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CHAPTER 5
Standing in front of the mirror with a glass of fresh juice, I
was putting on my bra and my bum short while inside my
room. Cheers to a dream come true, I said to myself.
I was really overwhelmed when I saw a congratulatory
message as the cybercafé attendant typed in my jamb
registration number into the jamb portal. I screamed with so
much excitement, so much that people there would think I
won millions of dollars.
It was a big win for me, I mean, who wouldn't want to be
away from home and live a freedom-filled life? I could not
even wait for my parents to be back, I quickly called and
informed them. I also called my best friend Zikora. The joy
was just so much because our plans were about to see the
light of day.
Mum was super busy preparing lots of things for me, I felt
so happy knowing that I just had less than 3 weeks to be
with my parents. I used my savings to buy very revealing
clothes; a girl has to look very attractive on campus you
know.
As the day drew nearer, I would often lock my room and
wear some of the clothes that I bought. I would stare at
myself in the mirror and would wish my departure date is
the next day. I was so eager to leave.
The day finally came and I was completely ready to be that
campus girl one cannot help but look twice at. It was
indeed a very long drive from the south down to the east. I
entered the school premises late and was so tired that I only
managed to get a space in the hostel to lay my head.
The next day, I began with the Registration, it was really a
tiring one as I moved from one office to another. At one
point, I got tired and really wanted to go home.
Everything was so boring and hectic. The registration
officers also contributed to my pain, on a few occasions,
they complained about my dressing, spilling hurtful words
at me. One of them said, "This one that dressed like this,
she thinks she is here for fashion. I know people like her
were helped to gain admission, because I know she doesn’t
know anything".
Those words were really painful but they didn't stop me
from living my life the way I wanted.
I wondered why those staff couldn't mind their business but
one thing that made me happy was the fact that I won't be
seeing them after my registration.
Amongst all that attended to me, a particular guy was really
helpful. He was kind and well-mannered. I had just walked
out of the admin block premises, when I heard a guy call
my name from a distance, asking how I was.
I was perturbed because I knew that I haven't told anyone
in the school my name. I kept wondering who he might be.
He was already very close to me when I looked and noticed
that he was the guy from the bursary unit.
You know, I actually had a crush on him, considering how
he helped me plus he looked quite handsome.
I replied, "Oh, I am fine. Thank you for helping me the
other day.
Showcasing his nice teeth arrangement, he said, "Oh, it’s
nothing. That’s what friends do for their friends.
When I heard what he said, I was overjoyed but didn’t want
to show it. I simply said, "Thank you for considering me to
be your friend". He told me that it was fine and requested
for my contact.
I quickly typed in my contact and he called my line
immediately and introduced himself as Davis. It happened
so fast and I was happy with myself for attracting a cute
guy already.
On my first day in class, I looked around in search of girls
that dressed like me. While I was looking around, a light-
skinned beautiful lady tapped me on my shoulder and asked
if I was able to get the handout that was released.
She looked so perfect; she was light-skinned, had a pointed
nose with straight legs, and she even dressed more than
myself. I mean, she looked hot and sexy.
Yes, I responded.
She asked if she can use mine to make a photocopy for
herself and I willingly said yes but on the condition that I
would have to go with her.
We headed towards the photocopying stand. On our way,
she complimented my gown and said it fits me, and brought
out my shape.
I thanked her for her compliment and also complimented
her beauty. I later introduced myself and she also
introduced herself as Princess Diana AKA Sexy original.
I have got a good friend just on the first day of lecture, I am
very certain she would fit in so well, I said to myself.
After getting her copy, we exchanged contact and parted
ways.
CHAPTER SIX
Davis was everywhere around me. When he wasn’t with
me, he called to check on me, and gradually we started
hanging out late into the night.
Davis was such a sweet soul, he was the kind of guy I
wished for in every ramification. Seeing how good he was
to me, I assumed he loved me and that we were already
dating even though he never asked me out officially. I loved
him with everything in me because he was my first love. A
day without talking to Davis wasn’t a good day for me at
all.
