﻴـــــــــــ‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺃﺴﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺴﺌﻠﺕ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺯﻤﻥ ﻁﻭﻴل ﺒﻭﺍﺴﻁﺔ ﺃﻭﻝﺌﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﺘﺒﻌﻭﺍ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻠـﻰ ﻫـﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺎل ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻰ ﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺍﻨﺠﺫﺒﻭﺍ ﻝﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻷﻨﻪ ﺸﺨﺹ ﺠﺫﺍﺏ ﻭﻭﺩﻭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﺒﻌﻭﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ـ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻤﻌﻪ ـ ﻴﺘﺴﺎﻗﻁﻭﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻊ ﻭﻴﺘﺭﻜﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻝﺘﻔﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫﻩ ﻭﻗﺎل ﻝﻬﻡ " ﻤﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻋﻨﻜﻡ ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺘﺭﻜﻭﻨﻰ ﺍﻨﺘﻡ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ؟ " ﻓﺄﺠﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫ ﺒﺴﺅﺍل " " رب إ ‪F! K‬ه وآم ا‪"P‬ة ا‪4PG P4‬ك و!‪ 4P KP‬أ‪ "PG‬و‪"PG)%‬‬
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‫" ﻜﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ ﻋﻨﺩﻙ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻘﻭﻝﻭﻥ " ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ ﻻ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ ﺇﻻ ﺒﻭﺍﺴﻁﺘﻙ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺘﺤﻤـل‬
‫ﺃﺨﻁﺎﺌﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻨﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺃﺤﺩ ﻋﻨﺎ "‪ .‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﺅﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺒﻴﺴﻭﻉ ؟ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ " ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻗﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺤﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻯ ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻝﻠﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺓ " ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﺸﻰﺀ ﻤﺤﺯﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﻤﺒﺘﻭﺭﺓ ﻝﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺤﻴﺔ ﻤﻊ ﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﺨﺒﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻫﻭ ﺍﺒﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺨﻠﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﻭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺎﺀ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻝﻴﻅﻬﺭ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ـ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺭﻴﺩﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻤﻌﻪ ـ ﻴﺘﺴﺎﻗﻁﻭﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻊ ﻭﻴﺘﺭﻜﻭﻩ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻝﺘﻔﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫﻩ ﻭﻗﺎل ﻝﻬﻡ " ﻤﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻋﻨﻜﻡ ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺘﺭﻜﻭﻨﻰ ﺍﻨﺘﻡ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ؟ " ﻓﺄﺠﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫ ﺒﺴﺅﺍل " " رب إ ‪F! K‬ه وآم ا‪"P‬ة ا‪4PG P4‬ك و!‪ 4P KP‬أ‪ "PG‬و‪"PG)%‬‬
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‫" ﻜﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ ﻋﻨﺩﻙ "‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺄﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﻘﻭﻝﻭﻥ " ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ ﻻ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ ﺇﻻ ﺒﻭﺍﺴﻁﺘﻙ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺕ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺘﺤﻤـل‬
‫ﺃﺨﻁﺎﺌﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻨﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺃﺤﺩ ﻋﻨﺎ "‪ .‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﻴﺅﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺒﻴﺴﻭﻉ ؟ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ " ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻗﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺤﻤﻠﻬﺎ ﺒﻤﻔﺭﺩﻯ ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻝﻠﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﺓ " ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﺸﻰﺀ ﻤﺤﺯﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﻤﺒﺘﻭﺭﺓ ﻝﺨﻁﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺤﻴﺔ ﻤﻊ ﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﺨﺒـﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻫﻭ ﺍﺒﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺨﻠﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﻭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺎﺀ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻝﻴﻅﻬﺭ ﻝﻨﺎ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻘﺩ ﻓﻌل ﺃﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻤﺭ‪ ،‬ﺤﺘﻰ ﺇﻨﻨﻰ ﺸﺨﺼﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻅل ﻤﺘﻌﺠﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻜﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻫل ﻓﻬﻤﺕ ؟! ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ ﻭﺃﺤﺒﻨﻰ ﻜﺜﻴـﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺘﺴـﺎل‬
‫ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ؟ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﺴﻠﻭﺏ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺨﻠﻘﻙ ! ﻨﺤﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﺸﺭﻴﻌﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺘﻌﻠﻥ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻥ ﻴﺩﺨل ﺃﻯ ﻤﺘﺤﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻝﺫﺍ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺇﻤﺎ ﻨﺤﻥ ﺃﻭ ﻫـﻭ‬
‫ﻝﺯﺍﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﺄﻝﻡ ﻝﻴﺩﻓﻊ ﻭﻴﻭﻓﻰ ﺜﻤﻥ ﺨﺴﺎﺌﺭ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻨﺎ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻭﻷﻨﻪ ﺃﺤﺒﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﺭﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻤل ﺃﺴﻭﺃ ﻋﻘﺎﺏ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﺨﻴﻠﻪ ﺒﺸﺭ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻭﻝﻴﻠﻪ ﺃﺠﺘﺎﺯ ﺜﻼﺙ ﻤﺤﺎﻜﻤﺎﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴ‪‬ﺼﻔﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺠﻬﻪ ﻭﻴ‪‬ﺒﺼﻕ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﻴ‪‬ﺭﻓﺱ ﻭﻴ‪‬ﻀﺭﺏ ﺒﺎﻝﻌﺼﻰ ﻭﻴ‪‬ﻌﺎﻤل ﺒﻔﻅﺎﻅﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺴﻠﻤﻪ ﺤﻜﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﻜﻤـﺔ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﺍﻝﺠـﻼﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺭﻭﻤﺎﻨﻰ ـ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﺍﻩ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻓﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎﺌﻴﺔ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﻤﺴﻙ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﻜﺭﺒﺎﺝ ـ ﺼﺎﺤﺏ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺒﺎﺝ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻨﻘﺭﺃ ﻋﻨـﻪ ﻓـﻰ ﺍﻝﺘـﺎﺭﻴﺦ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺭﻭﻤﺎﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻥ ﻴﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﺸﺏ ﻤﺜﺒﺕ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻗﻁﻊ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻭل ﺍﻝﺠﻠﺩﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻘﺼﻴﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻜل ﻁﺭﻑ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﻭﺠـﺩ ﻗﻁﻌـﺔ‬
‫ﺤﺎﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﺩﻥ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﺎﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﻀﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﻀﺤﻴﺔ ـ ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺘﻠﻘﻰ ‪ ٣٩‬ﺠﻠﺩﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻜﺜﺭ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺕ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﺩﺓ ﺍﻝـ ‪ ٣٩‬ـ‬
‫ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻠﺤﻡ ﻗﺩ ﺘﻬﺭﺃ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﺴﺩ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺎل ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﺭﺨﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﺤﻴﺔ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺼﻌﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﻋﻤﻠﻴـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﻠﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻋﻨﺩ ﻫﺫﺍ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﻭﺍﺠﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺘل ﻴﺴﻤﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﺠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺩﻕ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺜﻼﺙ ﻤﺴﺎﻤﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺠﺴﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﺍﺜﻨﺎﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻅـﺎﻡ‬
‫ﻴﺩﻩ ﻭﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﺍﺨﺘﺭﻕ ﻋﻅﺎﻡ ﺭﺠﻠﻴﻪ ﻤﺜﺒﺘ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻴﺎﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺨﺸﺒﻪ ﺍﻝﺼﻠﻴﺏ‪ " .‬ﻭﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﺼﻭﺭﻩ ﺍﻷﻓﻼﻡ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻨﻤﺎﺌﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻝﻡ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻤﺯﻕ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴﻴﻥ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺓ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻭﺃﺒﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﻤﻨﻔﺼﻼﻥ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺃﺒﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤل ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻨﺎ ﺨﻁﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﺩ ﺃﺨﺫ ﻜل ﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻓﻌﻠﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﻭﻭﻀﻌﻬﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜﺘﻔﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﺍ ﺼﺭﺥ " ﻗﺩ ﺃﻜﻤل " ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل " ﻴﺎ ﺠﻭ‪ ،‬ﻤﺎﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﺘﺸﺎﺭﻝﻭﺕ‪ ،‬ﺴﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺠﻭﻝﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻗﺩ ﺩﻓﻌﺕ ﺍﺠﺭﻩ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻜﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺘﻡ ﻁـﺎﻫﺭﻴﻥ‬
‫ﻝﻸﺒﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻌﻰ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺒﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻜﻡ ﺍﻝﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺎﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻥ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻋﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻋﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﻘﻴﺎﻤﺔ ﻭﻴﻭﻡ ﻋﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﻴﻼﺩ ﻴﻌﺘﺒﺭﺍﻥ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﻤﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺭﻴﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻋﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺘﺤﻭﻻ ﺇﻝـﻰ ﺭﺠـﺎل‬
‫ﺸﺠﻌﺎﻥ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻗﺎﻡ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻴﻭﻡ ﺍﻷﺤﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻋﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺭﻴﺦ ﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺒﻼﻴﻴﻥ ﺘﺒﻌﻭﺍ ﻭﺩﻋﻭﻩ ﺭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻋﺠﺏ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺴـﻌﻴﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﻗﺩ ﻨﻠﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻥ ‪ ..‬ﻫل ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﺫﻝﻙ ؟‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺎل ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﻨﺎ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻨﺎ ﻜﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺭﻕ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻐﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻨﺴﻰ ﻜل ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻨﺎ ) ﻤﺯ ‪ ،١٢ :١٠٣‬ﻋﺏ ‪( ١٧ :١٠‬‬
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‫ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻫﻡ ﺤﺭﻜﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻝﻌﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﻁﺭﻨﺞ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻓﻬﻰ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﻔﻭﺯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻌﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺄﻗﻭﻝﻬﺎ ﻝـ " ﺩﺭﺒﻰ " ﺍﻝﺤﺼﺎﻥ ﺍﻹﻨﺠﻠﻴـﺯﻯ ﺍﻷﺼـﻴل‬
‫ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻌﺒﺭ ﺨﻁ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺎﻕ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭ ﻭﻝﻠﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻘﺒل ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻪ ﻜﺭﺏ ﻭﻤﺨﻠﺹ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺩﻴﻥ ﻋﺎﻝﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ ﺒﻴﻨﻙ ﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻫﻰ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﻴ‪‬ﻌﺎﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻘﻭﺩ ﺇﻝﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻷﺒﺩﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻴﺴﺕ ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻋﺒﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻷﺤﺩ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﺘﻘﺭﺃ ﻤﻥ ﻜﺘﺏ ﺒﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻕ‪ ،‬ﺤﺘﻰ ﺇﻥ ﻓﻌﻠﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﻤﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻭ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻨﺎﻓﻊ ﻝﻙ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﻘﺒل ﺍﻝﻌﻁﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺒﻘﻭﻝﻙ‬
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‫" ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺇﻝﻴﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺨﺎﻁﺊ ‪ ..‬ﺘﻤﺭﺩﻯ ﻭﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻯ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﺭﻗﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻜﺭﺍﻫﻴﺔ ﺠﻤﻴﻌﻬﺎ ﺃﻤﻭﺭ ﺨﺎﻁﺌﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‬
‫ﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺜﻭﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﺩﻴﺭ ﻅﻬﺭﻯ ﻝﻤﻘﺎﺒﻼﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻐﻴﺭ ﻤﺜﻤﺭﺓ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻭﺘﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻴﻨﺒﻐﻰ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ؟ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻋﻁﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻙ ﺍﻵﻥ " ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻴﻘﻭل ﻝﻙ ‪..‬‬
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‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻤﺎ ﻭﻋﺩ ﺒﻪ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻫل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻗﻠﺒﻙ ؟ ﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻤﻌﻪ ﺍﻵﻥ ‪..‬‬

