There were times when I wanted to kill myself, no kidding.

I literally was few seconds away

from killing myself. Not once, twice, thrice but many times. One thing that has kept me alive
and kicking is The Bonding with my parents. I can’t see them in pain. It kills me from inside
to even think about those days when they struggled to keep our lives going.

Other thing, that has kept me going is the will to not give up. I am glad that I did not give
up. I knew that was not my destiny, I knew I could do something good with myself. I am in a
far better situation today.

However, this is not the end of my story, certainly not the happy one.

Things begin to settle down starting 2011 professionally. I started to gain weight, I am
better than an average looking Indian male. Girls, still find me attractive. One such girl found
me attractive around 2012–2013, we began talking. I was still trying to deal with my first
love and this girl came as a huge relief and diversion. Things started looking good.
Eventually, we fell in love. We were of different castes. I thought I was ready to get married. I
tried talking to my parents and family before proposing her. My parents have been the
strongest pillars of my life. We are a pure vegetarian family and this girl was one hardcore
non-vegetarian. My parents still gave me their blessings. Yes, they love me and I love them
too!!