Davis made love so sweet and easy, he always appreciated
how I dressed, and always gave me lots of money to
maintain my beauty.
A few months into our relationship, Davis pleaded that I
help him prepare food and store it in his fridge. That was
my first time going over to his place, I was so excited to
help him out. That day I prepared two different soups and a
pot of stew for him.
When he came back, he hugged me so tight that I was lost
in his arms. I felt like remaining there, I didn't want to let
go. He caressed my body and kissed me for a long time.
That was his way of showing how happy he was with the
food I cooked for him.
After a while, it was like he got back to his senses and took
his hands off me immediately saying that we shouldn't be
doing that just yet.
I bowed my head in shame and nodded, indicating that I
agreed with him.
It seems like it's your first time, he asked and I replied yes.
He apologized and I made him understand that it was
alright so long as he is involved.
My words pleased his heart, he drew me closer to himself
and started caressing me again. I couldn’t control myself; I
was so lost in his arms.
Considering how good Davis was to me, I didn’t think it
was bad to let him have me. He was such a good lover.
I spent a few more days at his place. Those days were
indeed memorable; we ate together, bath together, and did
many things together, just like couples.
While I was at his place, I didn’t have any double mind
doing all those things with him because to me he deserved
everything.
…When the flesh rules a man, he loses spiritual sensitivity
and can hardly discern anything as the flesh is now in
charge…
While with him, I couldn’t contain my joy. I thought that
the prince charming that I desired was there and I got the
best of them. Davis showered me with so much love and
lots of gifts.
Exactly 11 months into our relationship, Davis told me that
he will be traveling. According to him, he was given three
weeks' leave. I was so sad that he didn’t want to spend his
leave with me. Was he getting tired of me already and
needed some time alone? I asked myself.
I tried to make him wait till after our first anniversary
which I was planning for a long time but my effort proved
abortive. He insisted that he must travel, he tried
convincing me to let him go, saying that he had a business
he wanted to survey.
I had no choice but to accept. That period was the loneliest
moment of my life. It became worse after three weeks
when I stopped hearing from him. I tried severally to
contact him but his number was not connecting.
Days, weeks, and months passed and I couldn’t reach
Davis. I cried every night prayed for his safety. I took a
bold step and went to his office to ask after him. At first, I
didn’t know how to go about it but my intense love for him
pushed me into doing what I wasn’t used to.
Against all odds, I went there and inquired of his where
about strategically. The information I got shocked me to my
bone marrow. For a few minutes, I could not breathe or
think properly. I only managed to pull myself together and
went back to my hostel.
CHAPTER SEVEN
What? Do you mean all this while Davis has been playing
you?
Babe, I told you not to trust guys. Guys are not to be trusted
but played with. I told you but you wouldn’t listen. I have
more than three men on me, I decide how they treat me and
they are all over me. Men like it when they pursue you and
not when you throw yourself at them, Diana told me.
Babe, I haven’t recovered from the shock yet. All this
while, Davis was just a Corp member and I never noticed.
How?
I mean, all the love I thought he showered on me was only
tricks he played to have me? I’ve been fooled. Can I ever
recover from this pain? I cried out.
Diana took it upon herself to help me recover from my
heartbreak, she allowed me to live with her.
While I was with her, I noticed that some days Diana leaves
the house so late at the night and returns very early the next
day. We sleep together every night but most times, I wake
up at the middle of the night to meet her absence.
I took the courage to ask where she goes at night and she
revealed the secret about her lifestyle. She was a stripper
and goes to clubs every night.
Diana was a very beautiful and intelligent young girl. She
was so young that no one would ever imagine that she has
gone far in things like that.
How do you feel being a stripper, I asked?
Does it matter how I feel? What is most important is that I
am living my dream life and there's nothing I want that I
cannot afford.
Are your parents aware of this and how did you begin to
live such a life? I probed further.
