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THE COMEBACK (Final)
THE COMEBACK (Final)
May you find companionship in my words and may they serve as a warm blanket of
understanding, comfort, and peace.
Source
2 FALIS AMIR
Dear God,
You have blessed me with so many priceless things I did not ask for.
May You allow me to be a servant whom You’re proud of.
You have taken away so many things I thought I needed.
I’ve poured the love and adoration belonging to You,
into your creations.
Realizing that these worldly obsessions fade and are of no real substance.
May You allow me to be strong enough
to be only dependent on You,
and You alone
3 THE COMEBACK
- “A calamity that makes you turn to Allah is better for you than a blessing which
makes you forget the remembrance of Allah.” ~Ibn Taymiyyah
I’ve put all my faith and trust in my Lord
and know that His plans will always supersede mine.
There’s a reason why we were brought back into each other’s lives.
A reason our simple brain will never understand.
However,
I am filled with joy
and contentment because of you.
I pray we’re constantly united with love, understanding, and respect between us.
Dear heart,
how many times
will you
break?
Shatter?
Bleed?
How many times
do you expect me
to sew and stitch
you back together again?
Why do you fall so easily
with those who aren’t worthy of our love?
10 FALIS AMIR
It stings.
When they own their shortcomings about their past wrongdoings.
When they come around and admit that you were right.
All along.
When they vocalize that they dropped the ball when they let you slip away.
However,
it still stings,
doesn’t it?
To burden yourself with wishful thinking.
The back and forth.
What good will that information do for me now?
What good is that accountability,
now that you’ve chosen another life?
Another path?
Now that I’ve intentionally healed?
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I sometimes wonder,
what it would’ve been like….
who we would’ve been together
if we were to connect at a different time.
Unfortunately,
I was too determined to make you mine
back then.
But the lines got crossed,
things got murky,
and we eventually went down our individual paths,
respectfully.
12 FALIS AMIR
Why is it
that we overlook certain things
to temporarily please ourselves?
Perhaps, to even fill a void?
As if those exact things
won’t haunt us down the line?
We shouldn’t be so quick to overlook
and ignore our subconscious warnings.
Not only does it know better,
but it also
wants
better for us.
13 THE COMEBACK
Why is it
that we’d rather go through the trials and tribulations
than to take advice from someone who can see through the smoke?
From someone who insists they know better,
because they usually do.
Why is it
that we’d rather see the outcome for ourselves?
Risk everything
than to take their word?
Why don’t we ever save our hearts from inevitable brokenness?
19 THE COMEBACK
As a female,
why are we expected
by society,
by our communities,
to reach specific milestones
by a specific age?
Why is it we get frowned upon
when we decide
to dance to the drum of our own beat?
To live our lives solely for ourselves?
Everyone walks their own unique paths in life.
Don’t rush yours.
22 FALIS AMIR
Comparison is cruel.
It essentially robs you of your birthright to happiness.
It is merely a self-sabotaging mechanism
we often use to question Gods perfect timing.
To question our self worth.
You must repel the negativity
and know that your season is hastily approaching.
23 THE COMEBACK
The people we meet perceive us differently than what we are at our core.
Whom we are at our core.
Whether it’s true or it’s heresy.
It is not up to us
to prove
nor disprove ourselves.
- Qualms
24 FALIS AMIR
- Mistaken Belief
26 FALIS AMIR
You see,
I was unable to give myself that push
that I so desperately needed.
I needed you to play your perfectly constructed imperfect role
in my life
to allow me to go through with what I was too afraid to do.
Too afraid to admit
out loud.
I am thankful and humbled by our necessary divergence.
30 FALIS AMIR
- Deprivation
34 FALIS AMIR
I am realizing
that the type of people I attract
is directly linked to how I view myself.
I’ve always wondered why I am drawn to those whom
aren’t capable of emotional maturity
and of self-awareness.
I am realizing
that I had to be presented with those types of people
to have them aid me in increasing my self-worth.
And in turn,
I have acted as that same vessel for those whom I meet.
38 FALIS AMIR
- Inferiority Complex
40 FALIS AMIR
I am convinced.
Convinced that because I didn’t learn the lesson,
I met you in different forms.
No progression.
And fell for the different versions of you every time.
I now know
about people like you:
Those who are sent into our lives
to see whether we take the bait
again.
44 FALIS AMIR
- Mirror
47 THE COMEBACK
Timing is everything.
You may meet the right person for you,
but if the timing doesn’t align
with your life’s inevitable divine plan,
woefully,
like a puzzle, it’ll never fit.
48 FALIS AMIR
As females,
why are we preconditioned?
Taught life lessons on ‘how to keep a man’.
Taught that our lives aren’t complete
without him and some children to share it with?
Why do we search high and low,
continuously mending our broken hearts,
only for it to be broken by the next?
- Cycle
49 THE COMEBACK
Happiness is subjective.
I’ve found what I’ve deemed as ‘happiness’
in others.
Yet, it was conditional.
Feeble.
51 THE COMEBACK
I’ve since learned that happiness must first come from within.
I am learning that now.
