Hey yanna, I'm you from the future I just want to tell you something remember those days

when you
were so innocent, back when you were still a lovely 10-year-old girl. Back then you already been
doubting yourself, cautious all the time, but before you still had no things to worry about, what you care
the most was your family and your academic. You also had plenty of friends because of your bubbly
mouth and you grew up receiving a lot of love from your family. A house where in you feel safe and
secure. I no longer feel that energy now. Where you call your home a safe place. Back then you were
raised full of love but that didn't last too, everything changed when your father cheated on your mother.
It was your first heartbreak remembering those sad times where you go home from school and seeing
your mother cry her eyes out, it broke you every time. It made you hate your father; you were so young
back then but out of anger you told your mom to not get back together with your dad. You love your
father so much, you were a daddy's girl and because of your father's betrayal, first man who broke your
heart, that made you hate him but mom told you this " it's not about my feelings and emotions it’s
about you and your siblings I would sacrifice myself just for you to have a house where you can call
home. You will realize everything once you already build a family that being a mother, I must consider
your feelings first before mine" the words that came out from her. Mom don't want us to suffer from a
broken family so she chose to stay and get back together with our father, even though she was hurt she
still thinks of you and your brothers and that words from her will never be forgotten I will carry that
advice within me. I will always remember it. Your mind was so pure and innocent back then but you
were taught how to be brave and strong despite the challenges you may encounter, that life is not
always happy nor sad, it rotates and circulate. Reminiscing those moments brings back the pain but it
made you who you are today a brave, courageous and independent girl, you were still a kid but you
already know how the world works. Life is a field where you encounter circumstances that make you
weak but remember you may fall but you have to get up and continue, you can always start new and the
person who taught you to stand alone by yourself because no one else will was your mother. Such a
strong woman, but after that tragic moment where your father cheated on your mother, you thought
that things will go back the same because your mother already forgave your father and papa proved
himself that He's changing. He became more responsible and a loving
father. So, you thought everything went back to normal, and seeing your mom smiling again and putting
a big smile on her face makes you the happiest you were so glad that you thought things are going
smoothly until a heartbreaking incident happened. It was covid that time and it's also the time when
your family found out that your mom is sick and was diagnosed of kidney failure. It was the most painful
thing that ever happened in your whole life. Seeing your mother suffer from the pain is just an emotion
you can't explain. Because of that you took all the responsibilities in the house. You took care of your
siblings alone, you took care of the house, chores and many more and its odd doing it without her you
just miss her, that time you're favorite bonding together is singing videoki and arranging her flowers in
the garden, watering her plants are what your favorite thing to do together sadly you no longer will be
able to do that. I no longer will be. That time she was just lying in her bed enduring the pain and it tears
you every time seeing her suffering but she was just a Good Mother. Do you remember, of course you
do. When you were so tired that you haven't sleep at all because you have a lot of school works to do
but you also have chores to do, making breakfast, cleaning the house and unfinished of doing the
laundry, but you were so tired already and spacing out due to lack of sleep. While you were in the
bathroom doing the laundry, you cried out of tiredness and stress but you're not complaining you're just
that emotional, little did you know your mom saw you cried, so while you were outside hanging the
clothes, you saw your mom get up and continue the chores herself. Seeing her do that, you just couldn't
help but cry a lot, even when she's weak she still cares for her children and she never fail to make her
children feel loved. Your heart was so much in pain yanna, as if it was crushed and
tear into pieces. Every night you still regret that maybe you didn't do everything you can as a daughter.
Months later, your mother passed away. And you couldn't accept it, it was just so painful that the
heartache is still living in me. You lose hope on living, as if the world stops moving, every night you cry
yourself to sleep thinking because those tragic incidents happened to your life. Questioning your Worth
and existence. And reminiscing those moments. I can't help myself but cry as I was writing this message
to you, but those experiences made you a better person now, you're now smiling brightly and you have
a lot of friends too, you developed a character where you value every moment in your life with those
you came across with and those people you love and cherish because back then you failed to do that
and I hope you keep on moving forward, forget about the heartaches and move forward if you keep on
grooming from the past you will not be able to let go of the weight you've been carrying. Let it go and let
it hurt no more. Remember there's always a rainbow after the rain. There's still a lot going on now and
I’m still fighting for my dreams but as I was chasing my goals in life I will bring with me those heartaches,
pains, sorrows and tragedy I've experienced as my strength as I go into battle. You're amazing yanna,
just let the fire out within you and always rise like a phoenix from the ashes.

Your future self, Arian