Way back in the boarding house, we always sneaked out of
the school to go have some fun. My parents weren’t aware
of my lifestyle. They believed just what I told them and of
course, they were too busy with work to even find out, she
narrated.
You can follow me one of these days and see things for
yourself. It’s fun, I’m so sure that you will love it. After all,
you are no longer a virgin, so there is nothing new to you
and nothing to lose, She added.
I thought deeply about what Diana said and I thought she
was right. What was I still preserving after all? I have lost
my virginity and there’s nothing I can do about it, I said to
myself.
Still giving Diana’s suggestion a second thought, I said out
loud, “Diana is living in a good apartment and lacks
nothing. She is a big girl on campus and living the life that
every girl wants to have. Maybe, I should just give it a try”.
I was ready for Diana to coach me, the emptiness I felt in
my heart was intense. Living Diana's kind of life wasn’t in
my plans. What my heart wanted was someone who will
love me and appreciate my love but I accepted to follow
her for the first night.
…It is one thing to lose your virginity and yet another thing
to lose your dignity. Losing virginity is a day's pleasure but
losing dignity is losing your worth. Losing your virginity in
whichever way is not enough reason to believe you have
become worthless…
CHAPTER 8
You can hardly look at me and not turn to have a second
look. I took the last glance at myself in the mirror before I
picked up my small pouch which matched my shoes. I had
invited a professional make-up artist for a quick glam.
I was fully ready to be at the club with Diana. When she
was done, we stepped out and boarded a taxi to the club. At
the club that night, guys were all over me. I kept blushing, I
mean, who wouldn’t?
My eye met with one of the guys. He looked very cute, and
gentle. I wished and prayed that he would just say hello to
me.
I watched many young girls going around other men,
rubbing their hands all over their bodies, dancing, and
trying to get their attention. I knew I wanted a man, but I
wasn’t interested in all the happenings in the club.
I sat down in a corner and got busy with my phone. While
at it, I perceived a very nice fragrance behind me. The dude
wearing the nice fragrance walked toward me from behind.
Hello beautiful! You look lost in here just like myself. By
the way, I am Maxwell, he said stretching his right hand
towards me.
It’s my first time here. I was bored at home and so I
decided to come with a friend to chill, I replied while
shaking his hands.
Oh wow! I am really lost, I followed a friend here as well.
You look really beautiful and sexy. I like you. Can I at least
have your number? Maxwell said.
Thanks for your compliment. You’re cute and smell nice
too, I replied.
He gave me his phone to type in my contact. We chatted for
a while and he excused himself to go join his friend.
Everything happened so fast. Maxwell was very romantic
and sweet but that didn’t stop me from investigating him to
avoid what happened before.
After my investigation, I found out that Maxwell was in his
penultimate year in mechanical engineering. We became
friends on social media.
Maxwell was a social media celebrity with over 500,000
followers. After some time, we started dating. Our love was
an enviable one because Maxwell was every woman’s
dream man. He was rich, influential, and, cute.
Maxwell and I became the popular love birds on campus.
You would always find me with Maxwell. At some point, I
moved into his apartment. I was careful and protective of
him because many ladies had their eyes on him.
It was about 2:00 am, I felt a touch and I quickly opened
my eyes but didn’t move an inch. What I saw that night
was unpleasant and I was restless.
I have never felt or seen Maxwell behave strangely and so I
never suspected him. As I opened my eyes slightly, I saw
Maxwell with my hair comb trying to remove the hairs that
were trapped on it. I pretended to be deeply asleep while I
watched him, trying to figure out what he was using them
for. When he was done putting them in a small zip lock
bag, he left the room.
Within a second, my nightwear was soaked with sweat. Oh
my God, what have I done to myself, I only wanted a lover,
a special person to feel the vacuum I felt within, I said to
myself in a low tone.
Many things ran through my mind at that moment.
I said to myself, “Oh, this may be the reason why I have
been performing so badly in my academics. Oh, Maxwell
belongs to the underworld and has stolen my intelligence.
