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We spent the rest of the night as any other couple would – we had dinner, took a walk in the big
city, and he even bought me a big bouquet of roses when we passed a flower shop. In that moment
of my life, I didn’t realise the severity of my actions. I willingly put myself in danger. But for him,
I thought it was worth the risk. I never loved like that before, and I would’ve done anything for
him. I would lie if I said that he didn’t love me back. But Carter was complicated – he loved the
power and the respect he got. After a few months, I realised with great sadness that there was no
way he would give up this life. It wasn’t just a lifestyle anymore, it represented him. And the
greater the power, the thirstier the man is. It’s just in their nature. Power tends to corrupt, and
absolute power corrupts absolutely.
June 7th, 1998.
This was a particular unforgettable night.
I was asleep when the doorbell rang. As I was home alone, as Sam had a night shift, imagine my
surprise when I heard it. At first I assumed that someone pulled a prank on me, because I wasn’t
sure who could be at my door at 3 a.m. I got up and looked trough the door sight – it was Carter.
I opened up as fast as I could.
“Carter, baby, what are you doing here?”
He didn’t respond. Instead, he fell into my arms, and I quickly realised he was bleeding. I grabbed
his face and screamed his name, again and again, with tears forming in the cornes of my eyes.
“I wanted to see you...” He cracks a big smile, and I saw the blood he had in his mouth, covering
his teeth. His breathing was rough.
“This is no time for jokes! Are you hurt?” I tried to keep my calm, but I found myself looking for
a stab wound, or a bullet wound... anything. I just couldn’t lose him like that.
“I...I have a cut. There.” We were sitting on the floor, and I placed his head in my lap. He showed
me a wound on his hand, and when he lifted his shirt, I could see he was cut pretty bad.
“Oh... let’s get them cleaned up.” I helped him get on the couch, and I brought the first – aid kit. I
started cleaning the wounds as best as I could, and he stood still, almost like a child when his
mother cleans up a small wound after he failed to ride his bike. I put the bandages on as best as I
could, and I saw him clech his jaw in pain. I felt a lot better knowing that he wasn’t stabbed or
shot, but still... I couldn’t help but wonder what he got himself into.
“I’m so thankful I have you.”
“You got some explaining to do, mister.” I put my hand on my hip. He smirked, and he looked
awful with part of his face swollen, a black eye and bloody and muddy clothes.
“I got into a fight with one of the guys. We found out he was stealing money.”
“Really?” I raised my eyebrow, trying to read his body language, but he was like a rock when it
came to this kind of stuff. He kept a straight face, just nodding his head.
“I didn’t really want to go to a hospital. I hate them.” He looked at his feet, not wanting to make
eye contact with me.
“Look at me.” I gently touched his face. “The most important thing is that you’re ok. And I hope
he learned his lesson.”
“He’ll be alright.”
“Please, don’t do something you’ll regret. Spare him, just once.”
He smiled and pulled me into his arms. “You’re too good, Grace.”
“Will you stay the night?” I asked, almost begging him. Since the last time I slept in his arms, I
couldn’t wait to do it again. He was my safe heaven.
“Of course.”
I didn’ really like to ask questions... I didn’t know what to believe. From what I saw, his wounds
and bruises were credible. But if that was the case, it was one hell of a fight, from both sides. We
never spoke about his lifestyle, and in the cases where we did talk, I didn’t want to know more
than necessary. It gave me nightmares sometimes, just the thought of my beloved Carter doing this
gruesome actions towards someone. It didn’t sit right with me.
I hugged him tight for the rest of the night, thinking about the moment when he collpsed into my
arms. For a moment there, I thought I lost him. I was so scared of losing him, and this moment
alone showed me just how much I was hooked to him. There was no way I would back out now, I
was too invested. I looked at him, while he peacefully sleeped next to me. My heart was aching for
him while I studied his bruises and those cuts I somehow managed to patch-up. But then, my
thoughts ran to the other guy, and how bad he was hurt. I wonder if he had anyone to care for his
wounds, to hug him?
They hurt each other for money, for power. They used the law of jungle – this code dictated
survival by any means possible. They were exactly like animals, fighting for their spot onto the
top. Most of these man had families, friends and girlfriends waiting for them at home, hoping and
praying that when they go out the door, they come back safe and sound. Soon, I became one of
them, praying to God that my beloved won’t return to me in a coffin. Boy...was I wrong.