Brimming with sadness

alone in a garden
with thorns all around me
I chained myself in this sandcastle

What do they call you?

Where are you off to?
Oh could you tell me?
Caught sight of you hidden in this garden

And I know your warmth is genuine and true to me

Want to hold it desperately, your hand reaching out

But it's my fate

Don't smile on me
Light on me
I cannot be yours and you cannot be mine
There's no name for you to call me by

You know that I can't

show you me, give you me
These faults I have are things I don't want you to see
Disguised myself again to go and see you
But I still want you

Blooming in my heart, a flower you nurtured

I want you to have it
After I take off this foolish mask

But I know my love is not for me to show and say

I know I must hide away
Since I'm full of flaws

Showing them all, my weaknesses, I'm so afraid

That someday you might leave me hanging in the end
So, I wear this mask when I am with you
Now I am left to do this one thing for you
To bloom a pretty flower that resembles you
Just so I could close the gap between us
But I still want you
I still want you

What if back then?

Even if just a bit
If I were so brave to stand before you dear
Would you stay with me and would you be here?

Left alone in
the garden, forsaken
There's no use for me to hide it anymore
I take away my mask that has been broken
And I still want you

But I still want you

But I still want you
And I still want you