…Do not awaken love until it so desires. Awakening love
when the time is not ripe is the same as opening the door
for an armed robber. You are at the mercy of the thief, if he
chooses to kill you, then you are gone.
Love is intoxicating and if awakened at the wrong time, can
choke to death or cause great danger…
CHAPTER NINE
My last two semesters' result was extremely poor. I started
performing badly academically when I started going out
with Maxwell. On several occasions, I experienced
memory loss.
The last thing on my mind was going to ask Maxwell what
the meaning of what I saw him doing last night was.
The only thing on my mind at that point was how to run
away from Maxwell and be out of his reach. Everything my
mum has been teaching me began recurring in my head.
Oh God! If you save me from his hands, I will amend my
ways and live only for you, I prayed secretly.
I pretended to be fine when Maxwell entered the room. I
carried my laptop to continue with my assignment and for
the first time, I took notice of a bible passage that popped
up on my screen.
Hebrew 2:3 to be precise.
“How shall we escape if we pay no attention to such a great
salvation?” NLT
The Lord Himself first announced this salvation and those
who heard him proved to us that it is true.
I could hear a voice speaking loud to me.
“Oh, the message of salvation, a privilege to be grasped.
The message that preserves us from being reached by the
enemy. The message that orders our steps and life in the
right direction. The message that satisfies and fills every
vacuum that we feel. The message that makes us escape
every vile that the enemy projects”.
I fell to my knees and wailed. While crying, I said to
myself, “ I neglected the message of salvation for so long. I
didn’t know that my neglect of this salvation message
would cost me so much. I didn’t know that I will be trapped
in a situation like this for neglecting this message. Is there
still hope for me? Oh lord, if thou would show me mercy.
My phone rang severally, after a while, I picked up my
phone and saw several missed calls from my mum. I was so
weak to hold my phone. I mustered the courage to call my
mum but I was not ready to share my ordeals with her just
yet.
Joanna, I have had several dreams about you going mad on
campus. What is going on in your life? My baby, you can
open up to me and share whatever it is you are going
through with me, my mother said to me.
Mum, do you believe that I will run mad? I replied.
No, my daughter, she said convincingly.
Then, I will not run mad mum, just put me in your prayers
at all times. I am doing very fine, mum. Thank you for all
you do mum, I love you. I said to her and ended the call.
My mind was filled with thoughts on how to escape from
Maxwell’s apartment without him looking for me
immediately until I regain my sanity.
I wrote a short note and dropped it on his table. In the note,
I wrote,
“I will be traveling home to be with my parents for
something. I know this is coming so sudden but bear with
me. I will be with them for a long time.
Thank you.
Joanna.
When I dropped the letter, I packed everything I have in
that house and left for my lodge. I was still thinking of the
best place to go when I remembered that someone I met
during my registration told me that the fellowship
secretariat is the safest place and that I could come stay
with her anything I want.
Hours later, Maxwell’s neighbour whom I always chatted
with while I was with him, called and began to narrate
Maxwell’s reaction when he got back. He told me that he
heard Maxwell saying strange things that he didn’t
understand and decided to call me immediately.
According to him, when Maxwell got back, he entered his
apartment and began to ask why his room was scanty and
where I was.
He said he was about knocking on Maxwell’s door to let
him know that I left with my belongings before he started
to hear him say strange things.
“Oh wow! Joanna left. I suspected she saw something last
night but I didn’t pay attention to it. Anyways, she cannot
leave just like that. I still have a few months to complete
my assignment in her life, Maxwell said.
No, not now, Joanna is too late, I have to finish what I have
already started. Oh, Joanna, You can’t eat your cake and
have it, yeah! I have a plan. I will get you again, He added.
Maxwell’s neighbour told me that he tiptoed back to his
room to prevent Maxwell from knowing that he heard
every thing.
After hearing what he said. I appreciated him for the
information and hung up the call.