‫• أ‪B‬ر و‪:A*-‬‬

‫‪ -١‬ﻫل ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻀﺭﻭﺭﻯ ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻤﻭﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ؟‬

‫‪ -٢‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺴﻤﺢ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴ‪‬ﺠﻴﺯ ﺃﺒﻨﻪ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﻓﻲ ﻤﺜل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻌﻘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺭﻫﻴﺏ ؟‬
‫‪ -٣‬ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻴﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻨﺎ ﺒﻪ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻤﺎﺕ ؟‬
‫‪ -٤‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻐﻴﺭ ﻤﻭﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ؟‬
‫‪ -٥‬ﻝﻤﺎ ﺫﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼﺩﻕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻴﺤﺒﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﺩﺭﺠﺔ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﺎﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻙ؟‬
‫‪ -٦‬ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻗﺎل " ﺍﺘﺒﻌﻨﻰ " ؟‬
‫‪ -٧‬ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻜﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﺤﻤﻴﻡ ؟‬
‫‪ -٨‬ﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻘﺔ ﺒﻙ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺒﻌﺩﻙ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ ؟‬
‫‪ -٩‬ﺇﻥ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺅﻤﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺒﻪ ؟‬
‫‪ – ١٠‬ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻭﻨﺎﻗﺵ‪ ) ..‬ﻴﻭ ‪ ) ،( ١٢ :١‬ﺭﻭ ‪.( ٢٠:٣‬‬

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‫ﻝﺘﺠﻌل ﻝﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻔﺼل ﺃﻓﻀل ﺃﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺘﺭﻜﻴﺯﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﺴﻤﺢ ﻝﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﺽ ﻝﻙ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺭ ‪ ..‬ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﻨﻭﺍﻉ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ‪:‬‬

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‫ﺃﻥ " ﺍﻝﻤﻘﻌﺩ " ﻫﻭ ﻋﺭﺵ ﻗﻠﺒﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﻥ ﻴﺠﻠﺱ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻴﺩﻋﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺴﻴﻁﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻤـﻥ ﺤﻭﻝـﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫـﺫﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺘﺼﻑ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﻴﻬﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﻌﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﻭﺍﻻﻀﻁﺭﺍﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﻭﺤﺩﺓ‪ " .‬ا‪"8!T‬ن ا‪%P "  J >E‬وح ا ن ‪) " P"6 W4PG‬‬
‫‪١‬ﻜﻭ‪( ١٤:٢‬‬
‫ﻫﻨﺎ ﺩ‪‬ﻋﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻝﻠﺩﺨﻭل ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺱ ﺃﻋ‪‬ﻁﻰ ﺒﺩﻭﺭﻩ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﻬﺏ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓـﻰ ﻜـل‬
‫ﻤﻨﺎﻁﻕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻤﺘﺎﺯ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻭﺒﻤﺸﺎﻋﺭ ﺍﻝﺴﻼﻡ‪.‬‬
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‫ﺴﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺒﺤﻼﻭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺒل ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻘﻭﺓ ﺘﻨﺯﻉ ﺍﻝﻘﺒﺢ ﻤﻨﻙ ‪..‬‬

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‫ﻫﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺱ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻔﺱ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﻌﺭﺵ ﻝﺫﺍ ﻓﻤﻌﻅﻡ ﺍﻝﻘﺭﺍﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺼﺩﺭ ﻝﻤﺼﻠﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﻨﻔﺱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻤﺴـﻴﺢ ﻤﻭﺠـﻭﺩ‬
‫ﻭﻝﻴﺱ ﻤﻭﺠﻭﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺘﺘﺼﻑ ﻋﺎﺩﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺫﺒﺫﺏ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻰ ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻻﺭﺘﻔﺎﻉ ﻭﺍﻻﻨﺨﻔﺎﺽ ﻭﺤﻀﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻁﻔﺔ‪ .‬ﻝﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺸﺨﺼـ ﹰﺎ ﺭﻭﺤﻴـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻴﻨﺒﻐﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺘﺤﻜﻡ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻁﻘﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻭﺘﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﺭﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﺘﺸﻜﺭﻩ ﺒﺎﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺫﻝﻙ‪.‬‬
‫" ا\ا ‪4HD‬وا " ) ﻴﻭ ‪ ( ٢٤:١٦‬ﻫل ﺍﷲ ﻜﺎﺫﺏ ؟‬

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 ‫ﺤﺎﺸﺎ ‪ " ..‬ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺍﻤﻸﻨﻰ ﺒﺭﻭﺤﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻋﻁﻴﻙ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ "‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ﻤﻥ ﻤﺤﺎﻭﻝﺔ ﻓﻌل ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻰ ـ ﻤﺤﺎﻭﻝﺔ ﺘﺨﻠﻴﺹ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺒﻨﻔﺴﻰ ـ ﺤﺩﺙ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺤﻘﻘﺕ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻤﺎ ﻋـﺩﺍ‬
‫ﺸﺊ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺸﺊ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﺴﻠﻤﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻠﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﻀﻴﻑ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺎﻝﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﺨﺘﻼﻑ ﺼـﻨﻌﻪ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ !!‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺤﻭ‪‬ﺭﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ ﻁﻭﺍل ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺘﻰ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺒﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺴﻠﻤﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ﻝﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺭﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ‬
‫ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﻓﺘﺎﻩ " ﺍﻷﺭﻴﺯﻭﻨﺎ " ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﻭﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﺩﺭﺒﺔ ﻝﻔﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻻﻜﺭﻭﺒﺎﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺠﺎﻤﻌﻪ " ﺍﻝﻤﻴﺜﻭﺩﺴﺕ " ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﻭﺏ‪ .‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻜﻥ‬
‫ﺸﺎﺏ " ﺘﻜﺴﺎﺱ " ﻗﺎﺒل ﺃﻯ ﺸﺎﺒﻪ ﻤﺜﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﺘﻤﺎﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻗﺭﺍﻨﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﺤﺘﺭﻤﺕ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺤـﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤﻘﻘـﻪ ﻭﺃﻤﻨـﺕ ﺒـﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺘﻌﺠﺒﺕ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺅﻤﻥ ﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺭﻴﺩﻫﺎ ﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﻝﻰ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﻴﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺍﻨﺠﺫﺒﺕ ﺇﻝﻴﻬﺎ ﺒﺩﻑﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻤﺴﻙ ﻴﺩﻫﺎ ﻭﺃُﻗﺒﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻀﻊ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﻅﺎﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻗﻠﺒﻰ‪ ،‬ﺘﻠﻙ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻋﻤﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﻗﻭﻴﺔ ﺃﻜﺜـﺭ ﻤـﻥ ﻁﺒﻴﻌـﺔ ﺭﻏﺒـﺎﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﻝﻜﻰ ﺃﺴﻴﺭ ﺒﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻭﻜﺏ ﺍﻝﺯﻓﺎﻑ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﻤﻤﺸﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ ﻭﻫﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻔﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻋﺯﻤﺕ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻨﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﺘﺒﻁ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻜل ﻤﻨﺎ ﺒﺎﻷﺨﺭ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﷲ ﻭﻋﺎﺌﻼﺘﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺭﺍﺌﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻴﺎﻡ ﺩﻴﺴﻤﺒﺭ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻗﻠﻨﺎ ﻨﺤﻥ ﺍﻻﺜﻨﻴﻥ " ﺃﻭﺍﻓﻕ " ‪ ..‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺸﺎﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻝـ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺒـﺩ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺠل ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﷲ ﻹﻋﻁﺎﺌﻪ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺓ ﻷﻥ ﻨﻨﺘﻅﺭ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﻓﻰ ﻝﻘﺎﺀﺍﺘﻨﺎ ﻤﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻨﻀﺤﻙ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻨﺯﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺩﻤﻭﻉ ﻭﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻨﺘﻨﺎﻓﺭ ﺒﻼ ﺃﺴﺒﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺘﺠﺩﻨﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺤﻤﻴﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺨﺭﺝ ﻤﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻨﺴﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺄﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺠﻤﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻭﺃﺯﻭﺭﻫﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﺃﺠﻠﺱ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺴﺭﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻰ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﻤﻊ ﺃﺴﺭﺘﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺱ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺤﻰ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻨﺎ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﺎ ﺍﻹﺭﺍﺩﺓ ﻷﻥ ﻨﻀﻊ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻝﺸﻬﻭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺡ ﻋﻴﻨﻪ ﻴﻬﺒﻨـﺎ ﺍﻝﻴـﻭﻡ ﻓﺭﺤـ ﹰﺎ ﻻ‬
‫ﻴﻭﺼﻑ‪ .‬ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻴﻤﺭ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻗﺒﻠﺔ!! ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺼﺎﻝﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻵﻥ ﺘﻘﺭﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻴﻐﻴﺭ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭﻴﻥ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻴﺯﻴل ﺍﻝـﺫﻨﺏ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﻨﻔﻭﺱ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺨﻁﺄ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺤﺭﺭﻫﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺸﺒﺎﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻴ‪‬ﺼﻠﻭﻥ ﻁﺎﻝﺒﻴﻥ ﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻝﺘﻌﻤل ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﻡ‪ ،‬ﻗﺒل ﺃﻭ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﺤﺎﻭﻝﺘﻬﻡ ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺤﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺍﺴﺘﺒﺩﻝﺕ ﻫـﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒـﺔ‬
‫ﻝﺘﺩﻤﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻨﻔﺱ ﺒﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻝﻠﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻴﻨﻤﻭ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻋﻀﻭ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺎﺌﻠﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻬﻡ ﺠﺎﺫﺒﻴﺔ ﻭﺤﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺍﻩ ﻴﻐﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺨﻰ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻴﻔﻌل ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ‪.‬‬

