For Farrel Ariella Hakim,

Good morning, special girl, whom I have always admired, how are you feeling today?
I hope you are always happy. Hopefully, this letter can be the beginning of your
happiness today. Honestly, I'm confused about what to write because this is my first
experience writing a letter like this, but let my fingers dance on my laptop keyboard
following the tone of my thoughts, hehe.

First, I am very grateful to Allah SWT, for bringing me to you, so that I can know you.
Then I say many thanks to your father, your mother, and you, who have treated me
so well and have helped me in many ways, which were previously unheard of in my
mind. so I have high respect for all of you.

Talking about you will be beautiful and pleasant tones because, in my opinion, you
are a special woman who has a lot of uniqueness either from your beautiful face,
your sweet smile, your intelligence of thinking, your depth of knowledge, a lot of
experience, your "unique" behavior, and all that sticks with you. Even in our first
conversation (at lunch in Tangerang, PT Eastech), I already admired how you asked
and how you answered or spoke in our chats.

After that, I started looking at your Instagram and became a connoisseur of your
stories, expressing your admiration for a man who until now I had no idea who you
were referring to at the time. Until in your story which is more or less about "you will
be heartbroken", from there I am brave and optimistic to send you a message on
Instagram because I don't want to see you get heartbroken because I think you do
not deserve to be heartbroken. From there we started a conversation via WA, and I
always look forward to having a conversation with you both in face-to-face meetings
or on WA.

From our conversation, I like your thoughts on many things, except western culture
that goes beyond religious law (if any) hehe. Until finally, we went for a walk to
Jakarta, I really enjoyed the trip starting from taking the train, MRT, Trans Jakarta,
and visiting several places in the capital city. After coming from Jakarta, I don't know
what happened, it turned out that my previous optimism was wrong, and I asked
about one thing (hasfi, wkwkwk), but you didn't answer my question. And maybe you
answered it through your IG story without giving me an explanation wkwkw.

Honestly, at that time I felt a little annoyed and disappointed because at least give
me an explanation and after that, I will understand and everything will be fine.
However, back then I thought that my goal was to make sure you were happy. So
I threw away feeling annoyed and disappointed. Because if you are happy, I will be
happy too. It's okay to me to be "a candle willing to burn itself, to bring out a
light for others"

So, after the response from hasfi some time ago, I think you are still expecting a
good reply from mr. dimple hehe, and you are still hoping to get hasfi. Is that right?
………..
I want to hear an honest answer from you. Wkwkwk, or maybe you still expect danen
to be yours hehe….

Maybe, I will never fit in your man criteria (like the list you gave me), But it doesn't
matter to me, being in this current position, being your discussion partner, joking with
you, listening to your story, or being an "abang" to you is a very pleasant thing, and I
will always look forward to it. Because my goal is to make sure that you are always
happy. I really hope that our relationship can be established for a long time so that
we can mutually benefit each other. And I hope too, so that I can learn a lot from you
about various things.

I will always admire you and look forward to you, hehe

Your admirer,

Rizal