Not long, I discovered that Maxwell belonged to a
fraternity and in their kingdom, a lot of them have different
assignments and are planted in strategic places to fulfill
their mission, and every successful mission attracts lots of
influence to their world. They also get lots of money and
social media influence.
Maxwell was planted in my school to distract as many
students as possible, sleep with them, steal their excellent
spirit, and leave them in utter confusion and depression.
While in my room, I knelt and prayed like never before. I
looked up to heaven and said, “I deserve any kind of
punishment from you right now, Lord. If you decide to give
me the punishment that I deserve, I may not survive it, oh
lord. Please, look upon me with your great mercy and
loving Kindness. Please, save me from my mess so that
what I dread most will not come upon me”.
After praying, I began to get ready to go to the secretariat.
While I was at it, my phone rang severally but I didn’t pick
up because it was Maxwell calling.
After the fourth time, I picked up the call just to hear what
he was going to say.
Hello babe, he said. What happened? Why did you leave? I
got you your dream gift, let’s hang out tonight. I’m sure
you will love the gift, he continued.
OK, Maxwell, I replied.
I hung up the call on him because I didn’t want to engage
in a long discussion.
A gift? I exclaimed.
Not anymore, Maxwell. I know better now.
Maxwell knew that I love gift and he used it as bait to get
me back to his devilish assignment.
CHAPTER 10
I was sure Maxwell waited for me to come hang out with
him and take his devilish gift.
I didn’t go and for the first time, I was happy I disappointed
him. I went to my school pastor and opened up to him. He
prayed and led me to Christ. He also booked a counseling
section for me for 6days. Each counseling day, he explored
the book of Ephesians with me.
Ephesians 2:1-6
1. As for you, you were dead in your transgressions
and sins.
2. In which you used to live when you followed the ways of
the world and the ruler of the kingdom of the air the spirit
who is now at work in those who are obedient.
4. But because of his great love for us, God who is rich in
mercy made us alive even when we were dead in
transgressions. It is by grace you have been saved.NLT
Oh! How limitless and unfathomable is the love of God, I
exclaimed.
It was as though that particular scripture was written for
me. Despite how I have hardened my heart to the many
teachings I have heard, God was still gracious to show me
mercy.
Truly, nothing can stop God from loving us. We can only
reject His love but he doesn’t get tired of loving us. He is
ever ready and willing to welcome us back to his fold and
give us a new spirit. How purposeless is a life outside of
Christ, for it is only when we are in Christ we actually live.
…The truth is, our mess is our message and our ministry
sprouts out from It.
Today, I specially dedicate my time to helping many to be
free from the powers of addiction. Many times, God sent
them to me for counseling. Indeed, God knows how to roll
our shame away and give us glory instead…
CHAPTER 12
Joanna, I'm sure you are yet to see this. Your name has
gone viral on social media. Come and see for yourself,
Christabella said as she walked towards me.
While she walked toward me, I muttered to myself with a
shaky voice, “Did Maxwell post my nude pictures online?”
Well, I know that God won’t Let Him, I said convincingly.
I fasted, cried, and prayed to God to confirm His word to
me. I muttered “I believe your word to me Lord. You said
that or Instead of my shame, you will give me Glory.
Maxwell will not Just lose those videos as you will wipe
them from His phone, you will take away the heart of stone
the enemy has given him. Your mercy will be extended to
him and you will deliver him from the work of darkness
and bring him to your light, I prayed with everything in me,
I continued.
When Christabella got to where I was, she showed me the
post Maxwell made about me. We both read out the post.
The caption was written boldly.
“GOD'S LOVE AND JEALOUSY OVER HIS
CHILDREN HAS CAPTURED MY HEART.
If there is a God that saves and cleans, it’s the almighty
God. He has proven to me that Joanna is His. What
happened to me last night was unbelievable and I'm going
to summarize it by saying that the almighty God gives his
own, glory instead of shame. He is a preserver and worthy
to be served forever and for this, I surrender my life to
Him. He is a worthy and Most Merciful God”.
We were both surprised and happy after reading his post.
