“Toxic Love”
Stop mom, I said enough! I didn’t expect you to understand!
I gave you everything but still it wasn’t
enough
It was never enough
It’s never enough!
You made me feel that i was nothing
You made me feel that i was difficult to
love
And as a fool? I keep trying
I keep trying until it gets too much
Everything is okay
Until i lost who i was
I knew it was toxic
I knew it wasn’t right
But no matter bad things got
I couldn’t help it but try
Constantly valuing being loved or lust
Cause if it’s love, that so messed up
He said,he said he’s sorry
He said he didn’t mean it
And he’s going to change
And I choose to believe him
That he won’t hurt me again mom
I choose to believe him
Go on, judge me, judge me, judge me!
Who wants to live a life
being alone and empty
He completes me!
I didn’t expect you to understand
Go on, judge me, judge me, judge me!
I promise myself to believe
every time he apologise
Even though I know it is all a lie!
It’s all lies, all lies!
I become sore, he’s my only cure
I knew it was not love
what i saw of living him
This is my reality, this is a reality
It is not as magical as portray in the
disney movie
Sadly, Mom, Dad’s loves you so
please forgive him
I want a complete family
And sadly that love of yours pushes
you in the deeply