‫ﻼ ﺴﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻠﻨﺭﺠﺴﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺭﺘﻜﺏ ﻋﺩﻴﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻭﺍﺩﺙ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﻋﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﻭﺍﺭﻉ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻬﻭﺩﻯ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻜـﺎﻥ ﺤﻘﻴـﺭﹰﺍ‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺨﻰ ﻋﻤﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﻓﻅ ﹰﺎ ﻭﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﻤﺘﻤﺭﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻌﺠﺒﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺭﺠل ﻴﺒﻜﻰ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻴﺘﺤﺭﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ ﻭﻴﻌﻁﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﺴﻼﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻵﻥ ﻫﻭ ﻴﺤﻴﺎ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺓ ﻭﻝﺩﻴﺔ ﻋﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻙ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺴﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻘﻁ ﺇﻥ ﻓﺘﺤﺕ ﺒـﺎﺏ ﻗﻠﺒـﻙ‪،‬‬
‫ﺒﺎﺏ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺒﺎﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺒﻠﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺭﺃﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺭﺒﻴﻊ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻀﻰ ﻨﺘﺎﺌﺞ ﺇﺤﺼﺎﺌﻴﺔ ﺃﻋﻠﻨﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻭﺍﺫ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﻭﺍ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﻤـﺭ ‪ ١٨‬ﺴـﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺼـﻠﺕ‬
‫ﻨﺴﺒﺘﻬﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ‪ %١٥‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﻤﻥ ﺠﻤﻠﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﻭﺍﺫ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝـ ‪ %٨٥‬ﺍﻝﺒﺎﻗﻴﺔ ﻝﻥ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﻭﺍﺕ ﻷﻨﻬـﻡ ﺭﻓﻀـﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﻔﺭﺼـﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﻤﺔ ﻝﻬﻡ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻝﻠﻨﺠﺎﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﺸﻌﺭﺕ ﺃﻨﻙ ﻤﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﻠﻡ ﻝﻪ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﻁ ﺃﻏﻠﻕ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻙ ﻭﺃﺨﻔﺽ ﺭﺃﺴﻙ ﻭﺼﻠﻰ ﺒﺄﻤﺎﻨﺔ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻁﻠﺒﻪ‬
‫ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩﻩ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻝﻸﺒﺩ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻋﻨــﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﻜــﻭﻥ ﻝــﻙ ﺍﺨﺘﺒــﺎﺭ ﺤﻘﻴﻘــﻰ ﻤــﻊ ﺍﷲ ﺘﺠــﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻴــﺎﺓ ﺒــﺩﺃﺕ ﻤــﻥ ﺠﺩﻴــﺩ‪ .‬ﻗــﺎل ﻴﺴــﻭﻉ ﻝـــ‬
‫" ﻤﻌﻠﻡ ﺇﺴﺭﺍﺌﻴل " ﻓﻰ ) ﻴﻭ ‪ ( ٣‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻭﻝﺩ ﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﻝﻴﺩﺨل ﻤﻠﻜﻭﺕ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﻭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﻠﻡ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﻜﺎﻤل ﻝﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺘﺼـﻴﺭ ﺨﻠﻴﻘـﺔ‬
‫ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻤﺭﻭﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﻪ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺎل ﻴﺴﻭﻉ " إن آ‪] :") G!D .G‬ا و‪""PA‬ى " ) ﻴـﻭ‬
‫‪ ( ١٥:١٤‬ﻭﻓﻰ ) ‪١‬ﻴﻭ ‪ ( ١‬ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ " إن ‪ 0'4‬أن ‪A0 0‬آ ‪ 0‬و ‪ :0B '03‬ا‪)01 0%'N‬ب و ‪ 0%1 0K‬ا‪ ،" +0M‬ﻭﻓـﻰ ) ﺭﺅ‬
‫‪ ( ١٥:٣‬ﻨﺠﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﻓﺎﺘﺭﹰﺍ ﺁﺴﻭﺍ ﻤﻥ ﻜﻭﻨﻪ ﺒﺎﺭﺩﹰﺍ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺤ‪‬ﻔﻅ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻌﺜﺭﺍﺕ ؟!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺃﺘﺯﻭﺝ ؟!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺩﺨل ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺀ ؟!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ؟!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﺯﻭﺠﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺯﻭﺝ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺏ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻡ ﺼﺎﻝﺤﺔ ؟!‬
‫ﻭﺍﻹﺠﺎﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻴﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺴﺌﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﻰ ﻗﺒﻭل ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻭﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻪ‪ .‬ﻝﻜﻰ ﻴﻌﻴﺵ ﺤﺩﻴﺜﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻻﺩﺓ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﻜـل‬
‫ﻑ ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺒﺩﺃ ﺤﺩﻴﺙ ﺍﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ ﺤﻴﺎﺘـﻪ ﺒﻘـﺭﺍﺀﺓ ﻜﻠﻤـﺔ ﺍﷲ‬
‫ﻭﻴﺘﻨﻔﺱ ﻭﻴﻨﻤﻭ ! ﻫﺫﺍ ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻪ ﺤﻅ ﻭﺍﻓﺭ ﺇﻥ ﻴﻭﻝﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺒﻴﺕ ﺒﻪ ﻁﻌﺎﻡ ﻜﺎ ٍ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺼﻼﺓ ﻭﻗﻀﺎﺀ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻁﻴﺏ ﻤﻊ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺁﺨﺭﻴﻥ ـ ﻨﻌﻡ ‪ ..‬ﺤﺘﻰ ﻝﻘﺎﺀﺍﺘﻪ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻬﻡ ـ ﻭﺒﺎﻝﺸﻬﺎﺩﺓ ﻝﻶﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﺘﺠﺩﻩ ﻴﺼﻨﻊ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺤﻤﻴﻤـﺔ‬
‫ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻴﺠﺭﻯ ﺤﻭﺍﻝﻰ ﻤﺎﺌﺔ ﻴﺎﺭﺩﺓ ﺩﻓﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺜﻭﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﻨﻤﻭ ﻏﻴﺭ‬
‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﻜﻠﻬﺎ ﻻ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ ﺩﻓﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻥ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻝﻙ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺜل ﻁﻔ ﹰ‬
‫ﻁﺒﻴﻌﻰ‪ .‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﺩﻓﻙ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻻﻗﺘﺭﺍﺏ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻤﺎ ﺩﻤﺕ ﺤﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﺕ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ " ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﻭﺍﺤـﺩﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺘﺼل ﺇﻝﻴﻪ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻰ ﺘﺯﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻭﺇﻴﻤﺎﻨﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﺠﺎﺫﺒﻴﺔ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻝﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺸﺎﻫﺩ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﻫﻡ ﻴﺘﻐﻴﺭﻭﻥ ﻴﻭﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻝﻴﺸﺒﻬﻭﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺴﺒﺏ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﺘﺯﺩﺍﺩ ﺠﺎﺫﺒﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻴﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻭﻡ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﻜﺫﻝﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻝﻬﺎ ـ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺴـﻨﻭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺯﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺇﻨﺠﺎﺏ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎل ـ ﻷﻨﻬﺎ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻓﺄﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﺘﺸﺒﻬﻪ‪ ،‬ﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺤﺒﻭﺒﻪ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻫـﻭ ﺃﻋﻅـﻡ‬
‫‬ ‫ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺤﺏ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﺤﻴﺙ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻴﺘﺸﺎﺠﺭ ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻫﻰ ﺘﺭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﺯﻭﺠﻬﺎ ﺃﺼﺎﺒﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺸﻴﺨﻭﺨﺔ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﺩ ﻜﺴﺎﺒﻕ ﻋﻬﺩﻩ ﻤﺠﺎﻤ ﹰ‬
‫ﻻ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ‪ .‬ﺃﺴـﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸـﺠﻌﻙ‬
‫ﻭﺭﻗﻴﻘﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻴﺭﻯ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻪ ﺍﻝﺤﻨﻭﻨﺔ ﻁﺭﺤﺕ ﺭﻗﺘﻬﺎ ﻭﻋﺯﻭﺒﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻰ ﺘﺯﺩﺍﺩ ﺠﻤﺎ ﹰ‬
‫ﺒﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﺴﺘﻐﺭﻕ ﺴﻁﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﻩ ‪ ،‬ﺃﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻓﻬﻭ ﻻ ﻴﺸﺠﻊ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﺒل ﻴﺄﻤﺭﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻗﺒﻠﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻭﻴﺘﻭﻗﻌﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺩﺨﻠﻭﺍ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﻭﺍﺕ ﻭﻻ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻬﻡ ﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺒﻌﺩ‪ .‬ﻫﺅﻻﺀ‬
‫ﺴﻘﻁﻭﺍ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺩﺭﻜﻭﺍ ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻨﻤﻭﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺯﺭﻋﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺒﻰ ﺼﻑ ﻤﻥ ‪ ٢٠٠‬ﺸﺠﺭﺓ ﺼﻨﻭﺒﺭ ﻭﺴﻁ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺤﺸﺎﺌﺵ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻤﻭﺩﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﻌﺩﻴﺩ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﻝﻡ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻊ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﻝﻌﺩﻡ ﺤﺼﻭﻝﻪ‬
‫ﻑ ﻴ‪‬ﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﺭﺘﻔﺎﻉ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﺎﺌﺵ‪ ،‬ﺤﺸﺎﺌﺵ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻤﻭﺩﺍ‪ ،‬ﺤﺭﻓﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺍﺴﺘﻬﺠﻨﺕ ـ ﺍﺴﺘﻐﺭﺒﺕ ـ ﺃﺸﺠﺎﺭ ﺍﻝﺼـﻨﻭﺒﺭ ﻓﺄﻤﺎﺘﺘﻬـﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﺎﺀ ﻜﺎ ﹰ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺠﻴﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﻴﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﻁﺎﻋﺕ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ ﻭﺴﻁ ﺍﻝﺤﺸﺎﺌﺵ ﻭﺼﺎﺭﺕ ﺃﻁﻭل ﻤﻨﻬﺎ‪.‬‬