Maxwell was an influencer on social media and used his
handle to attack many religious doctrines and also,
promoted Immorality. No one expected such a post from
him.
He came out openly to acknowledge God and that really
created an uproar online. The post went viral, bloggers
carried the news and that made my name go beyond the
shores of Nigeria.
Because of his post, my name became among the most
searched word and I gained a lot of followers.
A lot of people wanted to hear the full gist, others wanted
to gain value from the one that God used to make Maxwell
Repent but I wasn’t ready to share my story just yet. I made
a firm decision to make use of the platform God has given
to me to bring souls to His kingdom.
When I got back to my hostel, I knelt to praise God because
I was overwhelmed with all that happened.
God is merciful and wonderful, I said with tears rolling
down my cheek. He chose me, even when I considered
myself Inadequate. My mess is a message to the world. I
won’t let this opportunity slip off my fingers, I continued.
After praying, I stood up to get my phone to see what was
happening on my social media page. I tried severally to log
in but noticed my phone was hanging. I left the phone for
about 2 hours after which I picked it up again.
This time, I was able to log in but was shocked at what I
saw. Over 30,000 notifications and over 10, 000 messages.
I couldn’t believe it. I scrolled to my timeline and dropped
a message God gave me last night.
The message was, “In such a time as this, I am here to take
as many that have wandered in deep darkness by hand and
bring them to see and embrace the marvelous work of
God”.
Within a few minutes, many people indicated their
willingness to have an encounter with God.
At that point, I remembered that God told me that He is
sending me to many nations to rescue men from perishing.
To help them find a stand in Him and experience His
unfailing love, as well as align to his Plans and purposes
but I didn’t know it was going to be this quick, I told
Christabella.
He has equipped you fully for this sister. Go to the world
and unleash what has been given to you. The previous
months have been periods of training and preparation for
you. I am so happy that you took every step so seriously.
We are always here to lend our voice and our prayers are
with you. Don’t forget that Joanna, Christabella reassured.
Every day that passes by, I realize more that living a sincere
life is a powerful evangelical tool. Thank you for showing
me genuine love, I said to her.
While we were discussing, I got a call from Maxwell. I
picked up and waited to hear what he had to say.
Hello Joanna, he said.
Don’t ever stop believing in your God. He loves you so
much. He cares for you beyond your Imagination and wants
nothing to ever hurt you. I have never seen any God that is
so committed to his people as your God even after all your
messes.
He is a good God. Please pray for me. I want to serve your
God. Can He still Love me? Can He still accept me,
because I have been loyal to a wicked god for many years?
Many admire my affluence but they don’t know I was
being used. It looks like I live and have the best life but
daily I drown in fear and restlessness.
Is there hope for me, Joanna? Maxwell said crying bitterly.
I too was crying alongside. My tears couldn’t even let me
say a word.
Let’s meet at the school chapel by 3 pm, I finally said and
hung up.
Oh, God is too merciful. His ways are not the ways of men.
Only God has a man's life all figured out. Who would have
thought? Chai! Faithful God, I exclaimed.
CHAPTER 13
Maxwell narrated how he became a captive to the enemy.
It was just a night of pleasure with a lady he met during one
of the award nights in the school. After a series of sexual
intercourse with the young lady, he slept off and found
himself summoned to a strange place and surrounded by
young boys and girls.
According to him, he was startled when he finally woke up.
He asked those around him how he got there but received
no answer.
After a while, he was welcomed into the coven and was
given a mandate of sleeping with as many girls on campus
as possible. His mission was particularly to ruin the destiny
of young girls and leave them when it’s obvious they are
useless.
Every young girl Maxwell slept with gets addicted to
sleeping with him just like it happened to me.
My days with Maxwell weren’t good until God showed up
for me.
After narrating his story, I asked Maxwell why they wanted
the destiny of young people. He said, “When their destiny
is hijacked, the plans of God over their lives get terminated
and they can no longer be usable vessels for any Kingdom
Exploit. Rather, they will help to populate hell through
lifestyle and negative Influence, thereby depopulating the
kingdom of God”.
