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i was wrong.
~ amara
(#2)
June 18, 1973
Sylvia Rivera,
I’m scared. No, not scared. Terrified. I’m terrified here in jail. I’m terrified of what’s going
to happen when I leave jail. I’m terrified to walk out on the streets for fear of being jumped. I’m
terrified of what I’m going to have to do to make money because I won’t be able to get a job.
The women here keep giving me dirty looks, like at any time I might pounce on them
because I’m more male presenting. I think I’m too late to do that since they’ve already pounced
on me. They’ve beaten me up more times than I can count, and the guards haven’t done
anything about it. Sometimes they even rile up inmates so they get mad and take it out on me.
I want to scream. I want to escape. I want to be free, but I know I’ll just be arrested again
for the same reason. Being gay.
I just want to know why is it so wrong to be myself? All I’m doing is being who I am,
loving who I love, and I’m not hurting anyone, but the police still are after me. After us.
This whole thing makes my head hurt. On one hand, I’m angry about the fact that we are
being arrested and beat up for being gay. But on the other hand, I’m scared to fight against the
law because I know I’m not a fighter. I couldn’t even participate in the Stonewall uprising without
one of my friends shoving her stiletto in my hand to throw.
When it comes to all the things related to the uprising, I am so proud of what’s already
happened for the community, but then I remember that we still have a long way to go before
we’re finally accepted and not thrown in jail. Even then, if we manage to have the legal right to
be left alone by the law for being gay, there will still be people who don’t accept us and will
continue to discriminate against us.
I want all of us to be able to get jobs so we can stop hustling for little cash. I want us to
be safe being ourselves. I know it sounds like it will be a long, long time before we get to that
point, and it might, but when we do, it will be one of the best feelings in the world.
~ Cade
(#3)
june 17, 1973
~ haven