Professional Documents
Culture Documents
Engl 1220
Project 1
20 February 2022
I am Hispanic
Hispanic. It’s a loose term with many different definitions. Some people define it as
merely someone who speaks Spanish, while others define it as having some Spanish decent-
whether it be from Spain, Mexico, Puerto Rico or other nationalities. I grew up with the second
definition mentioned, and by that definition I am Hispanic. But, like everything related to race
and ethnicity, everyone under the Hispanic category is expected to look like it. They are
expected to have brown skin, brown eyes, etc. But that is not always the case, and regardless of
what color your skin is, there is a certain prejudice against the other color.
My parents are both legitimately Hispanic. My dad’s family primarily came from
Mexico, my great grandpa was an immigrant from there. My mother is a slightly different story,
with her grandma’s family being from Spain. Obviously there was mixing from both sides of the
family, but neither really mixed with whites. My family is mostly from Texas and New Mexico,
and both places are highly populated with people of color, in other words, they’re minority-
majority states. I never really questioned who I was, who my blood came from, until I was
I grew up in a small town in New Mexico, and was surrounded by people of the same
ethnicity-Hispanic. To me, I fit right in. I was with my people. But, as I became older, I realized
that some people did not think the same way. There was no question about my parents, everyone
thought that they were obviously Hispanic. Me, on the other hand, was blonde and had blue eyes.
I remember one night when my sister, five years older than me, asked my parents if I was
adopted or if she was. I was so confused because we were family, I grew up in this family and
never thought about coming from somewhere else, someone else. My parents looked so hurt that
the inevitable question had come out. They were hurt that Ashley had even asked that question
because they knew I was their child, with their genetics and blood with no doubt. After that, they
proceeded to have a talk with me. They assured me that I was Hispanic with no doubt, just
sometimes genetics work in crazy ways. It also helped that in my mom’s family(a pretty big
family, my great grandma had twelve children, my grandma four) every family ended up with a
lighter skinned person. It showed more that I was theirs because as I grew up I definitely had a
mixture of their features. I never felt that I was treated differently because of the way I looked,
except with older people. I didn’t realize it then, but all the older people referred to me as the
Fast forward to seventh grade, my parents made me move schools because the town,
Pensaco, I grew up in was not a good place to be, education wasn’t taken seriously, drugs and
other things were the main thing. I moved to a school where there were more white kids than
Hispanic, and the town itself was very white. My first day there, I remember all the kids asking
me to repeat myself because they couldn’t understand me-my Spanish accent. I spoke Spanish
mostly with my grandparents but I soon lost that ability. I tried to lose my accent as much as I
could, while still talking normally with my family. I also tried to stay away from the sun, so I
A couple years later, I had to get confirmed. So, I had taken the classes and everything
back in my hometown. All the kids were normal with me, and honestly it was refreshing to be
with them again. So, I started going back to the way I used to be. The kids in my school were
more accepting with who I was, since it was apparent from the beginning that I am Hispanic.
Around the same year, my grandpa passed. During that time, I spent more time in Penasco. One
weekend, we went to a church bingo, and since I was trying to get confirmed, I had to help out. I
was passing out the bingo cards, until I came to a table with a bunch of old men. This one man,
who I had known forever, through my grandpa and he was my second grade teacher’s husband.
He spoke in Spanish making jokes about what the hell a white girl was doing here, and she didn’t
belong. My teacher had heard him and saw the tears in my eyes, because I could obviously
understand him. She slapped him and scolded him, yelling about how I was Margo’s
granddaughter, and started to apologize over and over. This man apologized too, and tried to say
he was joking with me, but I knew that prejudice didn’t go away. I cried to my mom that night
because I never thought I’d be ridiculed for my features. Then came the funeral for my grandpa,
and he came, like the rest of the town. It was already a hard time, but as people were giving the
family condolences, some would just skip over me. A couple even asked my grandma or my
aunts who the hell I was and what I was even doing there. Everyone in my family was so
offended, and probably tried to coddle me a little more. It was the same talk over and over,
“don’t let people try to tell you who you are because you are a part of us, and never question it.”
From that point, I went through another transition. To try to look more Hispanic, and be
more like them. I would spend hours outside on the trampoline trying to get as dark as I could. It
helped that I could never really get burned, I would just take in the sun and tan. A blessing, some
would call it-that I wouldn’t get burned, which was, thanks to my genes. I’m still here, in this
phase because I want people to know who I am. It’s a defining thing about person-race, ethnicity.
I don’t want to be seen as a white girl, I want to be seen as the Hispanic I am. Even when I came
to college and met new people, they asked where I was from because of my accent. I was proud
As time goes on, more people are realizing Hispanics come in different colors, sizes,
shapes. Hispanics are not exactly characterized by dark skin. I think more people have had the
same struggles that I have had, and have chosen to show the world that there is more than just
color to a group of people. I’m still learning how to navigate it. I won’t lie, I wish I were born
with the skin of my parents, maybe even their hair color and eyes. I am more accepting of the
accent I have, even though I tend to hide it, depending on who I talk to. I’m even starting to
incorporate the Spanish I remember into my daily life, dialect. But there is one thing that never
changed about me, and that will be a part of who I am. I am Hispanic.