Oh! The devil is so strategic and committed to whatever he
is set to achieve but the love of God conquered and set
many free. Thank God I am Free! I’m going back to be
that vessel the enemy is afraid that I would become, I said
out loud.
I encouraged Maxwell that whatever fears the enemy has
instilled in him by telling him lies will die off the moment
he accepts and believe that God will reign supreme in his
life.
Let Him know that he is just a liar and His working in your
life has been disconnected by the power in the name of
Jesus, I continued.
I Prayed for Maxwell, invited him to church, and
introduced him to brothers that will take him by hand and
unveil Christ to Him.
I created a page on Facebook where I published words as
God laid them in my Heart. Many miracles and testimonies
sprang up from my online evangelism. I continued both
Online and Offline; fishing men for Christ.
Few of my old friends joined me and experienced the
power of God in their lives.
At first, they wondered what was wrong with me, but I kept
talking to them and posting on all my social media handles
how overwhelming God's love is.
Truly, the love of God is a must experience for every soul.
A relationship with God is worth building with all sincerity
of heart.
I have always prayed for Zikora to realize who she really is
in Christ, and how the life she lives now is nothing near
what God wants for Her.
The devil is a stealer of destiny, he roams about looking for
whom to devour, no wonder he pays more attention to the
younger ones just so that he can steal their lives and give
them a messy glittering life in exchange.
Zikora chatted me up and dropped a very long note for me.
It was all about her life in the past years. She was trapped,
she wrote that she was tired of the kind of life she wanted
as a young girl and wanted a way out.
According to her, she didn’t know what pushed her to do
the things she did even when she was determined to stop.
Whenever she plans to stop, she often heard voices that
persuade her to continue.
I’m being controlled by the evil spirit, she lamented.
I couldn’t explain it, but I was very excited at that point. I
was happy that finally Zikora was being saved from her
lifestyle. This is the beginning of a new dawn, I said loudly.
I explained to Zikora that she was still a captive of that
spirit because she haven’t accepted the love of Christ (the
finished work of Christ) and submitted only to the authority
of Jesus.
We replicate what we submit to, if you submit to Christ,
you are bound by all means to exude only the life of your
master. That way, the shackle and desires of the flesh will
die off.
I followed her up and encouraged her to read at least 5-10
verses of the scripture daily because the word is power. I
didn’t stop either, I continued praying to God for total
recovery.
God has a way of replenishing all that we lost. God’s mercy
is a must experience for every soul, I said.
CHAPTER 14
Zikora found it difficult to forgive herself for her past
lifestyle. Her mind was in a deep mess. It wasn’t just a
journey to repentance for her but a battle of freedom from
guilt and a renewed mindset. Zikora came from a home
where the father tortures the mother even though he is a
pastor. She grew up thinking that it was normal to do just
anything and still pretend to be a vibrant Christian.
I didn’t know she had an abusive father until she opened up
to me.
She said, “Joanna you know, one of the reasons I didn’t
care about Christianity was because I felt many Christians
out there were hypocrites. Instead of being a good
Christian, I showed the world the Zikora they wanted to
see.
My father who preached righteousness all the time to his
members wasn’t who people thought he was. I blame my
mum for always covering him up even with all the torture
she receives from him.
He beats and rebukes her at every slightest mistake. He is
so impatient and unloving, how then was I supposed to
believe that the God he is serving is better off? Zikora said,
with tears in her eyes.
I couldn’t place my hand on lots of things then and so, I
wasn’t able to tell anyone about it. All I wanted was the
freedom to live and enjoy my life. I knew it was wrong
but I thought it was the best decision for me, she said while
crying bitterly.
I haven’t seen Zikora in that state before. She was so
broken and bothered. I could sense the guilt she felt. She
needed to forgive herself and her parents. Her mind is also
in a bad condition and needed healing and transformation.