Happiness cannot be tied to another human being
nor is it a ‘thing’ to attain and conquer.
I am learning that now.
Happiness is a state of mind, body, soul.
It is the core of you living in your truth and being able to
form, sustain, and water
healthy, evenly yoked, genuine relationships
However,
those who I’ve allowed to exist in my space
were just fixated on physical characteristics.
Not my way of thought,
nor who I am as a person.
I see that now.
I’ve since realized that they had no capability of seeing me
for me
because they haven’t met themselves beneath surface level.
I see that now.
Sleepless nights
have become the norm.
With so much going on in this world,
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the privilege
the hate imbedded in societal norms,
and the state of humanity.
With so much going on in my thoughts,
the uncertainty about the future,
the unease,
and the dreadful life choices.
I no longer find the peace required for sleep.
- Triumph
- Note To Self
58 FALIS AMIR
Let us teach our young daughters everything we’ve had to learn the hard way.
That anything forced is fruitless.
To not only practice
but prioritize self-respect and self-love.
It is okay to ask for direction
perhaps even guidance.
It is okay to follow your gut, it’ll never leave you astray.
Most importantly,
never be afraid to say no to the things that don’t serve you.
63 THE COMEBACK
Give yourself permission to refute anything that takes away from your inner peace.
Give yourself the right to purpose and happiness.
Give yourself room to grow.
Believe in bringing your manifestations to life.
Give yourself the power to express your truths,
no matter how uncomfortable it might be for others.
Give yourself the grace to make mistakes,
as they are our best teachers.
65 THE COMEBACK
I sometimes torture myself with the thoughts of what could have been.
Mindlessly.
I then catch myself
and remind myself,
that
since we didn’t vibe on the same frequency,
since we weren’t created in pairs by the Almighty,
you’ll continue to search for a woman with my traits,
my energy,
and my unmatched aura.
A woman who only seemingly partially resembles me.
If at all.
You should’ve learned to love, accept and cherish all of me:
my beauty and my beast.
66 FALIS AMIR
I am not my mistakes,
my sorrows,
my fears.
69 FALIS AMIR
I attract healing,
balance,
alignment
and positivity.
70 FALIS AMIR
how irreplaceable
you are.
May they never forget it.
May they always remind you.
73 THE COMEBACK
Be so concerned with
your aspirations,
your goals,
and your happiness,
that you simultaneously
and intentionally
detach yourself from
everything that no longer serves your higher self.
- Purpose
74 FALIS AMIR
- Alignment
82 FALIS AMIR
- Unyielding
83 THE COMEBACK
or what
I was.
I just want to say,
thank you.
Gone
the moment they’re spoken.
You’ve taught me to no longer break myself in half
for anyone or anything
especially when it’s not reciprocated and expected.
From here on out,
I’m only offering the same energy received.
You’ve pushed me to question what I thought was happiness.
To pick it apart,
to analyze it
and superglue the pieces that fit
back together.
Though,
those pieces wouldn’t configure without force,
unless the correct pieces were attached.
That’s when I realized
we were never the correct pieces for one another,
and no matter what we’d try,
we’d never align.
- Teacher or Student
Like a flower
89 HE COMEBACK
I couldn’t bloom,
couldn’t grow in an environment that wasn’t conducive
to happiness, healing nor light.
Like a plant,
I needed to uproot.
Re-root
myself,
to a space filled with the happiness, healing and light
I now know I’m worthy and deserving of.
90 FALIS AMIR
Fine China.
She has gotten the masterpiece of the man I so desperately helped mould.
Quite interesting, though.
That’s the thing about potential,
it’s never what it seems to be.
There’s a reason for that I’ll never know
and because of that,
I thank God profusely.
With you, I did something I vowed I’d never do again:
I fell in love with potential.
I now realize that you were ordinary…
that it was my love and divine feminine energy that I’ve poured into you.
I now realize that was what made you appear to be who I thought you were.
Who I thought you had the potential to be.
- Broken Soul
93 THE COMEBACK
Isn’t it an insult,
when you’ve poured your entire soul,
your fears,
your aspirations,
and your entire being
into someone who doesn’t understand the gravity of what you’ve entrusted them with?
When you’ve worked through the flaws,
the kinks,
the imbalance.
95 THE COMEBACK
Sometimes,
I wonder and ask myself
how broken was I
to have thought you were for me?
To have thought our soul ties were more than what it had appeared to be?
A figment of a perfect perception.
A fairytale.
I’ve let you be the star of.
96 FALIS AMIR
I’ve let you see the brokenness, the rawness, and the tenderness of my soul…
of my entire existence.
Yet,
you couldn’t see the masterpiece you were standing before.
How could you walk away
knowing all that you know?
Knowing what I’ve kept buried deep within my heart
Before trusting and choosing you?
Knowing you’ve taken a piece of me
with you
when you left.
These men
with the perfect timing
who know when to appear,
and who know exactly what to say.
As if there’s a standard script they all share.
We should know better.
Better than to let them in
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again.
Dive in
again.
Same old story
same old song,
same old dance.