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‫ﻝﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﻭﺘﻁﻭل ﻭﺘﺘﻘﻭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻝﺘﻌﻠﻭﺍ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻝﺘﺠﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺘﻠﻌﻙ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﻙ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺤﻴﺔ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﺒﻘﺎﺀ!!‬
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‫* أول ‪:X2‬‬
‫ﺃﺯﺤﻑ ﺒﻬﺩﻭﺀ ﻭﺴﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺩﻤﻴﻙ ﻭﺘﻨﺒﻪ!! ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺴﺘﻴﻘﻅ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻗﺩﻤﻴﻙ ﺃﻗﻭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ‪ ..‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺘﻌ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺒﺩﺃ ﺃﻁﻔﺎﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺜﻼﺜﺔ ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺘﻌﻠﻤﻭﻩ ﻭﻝﻡ ﻴﻌﻭﺩﻭﺍ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺒﻭ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺴﺎﺭﻭﺍ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﻝﻠﺨﻠﻑ !! ﺴﺭ‬
‫ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﺒﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ !! " و أ‪ ً g  B‬وا>ًا إذ أ‪  K1‬وراء وأ إ  ه ‪4‬ام أ‪ M1 3‬ا‪Ab‬ض (  د*ة‬
‫ا‪ 5‬ا'  ‪ B‬ا‪K X K%‬ع "‬
‫) ﻓﻰ ‪١٣ :٣‬ـ ‪.( ١٤‬‬
‫* ^"! ‪:X2‬‬
‫ﺃﺭﺘﻔﻊ ﺒﻤﻌﺎﻴﻴﺭﻙ! ﺍﻻﺭﺍﺩﻩ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﻴﻤﺔ ﻤﻬﻤﺔ ﺠﺩﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﻻ " ﻝﻜل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﺘﺴﻘﻁ‪ .‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﻁﻴﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺓ ﻝﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺼﺎﻝﺢ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ .‬ﺃﻤﺴﻙ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺒﻜﻠﺘﻰ ﻴﺩﻴﻙ !! ﺃﺴﻤﺢ ﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻙ ﻝﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﺒﻘﺩﺭ ﺍﻹﻤﻜﺎﻥ ! ﻗل‬
‫ﻝﻪ " ﻳﺎ ﺭﺏ ﻗﻮﻧﻰ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻛﺜﻮﺏ ﻣﻨﺎﺳﺐ ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻋﺶ ﺩﺍﺧﻠﻰ ﻭﺃﺟﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺑﻤﻌﻴﺘﻚ ﻟﻰ‪. " ... ‬‬
‫* ^"‪:X2 +‬‬
‫ﺍﻋﺘﺭﻑ ﺒﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻙ ﺒﺎﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ ! " إن ا‪ 6) "!""EO "G)%.‬أ‪ K‬و"دل ‪ "!""E5 "G % _ .:‬و‪ K "!%6E‬آ أ^ " ) ‪١‬ﻴﻭ ‪( ٩:١‬‬
‫ﺍﻻﻋﺘﺭﺍﻑ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﻓﻌل ﺜﻼﺙ ﺃﻤﻭﺭ‪:‬‬
‫‪ +‬ﺍﻷﻭل‪ :‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘــﻭل " ﻴــﺎ ﺭﺏ ﻤــﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘــﻪ ﺃﻨــﺎ ﻜــﺎﻥ ﺨﻁــ ًﺄ " ﺤﺭﻓﻴــ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘــﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴــﺔ ﻜﻤــﺎ ﻴﺭﺍﻫــﺎ ﺍﷲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻨﻙ ﻤﺸﺘﺎﻕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﻠﻥ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺨﻁﺄ‪.‬‬
‫‪ +‬ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻰ‪ :‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﺃﺸﻜﺭﻙ ﻷﻨﻙ ﺭﻓﻌﺕ ﻋﻨﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ "‪.‬‬
‫‪ +‬ﺍﻝﺜﺎﻝﺙ‪ :‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل ﺒﺘﻭﺒﺔ " ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻨﺎﺩﻡ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻭﻝﻥ ﺃﻋﻭﺩ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻬﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻨﺎ " ﺒﺎﻝﻘﻁﺎﻋﻰ " ﻭﺍﻋﺘﺭﺍﻓﻨﺎ ﺒﻬﺎ " ﺒﺎﻝﺠﻤﻠﺔ " ‪ ..‬ﻨﺤﻥ ﻨﺨﻁﺊ ﻓﻰ ﺴﻠﻭﻜﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﻓﻌﺎﻝﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻤﺌﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﻴل ﻨﻘﻭل " ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺃﻏﻔﺭ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ ﻴﻭﻤﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ " ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺘﺭﻑ ﺒﻜل ﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻬﺎ‪.‬ﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻨﺠﺢ ﻓﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﺩﻡ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻙ ﻝﻠـﺭﺏ ﻭﺃﻥ‬
‫ـﺊ‪،‬‬
‫ـل ﺸــ‬
‫ـﺭﻑ ﻜــ‬
‫ـﻭ ﻴﻌــ‬
‫ـﺭﻥ !! ﻫــ‬
‫ـﻭﻥ ﻴــ‬
‫ـﺭﻙ ﺍﻝﺘﻠﻴﻔــ‬
‫ـﺎ !! ﺍﺘــ‬
‫ـﺭ ﺍﷲ ﻋﻨﻬــ‬
‫ـﺎ ﺘﻤﺎﻤـ ـﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺘﺨﺒــ‬
‫ـﺩ ﻋﻨﻬــ‬
‫ﺘﺤﻴــ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻙ ﺇﻥ ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﻤل ﻓﻴﻙ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺠﻌل ﺍﷲ ﺒﺭﻓﻘﺘﻙ ﺃﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺤﺘﻰ ﺇﻥ ﺭﺠﻌﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻘﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻬﺭﺏ ﻤﻨﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺎل‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻓﺭﺹ ﻜﺜﻴـﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻷﻥ ﺘﻠﺘﺼﻕ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺭﺍﻓﻘﻬﻡ ﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﺤﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺤﺼﻠﻭﺍ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﺤﺭﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﺌﻴﺔ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫* را‪:X2 ,‬‬
‫ﺍﻋﺭ‪‬ﻑ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ! ﻫﻭ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ !! ﺒل ﺃﻓﻀل ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻙ !!‬
‫‪ -١‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﺄﺨﺫﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺀ ) ﻴﻭ ‪( ٦:١٤‬‬
‫‪ - ٢‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻙ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺓ ﻝﺘﻌﻴﺵ ﺒﺴﻌﺎﺩﺓ ) ﻴﻭ ‪( ١٠:١٠‬‬
‫‪ - ٣‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻙ ﻤﺤﺏ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ) ﻴﻭ ‪ ٣٤ :١٣‬ـ ‪( ٣٥‬‬
‫‪ - ٤‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﺤﻭل ﻜل ﺸﺊ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻝﻙ ﻝﺨﻴﺭﻙ ) ﺭﻭ ‪( ٢٦:٨‬‬
‫ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺼل ﺇﻝﻰ ﻤﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻜﺼﺩﻴﻕ؟ ﻫل ﺘﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻭﺘﺴﻤﻌﻪ ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ؟‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻼﺓ ﻫﻰ ﺤﺩﻴﺙ ﻤﻊ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻤﻊ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺍﻝﺤﻤﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﻪ ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻤﺭ ﺃﺴﻬل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻻﺘﺼﺎل ﺒﺄﻯ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﺃﺨﺭ‪ .‬ﺘـﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻋﻠـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﺘﺼﺎل ﺒﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﻬﺘﻡ ﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﻭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﺤﺘﺎﺝ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻝﺼﻼﺓ ﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ! ﺼﻠﻰ ﷲ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ " ﺃﺴﻡ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ " ﻷﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼﻝﻪ ﺘﺠـﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻁﻠﺒﺎﺘﻨﺎ ) ﻴﻭ ‪ ١٣ :١٤‬ـ ‪ .( ١٤‬ﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻤﻌﻪ ﻋﻥ ﻜل ﺸﺊ‪ ،‬ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻩ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ﺤﺒﻙ ﻝﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻡ ﺘﹸﻘﺩﺭ ﻜل ﻤﺎ ﻴﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠﻠﻙ‪ ،‬ﺨـﺫ ﻤﺸـﺎﻜﻠﻙ‬
‫ﺇﻝﻴﻪ‪ ..‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ !!‬
‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ " ﻝﻭﺭﻯ ﻫﺎﺠﺭﻴﻤﺎﻥ " ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﻝﻎ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻫﺎ ﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻋﺎﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻤﺼﺎﺒﺔ ﺒﺎﻝﺴﺭﻁﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺍﻨﻀﻤﺕ ﻝﻨﺎﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ‬
‫ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺩﻴﺭ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺩﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ " ﻀﻤﺎﺩﺓ " ﻓﻭﻕ ﺇﺤﺩﻯ ﻋﻴﻨﻴﻬﺎ ﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻝﺠﺭﺍﺤﺔ ﺤﺩﻴﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﺴﺎﺒﻴﻊ ﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻝﻴﻌﻁـﻰ‬
‫ﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻬﺎ ﻓﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﺘﻘﺭﺏ ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻓﺄﻜﺜﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺤﻤﻴﻤﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﺒﻌﺩ ﻤﻀﻰ ﻋﺎﻤـﺎﻥ ﻋﻠـﻰ "‬

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‫ﻝﻭﺭﻯ " ﻗﻀﻴﺕ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﻭﻗﺘ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﺭﺍﺸﻬﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻰ‪ .‬ﻜل ﻤﺨﺩﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﻝﻡ ﻓﺸﻠﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴﺭﻴﻌ ﹰﺎ ﺴﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻤﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺫﻝﻙ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﺎﺨﺘﺼﺎﺭ ﺴﺄﻝﺕ ﺍﷲ ﻗﺒل ﻤﻭﺘﻬﺎ ﻁﻠﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻏﻴﺭ ﻋﺎﺩﻴﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻴﺨﺼﻬﺎ " ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﻤﻨﻰ ﻷﺤﻀﺭ ﺸـﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤـﺎ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺇﻴﻤﺎﻨﻬﺎ ﻤﺫﻫل‪.‬‬
‫ﺨﺎﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﺠﺭﺓ ـ ﺤﺠﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻰ ـ ﻝﻴ‪‬ﺴﻌﺩ ﻭﻴﺸﺎﺭﻙ ﻝﻭﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻠﺤﻅﺎﺕ ﺍﻷﺨﻴﺭﺓ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻙ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﺴﺒﻭﻉ ﺩ‪‬ﻋﻴﺕ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﻔﻠﺔ ﻤﻭﺴﻴﻘﻴﺔ ﻭﺘﺭﻨﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﻜﺎﻥ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻤﻁﺭﺏ " ﺍﻝﺒﻭﺏ " ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻤﺅﻤﻨ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺴﻤﻌﺕ ﺃﻨـﻪ ﻴﺄﺨـﺫ ) ‪١٠٠‬‬
‫ﺩﻭﻻﺭ ( ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻜﻘﺎﺌﺩ ﻓﺭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺸﺎﺏ ﺠﺎﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﻰ ﻓﻰ " ﺘﻜﺴﺎﺱ "‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻓﻨﺎﻨ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻤﺭﻴﻜﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻜﺒﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﺤﻀﺭﺕ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﻝـﻴﺱ‬
‫ﻋﻨﺩﻯ ﺃﺩﻨﻰ ﻓﻜﺭﺓ ﻋﻤﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻔﻌل ﺍﷲ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻝﻴﺴﺘﺠﺏ ﻝﺼﻼﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﻔﻠﺔ ﺘﻼﻤﺱ ﺍﷲ ﻤﻊ ‪ ٥٠٠٠‬ﺸﺨﺹ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺘﺭﻨﻴﻤﺔ ﺭﻨﻤﻬﺎ ﺃﺩﺭﻜﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل "‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﺠﺎﺒﺘﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻴﻪ " ‪ .‬ﻓﺄﺨﺘﺭﻗﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴﻊ ﻭﻋﺒﺭﺕ ﻭﺴﻁ ﺍﻝﺯﺤﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺠﺩﺕ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﻓﻰ ﻋﻴﻭﻥ ﺃﻤﻴﻨﺔ ﻭﺼﺎﻓﻴﺔ ﻤﻤﻠﻭﺀﺓ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﻗﻠﺕ ﻝﻪ " ﺒﻰ ‪ .‬ﺠﻴﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺄﺘﻰ ﻭﺘﺭﻯ ﻝﻭﺭﻯ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﺒﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻰ ﺃﺨﺫﺘﻪ ﻤﺒﻜﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﻗﺩﻨﺎ ﺒﺒﻁ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻭﺼﻠﻨﺎ ﻭﺠﺩﻨﺎ " ﻝﻭﺭﻯ " ﺘﻨﺎﺯﻉ ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺨﺭ ﺼـﺒﺎﺡ‬
‫ﻴﻭﻡ ﺴﺒﺕ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‪ .‬ﺭﻨﻡ " ﺒﻰ‪.‬ﺠﻴﺔ " ﺘﺭﻨﻴﻤﺔ " ﺍﻝﻭﻁﻥ ‪ ..‬ﺤﻴﺙ ﺴﺄﻜﻭﻥ "‪ ،‬ﻜﺘﺒﺕ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﺘﺭﻨﻴﻤﺔ ﻜﺎﺴﺘﺠﺎﺒﺔ ﺼﻼﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل "ﻝﻭﺭﻯ"‬
‫ﺍﻝﺼﻼﺓ ﻫﻰ ﻜل ﺸﺊ ‪ ..‬ﺼﻠﻴﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻭﻗﺩ ﺍﺴﺘﺠﺎﺏ ﻝﻰ ﺍﷲ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ‪ .‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻭﻤﻥ ﺒﺎﷲ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﻭ ﻴﻔﻜﺭ ﺒﻰ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﺠﻴﺏ ﺼﻠﻭﺍﺘﻨﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻴﻔﻌل ﺍﻷﻓﻀل ﻝﻨﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺎ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﻰﺀ ﺍﻷﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﻁﻭﺭ ﺍﻝﻘﺎﺩﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺩﺭﺴﻪ ﻜل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺎﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﺨﻼﺼـﺔ ﻤﺨﺘﺼـﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻤﻤﺘـﺎﺯﺓ ﻭﺸـﻴﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺴﺘﺴﺎﻋﺩﻙ‪ .‬ﺍﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ " ﺃﻨﺕ ﻤﻀﻁﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺩﺭﺱ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ " ﻓﺄﺼﺎﺏ ﺒﺎﻝﻀﻴﻕ ﻭﺍﻻﻜﺘﺌـﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻹﺤﺒﺎﻁ ﻭﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺫﻨﺏ ﻷﻨﻨﻰ ﻝﺴﺕ ﺩﺍﺭﺴ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻼﻫﻭﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﻡ ﺃﻜﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺩﺭﺴﻪ؟!! ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﺼﻠﻴﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤـﻥ ﺍﻝـﺭﺏ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﻴﻘﻭﺩﻨﻰ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻋﻤل ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﺨﺹ ﻝﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺠﻭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭﺩﻙ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻋﻤﻕ ﺠﺩﻴﺩ‪.‬‬

