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College Essay - Ella Cole
College Essay - Ella Cole
Mrs. Filc
English 11
partner, typically one who requires support on account of an illness or addiction.”, as the
dictionaries would define it. I characterize this word by the sound of beer bottles slammed
against the wall, smashed into thousands of glittering fragments as invective is spit from my
mom's boyfriend's mouth through his wrath. My mom attempted to hold any sort of peace
together while watching someone she loves morph into a different person. She watched the
normalcy in the family disappear, while I tried to disappear behind the stable walls of my
bedroom door as the unstable foundation that was my family fell into pieces.
My objective isn’t to throw myself a pity party or inject pathos but rather to tell the
genesis of how my love for the arts formed. I could not control that my father's life was taken by
a heart attack. I could not control my mom, who would let herself be used as an emotional crutch
and punching bag for a man she feels that she cannot be strong without. There was unlimited
amount of worries in the world that I could not control, so I controlled what I could. I let my
hand fall on the milky white paper, my brush following close behind. Verdant greens and vibrant
reds splashed against the page, seamlessly creating a magnificent picture that was under my
jurisdiction. For the first time, I was not carrying resentment around like a weight on my
shoulders. Resentment toward my mom, or her boyfriend, or god for deciding that taking my dad
from me was the best plan. I could let myself escape into the paintings I created. I loved how
different people from all walks of life can find a common connection through art. Soon after
discovering my love for art, I picked up a fondness for literature. Instead of sitting in my bed
with endless racing thoughts piling up like a college kid's laundry, I could pick up a book. “A
reader lives a thousand lives before he dies. The man who never reads lives only one.”– George
R.R. Martin once said. Reading the elegant ink scripted along the sunlight stained pages supplies
me with perspective of multiple lives thus expanding my knowledge and openness of mind.
Reading helped me understand that others are going through similar things I have experienced in
my life. I started to cultivate my own stories. My hand sat propped up upon the delicate paper as
I hastily scribbled ideas down in my journal promptly whisking me away. Escapism is a pleasure
I tended to divulge. Not only did escapism help heal me, but it became commodity I thrived
upon. I don’t claim to be any sort of artistic prodigy, but I have found motivation and a driving
force. A release from the chains that resentment binds me to and it is liberating. When my mom
finally found the courage to leave her boyfriend, I saw as she was freed from the shackles that a
codependent relationship can pose upon a person. I saw a new relationship form, but this one was
between my mom and herself. Finally, my mother was independent. Independence can be
defined as “someone or something free from the influence or control of another.” As I watched
I will not let myself be tethered down by anything. I will continue to expand my
knowledge and open my heart to the experiences of others. I have a tool that can help me
navigate the emotions I face. A passion that keeps me afloat in the sea of worries of the world. I
have seen the darkness that humankind is capable of but I cannot stay in despair for long because
I have also been lucky enough to experience unconditional love and joy. I may not be entirely
healed, but I’m not losing my tenacity any time soon. The challenges I have faced are only a
chapter in a long novel that I hope could impact the hearts of others as others have impacted
mine.