I gave Zikora a warm hug and assured her that she will be
fine even though she has made a series of mistakes like
myself. I told her not to remain in the mess.
You are not your mistake Zikora, I said. There is who God
said you are, and that is who you are, nothing else matters
right now except that you have realized yourself and you
are ready to walk into the you God foreordained.
You are not going to go through this phase alone, God is
very much on your side and he is ever willing to take you
by your hand. And I’m also here, to walk through this path
with you, I reassured her.
I got books on forgiveness, mind shift, healing from past
life mistakes, and also, books on the Holy Spirit for Zikora
to help her gain all the knowledge she needed for her
present phase. She needed to decongest and flush out all the
old mindsets and perceptions she had.
Gradually, Zikora began to understand what it means to
have an intimate relationship with Christ. Her quest
Increased, and her mind gradually transformed. She glowed
differently and would always share her new experiences
with her friends.
CHAPTER 15
Gradually, I became really popular on campus. I was
radical with evangelism; the thought of what Maxwell
revealed to me wouldn’t let me keep calm and let the devil
have more souls.
I got more serious with my academics and God was so
kind, I didn’t fail more courses. I only had an extra
semester to clear all outstanding papers.
The extra semester was the longest semester of my life, as
many of my course mates were no longer around the school
environment. I only managed to cope, though I didn’t let it
affect the work of God that I was doing, my zeal waxed
even stronger.
On a faithful day, the course representative of a particular
course I did in my 300l sent me a text stating that the
lecturer wanted to speak with me.
What could that be? I thought to myself. Lord, please go
ahead of me. My ears are only ready to receive great news,
I said.
I left for the lecturer's office when I got there, all of a
sudden I began to hear whispers from within me. I kept
hearing, “He is the one, He is the One”.
At first, I was really confused, the one that did what
exactly? I asked myself.
The husband of your youth, I heard again.
Not again, Joanna, I said. Listen, don’t deceive yourself,
you are not entering into any mess again, I continued.
I composed myself immediately and greeted the lecturer.
Good day, sir. You sent for me, I said.
Are you Joanna Samuel? He asked and I said yes. He asked
if I registered for his course and I said yes.
Well, I just discovered you have already written and passed
it. So why do you want to write it again? He asked.
I had a missing result, and the lecturer that was here refused
to give me any attention, he just said I should rewrite it, I
explained.
You are not rewriting anything, everything will be sorted
out, he told me and asked me to write my name in full
alongside other details, including my phone number.
I did and appreciated him. I left his office feeling so
relieved and happy.
God is perfect and He does not fail, I said while walking
back to the secretariat.
The intervention of Mr. Reuben made other things easy. He
was so committed to helping me and sometimes he called
to check up on me.
All the while we talked, he never mentioned anything to
confirm what I heard at his office, though he always said he
wanted us to talk about something. But we always ended up
talking about things whenever he called.
I waited for him to say what he wanted to say but each
time, he end up telling me that he loved talking to me. He
said he felt peace and satisfaction whenever he does.
I actually felt more of that about him, but I was worried
that Reuben might not be interested in marrying me. I kept
praying for God to help, as I was in a state of confusion.
I had several suitors at that time but didn’t feel good about
a few of them. There were some that I wanted to give a
chance. Whenever I try to give them the chance, I feel
restricted by God. I continued praying and seeking God's
Intervention. All I could hear from God at that time was,
“Be patient daughter, for I am the author and finisher of
your faith, whatever I have begun in your life I will bring it
to pass”.
God wanted me to be patient, even though I felt delayed
and pressured. I decided to wait on God.
I kept praying for Reuben, and my marriage regardless.
One day, God opened my eyes and I saw Reuben stalk on
sinking ground. He stretched his hand and cried for help
but no one could hear him. I came closer and beckoned on
an angel close to him to help him out and Reuben was
rescued.
After the vision, I prayed that God should deliver Reuben
from every challenge that he might be having. That became
a prayer point that I dwelt on daily.