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ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻧﺪﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺪﺱ ؟‬

‫) ‪( ١١ :١١٩ 2‬‬ ‫‪ $ ON,M  (١‬ا‪: Gd‬‬

‫" ‪M5‬ت آ[ )  ( أ‪ XE5‬إ[ " ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺘﺤﻔﻅﻙ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ‪ ..‬ﻜﺘﺏ ﺸﺨﺹ ﻤﺎ ﻤﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺩﺍﺨل ﻏﻼﻑ ﻜﺘـﺎﺏ ﻤﻘـﺩﺱ‬
‫ﻤﻠﻙ ﻝﺸﺨﺹ ﺃﺨﺭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ " ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺒﻌﺩﻙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺴﺘﺒﻌﺩﻙ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﻴﺔ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ "‪.‬‬

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١‬‬ ‫‪*K  (٢‬ك أن ‪:%‬‬

‫" آ‪" \M‬ل د‪ K‬ا‪b‬ن ا‪6.2‬ا ا‪ K‬ا> ا>‪ 4‬ا_‪ " P P9GD ( a‬ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﻭﺤﻴﺩ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺒـﻪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﺭﻭﺤﻴ ﹰﺎ‪ .‬ﻤﻨﺫ ﻤﺘﻰ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ؟ ﻤﺎ ﻫﻭ ﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ﻨﻤﻭﻙ؟‬
‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ﻜﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﺴﺒﻊ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ ـ ﺒﺨﻼﻑ ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ﺍﻝﻁﺒﻴﻌﻰ ﺤﻴﻨﺫﺍﻙ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺭﺒﻌﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺴﻨﻪ ـ ﻭﻜﻨـﺕ ﻻ ﺃﺯﺍل " ﺃﺭﺘﺩﻯ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺤﻔﺎﻀﺎﺕ " ﻭ" ﺃﻋﻭﻡ ﻤﺭﺍﻜﺏ ﻭﺭﻗﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﺀ " ﺤﺘﻰ ﻭﺠﻬﻨﻰ ﺃﺤﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﻭﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﻨﻤـﻭ‪،‬‬
‫ﻤﺜل ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎل ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻝﻭﺩﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﺸﺘﻬﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﻠﺒﻥ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻻ ﺃﻨﺴﻰ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺃﻭل ﻝﻴﻠﺔ ﺠﺎﺀﺕ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﻤﻭﻝﻭﺩﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﻤل ﻁﻭﺍل ﺍﻝﻠﻴل‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺤﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﺼﺼﺔ ﻝﻰ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﻏﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﻫﻤﻴﺔ ﻝﻌﻘﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺒﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺎﻡ " ﺠﺎﻤﻰ " ‪ ..‬ﺸﺊ ﺼﻌﺏ !! ﻜل ﺜﻼﺙ ﺴﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﺜﻭﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﻓﺭﺍﺵ ﺍﻝﻁﻔﻠﺔ ! ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ ﺃﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﺭﺍﺥ ! ﻜﻨﺎ‬

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‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻭ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ " ﻨﺘﻌﺜﺭ ﻭﻨﺴﻘﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻨﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﺯﺠﺎﺠﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﻀﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻠﻌﻭﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻝﻨﺩﻓﺌﻬﺎ ﻝﻠﻁﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﻨﻀﻌﻬﺎ ﻓـﻰ ﻓﻤﻬـﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﻫﺩﻭﺀ ﻋﻅﻴﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜل ﺍﻝﺒﻴﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻭﻀﻊ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻨﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻤﻊ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺜل ﺍﻝﻁﻔﻠﺔ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﺨﻁﻑ ﺯﺠﺎﺠﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﻀﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻨﺤﻥ ﻨﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺨﻁﻑ‬
‫ﻕ ﻝﻜﺘﺎﺒﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺤﻤﻠﻪ ﺃﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻔﻴﺘﺎﻤﻴﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻴﺔ ﺘﺠﺩﻫﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﻗـﺩ ﻗـﺎل‬
‫ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺍﺤﻀﺭ ﻏﻼﻑ ﻭﺍ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﺤﺩ ﺭﺠﺎل ﺍﷲ‪ " :‬ﺇﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻴﺘﺼﻭﺭ ﻓﻴﻙ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺘﺼﻭﺭ ﻓﻴﻙ‪.‬‬

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ﻛﻴﻒ ﻧﺪﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺪﺱ ؟‬

‫ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻘﺭﺃ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺒﻁﺭﻕ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﻨﻭﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻔﺤﺼﻪ‪ ،‬ﻨﻘﺭﺃﻩ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻔﺴﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺩﺭﺴﻪ ﻋﻥ ﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺃﺨﺫ‬
‫ﻤﻼﺤﻅﺎﺕ ﻭﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭ ﻫﺎﻤﺸﻴﺔ ﺘﻠﺨﻴﺼﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺤﻔﻅﻪ ﺁﻴﻪ ﺁﻴﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻓﺼل ﻜﺎﻤل ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ‪ .‬ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻨﺘﺄﻤل ﻓﻴـﻪ ﻋـﻥ ﻁﺭﻴـﻕ‬
‫ﺍﻝﺘﻔﻜﻴﺭ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻫﻨﻙ ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻨﺘﺠﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺭﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻭﻨﺤﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻁﺭﻴﻘﻨﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻭﻡ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺍﻨﺘﻅﺎﺭﻨﺎ ﻝﻤﻴﻌﺎﺩ ﻤﻌﻴﻥ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻜﺫﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻕ ﺠﻴﺩﺓ ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻝﺘﻁﺒﻴﻕ ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﺎ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻓﺤﺹ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺭﺃﻩ‪ ،‬ﺃﺩﺭﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﺤﻔﻅﻪ‪ ،‬ﺘﺄﻤﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜـﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻏﻠﺏ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻓﺭﺍﻏﻙ ﻤﺨﺼﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺤﻔﻅﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻝﺘﺄﻤﻼﺘﻙ ﻓﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺇﻝﻴﻙ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺎﻋﺩﻩ‪:‬‬

