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Remix Project - Hadlea Dingledine
Remix Project - Hadlea Dingledine
Hadlea Dingledine
Dean Leonard
English 1201.2V7
25 April 2022
Today was not an easy day, I learned that I have 2 college essays due this weekend as
well as my high school assignments. When I learned this information, my heart started to race, it
felt like the air got thicker. All of a sudden, I felt like the weight of 10 buildings was laying on
my shoulders… my severe anxiety had kicked in again. As the school day went on, I couldn’t
focus, all I could focus on were all the assignments. The assignments that could either make or
break my grade. I felt sick as the day went on, my body shut down. I tried to control my anxiety
with some meditation in study hall, but it didn’t work. So, then I tried my tapping technique to
try and relieve some of the stress and anxiety that was built up now, but that also was
unsuccessful.
Finally, later in the day I made it home where I could face my anxiety alone instead of in
a room with over 30 people. Even though I was home my anxiety still didn’t get any better, I
tried doing as much homework as I could before my college class, but I didn’t have much time.
When my class was finally finished, I had to get ready for soccer practice! I felt like I was about
to burst. All of a sudden, I couldn’t catch my breath, I started getting dizzy, and sat down. As I
laid on my back trying to just breath, I started hyperventilating. My hands started to vibrate, then
my arms, my torso, my legs, my face, and then my feet. The burning sensation slowly crawled
through my body. I felt like I was on fire. As I laid their tingling and burning up, my hands
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started to tense up. They balled themselves up, I was unable to move my hands! I started to
panic, I couldn’t move or breath. All of a sudden all of my joints locked up… I was officially
stuck. I was stuck their shaking, sweating, tensed up to the point of tears. I ended up staying like
Close to when my panic attack started, my mom thankfully found me. She tried to help in
every way she could but there was nothing she could do. My body had officially felt overloaded
from all the stress I was under and it crumbled. She put a fan on me to try and cool me down, but
it didn’t work. All she could do was sit on the floor and hold me while the panic attack took
course. My mom’s main goal was to try and get me to calm down which is easier said than done.
By the second hour my body hurt so bad, my hands felt like they were being stabbed, I couldn’t
stay like this for much longer or it would have a serious toll on my health.
Luckily a little bit later I managed to start calming down. I started to be able to feel my
feet again, then my face, my legs, my torso, my arms, and then finally my hands. My joints were
still locked up a little bit from them being tensed up for so long. I tried to get up when I caught
my breath, but I had to sit there for a little while longer because I still couldn’t walk. When I was
finally able to stand up practice was over, so I obviously didn’t go. I managed to still get my high
school work done that needed to be done for tomorrow, I didn’t finish it all, but I tried my best. I
need to remember that it’s not the end of the world every time I get stressed out but it’s very
difficult. It was a long day and I definitely would not like to do it again. Hopefully it doesn’t