Where we play a game,
and convince ourselves
that it is fate:
a sign from the Universe
for them somehow finding their way back to us.
Be mindful:
this is our insecurities speaking.
Seeping through
and allowing them to feed our egos.
By casting them in our happily ever after.
98 FALIS AMIR
I’ve always struggled with the notion that we all have a soulmate.
Singular.
Once in a lifetime.
I’ve come to believe
that we meet people at different points in our lives,
and for different reasons.
I believe we meet people who not only bring out different versions of ourselves,
but who simultaneously teach us different lessons.
I’ve met people who’ve somehow taught me
while simultaneously hurting me,
I’ve loved them anyway.
I’ve met people who’ve used me
while simultaneously filling a void by keeping me company,
I’ve loved them anyway.
At least, that’s what I thought it was.
What I told myself it was:
love.
It took me quite some time to understand
that they didn’t know any better.
They were simply walking the path they needed to;
the path they were meant to take
directly into my life.
The path that led them to love my physical cloak
99 THE COMEBACK
to love,
and to pray for them.
To keep their memories
and names
alive.
- Overcome
103 THE COMEBACK
What do you do
when you can’t heal the hurt
and the pain
of those whom you love?
110 FALIS AMIR
To those women
who intentionally pretend like they have it all figured out.
112 FALIS AMIR
It is crucial
to first establish a deep kinship.
A deep understanding.
To know an individual for who they are,
not what they say they are.
To dive deep into their psyche.
116 FALIS AMIR
- Chemistry
- Guilt
118 FALIS AMIR
- Honey
118 FALIS AMIR
There have been times when I have submitted to the goodness that I am blessed with.
Times I’ve stayed too long,
and loved too hard.
In hindsight,
I didn’t give up on the very people whom I should have…
so how dare I give up on myself?
118 FALIS AMIR
Love
118 FALIS AMIR
I am love.
I am deeply rooted
in love.
I exude and embrace
love.
Therefore,
I am.
I am an outpouring vessel
of grace and compassion.
118 FALIS AMIR
Love is healing.
It is a way of life;
It is how we interact with everything
and everyone
around us.
Love is not only subjected to people,
nor things.
It is simply a way of being.
We are love.
118 FALIS AMIR
- Infinite
to re-read
over
and
over
when you’re not here beside me.
With you,
I savour our time shared.
With you,
it feels as if
both time and the world have stopped.
Just for us.
With you, my picture’s perfect.
Us: my perfect picture.
But now,
it’s been 10 years.
A lifetime of change and growth.
To have now met the new you,
with your matured behaviour,
matured thoughts,
and matured actions.
Maybe now,
we can be what we were supposed to be,
perhaps even meant to be,
10 years ago.
- Soul Ties
As a whole
and where I fit in, in this crazy world.
You have showered me with your empathy,
comfort and acceptance
time and time again.
With no hesitation,
no irritation.
You’ve made me feel like I matter,
like I’m worthy of unwavering
genuine, unconditional, screenplay love.
In you,
I’ve found someone who reciprocates my energy, passion, and cravings.
Someone who shares my longing, willingness, and openness
for a deeper connection.
My blueprint,
the one person who knew me like no other.
The one whom I’ve confided in,
countless times.
The one who lit the dark tunnels in my path
and who would never let go of my hand.
My entire being in human form.
Outside of me.
I love you like no other.
I love you more than I love myself.
The one person who knew my ugliest flaw,
118 FALIS AMIR
- April 29
Thoughts of you
have flooded my mind.
Have engulfed me in a beautiful bliss.
- Abyss
118 FALIS AMIR
My perfect muse.
Exchanges with you,
are as perfect as
a wonder of the world.
It’s as if the world has stopped.
I’ve yearned to be understood
on an emotional level long before I understood the complexities of relationships.
The complexities of self.
I’ve yearned to meet someone on the same wavelength, intellectually.
I’ve yearned to be accepted for my shortcomings and loved anyway.
Before you,
it never quite panned out how I’ve hoped.
Yet,
118 FALIS AMIR
In me,
you’ve either
awakened something I’ve longed for
or
you’ve awakened something in me
I never knew I needed,
never thought I’d find.
118 FALIS AMIR
You
and I:
a beautiful crash.
A crash so
unexpected and powerful,
yet
delightfully ravishing,
inspiring.
Two planets colliding
to form a bond so deep.
Deep enough to unearth
Earth.
118 FALIS AMIR
- Big Bang
How is it that
you love me
even though I see myself as broken?
How is it that
you’re still able to find the beauty of my essence
all while simultaneously being a healing mechanism for me?
How are the parts of me that I am ashamed of,
the very parts you consider enthralling?
I never knew a bond,
a love
like this.
Never knew it existed.
Never knew I was worthy.
118 FALIS AMIR
- Sapiosexual
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- Worthy
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- July 27
- December 27
I am thankful for
being reminded of the ways you see my value.
The small gestures
that show me
the ways my happiness brings you happiness.
118 FALIS AMIR
Thank you
for supporting me in trusting myself,
in finding myself
by reverting to my truest self.
- Benign