‫‪ (١‬أ‪A4‬أ< ^ ر‪:W> 3‬‬

‫ﻫل ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺨﻁﻴﺏ ﺃﻭ ﺨﻁﻴﺒﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ؟ ﻻ ﻴﻭﺠﺩ ﺸﺊ ﻤﺜل ﺨﻁﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺍﻋﺘﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺒﺎﻝﻀﺒﻁ ﻤﺘﻰ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻘﺘﺭﺏ‬
‫ﺴﺎﻋﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻴﺩ ﻤﻥ ﺼﻨﺩﻭﻕ ﺒﺭﻴﺩﻨﺎ!! ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﺩ ﺍﻝﺩﻗﺎﺌﻕ ﻭﺃﻁﻴﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺒﺎﺏ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﺴـﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻷﻝـﻭﺍﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﻤـﺭﺍﺀ ﻭﺍﻝﺒﻴﻀـﺎﺀ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﺯﺭﻗﺎﺀ ﺘﻌﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺩﺨل ـ ﻋﺭﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺒﺭﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻥ ﻝﻡ ﺘﻜﻥ ﻫﻰ ﺼﺎﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﺏ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺼﺩﻡ ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺤﺼل ﻋﻠﻰ ﺨﻁـﺎﺏ ﻤﻨﻬـﺎ‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻗﻀﻰ ﺒﻘﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﻤﺒﺘﺴﻤ ﹰﺎ‪ ..‬ﺍﻗﺭﺃﻩ ﻤﺜل ﻁﻔل ﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﻤﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﺭﺴل ﻝﺒﻌﻀﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺒﻌﺽ ﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺭﺍﺌﻌﺔ ﺘﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺤﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻯ ﺤﺎل ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺕ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﺒﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻﺯﺍﻝﺕ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﺘﻜﺘﺏ ﻝﻰ ﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺨﺎﺼﺔ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺴﺎﻓﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻﺯﻝﺕ ﺃﺤﻔﻅ ﻜل ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻜﻠﻤﺎﺘﻬﺎ‬
‫!! ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻫﻭ ﺃﺭﻭﻉ ﺭﺴﺎﻝﺔ ﺤﺏ ﻜﺘﺒﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ ‪ ..‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺨﻠﻰ ﺍﷲ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺠﺎﺀ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻝﻴﺠﺴﺩ ﻝﻨﺎ ﺍﻝﺤـﺏ ﻝﻨـﺭﺍﻩ ‪..‬‬
‫ﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﺼﻠﻴﺏ ﻝﻴﻘﻭل ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺍﺤﺩﹰﺍ ‪..‬‬
‫" ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ ‪ ..‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﻭﺃ ﺸﺊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻗﺩﻤﻴﻥ ـ ﺍﻝﺼﻠﻴﺏ‪،‬‬
‫ﻝﻜﻨﻰ ﺃﺤﺒﻙ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﺭﺴﺎﻝﺘﻰ ﻝﻙ ﻝﺘﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻜﻡ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﻨﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ " ‪.‬‬
‫‪ (٢‬أ‪A4‬أ< >‪ ً BA> ً BA‬وآ‪ 1V‬آ‪D‬م ا‪ 5‬ا‪G%‬ق‪:‬‬
‫" آ ا(‪".‬ب ه ‪ K  :‬ا و!")‪ >. ,‬وا‪M. . c.‬د ا‪F‬ى ) ا‪" %‬‬
‫) ‪٢‬ﺘﻰ ‪( ١٦:٣‬‬
‫ﺃﺩﺭﻙ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺃﻨﻙ ﺘﻤﺴﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻭﺠﻭﺩﺓ ﺒﻴﻥ ﻴﺩﻴﻙ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺩ ﺫﺍﺘﻪ ﻤﻌﺠﺯﻩ !! ﻭﻝﻘﺭﻭﻥ ﻁﻭﻴﻠﺔ ﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺃﺜﺒـﺎﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺘـﺎﺏ‬
‫ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﺴﻁﻭﺭﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻵﺜﺎﺭ ﻴﺒﺤﺜﻭﻥ ﻭﻴﻨﻘﺒﻭﻥ ﻋﻥ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻜل ﺴﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺒﺤﺜﻭﺍ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﺄﻜـﺩﻭﺍ‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺩﻗﺘﻪ !! ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺘﺏ ﺍﻷﻨﺒﻴﺎﺀ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻝﺴﻨﻴﻥ ﻭﻗﺎﻝﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺘﻭﺏ ﻫﻭ ﻜﻼﻡ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﻴﺎﻡ ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﻠـﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻥ ﻤﺼﺩﺍﻗﻴﺘﻪ ﻜﻤﺎ ﻨﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﻤﻨﻁﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺸﺭﻕ ﺍﻷﻭﺴﻁ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ‪.‬‬
‫** ﺜﻼﺙ ﺨﻁﻭﺍﺕ ﻫﺎﻤﺔ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻨﻘﺭﺃ‪:‬‬
‫‪ (١‬ا‪N>D%‬ــــ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﻨﻅﺭ ﺒﺩﻗﺔ ﻭﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﺃﻴﺔ‪ ..‬ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﺨﺫ ﺃﻭل ﺘﺩﺭﻴﺏ ﺠﻴﺩ ﻤﻥ " ﺃﻋﻤﺎل ‪ " ٨:١‬ﻭﺃﻜﺘـﺏ ﻋﻠـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻗل ﺨﻤﺴﺔ ﻭﻋﺸﺭﻴﻥ ﺸﺊ ﻭﺠﺩﺘﻪ ﻓﻰ ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ‪..‬‬
‫‪ (٢‬ا‪K,‬ــــــ ‪:A‬‬
‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺎ ﺘﺒﺩﺃ ﻭﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻝﻜﻰ ﻨﻨﺘﻘل ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﻁﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﻁﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﺎﻝﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺤـﺎﻭل‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﻤﻌﻨﻰ ﻭﺘﺘﺄﻜﺩ ﺃﻨﻙ ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺩﺍﺨل ﻨﺼﻬﺎ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺒﻰ‪ .‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻬﻡ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ ﺒﻌﻨﺎﻴﺔ ﺤﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺘﺨﺘﻠﻁ ﻤﻌﻙ ﺍﻷﻤﻭﺭ‪.‬‬
‫" ﻓﻰ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻝﻨﺹ " ﺘﻌﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻘﺎﺭﻥ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ ﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﺎﻭﺭﻫﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﺹ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺒﻰ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻜﻤﺜﺎل‪ ،‬ﺃﺨﺭﺝ ﺁﻴﻪ ﻤﻥ ﻨﺼﻬﺎ ﺒﺎﻝﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻴﺒﺭﺭ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻁﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻬﻡ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻓﻴﻘﻭﻝﻭﻥ " ﺤﺴﻨ ﹰﺎ ‪ ..‬ﻨﺤﻥ ﻤﺘﺄﻜﺩﻴﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻤﺎ ﻨﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺼﻭﺍﺏ ﻵﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﻴﻘﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺘﺴﺘﺭ ﻜﺜﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ ‪ " ..‬ﻭﺘﺒﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻜﻼﻡ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺼﻭﺍﺏ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻹﻁﻼﻕ‪ ،‬ﻵﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ " ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﺘﺴﺘﺭ ﻜﺜﺭﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎ "‬
‫ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺹ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺒﻰ ﻻ ﺘﺘﻀﻤﻥ ﺘﺒﺭﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻝﻠﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻓﺘﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺨﻁﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺒﺎﻝﻔﻌل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻠﺏ ﻝﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﺍﻝﻤﺸﺎﻜل ﺇﺫﺍ ﻝﻡ ﺘﺯﻥ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﷲ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤﻠﺔ‪.‬‬

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 ‫‪ (٣‬ا‪ G‬ــــ‪:+‬‬
‫ﺃﻫﻡ ﺸﺊ !! ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻁﺒﻕ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﷲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ؟ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺅﺜﺭ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻵﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻝﻘﺎﺀﺍﺘﻙ ﻭﻋﻤﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴـﻰ ﻭﻋﻼﻗﺎﺘـﻙ ﻤـﻊ‬
‫ﺃﺴﺭﺘﻙ ﻭﺼﺩﺍﻗﺎﺘﻙ ﻭﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻙ ﻭﺴﻠﻭﻜﻴﺎﺘﻙ ؟ ﺼﻠﻰ ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﺭﺃ " ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﻋﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ﺸﻴﺌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻉ ﻜﻠﻤﺘﻙ ﺘﻐﻭﺹ ﺒﻌﻤﻕ ﻓـﻰ‪ ،‬ﺤﺘـﻰ‬
‫ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﻤﺜﻠﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻴﺩﻨﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ " ﻭﺭﺍﻗﺏ ﺍﻝﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺴﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ !! ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﺜل ﻭﻝﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻤﺭﻩ ﺴـﻠﻡ ﺤﻴﺎﺘـﻪ‬
‫ﻝﻠﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻜﺘﺏ ﻝﻰ ﻤﺅﺨﺭﹰﺍ " ﺍﻵﻥ ﺍﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻨﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺒﺭ ﻝﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻭﺭﻕ ﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ‪ ،‬ﺇﻥ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻤﺎﻤـﻙ ﺍﻵﻥ ﺴـﻭﻑ‬
‫ﺘﺭﺍﻨﻰ ﺃﺘﻨﻁﻁ ﻭﺃﻗﻔﺯ ﻓﻭﻕ ﻭﺘﺤﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻤﻭ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺒﻤﻘﺩﺍﺭ ﺼﻐﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﺭﺃ ﻜﺘﺎﺒﻰ ﻭﺃﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻭﺘﻪ ﻤﺫﻜﺭﺍﺘﻰ "‪.‬‬

‫‪ ++‬ﺳﺖ ﻣﻔﺎﺗﻴﺢ ﻟﻠﻤﻼﺣﻈﺔ ﺍﻟﺠﻴﺪﺓ‪:‬‬

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‫‪< <VØé~jÖ]<àÚ<…]‚ϲ<äèa<ØÒ<_†Î_<<<DM‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻤﺸﻬﺩ ﺍﻝﺭﺴﻭل ﺒﻭﻝﺱ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﺴﺠﻥ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﻤﺎﻨﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺘﺨﻴل ﺍﻝﺭﺍﺌﺤﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﻅﻠﻤـﺔ ﻭﺤﺠـﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺤـﺒﺱ‬
‫ﺍﺴﺘﺨﺩﻡ ﻋﻘﻠﻙ ﺒﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺨﻼﻗﺔ‪ .‬ﻤﺜ ﹰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻌﻔﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻤﺴﺎﻓﺭ ﻋﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻭﺴﻁ‪ ،‬ﺘﺨﻴﻠﻪ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻅﻬﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺭﻜﺏ ﻭﺨﺎﺭﺠﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﺴﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺍﻝﺭﻴﺎﺡ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺘﻁﻴﺭ ﺸﻌﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﺘـﺫﻭﻕ‬
‫ﻁﺭﻁﺸﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺎﻝﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﺫﻭﻕ ﻫﻭﺍﺀ ﺍﻝﺒﺤﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﻤﺸﻬﺩ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﻌﻠﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﻝﺒﺱ ﺤﺫﺍﺌﻙ ﻭﺴﺭ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﻼﻤﻴﺫ ﺨﻠﻔﺔ ‪ ..‬ﺍﺭﺴﻡ ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻝﻜـل‬
‫ﻤﺸﻬﺩ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻫﻨﻙ‪.‬‬
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‫‪< <<VíŽÎ^ß¹]<íÏè†Şe<å_†Î_<<<DN‬‬
‫ﺃﺴﺄل ﻨﻔﺴﻙ ﻭﺍﺠﺏ ﻋﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺴﺌﻠﺔ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻜل ﺇﺼﺤﺎﺡ ﺘﺩﺭﺴﻪ‪:‬‬
‫ـ ﻤﻥ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﺸﺨﺼﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻀﻤﻨﺔ؟ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺘﻜﻠﻡ؟ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴﻤﻊ؟ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺸﺒﻪ ﻜل ﺸﺨﺹ؟‬ ‫ﺃ [ ﻤﻥ‬
‫ـ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﻨﺼﺭ ﺍﻝﺭﺒﻁ ﻫﻨﺎ؟ ﻫل ﻫﻭ ﻤﻌﺠﺯﺓ ؟ ﻫل ﻫﻭ ﺘﻌﻠﻴﻡ ﻋﻅﻴﻡ ؟‬ ‫ﺏ[ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ـ ﻤﺘﻰ ﺤﺩﺙ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺃﻡ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺼﺭ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ؟ ﻫل ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻝﻘﻴﺎﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﺝ[ ﻤﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻡ ﻗﺒﻠﻬﺎ ؟‬
‫ـ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻜﺘﺏ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻨﺹ ؟ ﺒﻡ ﻴﺫﺨﺭ؟‬ ‫ﺩ [ ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ـ ﺃﻴــﻥ ﺘﻘــﻊ ؟ ﻭﻜﻴــﻑ ﻴﻘــﺎﺭﻥ ﻫــﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻗــﻊ ﺒﻤﻭﻗﻔﻨــﺎ ﺍﻝﺤــﺎﻝﻰ؟ ﻭﻫــل " ﺃﻭﺭﺸــﻠﻴﻡ "‬ ‫‪ [{{{â‬ﺃﻴـــﻥ‬
‫ﻤﺩﻴﻨﺔ ﻤﺜل " ﻭﺍﺸﻨﻁﻥ " ﺃﻡ ﻫل " ﺒﺤﺭ ﺍﻝﺠﻠﻴل " ﻤﺜل ﺒﺤﻴﺭﺓ " ﺃﻴﺭﻯ " ؟‬
‫ﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ ؟ ﻜﻴﻑ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻁﺒﻕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻰ ؟‬
‫ﻭ[ ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺫﻝﻙ ـ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻌﻨﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﻝ ‪‬‬
‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌل ﺍﻵﻥ ﻷﻏﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻨﻔﺴﻰ ﻁﺒﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻬﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻨﺹ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺒﻰ؟‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﺩﺭﻴﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﺨﺩﻡ ﻫﻨﺎ‪ ،‬ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻁﺒﻘﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺼﺔ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ‪ ،‬ﻗﺼﺔ ﺘﻬﺩﺌﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻝﻠﻌﺎﺼﻔﺔ ﻓﻰ ) ﻤـﺭ ‪:٤‬‬
‫‪٣٥‬ـ‪ ،( ٤١‬ﻁﺒﻕ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺴﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻝﺴﺎﺒﻘﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﺹ ﻭﺍﻝﻘﻠﻡ ﻓﻰ ﻴﺩﻙ‪.‬‬
‫‪< <V^ğ é×’Ú<å_†Î_<<<DO‬‬
‫ﻼ " ﻴﺎ ﺭﺏ ﺃﻓﺘﺢ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻯ ﻭﻜﻠﻤﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺨﻼل ﻜﻠﻤﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺍﺠﻌﻠﻨﻰ ﺃﺸﺒﻪ ﺍﺒﻨﻙ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ "‪.‬‬
‫ﺼﻠﻰ ﻗﺒل ﻭﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﻜل ﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ ﻗﺎﺌ ﹰ‬
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‫<‬ ‫‪<Vø‬‬
‫‪ğ Ú`jÚæ<ğ]†ÓËÚ<å_†Î_<<<DP‬‬
‫ﺨﺫ ﻭﻗﺘﻙ ـ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻬﻠﻙ ـ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﺩﺭﺴﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻻ ﻴﻌﻁﻰ ﻋﺼﻴﺭﻩ ﺍﻝﺤﻠﻭ ﻝﻠﻘﺎﺭﺉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﺘﻬﺘﺭ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻝﻜﺴﻭل‪ .‬ﻤﺜل‬
‫ﺍﻝﺒﻘﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺠﺘﺭ ﺒﻠﻌﺘﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺭ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺒﻌﺩ ﺍﻷﺨﺭﻯ ﻓﻰ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻫﺩﻭﺀﻙ‪.‬‬
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‫‪< <<VÔ×ÛjÖ]<š†Çe<å_†Î_<<DQ‬‬
‫ﺃﻤﺘﻠﻜﻪ ! ﺃﺤﻔﻅﻪ ! ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﻜﻡ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻤﺘﻊ ﻭﺸﻴﻕ ﻝﻠﻐﺎﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﺘﻠﻙ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺫﻫﻨﻙ ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻙ ﻓﺼﻭ ﹰﻻ ﻤﺨﺘﻠﻔﺔ ﻭﻤﺘﻨﻭﻋـﺔ ﻤﻨـﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﺒﺩﺃ ﺤﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻰ ﺫﻝﻙ ﻝﺘﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﻤﺘﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﻴﺄﺨﺫ ﺸﻬﻭﺭﹰﺍ ﺒﺎﻝﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻷﻨﺎﺱ ﻤﺜﻠﻰ ﻷﻀﻊ ﻓﺼﻠﻴﻥ ﻜﺘﺎﺒﻴﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘـﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜـﻥ ﺍﻷﻤـﺭ‬
‫ﻴﺴﺘﺤﻕ ﺍﻝﻭﻗﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﺠﻬﺩ !‬
‫‪< <V]ğ …†ÓÚ<å_†Î_ DR‬‬
‫ﻜل ﻭﻗﺕ ﺃﻋﺩ ﻗﺭﺃﻩ ﺍﻝﻨﺹ‪ ،‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺘﻌﻠﻡ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺩﻴﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﺭﺓ !!‬

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 ‫ﺨﻁﻭﺘﻴﻥ ﺃﺨﺭﻴﻴﻥ ﻝﻠﻨﻤﻭ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻤﺎ ﺤﻴﻭﻴﺘﺎﻥ ﻝﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻭﺇﻝﻴﻙ‬
‫ﺍﻷﻭﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻀﻰ ﻭﻗﺘﻙ ﻤﻊ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﺁﺨﺭﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﺜﺎﻨﻴﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺨﺒﺭ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻋﻥ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ‪ ،‬ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﻩ ﻤﺘﻌﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠـﺩ‬
‫ﺃﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺩﺍﺭﺱ ﺍﻷﺤﺩ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻭﺍﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺒﺎﻝﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﻝﻥ ﺘﺠﺩﻫﻡ ﻜﺎﻤﻠﻴﻥ ـ ﻭﻻ ﻨﺤﻥ ﺃﻴﻀﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺘﻘﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺒﻴﻥ ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﻤـﻥ ﻴﺨﺘﺒـﺭﻭﻥ ﻨﻔـﺱ ﺍﻝﻔـﺭﺡ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻝﻜﻔﺎﺡ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻰ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺘﺨﺘﺒﺭﻩ‪ ،‬ﺃﺩﻋﻭ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ ﻝﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭﺍﺕ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻤﺘﺨﺼﺼﺔ ﺃﻭ ﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻋﺭﺽ ﻋﻠـﻴﻬﻡ ﺍﻻﻨﻀـﻤﺎﻡ ﺇﻝـﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻨﻭﺍﺩﻯ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝﻸﺴﻑ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻝﺸﺎﺒﺎﺕ ﻴﻘﻌﻭﻥ ﻓﻰ ﺤﺏ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻝﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻏﺎﻝﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻜﺎﺭﺜﺔ !! ﻜﻠﻡ ﻗﺭﻴﺒﻙ ﻋـﻥ ﻤﺸـﺎﻜﻠﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺏ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﻫﻭ ﺇﺒﻠﻴﺱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻫﺩﺍﻓﻙ ﺴﻤﺎﻭﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻫﺩﺍﻓﻪ ﺇﺸﺒﺎﻉ ﺫﺍﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺤﺎﻭل ﺃﻥ ﺘﺭﺒﺤﻪ ﻝﻠﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ .‬ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻀﺤﻙ ﻭﻴﻬﺯﺃ‬
‫ﺃﺒﻭﻙ ﻫﻭ ﺍﷲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ‪‬‬
‫ﻤﻥ ﺃﺨﻼﻗﻙ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺘﻬﺘﺯ ﻭﻻ ﺘﺴﻘﻁ ﻷﺴﻔل‪ ،‬ﺍﺭﺘﻔﻊ ﺒﻤﻌﺎﻴﻴﺭﻙ! ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ ﺠﺩﻴﺩ ﻗﺩﻤﻪ ﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻙ ﺍﻝﻘﺩﺍﻤﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺠﻠﺱ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻜﺭﺴﻰ ﺍﻝﺨﻠﻔﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺘﻙ ﻭﺩﻉ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﻴﺠﻠﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻴﻤﻴﻨﻙ ﻭﺃﻨﺕ ﺘﻘﻭﺩ ﺃﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻗﺎﺒﻠﺕ ﺸﺨﺼ ﹰﺎ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﻼ ﻋﻅﻴﻡ ! "‪ .‬ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ ﺠﺩﹰﺍ ﻓﻰ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ؟ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺼـﺩﻡ ﻤـﻥ‬
‫ﻤﻌﻤل ﺍﻷﻝﺒﺎﻥ ﻭﺴﺄﻝﻙ " ﻜﻴﻑ ﺤﺎﻝﻙ؟ " ﻴﻤﻜﻨﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻘﻭل " ﻋﻅﻴﻡ ‪ ..‬ﻓﻌ ﹰ‬
‫ﺃﺠﺎﺒﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃﺴﺘﺄﺫﻨﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺠﻠﺱ ﻝﻤﺩﺓ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﻗل ﻝﻪ " ﺩﻋﻨﻰ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻙ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻋﻅﻡ ﺸﺊ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻝﻰ " ﺤﻴﻨﺌﺫ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻩ ﺒﻤﺤﺒﺔ ﻜﻴﻑ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻤﺅﻤﻨـ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻭﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺃﺤﺩﺜﻪ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ !! ﺃﻨﻪ ﺃﻤﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻤﺘﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﺘﻜﻠﻡ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ‪ ،‬ﻫﺫﻩ ﻫﻰ ﺍﻝﻨﻘﺎﻁ ﺍﻝﻤﻀﻴﺌﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻨﻤﻭﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﻭﺤﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﺸـــﺎﺭﻙ ﺼـــﺩﻴﻘﻙ ﺒﻬـــﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻔﺼـــل ﺍﻝـــﺫﻯ ﻗﺭﺃﺘـــﻪ ﻓـــﻰ ﻫـــﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻜﺘـــﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻝـــﺫﻯ ﻴﺤﻤـــل ﻋﻨـــﻭﺍﻥ‬
‫" ﺍﻝﻀﻴﻑ ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ " ﻭﺼﻠﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺃﺠل ﺃﻥ ﻴﺄﺘﻰ ﻭﻴﻌﻴﺵ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺴﻭﻑ ﻻ ﺃﻨﺴﻰ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ ﺍﻝﻘﻔﺯﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺍﺘﺨﺫﺘﻬﺎ ﻴﻭﻤﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺸﺎﺭﻜﺕ ﺼﺩﻴﻘ ﹰﺎ ﺒﺎﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺇﻴﻤﺎﻨﻰ ﻷﻭل ﻤﺭﺓ‪ .‬ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺘﺒﺭ ﺍﻝﻤﺴـﻴﺢ ﻜﻨـﺕ‬
‫ﺃﺩﻭﺭ ﻭﺃﺠﻭﺏ ﻤﻊ ﺸﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﻨﺎ ﻨﻘﻭﻡ ﺒﻌﻤل ﺃﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﻤﺠﻨﻭﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﻅﺎﻫﺭﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺠﺫﺍﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻀﺎﻓﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻘل ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ! ﻜﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻋﻤﺭﻯ ﺴﺒﻌﺔ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺴﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﻝﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭ ﺘﻌﻠﻤﺕ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺍﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻋﻥ ﻋﻅﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﺭﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻁﻠﺒﺕ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺴﻜﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﻗﻠﺒﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻓﻌل ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺘﻰ ﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺕ ﺼﺩﻴﻘﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺃﻴﻀ ﹰﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺴﻨﻘﻀﻰ ﻭﻗﺘ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻤﺘﻌﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺘﺨﻭﻓ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻌﻼﹰ‪ ،‬ﺒﺨﺼﻭﺹ ﻜﻴﻔﻴﺔ ﺘﻌﺎﻤﻠﻪ ﻤﻊ ﺸﺨﺼﻴﺘﻰ ﺍﻝﺠﺩﻴﺩﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻌﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻰ ﺃﺼﺒﺤﺕ ﻏﺭﻴﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻨـﻪ ؟‬
‫ﺒﺩﺃﺕ ﺃﺼﻠﻰ ﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻌﻁﻴﻨﻰ ﺍﻝﻘﻭﺓ ﻷﺨﺒﺭﻩ ﻤﺎ ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺒﻌﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭ ﺫﻫﺒﺕ ﻤﺒﺎﺸﺭﺓ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠﺕ ﻝﻪ " ﻭﻴـﺯ "‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺤﺩﺙ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﻴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻗﺒﻠﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﺼﻴﻑ‪ ،‬ﺘﻭﻗﻌﺘﻪ ﻴﻀﺤﻙ ﺃﻭ ﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻋﻼﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺩﻫﺸﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻤﺴﺘﻌﺩﹰﺍ ﻝﺫﻝﻙ‪ ،‬ﻝﻜﻨﻪ ﻗﺎل ﻝﻰ ﺒﻌﺽ ﺍﻝﻜﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻁﺎﻝﻤﺎ ﺴﺄﺘﺫﻜﺭﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺒﺩﺃ ﻴﺸﺎﺭﻜﻨﻰ ﺒﺎﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭ ﺤﺩﺙ ﻝـﻪ ﺒﻴﻨﻤـﺎ ﻜﻨـﺕ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﻼ ﺒﺴﺒﺏ ﺍﻝﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺩﻭﺩﺓ ﺠـﺩﹰﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺅﺘﻤﺭ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺫﺍﻫﺒ ﹰﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺠﺒل " ﺃﻭﺯﺍﺭﻙ " ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻝﻁﺭﻴﻕ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺤﻨﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺎﻥ ﻗﺩ ﺘﺄﺨﺭ ﻝﻴ ﹰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻤﻭﺡ ﺒﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻗﺭﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺯﻴﺩ ﺴﺭﻋﺘﻪ ﺇﻝﻰ ﻀﻌﻑ ﺍﻝﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﺍﻝﻤﺤﺩﺩﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻨﺎ ﻓﻘﺩ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﻁﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺘﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺒﺩ ﹰﻻ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﺠﺭﻑ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺒﺴﺭﻋﺔ ﻨﺎﺤﻴﺔ ﺍﻝﺤﺎﻓﺔ ﻭﻴﻤﻭﺕ ﻤﻨﻔﺠﺭﹰﺍ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻜﺄﻥ ﺍﻝﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﺯﻤـﺕ ﺍﻝﺠﺎﻨـﺏ ﺍﻷﻤـﻥ ﺒﻁﺭﻴﻘـﺔ‬
‫ﻤﻌﺠﺯﻴﻪ ـ ﻭﻭﺠﺩ ﺴﻴﺎﺭﺘﻪ ﺘﺴﻴﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﻘﺎﻤﺔ ﻭﺃﻤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻜﻠﻤﻪ ﻭﻴﻘﺼﺩ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺇﻨﻘﺎﺫ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺸﺨﺹ‬
‫ﻤﺎ ﻴﺨﺒﺭﻩ ﻋﻥ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺩﻭﺭ ﻓﻰ ﺭﺃﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻁﻠﺏ ﻤﻥ ﺍﷲ ﺫﻝﻙ ! ﻭﻴﺎﻝﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﺠﺎﺒﺔ ﺼﻼﻩ !!‬
‫ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺸﺎﺭﻜﺕ ﺍﻝﻨﺎﺱ ﺇﻴﻤﺎﻨﻙ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﺼﺒﺢ ﺍﺨﺘﺒﺎﺭﻙ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺠﺒل‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻭﺓ ﺍﷲ ﺘﻌﻤل ﻓﻰ ﻀﻌﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺤﺒﺒﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﻤﻭ ﻜﻤﺅﻤﻥ‬
‫ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﺤﻴﺎﻩ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﻝﻠﻐﺩ !‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻝﻔﺼل ﻋﻥ ﻨﻤﻭ ﺍﻝﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ ﻋﻥ ﺸﻌﻠﺔ ﻝﻠﺒﺩﺀ ﻓﻰ ﻤﻐﺎﻤﺭﺓ ﻻ ﺘﻨﺘﻬﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺘﻘﺩﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻹﻨﺠﻴل ﻤﻊ ﺍﻝﺘﺤﺩﻴﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻜﺒﻴـﺭﺓ‬
‫ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﺍ ﺃﻯ ﻤﺅﻤﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴ‪‬ﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﻜﺘﺒﺔ ﻝﻠﻤﺼﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﺸﺒﻊ ﺍﻻﺤﺘﻴﺎﺠﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺨﺘﺒﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﺘﻘﺎﺒﻠﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﺘﻭﺠﺩ ﺸﺭﺍﺌﻁ ﻜﺎﺴﻴﺕ ﻓﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺘﺒﺎﺕ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻝﻜﺜﻴﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﺘﻜﻠﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻝﻤﻭﻫﻭﺒﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺘﺠﺩ ﺍﻝﻜﺘﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻘﺩﺱ ﻭﺍﻝﻤﻨﺸﻭﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻝﻜﺘﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴﺔ ﻓﻰ ﻤﺘﻨﺎﻭل ﻴـﺩﻴﻙ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺍﻝﺩﺭﺍﺴﺎﺕ ﻜﺘﺎﺒﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻤﺠﻤﻭﻋﺎﺕ ﺼﻼﺓ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻝﺸﺒﺎﺏ ﺍﻝﻤﻜﺭﺱ‪ ،‬ﻜﻨﺎﺌﺱ ﻓﻰ ﻜل ﻤﻜﺎﻥ‪ ..‬ﻝﻜﻥ ﻻﺒﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻝﺩﻴﻙ ﺍﻝﺭﻏﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻴﺠﺏ ﺃﻤﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺩﻓﻭﻋ ﹰﺎ ﻷﻥ ﺘﺠﻌل ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺭﻗﻡ )‪ (١‬ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﻤﻭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﺃﻭ ﻝﻥ ﺘﻨﻤﻭﺍ ﺃﺒﺩﹰﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﻓﻴﻠﻡ " ﺍﻝﻌﺭﺍﻑ " ﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﺘﺨﺫ ﺍﻝﻁﺎﺒﻊ ﺍﻝﻌﺼﺭﻯ ﻝﻠﻌﺭﺍﻑ " ﺃﻭﺯ ‪ " OZ‬ﻭﻓﻰ ﺨﺎﺘﻤﺔ ﺍﻝﻔﻴﻠﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔﺕ " ﺩﻭﺭﻨﻰ " ـ ﺍﻝﻤﻤﺜﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺩﻴﺎﻨﺎ ﺭﻭﺯ ـ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ " ﺃﻭﺯ " ﺍﻝﻌﻅﻴﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺩ ﺘﺤﺭﻜﺕ ﺩﻤﻭﻋﻬﺎ ﻝﺘﻨﺴﺎﺏ ﻤﻥ ﻋﻴﻨﺎﻫﺎ ﺍﻝﺒﻨﻴﺘﻴﻥ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﻏﻨﺕ ﻭﺤﻠﻤﺕ ﺒﺭﺠﻭﻋﻬﺎ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻨـﺯل !‬
‫ﻝﻘﺩ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻤﻨﺯل‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺫﻝﻙ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺃﻯ ﺸﺊ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻌﺎﻝﻡ‪ ،‬ﺃﺨﺒﺭﻫﺎ " ﺃﻭﺯ " ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺇﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺸﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﺴﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠـﺩﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻷﻴﻤﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻫﺫﺍ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻝﻨﻤﻭ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺘﺭﻏﺒﻪ ﺒﺸﺩﺓ ﺘﺠﺩﻩ ﻴﺤﺭﻜﻙ ﻝﺘﻌﻤل ﻓﻰ ﺍﺘﺠﺎﻫﻪ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﺌﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﺠﺩﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺴـﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻝﺤـﺏ ﻤﻜﺎﻓﺌـﺔ‬
‫ﺒﺤﺜﻙ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺃﻨﻪ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻪ ﻝﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻴﺎ ﻝﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﻝﺤﻅﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺴﻨﻭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺼﺎﺭﺕ " ﺩﻴﺒﻰ ﺠﻭ " ﻓﻰ ﺒﻬﻭ ﺍﻝﻜﻨﻴﺴﺔ ﺒﻔﺴـﺘﺎﻨﻬﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻷﺒﻴﺽ ﺍﻝﺠﻤﻴل‪ ،‬ﻴﺎﻝﻪ ﻤﻥ ﺸﺊ ﺭﺍﺌﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻗﺎﺩﺭﹰﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﻩ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺘﺤﻭل ﺘﻠﻙ ﺍﻝﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﺇﻝﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺘﺎﺓ ﺍﻝﺘﻰ ﺘﻌﺠﺏ ﺒﻬـﺎ‬
‫ﻭ ﺘﺤﺘﺭﻤﻬﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺇﻥ ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻰ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻓﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﻝﺘﻭﻗﻴﺘﻪ ﺒﺸﺄﻥ ﻤﻭﻀﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﺠﻨﺱ‪ .‬ﺍﻝﺜﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻝﺤﺏ ﻴﺠﻌﻼﻥ ﻜل ﻴﻭﻡ ﻨﺠﺘﺎﺯﻩ ﻴﻠﻴﻪ ﻴﻭﻡ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺤﻼﻭﺓ‬
‫ﻤﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺒﻤﺤﺒﺘﻙ ﷲ ﺴﻭﻑ ﻴﻬﺒﻙ ﺍﻝﻐﻔﺭﺍﻥ ﺍﻝﻜﺎﻤل ﻭﺍﻝﺫﻯ ﺠﻌﻠﻪ ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﻤﻤﻜﻨ ﹰﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺨﻰ ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺤﺒﻙ ﻭﻫﻭ ﻴﺠﻬﺯ ﻝﻙ ﻤﺴﺘﻘﺒل ﺴﻌﻴﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻝﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﻤﻔﻬﻭﻤﻬﺎ ﺍﻹﻝﻬﻰ ﻤﻠﻜﻙ ﻭﺫﻝﻙ ﺇﻥ ﻭﻀﻌﺕ ﺩﻓﺔ ﺤﻴﺎﺘﻙ ﻓﻰ ﻴـﺩ‬
‫ﺍﻝﻤﺨﻠﺹ ﺍﻝﺤﻘﻴﻘﻰ ‪ ..‬ﻴﺴﻭﻉ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ‪ ،‬ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻨﻪ ﻤﻬﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺨﻁﺎﻴﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻭ ﻴﻘﺩﺭ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻐﻔﺭﻫﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻴﻌﻭﺩ ﻴﺘﺫﻜﺭﻫﺎ ﺒﻌﺩ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻴﻁﺭﺤﻬﺎ ﻓـﻰ‬
‫ﺒﺤﺭ ﺍﻝﻨﺴﻴﺎﻥ ﺒﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻌﺘﺭﻑ ﺒﻬﺎ ‪ ..‬ﺘﺫﻜﺭ ﺃﻥ ﺍﷲ ﻴﺤﺒﻙ‪.‬‬

‫* أ‪B‬ر و‪:A*-‬‬
‫‪ - ١‬ﺃﻯ ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ ﺍﻝﻔﺼل ﺍﻝﺘﺎﺴﻊ ﻋﺸﺭ ﺘﻌﻁﻰ ﺃﻓﻀل ﻭﺼﻔ ﹰﺎ ﻝﻙ؟‬
‫‪ - ٢‬ﺃﻯ ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﺘﺭﻴﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ؟‬
‫‪ - ٣‬ﻭﻓﻕ ﺍﻝﺜﻼﺙ ﺼﻭﺭ ﺒﺎﻝﺜﻼﺙ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻵﺘﻴﺔ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺴﻌﺩ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻤﻭﺍﻋﺩﺓ ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺴﻌﺩ ﺯﻭﺍﺝ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺴﻌﺩ ﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺠﻨﺴﻴﺔ ﻤﺸﺒﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫‪ - ٤‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ " ﺍﻝﺼﻴﺭﻭﺭﺓ ﻤﺴﻴﺤﻴ ﹰﺎ " ﻤﺠﺭﺩ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ ﻓﻘﻁ؟‬
‫‪ -٥‬ﻝﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﺄﻤﺭﻨﺎ ﺍﷲ ﺃﻥ ﻨﻨﻤﻭ ﻜﻤﺅﻤﻨﻴﻥ؟‬
‫ﺕ ﻭﺨﻁﻴﺒﻙ ﺃﻥ ﺘﺠﻌﻼ ﺍﻝﻤﺴﻴﺢ ﺭﻗﻡ )‪ (١‬ﻓﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺘﻜﻤﺎ ؟‬
‫‪ -٦‬ﻜﻴﻑ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻨ ِ‬
‫‪ -٧‬ﺃﻴﻥ ﺴﻭﻑ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﻏﺩﹰﺍ ﺇﻥ ﻋﺭﻓﺕ ﺃﻴﻥ ﺘﺫﻫﺏ ﺍﻝﻴﻭﻡ ؟‬

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